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What's your favorite song of all time?

While your lips are still red

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Being poor really sucks (rant)

It’s funny though, because sometimes I forgot how poor I am to the point where I question if I'm really that poor, and then I'll turn around and can't remember if I've eaten that day, or when was the last time I did eat.

People I meet are planning out their weird exotic vacations, and I'm just sitting there dreaming of the beautiful future when I'll be so very affluent that I can have pizza for breakfast every day before work.

I constantly crave pizza, but then when I do buy it, I feel so guilty because the money could have been spent on better things like groceries instead of wasting it on pizza.

There's never any money for just something we want, it's always needed in some other important place, and it's never enough to cover the important thing.

I'm underweight but I don't want to be, but I feel like I don't have a choice, because my weight is due to an inconsistent eating schedule, and the fact that when I do eat, it's mostly carbs like rice and ramen, because I can't afford enough meat for a healthy diet.

I deal with enough mental problems and poverty is just the last thing I’d like to be bugged with. I skip school because I have to go without food on those days. Why why are my friends so inconsiderate whenever I talk to them about why I skip school? Because poor people are stereotyped as lazy and worthless?

I'm not what people imagine, when they imagine a person living in poverty. I'm not dumb, or crass, or loud, or lazy, or worthless, or crazy, or dirty (probably?), I'm just doing the best I can to keep my head above water.

But sometimes, I wonder if it's just easier to drown.

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Shoutout to autistics who are super literal

To autistics who are called gullible or too trusting

To autistics who get made fun of for literal interpretations

To autistics who are mocked for believing what people say

There’s nothing wrong with you for taking people at what they say. You’re not unintelligent or st*pid or d*mb for taking the literal meaning of people’s words.

You deserve to have people in your life who speak clearly to you in ways you can understand.

You are awesome. Don’t let the bullies get you down!

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#Sebastian’s not wrong #2020 mood

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I FUCKING HATE ONLINE CLASSES

We all know why. So all my classes are requiring webcam interaction. I do not want to use a webcam AT ALL. Also...MY PARENTS WILL NOT LISTEN!!! WHYYYYY!

I keep feeling like everyone in the class will stare at me and judge the way I look or my background. I hate people seeing my face.

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I hate how the media always tries to sensationalize rich people who are infected with the virus, while ignoring everyone else

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My love for Linton is like the foliage in the woods. Time will change it, I'm well aware, as winter changes the trees. My love for Heathcliff resembles eternal rocks beneath - a source of little visible delight, but necessary.

Emily Brontë, Wuthering Heights

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My childhood was horrible so it’s hard for me to pick one traumatic thing that happened to me. Ever since I was little, my older brother wasn’t nice to me at all. He had the worse temper ever. And he would always take it out on me. He would never hit me, but he would yell at me, threaten me, throw things at me, run after me, and corner me with his fist raised. He would do it over the most stupid things. I kinda started to hate myself because of him. He doesn't do it so much now but I can’t just forget everything. Then I have my dad who looks up to my older brother, and does what my older brother used to do. But thank goodness he doesn't do it often. But because of my older brother I've cried all I could and I excepted the thoughts that attack me.

High school was hell for me as I was an easy target for others. Because I was kind of naive and ‘retarded’ (as my teachers like to put it) and had a bad childhood, I got picked on a lot. I was beaten up in the bathrooms, in the classrooms, in the playground, everywhere... One time I was pushed down the stairs so bad that I almost suffocated. But I tried to survive that in two ways. Through books and music. Yet it didn't prove to be of much help and I only got more and more hurt each day. I had hand prints, scratches, bruises all over my body but nobody even bothered to ask. Nobody cared. That was the time I realized things don’t always change for every one.

Every day I have to remind myself that I am without a family, that I am alone and unloved, and I will have to go on being that. The scars that they have left aren't fully healed, they're still aching. But sometimes I'm thinking, I'm asking myself if my family was like this all along? A family who would enjoy shoving pain and misery down their daughter's throat? Maybe I didn't realize it. Or if I realized it, I hated to admit it. But it also had a good effect on me. It made me independent, it made me accountable to no one but me for my actions, it made me breath and live free. Yet I still find my courage wavering everyday.

What’s Something Traumatic That Happened to You?

My mom tried to hang herself with an extension cord in the basement when I was like 6. And when I tried to see what was wrong when my grandma was helping her get down, she screamed at me to go to away. I didn’t understand what happened until years later.

I was raised by my grandma, because my mom was never around. My mom’s never had an actual job, she just lives with other people and she doesn’t work, period, anymore. I live with her and my stepdad now. My real dad doesn’t know I exist by the way. Before I was born, my mom planned on giving me to my aunt. (This isn’t a pity-party, just background info)

Feel free to RB and share your own experiences. (And if anyone wants to talk, I’m open)

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I don’t even like going on Twitter anymore, literally all I see is naked people and other disturbing things such as you know what and these are like 13-14 year old kids posting this shit. Where are your parents?!

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You need this ^

I am hoping this counteracts the depressing memes I have been posting.

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(Cressa_DeMone)

Sharon’s voice is just perfection on this song.

Perfection

💖💕😝

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HEY YOU!

if u are a member of the LGBTQ+ like me please like and reblog this post so I can check out ur blog and follow u and be ur friend! ❤️💛💚💙💜

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Corona Virus will be great for Twitch streamers

Think about it. While the corona virus is terrible and is affecting the whole world, it’s actually a beacon of hope for twitch streamers. They will likely have larger audiences, as people will avoid leaving their houses. Those lucky twitch girls and boys are gonna be making banks.

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Same

In times like these you can tell who grew up poor and who didn't. I'm used to not having things I want and taking everything I have to simply survive. Been a sad reality since I was a child.

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Everyone deserves a happily ever after.

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Just an experiment. Reblog if you actually give a fuck about male victims of domestic violence and rape.

Of fucking course

What sick bastard doesn’t