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Brotherhood (BTS AU)

Brotherhood

 ~ Angst

~ 4678 words

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“What a peaceful night.” Jin thought. He was standing outside of their little one storey home. It was late November, a cold night but he’s just wearing a plain shirt and pants, he’s barefoot. He was gazing at the stars lighting up the dark city. The moment broke as he heard a noise of laughter and clattering of bottles and glasses. “Ahh… I thought.” he told himself.

 He entered their home and six other boys welcomed him. They’re all laughing with each other, drinking alcohol beverages but not smoking cigarettes.

 Taehyung was dancing like a crazy, Namjoon and Jimin were laughing so hard watching him, Hoseok was sitting on the couch, smiling widely, Yoongi was nowhere to be found so Jungkook, who’s holding a bottle of beer asked, “Where’s Yoongi hyung?”

 Namjoon looked around and noticed that Yoongi wasn’t around. “Maybe in the bathroom.”

 Seokjin, who was sitting at the corner answered, “I saw him went outside. Probably to buy more chips.”

 Jungkook nodded and checked the bathroom. “He’s not here.” he whispered to himself.

 “I’m here, pabo-ya!” Yoongi shouted from the front door, chuckling. “I just bought more chips. What are you worrying about?”

 Jungkook just smiled while scratching his nape.

 No one knew but Jungkook has been really worried. With a sigh of relief, he joined the other boys.

 “Ah jinjja.” Seokjin just smiled, watching his younger brothers being drunk and enjoying themselves.

 =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=

 Morning came and as usual, Seokjin was the first to wake up. The other boys were scattered in the living room. Some sleeping soundly on the sofa while some were on the floor.

 Both Namjoon and Hoseok almost woke up at the same time. Both held their heads as they felt a familiar ache. Hangover.

“Aish” Hoseok groaned. “I shouldn’t drink much next.”

 “That’s what you always say.” Namjoon laughed. He stood up, “I’ll make coffee. Wake them up.”

 Hoseok did what he was told. Three of them woke up as soon as Hoseok shook them but Jungkook.

 “Jeon Jungkook!” They all shouted together. Jungkook opened his right eye. “Wake up!” Jungkook scrunched his noce, scratched his eyes and yawned. The six other boys chuckled at their maknae’s cuteness.

”As expected to Jungkook.” Jimin said. Taehyung and Jimin grabbed Jungkook’s hands to pull him.

 “Ah! My head hurts.” Jungkook winced.

 “Get up! You look like a nest.” Taehyung laughed.

 “Namjoon made coffee. Better drink them now while it’s still hot.” Yoongi told them.

 They all sat around a small table, sipping their coffee.

 “What do you wanna do today?” Namjoon asked. “I’ve got no part-time job today.”

 “I’ve got nothing to do today also.” Taehyung said.

 “I thought you’ll visit your sister?” Seokjin asked but Taehyung didn’t answer.

 “Sea.” Jungkook suddenly blurted out. “The one where we used to go.” he looked to the other boys, to see their reactions and as he expected, they’re all shocked, especially Jin.

 “I don’t think…” Yoongi was about to say something but Jungkook cut him off.

 “I dreamed about it. I just wanna visit.” he said softly.

 The other boys exchanged looks, as if they could talk in their minds.

 “Alright, I’ll get the truck.” Namjoon suddenly said which lighten up Jungkook’s face.

 “But---” Yoongi was about to rant but Hoseok tapped his shoulder and smiled sincerely.

 Seokjin looked at them, smiled sweetly as he hid his tears.

 =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=

“Wooooo!” they were all shouting at the back as Namjoon drove the pickup truck along the sand. Seokjin was sitting on the passenger’s seat while smiling by himself.

 Jungkook, Yoongi, Hoseok, Jimin and Taehyung embraced the wind while standing at the back. They’re all shouting as if they’re letting go all of their frustrations.

 The sea was broad and it’s like an uninhabited place as they’re the only ones there. The sun was up but the breeze of air was cold.

 Namjoon stopped driving and they all went out then ran to the sea.

 They ran around the area, played with water and sand, laughing at and mocking each other. It’s as if they went back to that time.

 Jungkook sat on the sand when sudenly Yoongi showered him with sand.

 “Hyung!” he shouted then ran after him.

 “To the other side, c’mon!” Jimin shouted. They all ran to the side which seemed like a forest because it’s filled with greens.

 The seven of them ran through it and as they reached the end of it, a pool with no water but a mattress at the center welcomed them.

 “It’s still here!” Hoseok shouted. They all jumped to the pool, landed on a concrete ground then ran to the mattress and laid their back on it.

 “I missed this.” Seokjin whispered. The six members just smiled.

 “Can you remember that first time we discovered this?” Namjoon asked. All of them laughed as they reminisced.

 “Ah! Don’t ever think about it!” Yoongi shouted which only made the laughter went louder.

 “Yoongi hyung peed at the corner of this pool!” Jungkook answered while smiling like a bunny.

 Yoongi just pulled a poker face while the others laighed.

 Seokjin stood up. He was holding a polaroid. He took a picture of them. The boys didn’t pose, probably didn’t notice that Jin was taking a photo.

 “Come on! Let’s roam around.” Jimin initiated. They all stood up and walked, leaving Jin behind. Upon noticing something, Jungkook looked back. Seokjin smiled at him but Jungkook just stared at where Jin was standing on, eyes sparkling, lips quivering but decided to walk instead with the other boys.

Jin was still smiling and after few seconds, he followed.

 =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=

 They spend that day happily, as if going back to their past which they’d never forget. They roamed around, every part of the place lingered some feelings to them and now, the night came again, the day was about to end again.

 They’re still at the sea but they set up an old couches they found while they were looking around and a carpet on the sand filled with snacks and alcohol drinks.

 “Cheers!” they all cheered except for Jin who just sat, watching them.

 They all gulped a drink then just looked at the sky.

 “This feels refreshing.” Jungkook said. “Finally.. we can go here.” he said.

 Jimin nodded but didn’t smile.

 “I wish he’s here.” Jimin whispered.

 “I wish.” Seokjin repeated then the silence conquered them.

 “What’s with the mood?” Hoseok suddenly shouted after few moments. “I thought we came here to have fun?” he asked excitedly.

 “Want to have some real fun?” Yoongi asked, smirking. All of them exchanged looks.

 “C’mon!” Taehyung said.

 =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=

 Namjoon and Jin were at the front again while the others were on the back. Namjoon was driving along a tunnel and when the cars stopped, they all went down except for Jin. They were holding bags of chips and cups of beverages. The other drivers beeped them away but instead of going away, they all went wild.

 Some stood on the hood, spilled beer all over the car’s window, mocked the otheres and eve shouted at them. They even plagiarized some of the cars.

 All of the drivers cursed at them and when they’re about to be chased, Namjoon went to the driver’s seat then drove the car away while the five boys ran after their car, laughing.

 This is how they spend their time.

 =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=

“That was fun!” Taehyung cheered as he slumped himself on the couch. The other giggled happily. He’s about to say something again when his phone buzzed. He opened it, read a text that made his eyebrows furrowed.

 “What is it?” Jimin asked.

 “I’ll go home. My sister texted me.” Taehyung said then stood up. He didn’t bother to look back and explain. He just left.

 Jin sighed. Hoseok just shook his head, “I’ll go sleep.” he said then went to a separate room in which they all sleep in.

 “I’ll visit him tomorrow, don’t worry.” Namjoon assured the other boys. They all just smiled but something still bothered them.

 =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=

 Morning came and Namjoon just left to visit Taehyung.

 They’re all not that loud tho. They speak and talk to each other but occasionally because they have their own businesses.

 Jungkook opened his cellphone. “December 2.” he whispered to himself as he closed his eyes. “Please, God. Don’t.” he looked at Jimin, who’s watching TV, at Hoseok whos been checking his phone and at Yoongi, who’s staring at the space.

 “You’ve got any news from Namjoon hyung?” Jungkook asked.

 “He’s coming home tonight. Taehyung is fine.” Hoseok answered. “I’ll just go out.” he said then went out.

 “I’ll take a bath.” Jimin said then walked to the bathroom. Jin, Yoongi an Jungkook were the only ones left.

 Seokjin just stared at the both of them. He’s about to speak but Jungkook interfered.

 “What do you wanna eat, hyung? I’ll cook. It’s been so long since we ate home-cooked food.” Jungkook said to Yoongi.

 “Why? You’ll cook it like Jin hyung’s?” Yoongi asked, still looking at the space.

 Jungkook felt a lump in his throat, blocking him from saying anything.

 “Don’t act like you’re strong, Jungkook.” Yoongi continued.

 “But I have to.” Jungkook answered.

 “You have to?” Yoongi asked in disbelief then finally looked at him, “You suggested to visit that sea because you ain’t strong enough to let go.”

 “I’m strong enough to face it, to accept it. So please, help yourselves too. Every year, we’re like this when December comes. You act like a weakling! It’s as if you don’t care about yourselves anymore! We were not like this. C’mon hyung!” Jungkook whimpered.

 Yoongi looked still at him. Unable to respond. Seokjin was just looking at them both, unable to tell what to feel.

 “Don’t act anymore, hyung.” Jungkook whispered. “Don’t act like you’re strong. It’s okay to show that you’re weak, that you have tears, that you have emotions and feelings.” Silence passed among the three. Seokjin stood up and pat Yoongi’s shoulder but he couldn’t.

 “Let’s move on now. It’s been 3 years since Seokjin hyung died.” Jungkook finally said, bowing down.

 With that, Seokjin stared at his hand which he used to pat to the other boys whenever they need someone, the hand which he used to end his life because he, himself forgot that he also needed someone.

 “I’m sorry.” Jin whispered.

 “Hyung… we need each other.” Jungkook said, almost a whisper as a tear came out form his eyes, “You know it. We only have each other so please… don’t ruin yourselves. Jin hyung wouldn’t like it.”

 “How would you know?” Yoongi asked, sounding so weak that made Jungkook’s heart broke into pieces. He never heard Yoongi like this. “Did he ever think about us when he killed himself… when we found him at that sea on his birthday… at that sea where beautiful memories of us have been… he ruined that!”

 Yoongi stood up and started to sob hard. Jungkook just bowed down, letting his tears flow down until he heard a crash of mirror.

 Yoongi just threw a chair to the mirror. He screamed and screamed and screamed while throwing things away.

 He was sobbing uncontrollably so Jungkook got up and hugged him. Yoongi shook his head and threw Jungkook away.

 “Hyung, stop!” he shouted but Yoongi didn’t. Jungkook punched Yoongi at the face which made Yoongi flew away to the corner.

He was sobbing still. Jungkook came closer, “Hyung… please.” he said, crying.

 “I miss Seokjin hyung…” he whispered and let his head fall onto Jungkook’s shoulder. “Hyung…”

 Seokjin was just watching them, until he realized one thing.

 “Jimin…”

 =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=

 Jimin, still in his full clothing was resting in the tub. He’s been hearing Yoongi and Jungkook’s shouts which made him just stare at the space.

 He didn’t know what to feel. He felt numb. Years have passed but nothing changed. He’s still in pain. They were all still.

 “Is it happy there?” Jimin asked while holding a picture. It’s taken when they were all complete, seven of them, Jin holding the cam while they’re on that sea. “I miss you, hyung.” he whispered. “All of us miss you.”

 Jimin heard a crash so he closed his eyes for a moment then opened it again to see… nothing. “There’s no difference between opening and closing my eyes anymore.” he said.

 “I’ll forget this now…” he said and held the lighter placed on the side. He burned the picture and let the ashes be with the water. “And I’ll come to see you, now, hyung.” he said and slowly, he let himself fall into the water.

 To drown himself.

 As he closed his eyes, he saw a flash of pictures with the other boys, when they were complete, how they still managed to be happy even though they had nothing. But that was before.

 =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=

 Hoseok was walking through the street to their home. He’s thinking about everything. He’s letting it sink to his mind that Jin’s death anniversary and birthday were coming… but he couldn’t. He still couldn’t accept it. He still believed that Jin was alive.

 “He’ll come back.” he said to him. “Or I’ll come to him.” Hoseok said.

 When he arrived home, a messy living room welcomed him and sobbing Jungkook and Yoongi at the corner.

 “What happened?” he asked. Either of the two looked at him. “What’s with this?” he looked around and got an idea what did happen but something wasn’t alright. “Where’s Jimin?”

 Jungkook looked at him, followed by Yoongi.

 “A…at the bathroom…” Jungkook whispered. They all ran to the bathroom which was lock. “Fu…”

 Jungkook repeatedly pushed himself to the door. Not minding the pain and when the door finally opened, they all couldn’t find anyone but a tub filled with water.

 Jimin was inside of that.

 “Jimin!” Hoseok shouted then ran to the tub. He carried Jimin who was closing his eyes. Hoseok sat on the ground and laid Jimin on it. “Jimin, wake up!” Hoseok said while slapping slightly his cheek.

 “Hyung, hyung!” Jungkook was calling him. Yoongi was just at the corner, standing up, unable to believe what he was seeing.

 After few seconds, Jimin coughed and water came out from his mouth. “Jimin!” he slowly opened his eyes and at his disappointment, he saw Hoseok, Jungkook and Yoongi… all looking at him.

 “Are you okay?” Hoseok asked, panic was clearly shown in his voice.

”Why didn’t you let me…” Jimin whispered. “Why didn’t you let me see him…” fresh tears were coming down from his eyes.

 “Hyung, please… don’t.” Jungkook pleaded. Holding Jimin’s hands.

 “Don’t say that.” Hoseok said. Stopping the urge to cry. “Please. I don’t want to lose more.” he told him.

 “Please let me…” Jimin was sobbing so hard. “I promise, I’ll tell Jin hyung about you… and.. I promise Hoseok hyung… I’ll tell your mother about you… about how amazing you are. Please let me. I’m tired.”

 No one can be heard but sobs from the four of them. Seokjin was still in the room. He was just watching him, blaming himself but what’s done has been done already.

 “I love you… please don’t.”

 =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=

Hours passed and they all calmed down. No one talked but they keep their eyes on each other just in case. No one ate. They’re just there, keeping still on the floor of the bathroom.

 Namjoon came back at afternoon. He too was shocked as the messy room welcomed him.

 “Guys?” he called but no one answered. He noticed a door lying down on the floor so he walked to the bathroom. “What happened?” he asked, scared at what he saw.

 Hoseok was hugging Jimin who’s staring at the space while a towel was around his body, Jungkook and Yoongi were apart but they both sitting while their back was on the wall.

 Namjoon concluded what happened even though no one answered. He knew them too much. He knew what’s been happening every time December comes. He knew how devastated they were even until now because he too couldn’t still accept the fact.

 “I have food. Let’s eat.” he just said. Acting like he didn’t see anything.

 When he went back to the living room, he grabbed a broom and swept some of the broken pieces of mirror so they can eat.

 The boys came out of the room and slowly walked to the couch.

 “I bought it.” he said, serving out the food. “Taehyung is okay, his sister was just scared of his father. You know him.” he said.

 They all stayed silent. They all had food on their plates but no one dared to move. Not until when Namjoon’s phone rang.

 “Oh, it’s Taehyung.” he said when he held out his phone. He answered it and immediately put it on speaker so the others could hear it. “Taehyung?”

 “Hyung…” Taehyung called from the phone. His voice sounded different.

 “What’s wrong?” Namjoon asked. The other boys started to look at him as they all knew something’s up.

 “Help me…”

 =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=

 “Fuck.” Yoongi cursed under his breath as they all ran to Taehyung’s location. They’re all hearing sirens that kept them more in panic. “Where’s he?”

 Namjoon, who’s looking more worried than ever lead the way. “Here, follow me. Quietly.” he told them. Jimin, Hoseok, Yoongi and Jungkook were all with him. Namjoon walked to an abandoned room. It’s near from Taehyung’s family’s room which is in a cheap apartment.

 “What did you do?!” Jungkook freaked out as they all entered the room. Taehyung sitting at the corner, looking at his hands covered with blood welcomed them. “Hyung!”

 “I killed him… I killed my father…” Taehyung whispered. “I killed him!” he suddenly shouted.

 That made them quiet. They didn’t expect that. They didn’t know what to do. They didn’t want Taehyung to be in prison but they didn’t have any idea on exactly what to do.

 “I don’t know! He kept on abusing my sister. I don’t know anymore what to do! I don’t know!” Taehyung kept shouting while putting his hands away. “Fuck fuck fuck.” he cursed while crying. “I’m scared, hyungs… Jungkook… I don’t know what will I do anymore…”

 “Oppa…” someone called. They all looked at the source of the voice; the sister of Taehyung. “Police is coming… what should I do…” she said, sobbing.

 “No, no, no…” Taehyung said. “Hyung… help…” Taehyung pleaded as he cried his eyes out.

 His sister went closer to him, knelt on the ground to face him then punched his chest, “Why did you do that?” she asked while crying. “Why?”

 Taehyung kept shaking his head while crying. He wanted to hold his sister but he didn’t want to stain her face. “To protect you…” he managed to say in between tears.

 “And now, how are you going to protect yourself?!” his sister shouted, crying also.

 They went all numb. They all didn’t know what was happening to them. Just how did their lives end up like that.

 “Taehyung…” Namjoon whispered. “Look, don’t leave your sister alone. Stand up.” he commanded.

 Taehyung slowly stood up, leaving his sister crying on the floor.

 Namjoon walked up to him, “Take off your clothes.” he said. Taehyung looked at him, confused but Namjoon forcely took off Taehyung’s clothes and he also took his own clothes. “Wear this.” Namjoon said.

“No… no… what are you doing?” Taehyung asked in disbelief.

 “Wear it!” Namjoon said then forced Taehyung to wear it. Namjoon wore Taehyung’s clothes… which were covered with blood.

 Namjoon held Taehyung’s hands and let it slip on his own hands and his face. “Hyung…”

 Namjoon found a faucet which was in his relief, was working. He put Taehyung’s hands under it and cleaned his hands and his face.

 “Hyung… don’t…” Jungkook whispered. Hoseok and Jimin were crying quietly while Yoongi was just looking at Namjoon, dumbfounded.

 “Look, you guys, go away from here and live.” Namjoon suddenly said. “Live to the fullest and don’t let your past once again be your fear.”

 “What the hell are you saying? Of course, you’re coming with us!” Yoongi shouted.

 “No.” Namjoon said. “I mean, the police is obviously will gonna find Taehyung… unless if someone will say that he’s the killer.”

 “Hyung… no, don’t! I’ll take the consequence! Don’t do this!” Taehyung shouted, was about to hold Namjoon but he walked away from him.

 “Be with your sister! Take care of her like you always do! Don’t leave her anymore! Okay?”

 They all stayed silent. Unable to speak, unable to tell what they wanna tell as they, themselves were afraid to speak up of their own feelings.

 “Namjoon… please. We can get this over, we can work this out, we can solve this!” Hoseok pleaded.

 “We can’t!” Namjoon shouted. “That’s what you also said when Seokjin hyung died! And what did you think happen to us?” a tear left his eye. “Guys… don’t blind yourselves anymore from the things you don’t wanna accept. Face them.”

 Jimin closed his eyes then shook his head. Taehyung, Jungkook and Hoseok were sobbing so hard while Yoongi was still looking at Namjoon’s face.

 “Is it really that easy to let go of this friendship? I mean, you can come with us! We will be living this hell-like life!” Yoongi shouted.

 “I am doing this for you!” Namjoon shouted back. “I am doing you a favor to live your life like a normal person! Stop blaming yourselves for what happened in the past because this is not your decision!”

“You’re selfish.” Jimin whispered.

 “I’m tired.” Namjoon just answered him.

 “I’m tired also but why can’t you just let me die!”

 “It’s because you deserve to!” Namjoon answered him. “You all have many potentials. You can still cope up with your life. I can’t anymore. You know that. I loved Seokjin way more than a hyung.”

 “Just come with us…” Jungkook kept on whispering.

 “You’ll meet soon a person which will make you think that life is worth living, that life is worth fighting. You will.” Namjoon said to them. “I met mine… and I’ll follow him.”

 Silence conquered over them. Nothing can be heard but siren and sobbing.

 “Don’t worry, I’ll tell Seokjin hyung how much you miss him.” Namjoon told them. “I love you all so much. Please understand me. Please do me this favor; live your life. Someone sacrificed for yourselves so precious it.”

 “Hyung…” Taehyung called again. Namjoon looked at him then smiled sincerely. “Thank you…” he said while sobbing.

 With that, Namjoon left them.

 They all stayed in that room for quite a minute. No one talked. All of them were crying; even Yoongi.

 They suddenly heard lots of shouting from the outside. They heard Namjoon cursing the police officers, they heard Namjoon cursing Taehyung’s father for being irresponsible, they heard chaos and they heard… a shot of gun.

 They all closed their eyes as they knew what just happened.

 “Why…” Yoongi whispered as he silently cried at the corner.

 =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=

 A gas station. It’s dark already and no one is stopping by anymore. A guy who’s sucking a lollipop is just lurking around while waiting for a new customer.

 As he goes back to his original position, a car comes by.

 A familiar pickup truck.

 The guy looks at the car and waits for the driver to put down the driver’s window and when it does, the driver smiles at him while the guy who is in his part time job is shock to see who he is.

 “Seokjin hyung…” he whispers.

 “Long time no see, Namjoon.”

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Chimchim Appa ;; Jimin Imagine

It has been a tough 3 months. 3 months with just you and your baby boy alone in your house. Of course, your husband? Doing a tour. He has been calling you frequently as much as he could but that "frequently" wasn't enough for you. You still miss him.

 You're carrying your one-year old baby boy because he's crying so much and you don't know what he wants. You fed him milk, gave him toys, made funny faces but he's still crying.

 While you were busy calming your son down, you didn't notice that someone came in your house until he spoke. "Oh, why is our baby cryingg?" a familiar voice asked. You turned around and a smile suddeny flashed at your face as you saw your husband.

 "Yah, Jimin! What took you so long?" you asked, pouting.

 "Mian, jagiya. I stopped by a mall to buy new toys." he walked in the living room, kissed your forehead, wrapped your shoulders around his arm then looked at your baby. "Why our baby is cryinggg?" he asked cutely. "Appa is here now." he took your son and carried him in his arms. "Appa is back now. I miss youuu!" he said cutely and your son suddenly stopped crying.

 "I guess he missed you a lot too." you told him, smiling.

 "Hm? My wife didn't miss me?" he asked then looked at you.

 "Of course, I missed you!" you answered him. "I'll just cook something for dinner. Play with our son, first." You walked to the kitchen and decided to make his favorite kimchi stew.

 While making, you could hear Jimin's aegyo and baby talks. You just smiled. "I guess he missed being a dad."

 "Hmmmm..." you've been in the kitchen for minutes and you could hear now Jimin's lullaby. You headed to the living room to found Jimin carrying your son while swaying around and singing for your baby to sleep.

 "Sleep?" you mouthed. He nodded while smiling. You silently walked to his side and saw your baby, now peacefully sleeping in his dad's arms. You pointed at the crib so Jimin slowly put your son down.

 You ran up to the kitchen because you could now smell the food you're making. "Jagi..." a voice came in.

 "Hmm?" you answered as you're cooking. "Why? You now hungry? Just wait a lil bit." He suddenly was by your side now. You looked up to him,

 "I really missed you so much!" he suddenly blurted out.

 "Stop with the cheesy things. We're not teenagers anymore." you laughed. You're now putting the stew in a bowl and was readying for making rice.

 "Yeah, right. We're now married and have a son." you looked at him again and you melted as you saw him staring blankly while smiling. "I can't believe it. Time flies so much."

 He was just a dream to you and now, he's there... at your side. Yeah, time flies so much.

 You're now cooking the rice so you two sat on the couch first in the living room. You're wrapped around his arms while you're on his chest. You felt his lips landed on your head. "Did you have a hard time without me?" he asked.

 You nodded. "We're lonely."

 "Mian." he said. "I also want to have more time with you and with our son."

 "It's okay. I understand." you replied.

 "Did he already say something? Like, 'appa' or anything?" he asked excitedly.

 You chuckled a bit, "He was just always mumbling weird things. I was laughing at his cuteness."

 "Ahhh." he also chuckled a bit. "I wish I was at that moment."

 You sat up straight then looked at him. "Can you take a break from work?" you asked. You couldn't hesitate no more because even you, want to have more time with him. "Well, if you can't, it's okay too."

 Jimin smiled then pinched your cheeks. "Why? You want to have one more son?" you blushed at his words so you gave him a glare as he just laughed it off. "I'll try. I also want to spend more time with you."

 You pouted, "Did you know how hard it was to raise a child without my husband?"

 Jimin shook his head then had that eyesmile which always melts you the most, “Sorry, jagiiiiiii.” he also sat up straight, hugged you and let you rest on his shoulder. “You look exhausted.”

 “Yeah, because of you.” you could feel Jimin’s breathing at your neck and he’s silently chuckling. “Our son is so much like you. He’s so playful.”

He got out of the hug, held both of your shoulders then observe your face, “Hmmm… then I guess he’s also cute like his father?” he asked, smiling. You just laughed at him. “What do you want next, son or a daughter?”

 “Yah!” you blurted out. He’s now laughing so hard. “I don’t want to have new child if you’re so busy. I also need help.” you pouted.

 “Then I should have a lot of free time, then?” he asked.

 “You serious?” you asked.

 “I don’t know. I want someone to play with our son.” he said, smiling so brightly, “Imagine if it’s a girl. They’ll have a quarrel then our daughter will go to you and he’ll go to me… you’ll teach our daughter how to be a lady-like while I’ll teach our son how to play basketball or soccer or computer games.” he’s staring at the blank again, imagining things. You’re just smiling while looking at him. “Then if we have two sons… they’ll all be mine!” he laughed. You just shook your head.

 “I don’t think we can handle two children. You’re too busy. Even I, need your affection sometimes, you know.” you sighed. You just missed him so much. His hugs, his soft kisses, his touch.

 He just stared at you, smiling so much then he ruffled your hair, “I love you, you know that, right? I’m so sorry if I have no time with you yet I still married you. I married you because I want you to be just my own princess… I marked you because you’re just mine.” he said.

 You two talked about what happened during his tour, about your son, about what happened at your home while he’s gone… you two were having so much fun until you heard your son crying and smell your rice, probably burning.

 “Omygosh.” you said. “The rice!” you laughed.

 “Jeezzz, our baby… why in a wrong timing?” Jimin asked cutely as he was playing with your tummy.

 “Stop holding my tummy! It tickles!” you said then got up. Jimin held your hand and walked with you to the crib.

 “Eomma and appa are here nooow, don’t cryyy.” Jimin baby talked your son. He let go of your hand then carried your son. “To the riceeeee!” he said playfully then ran to the kitchen.

 You just laughed as you followed him.  

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Who You? ;; Taehyung Imagine

Imagine you are having a travel around the world. You're having this moment bcoz you've been busy for the past few months.

 You're in Hawaii and everyone's been greeting you "Aloha". All of the people were friendly-- exceptionally these 6 men.

 They were all crossing the street with their hands up in the air, doing the aloha sign. You smiled. 'They're handsome though. They look like those people who people are dying for--- oppa?' you thought.

 "ALOHAAA!" a man was shouting. he's so handsome. he looks like an actor. They were crossing the road going to where you are from while you're crossing to the place where the 6 boys came from.

 "STOOOOP!" another man shouted and suddenly ran to the pedestrian lane causing him to bump onto you and your wallet to dropped.

 "Omyghad! Shorry!" you didn't know if you'll smile, frown or laugh at him.

 He got the wallet and was about to run again when he suddenly stopped. "Where are they?" he asked suddenly.

 "Uh..." you hesitated for a bit. "My wallet?" you asked.

 The man suddenly faced you, startled. "Oh! Here! Sorry!" you were a bit flustered at how deep his voice was and hoe handsome his face was.

 'Is he even a human...' you thought.

 "Hey, your wallet? You don't want it? I'm gonna take this." you snapped back to reality and took your wallet back.

 You cleared your throat, "Oh.. yes, thank you." you said.

 You just walked away fron the scene, slapping your face. 'Why was I startled? Why was I staring at him? It's so freakin embarrassing!' you thought to yourself.

 As you were walking up the street, a familiar voice suddenly talked. "Hey, Ms. Wallet." you turned your head back and in surprise, you saw the handsome man again.

 "Yes, may I help you?" you asked formally.

 "I'm lost." he pouted. You wanted to laughed but he's too cute.

 "Sorry? But do I look like an official or somethin'?" you asked.

 "Don't you know me?" he suddenly asked. You furrowed your eyebrows. What kind of question is that?

"Do I have to know you?" he seemed startled at what you’ve answered. "Why u askin?"

 "Oh nothing." he heaved a sigh. "What's your name?"

 "Wait wait wait-- Why are you following me and why are you asking my name?" you asked suspiciously. "I'm not a criminal or something!" he answered while having his hands up in the air as if he's caught by a police.

 "Then shoo! I am relaxing."

 “I am in a vacation too.” he answered. ‘He’s handsome but isn’t he a little bit weird?’

 “Soooo?” you asked.

 “Can I come with you?” he suddenly asked. You have no idea about what he was talking about so you just shook your head and walked off.

 “Heyy! Don’t be mean.” a man suddenly called, grabbing your wrist. “My friends left me and I have no idea where I am right now.” he pouted.

 You heaved a sigh. ‘Why is he so cute?’.

 “You’ll never kidnap me?” you asked. You hit yourself in your mind for asking a stupid question.

 “Wow. This is my first time hearing that kind of question.” the man laughed. “I am Kim Taehyung, by the way.” he held out his hand, asking for you to reach it.

 You smiled a bit, shook his hand, “Y/N.”

 “Nice name.” he smirked. ‘Oh my ghad, he has so many personalities.’

 “Okay.” you answered awkwardly. You started walking while Taehyung was on your back. It was awkward, really. You couldn’t enjoy your trip much as a man, whistling at your back was following you.

 “You’re quiet. Are you shy type?” Taehyung suddenly asked. He walked a bit faster so he could walk beside you. “Hey, Y/N~” he called you.

 He’s catching your eyes with his so you forcefully looked at him because he’s effin’ annoying you a lot. He smiled widely as you looked at him. You looked at his rectangular smile and he noticed it so he pointed white his mouth, smiling.

 “This is unique right? Rectangle?” he told you then chuckled.

 “You know, why are you following me? There are so many people here, and I’m just also a tourist. I might get you lost more, you know.” you told him.

 He was looking now at his feet, matching his steps with yours. ‘Is he a kid?’

“There! We’re matching steps!” he said happily. “Oh, I don’t know also. I just saw you so, might as well help me out?” he told you innocently.

 You just didn’t want the conversation goes any longer so you just kept silent for the rest of your walk.

 “Y/N.” Taehyung called you.

 “Hmm?” you answered.

 “I’m hungry.” he pouted. “And tired.”

 “Then eat.”

 “Eat with meeeee!” he said cutely. Just--- why in the world-- “My treat.” you nodded suddenly as he said that. “Aha! The magic word!”

 You two went to a coffee shop. He just ordered different kind of pastries while you just ordered frappe.

 You two were sitting beside the glass wall and Taehyung was at the front of you. “Y/N.” he suddenly called you.

 There were bits of bread on his mouth so you couldn’t help but to laugh. “Why?” Taehyung asked.

 “N-nothing.” you answered, holding your laughter. “Why were you calling me?”

 “How old are you?” he asked.

 “Isn’t it a little bit disrespectful for you to ask that?” you asked back seriously. He looked worried suddenly so he stood up, and bowed.

 “Juisunghamnida.” he told you. You seemed startled though.

 “Just kidding. 21 years old. So you’re really korean?”

 “That’s why my last name is, “Kim”.” he said, stating the obvious. He acted as if he’s surprised, placing his hands on his mouth, “Omo! I thought you’re smart then---” you just gave him a glare so he just smiled at you so sweet. “Yes, I’m korean. Do you know that I’m a little bit well-known there?”

 “Oh, really?” you said, sounding surprised. Well, you’re not surprised really because with that face? Of course, he’s well known. ”Do you know Kpop?”

 “I’ve heard of them but I haven’t researched about it. It’s from your country, right?” you asked. He nodded. “Why? You fan of them?”

“Ha?” he seemed startled. “No! I just asked. Curious, you know. Because it’s been trending these days.”

 “Ha, a korean person doesn’t like kpop?” you laughed.

 “You know what, you really look pretty when you laugh.” he stated. He’s a bit out of thw world though as he was looking at you.

 “What?”

 He blinked a few times before coming back to the world. “N-nothing! Let’s just eat!”

 He ate in silence while you were just looking outside. Little did you know that Taehyung has been looking at you frequently.

 You saw a beautiful child outside, holding a flower so you decided to take pictures of her. You didn’t know that you’re smiling while taking a picture and you also didn’t know that Taehyung has been relaxing on his seat, smiling as he was watching you.

 “You love kids?” he asked.

 You looked at him, smiling while holding a phone. “Yes! I love them!”

 “Wanna make one?” you choked at your frappe as you heard him ask that.

 “What the---” you glared at him.

 He had his eyes popped out, scared of your look, “No! I’m sorry! I didn’t meant it that way-- I mean… aish!” he rubbed his hair and took a deep breath. “I mean, do you have a husband or a boyfriend? Like, do you have a plan on having one?”

 You’re still glaring at him while he’s just looking at your eyes. “Stop glaring at me.”

 “Then stop looking at me.”

 “I want to but I can’t take my eyes off of you, though.” he said again dreamily. After seconds of awkward silence, he snapped back to the reality. “O…oh. Yes, I’m sorry. I mean.. yeah.. uh… How do I put this..” his ears were reddening so you laughed.

 “Omyghad, you’re too cute!” the words you have been wanting to say suddenly came out from your mouth. “N-no, I-I mean… uh… Aish!”

 Taehyung, from the shy one suddenly gave you a teasing look. “Yiieee, you like me?” he teased.

 “In your dreams! You were the one who was looking at me tho! You have a crush on me?” you asked back.

 “Hell, no?” he said--- asked--- said-- what? “So back to the topic. Do you have any husband or boyfriend?”

 You shook your head. “I’m single. You?”

 “Same.” he pouted. “I can’t date.”

 “Why?”

 “You know this feeling of someone’s controlling you?” he asked seriously. “I feel like someone has been watching me always and when I do a thing, they’ll judge me.”

 You can feel the sincerity of his words and the sudden sadness in his eyes.

 “Why? Who’s controlling you?”

 “Everyone around me.” he answered. “I’m so sorry if I’m being dramatic or what.” he chuckled.

 “No, it’s okay. I’m a bit surprised though. You really have this kind of problem?”

 “Of course! I’m also a bit surprised. Why am I talking this kind of problems to you?” he chuckled.

 “Then don’t if you feel uncomfortable.”

 “Nope. I feel comfy towards you, I don’t know why. Maybe we just clicked?”

 “Whatever with those cheesy things. So, what happened with your life?”

 Taehyung and you had a talk for hours. He talked about his life; his hardships and difficulties. While you also talked about it. You were a bit surprise on how you two got comfortable already; talking about life and laughing together about some useless things.

”I have these 6 friends, the men who I was running after earlier.” you nodded as you listened to him. “Besides from my family, they’re the only people who I can share these things with.”

 “Then should I feel honored?” you asked.

 “Feel free.” he chuckled. “Hey, it’s evening already. I haven’t noticed the time.”

 You looked outside and realized that it’s dark already and the shop was becoming empty already. “Omg, let’s go!”

 **

 Months passed after that vacation and Taehyung has been texting and calling you every night since then. You’ve been busy at your work while he’s in Korea, doing his work; the work he didn’t mention to you.

 “Y/N ahhh~ Wake uuuppp!” you woke up at the sound of your ringtone. “Ppallliii~ Taetae is waitiiinggg!” the ringtone continued.

 You woke up, frustrated and rubbed your eyes. You checked for your phone under your pillow and as usual, it’s Taehyung.

 “YAHHH!” you shouted on the phone.

”Ahh! It hurts!” Taehyung said. “Very good, you’ve been keeping it as your ringtone.”

 “Aish! It’s already my ringtone so why are you still calling me every morning?” you asked.

 “To wake you up, pabo-yah!” you rubbed your hair and got off your bed. “Brush your teeth now.” he told you.

 “I’m going to. Hang up now.”

”Okayy!” you were about to put down your phone when he suddenly called again-- video chat this time. ‘Omyghad, again! Is he really doing it as a routine now?’ you thought.

 You answered it and a sleepy yet smiling Taehyung greeted you. “Good morning, Y/N, ahhh~”

 “I’m gonna brush my teeth now.” you said as you yawned. “Ahh, I’m still sleepy!”

 “Then don’t sleep late.” he said. You could see him walking, going to his bathroom and holding a toothbrush. You’re doing the same too.

 “You a fool? You were video chatting me also last night.” you said. You started brushing your teeth, Taehyung was also doing the same thing. He was saying something but you couldn’t understand it so you just didn’t answer.

 After brushing your teeth and washing your face, Taehyung talked. “Hey, on Saturday, can we meet up?” he asked seriously.

 “Where?” you said as you were tying up your hair.

 “There will be a kpop concert there at your country, my friend is going and I’ll go with him. Can we meet up there?”

 “Sure!” you answered.

”I’m going to tell you something.” he said and he hung up. You suddenly became nervous and you didn’t know why.

 You’ve known Taehyung for a while, and he’s been talking to you about his worries and his days but he never talked to you about what he was doing in his life, like if he’s a student or what. All you know is that he’s Kim Taehyung who has a lot of troubles.

 “You know, Kim Taehyung… even though it seems like I know you… I also feel like you’re distant from me.”

 **

 Taehyung hasn’t been contacting you since that morning. You’re starting to find his voice and presence and it’s a little bit weird for you to wake up early morning, waiting for your phone to ring and staying up until late at night, waiting for his call.

 “Aish, Taehyung!” you shouted, frustrated. You were about to call him and get your phone on the table of your office, when it suddenly got a message.

 From : Taehyung

 Have you received the ticket already? Let’s meet up inside the venue.

 You want to call him but you might just disturb him so you just text him back.

 To : Taehyung

 I’ve received it yesterday. Can I call you?

 You really want to type, ‘I miss your voice’ but you just hit your head, asking yourself why are you thinking like that.

 After 12 minutes, Taehyung answered. It’s unusual though. He usually texts you back in just a minute--

 From : Taehyung

 Why? Are you troubled about something?

 You were about to text him again but then he messaged you again.

 From : Taehyung

 Sorry, I have no time. I’m busy.

 You felt sad and you don’t know why. Maybe because you’re not used to this. Taehyung not contacting you for days and now, he seemed cold.

 To : Taehyung

 Nothing. I just missed your voice.

 You have the urge to send that message but then you just deleted it. ‘Nah. I’ll meet him later.’

 You dressed up and got ready for the concert later. The ticket only says that it is BTS’ concert and you’re in the VIP section. You didn’t search what BTS was for only you know was that you’re gonna meet Kim Taehyung there and that’s only what matters.

 You drove to the venue and got surprised that there were lots of people outside.

 “Wow. Is BTS really this famous?” you asked yourself. You just walked inside, not minding the surrounding. You just really want to see Taehyung.

 Inside the venue, you went to the VIP section and on the stage, only the logo of BTS was there. “Where are you, Kim Taehyung?”

 You’re anxiously waiting for him to come but no one came and the concert has started already.

 “Where are you, Kim Taehyung?” you whispered to yourself. A song was being played in the background but you’re not minding it. Later on, all of the fans were screaming so you looked at the reason why…. and you’re surprised to find the guy you’ve been waiting.

 “Taehyung…”

 You’re nervous af. You’re wondering why is he on stage? And why does he look more… presentable, more matured there? Why? Is he… Kim Taehyung?

 He’s with the 6 men you’ve seen in Hawaii. They’re all waving while singing. You’re just looking at Taehyung, speechless. You couldn’t believe it.

 When Taehyung’s part came out, you could hear his deep voice you missed so much. But… ‘No… his voice is funnier than this…’

 He’s smiling to the crowd but you’re wondering why is he smiling like that. You know it’s not genuine, you know his real smile.

 Everyone was screaming while you’re just there, staring.

 BTS introduced themselves, and it’s Taehyung’s part now.

 “Hiiii!” he cheerfully greeted and everyone screamed. “I’m V! It’s nice to see you again, armyyyyys!” he looked at every corner of the venue and he spotted you. He smiled sweetly at you while you’re just still in shocked.

 BTS performed and you couldn’t deny that they’re really amazing but overall, you’re not still used to Kim Taehyung.. being V? No, you know him but… who’s who?

 BTS now was having a talk with the fans.

”Annyeong armyyy!” the leader asked. Everyone screamed. “How are you?” everyone answered while you’re just looking at Taehyung who’s now looking at you too.

 “Who are you?” you mouthed. Taehyung smiled then shook his head. “I don’t know you.” you mouthed. You didn’t know why but a tear came out from your eye. You felt betrayed. ‘Why didn’t he tell me? I thought I was his friend…’

 Taehyung walked towards the corner of the stage, to where you’re facing. He’s smiling to loads of girls and will frequently steal a glance to you. He was smiling to everyone while saying, “Uljima.”

 You decided to just leave. “Well, I don’t know BTS, why would I be here? And there’s no Kim Taehyung here.” you said to yourself.

 You were about to leave when Taehyung talked with his mic.

 “Stop.” he said. You didn’t know why but you stopped. ‘Aish! Y/N, go!’ you thought but your feet couldn’t. “Look at me.” he said and everyone screamed.

 “Taehyung-ah! Saranghaeyo!”

 “V!!!”

 Everyone was screaming his name but you know it, he’s talking to you.

 “I just want to tell, thank you for everything,” you didn’t know why but you suddenly cried--- “Look at me,” he said. You couldn’t help but to face the stage. He saw your crying face and you could see his face softened. The fans were all confused but you didn’t care.

 “Sorry if I didn’t tell you who am I in front of these many people. I’m so sorry if I couldn’t wipe your tears now… I’m so sorry if I’m so coward that I couldn’t go to you right now and tell this to you face to face. But you know it right? What have I been through?”

 He’s not looking at you but you could tell it, he’s talking to you.

 “Thank you for coping up with my personality.” he laughed. Everyone was silent so you could here your heartbeat. It’s hella fast. “I know I’m annoying sometimes, but I just want you to know that I’m only showing to you who I really am.” he started looking at you. He was shaking his head as if to tell you to stop crying but you couldn’t help it.

 “I’m coward in front of the other people. Scared that they might judge for who I really am… and I know you’re different. You accepted me.” everyone around you was all crying and sobbing. Wth.

”From the day I met you, I could tell that.. you’re different. You didn’t know a single thing about V and met me as Kim Taehyung.” a tear came out from his eye so he wiped it immediately and chuckled. “I really want to thank you for accepting me as Kim Taehyung and not as V of BTS.”

“Uljimaaa!” the fans were all crying as Kim Taehyung started to sob. A little guy was now comforting him but Taehyung still faced the fans, smiled, and said this to his mic,

 “In front of these many fans, despite of me being coward, I wanna say this to Y/N, thank you for accepting the whole and real me and I love you for being real around me.”

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Imagine, you are now a well-grown woman. You’ll be having a trip to Korea for the very first time and you are very excited about it.

“Ahh! At last! Now that I have my own money, and I can travel alone now, I can go to Korea! I’ll meet you soon, bts!” you said to yourself as you pack up your clothes. After packing up, someone called you. The ID’s name made you smile and your heart beat fast.

“Yes?” you answered.

“So, you’re going tomorrow?” the caller asked.

“Yep. Tomorrow is the fansigning event for BTS. I can attend now thanks to my friend who’s staying in Korea.”

“I hope you’ll have a good trip there and be safe! I’m not with you. I know how clumsy you are.” he laughed. You just smiled.

“Okay okay!” you chuckled. You two said goodbyes and finally, you’re about to sleep. Before sleeping, you opened your phone and looked at your gallery, “Bangtan, reality really hits me now.”

You woke up at 5:30 am because your flight is at 7 am. You’re very excited so you ate quickly and took a bath after that, then got the most beautiful outfit you’ve ever worn, and tenen! You’re now ready to go to Korea.

After few hours of waiting, you’re now in Korea. You inhaled the air there and thought, ‘I’m now in the same country as BTS’. As you were walking around, you saw posters of BTS.

You smiled as you saw a poster of Jungkook pasted at a convenience store. You walked towards it. “Omg, did you know that you are my ultimate bias?” you laughed as you realized that you’re talking to yourself. “Pabo.” you whispered to yourself.

You went to a hotel and ready yourself for the upcoming event. You heaved a deep sigh. You’re going to see them, now. First and maybe the last for all you know that… you need to live a life now… for real.

After hours, you went to the venue. As you went in, there were lots of teenagers and you feel so old--- you suddenly remembered your younger-self. Crying to your room bcoz you couldn’t see bts back then, hoping that bts would notice you and wishing that one of the members will be your boyfriend-- what an imagination.

Minutes passed, and 7 men walked on the stage. Everyone screamed while you just smiled.

“Bang! Tan! Annyeonghaseyo bangtan seonyeondan imnida!” you missed that. ‘How much did I have been busy these days that I’ve already missed that introduction?’ you thought.

They just talked about everything while you can only understand bits of it. And now, the signing event began.

You waited for your chance to get on--- and now, you’re already in front of them.

Minutes passed and you’ve greeted the 6 members. They were all sweet to you and you’ve given the hand written letter and stuff toys you’ve prepared for them. Now, it’s Jungkook. You’re nervous af as he’s your ultimate bias.

“Hi!” he greeted you warmly. You just smiled.

‘He’s so good looking.’ you thought. ‘No wonder I was all crazy for him.’ you teared up at the term you used. ‘was’. Jungkook noticed it so he got jungshookt and he suddenly held your hand. You heart beat faster but not the same way as it was and not the same as what you feel around the man… you’re with for real now.

“Calm. Stop crying.” he told you while pinching your hand. “What’s your name?” he asked.

“Y/N.”

He signed the album while looking at you, “Hey, Y/N, stop crying. You look beautiful though.”

”Saranghaeyo.” you blurted out. He was a bit shocked but then he chuckled.

“Nado.” ”Can I call you oppa?” you asked. He chuckled then nodded.

“Arraseo, you look younger though.” he’s right. You’re younger than him but now… you’ve work now and everythin… time flies so much.

“Im getting married tomorrow.” you said.

He smiled. “Congrats!”

“I’m so sorry for I couldn’t keep my ring finger free for you guys… but I knew you won’t keep it taken anyway.” you chuckled. You felt JK’s hand wiping your tears.

“I’m sorry if I keep you waiting.” he told you. “It’s okay. I know you, armys are all gonna get married tho and you’ll love your husbands more than us.”

“I also know that you guys are gonna get married soon and you’ll say the sweet words you used to say to us to your wife soon.” you answered him. He just eyed you. He stared at you. “I’ve been wanting to say this but I couldn’t go because I was broke and was young and now that I have the chance… Hi, thank you! You’ve been the reason why I was keep up with my life. Your voice healed and soothed me. I love you so much. I was even hoping for you to meet me and to talk to me. I even wanted you to be my boyfriend and imagined myself as your wife.” you stopped then laughed. He chucked while looking at you. You can feel yourself reddening a bit though. “But yeah, reality hit me. I can’t be with you. You’re going to fall in love soon with a woman who’s on another level-- way prettier than me, more successful than me and the one suits you. I want you to know that I loved you and will still keep on loving and supporting you as a bangtan member.”

Silence passed between you two. You can feel the fan besides you watching the two of you and waiting for her turn, you can also feel the other members and fans’ eyes on the two of you while the staff was signing for you that it’s now time to go but Jungkook help his hand up telling the staff to be quiet first then leaned on the table to face you closer.

“But you know that I love you, armys right?” you nodded. You suddenly realized--- yep, he knew me… as an army. “And do you also know that it’s not that impossible for me to fall in love to a fan like Y/N?”

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Are You Calling Me a Sinner? ;; Taehyung AU

Taehyung xx Reader

**A little bit sensitive content**

 Everyone was gathered outside of their house, all gossiping about what just happened.

 Taehyung and I got arrested. What’s even new?

 “I don’t know what will happen to them anymore.” A neighbor sighed.

 “Tsk. Sinned. So much. Too young to be like this. I guess they want attention.” Other whispered while chuckling.

 Taehyung look at the 2 people then stared at then deeply, “Are you calling me a sinner?” I just smirked.

 Two police officers were holding our hands even though we’re already cuffed. “What the fuck are we waiting for? Aren’t we going to the police station?” Taehyung cursed and constantly making trouble. The guy who was holding me came to Taehyung to calm him down.

 A pin that I was holding since earlier helped me to get out of being cuffed. I nodded at Taehyung and he nodded back. I got the alcohol bottle that we just emptied earlier then crashed it to the officers’ head. Everyone gasped then shouted. Kids were crying but we cared less.

 “Tsk.” Taehyung scoffed. I unlocked his handcuff. “Stop overreacting. They’re not dead.”

 These people were so OA. They seem so innocent but they also got some stains behind them. So irritating. It’s not like we can kill. No, we can’t. We just make them unconscious.

 “Come on, we need to go somewhere.” Taehyung got on his motor then I followed. I held his waist then we went off.

 Taehyung and I were arrested because we punched some random guys while drunk. Yes, Taehyung was drunk and driving.

 We’ve been making troubles since we got the age of 15 and we’re now 21, turning 22 on December 30. Our family? I have a mother and a brother. I truly love them but i couldn’t express it to them so... useless.

 Taehyung got a mother who’s really useless because she’s been physically abusing him. And... his father was gone.

 My father? He’s with Taehyung’s mother. So fucked up.

 “Where are we going anyway?” I asked loudly so Taehyung could hear me.

 “To get into more troubles.” He said as the wind blew against our face. I rested my head on his back, smiling.

 I love it when i rest myself onto him. I feel secured. “What an irony to a person who only knows getting into fights.” I thought.

 -*-*-*

 30 minutes of drive, then Taehyung stopped his motor. We’re now in front of an abandoned building. Cold wind chilled me and the night darkening, made me shiver.

 “Where are we?” I asked Taehyung while hugging myself because it’s really cold.

 Taehyung took off his jacket, left it hanging on my shoulder.

 I smiled swiftly. Taehyung still cares and the only thing I love is that he only showed it to me.

 “I also don’t know.” Taehyung chuckled. I just shook my head at him then he smiled, “Let’s go?” He asked, I nodded.

 We were walking side by side, our hands brushing against each other, mine wanting to catch his when he suddenly grabbed it. “You’re cold.” He stated and his hand was so warm.

 "Are we getting into fight again?" I just asked instead. Not minding my hand being pinched by his.

 "Yes." He said sternly. Then he let go of my hand. "I don't know any about them. A friend just told me to come here." I suddenly became worried. We never fought with a group of strangers.

 "Is this safe?" I asked. I hit my head in my mind. How fighting can be safe?

 Taehyung didn't answer. When the two of us already came in, I suddenly stopped then grabbed his shirt like a scared little girl.

 "The fuck." Taehyung whispered. A lot of grown-up and big men welcomed us. Some even holding bats.

 "Taehyung." I whispered. He grabbed my hand again and made me stand behind him as nervousness rushed to me.

 "Why are you here?" A big guy retorted. "Oh.. we got two beauties here." he continued, walking towards us followed by his people.

 Taehyung and I walked backwards. I started whimpering as I became so scared. "Taehyung, let's go!" I shouted as different emotions rushed in me.

 "Where do you think you're going?" The guy asked. He's intimidating and scary as fuck.

 He's now standing in front of us. "What are you gazing at, you little shit?" He asked then slapped Taehyung. I gasped. The guy looked at me that sent shivers down my spine. He whistled then the other men laughed.

 "Your girlfriend here is beautiful." He said as he eyed me. "Can I fuck her?" Taehyung let go of me, grabbed the wood beside us then throw it to the guy. The guy didn't even flinch. When he was about to move, Taehyung grabbed my hand then we ran to his motor.

 We got off. They didn't catch us. Taehyung was so fast but I didn't mind it. I just sobbed on his back. "Fuck you." I said in between of my tears.

 Taehyung stopped the motor. We're now at a dark lot. I don't know where this was.

 I got off then slapped him. Taehyung was in shock while I just sobbed in front of him.

  "What was that for?!" He yelled. He was about to slap me but I was staring, straight to his eyes so he stopped his hand mid-air. He sighed then cupped my face instead, "Look, I'm so sorry."

 "Fuck it. I was so scared." I said. "They almost got us!" I freaked out, couldn't even control my tears.

 "Shhhh... look here..." Taehyung slightly bent down his knees so that his face was on my level. "I'm sorry, okay? They're not here anymore. You're with me, we're safe.We're not coming back anymore, okay?" He wiped my tears with his thumb but tears kept flowing down. "Oh shit. Please, hush." Taehyung suddenly hugged me, let me cry on his chest while he's brushing my hair. I felt his lips on my head then rested his head on my own,

"Don't cry. It hurts me."

 All of the moments that we shared suddenly flushed back. Nope, we never had this moment. I suddenly realize that even though we're strong outside, we're still coward who needs love and affection... which we didn't receive.

 "Let's go home now." Taehyung told me softly.

 No, Taehyung... your arms were my only home.

 When we got back to our neighbourhood, Taehyung walked with me to my house. "Rest." Taehyung said with a reassuring smile. "I'm sorry again."

 I shook my head, "It's okay." I said, patting his shoulder. "You should go back now." I said. I became worried again.

 Outside seems much safer than inside his house.

 "Go inside then I'll go." He told me. I just nodded then went inside, smiling.

 My smile fades suddenly when my mom welcomed me with a frown. "What did you do again?" She asked sternly.

 I took off my shoes, rolled my eyes then walked. I love her but I'm tired of her shits.

 I was about to open my room when she turned me around then slapped me. I was so shocked. Seconds passed until a tear left my eye. "Where did you learn this kind of disrespect?" She shouted

 I tried to hold myself back from crying but I couldn't. "From you." I answered her, shaking. "You were the one who made me like this."

 My mom just stared at me before she shook her head, "This is what you get from going out with Taehyung."

 I scoffed, "You don't know him."

 "Oh really? Everyone knows him. A fucked up guy. I don't even know why you got to be with him all this time."

 "You..." I shook my head in disbelief. "I don't even know why you became my mom."

 "So you're doubting me now? You're choosing him over me?"

 "Oh fucking yes." I said, crying. "Taehyung was there when I was down and where were you?" I stopped in between because these tears were stopping me. "I don't know why you're showing me this drama if you can just show me your love sooner or even earlier." I pointed at her.

 Tears were now streaming down her face. Words unable to escape her mouth so I continued. "I was needing your attention! Yet you didn't dare to care and now you're asking me why I became disrespectful? How I became a bitch? It's all because of you!"

 She was about to reach out for me but I moved aside.

 "Don't you even dare to bad-mouth Taehyung. You made me like this and he's the reason why this little happiness in me still exists. Because of him, I'm still here, living in hell when I should've just burned. You should be thankful to him."

 I grasped my bedroom's doorknob and when I was about to close the door, I heard her. "I'm sorry."

 -*-*-*

Days passed and I just stayed here in my room. My mom was knocking so many times but I wasn't answering.

 I couldn't contact Taehyung and I seriously was worried.

  My mom knocked, "I'm going to the market. Stay here, okay?"

 I heard the door being closed before I peeked outside of my room. She's gone. I checked my phone again to see any sign of Taehyung's reply but there was none. I got out of my room and left my house.

 The neighbourhood was empty because it's almost dinner time. I didn't want to go to his house because I didn't want to see my own father and I knew he wouldn't be there. I decided to contact Taehyung again and after a minute, he finally answered.

 "Thank God! I was calling and texting you!" I said.

 "I know." He chuckled a bit.

 "Where are you? I wanna go. My mom went out." I said, walking out of my neighbourhood.

 "No." He answered quickly. "Stay there. Your mom will be worried."

 "When did she get worry?" I asked, smirking. I could hear a lot of rustling in the call, a group of men taking to each other. "Where are you?" I asked seriously.

 "Don't come. You're scared here." He slightly laughed. "Hey."

 I don't know why but I panicked a bit. I was scared... it's not that place, right? And the men... they're not those, right?

 "Hmmm?" I answered as I stopped to wait for a bus.

 "I love you." The call suddenly ended.

 I wasn't a bit of myself after he said those words. What did he say?

 'I love you', words flashed back again. Happiness rushed towards me but felt a bit of sadness which I didn't know why.

 I looked at my phone, where a picture of me and Taehyung, smiling showed... a rare scene.

 -*-*-*

 Already here... at the abandoned building where we went before. It's silent and it didn't change much. Still creepy. I walked towards the building, totally scared as no one was not holding my hand like he did. I can feel the cold wind against my skin that made me chill.

 I slowly peeped inside the building, scared of what I might find. A sound of contract between skins echoed through the building. The guy slapped someone.

 Though I didn't want to confirm who he was slapping because the person who has his back on me was familiar just from his hair and shoulder. "Kill me. I won't let you touch her " A deep voice said which made me go soft here.

 "You told us that she's not your girlfriend then why the fuck do you care?" the guy punched him.

 Taehyung, fight back… please.

 "She will be, so cut your fantasies!" Taehyung shouted.

 Two guys held him by his shoulder then their 'leader' punched Taehyung again... several times to the point I can see something glistening on the floor... his blood. I sobbed and I suddenly covered my mouth with my hands as it also echoed.

 They all looked at me and more tears came out as I saw Taehyung looking at me with his bloody and bruised face. I wanted to hug him. "Why did you come?" Taehyung asked weakly. No, his voice wasn't like that. He sounded like a boss and firm but now…

 "Oh.." the leader guy whistled. "Here she comes." He smirked.

 "Don't you dare touch her!" Taehyung shouted. "Why did you even come?" Taehyung asked who seemed to be pleading me.

 I was about to run to him but…

 "Where do you think you're going?" The guy asked, holding my wrist.

 "Let go of her." Taehyung said seriously.

 "You know how to fight, little boy?" the leader asked, mocking Taehyung. He grabbed my jaw. "Beautiful." I got surprised when the leader flew from me.

 "Don't touch her." Taehyung said, now standing in front of me. He's a bit unstable but he managed to punch. He was about to hold me but the other men kicked him.

 "No!" I shouted, trying to get in the fight but they kept on pushing me aside. "Taehyung!"

 I shouted again as he was still on the floor, unable to move.

 "Go." He mouthed then smiled at me. I shook my head while crying. I need to think of something.... someone that could help us...

 I dialed the police station's number. Didn't care even though we're also wanted.

 "Help. Please. My friend is being beaten up!" I cried. The police officer kept on telling me to calm down but how the fuck can I calm down? I just told him the address and when the call about to end, someone pulled my hair then snatched my phone away.

 "You should be punished." The leader guy smirked. He was about to grab my waist but I pushed him away. "The fuck." He slapped me but I punched right in his face.

 My knuckles hurt. I ran to the side, grabbed a wood and when I turned back, the guy was already in front of me.

 "Hit him!" Taehyung shouted. A part of me was relieved because he's still alive.

 A siren can be heard from a distant. The gang stopped then the leader in front of me stared deadly right to my eyes. "It was you?" He asked. I felt extreme nervousness that I've never felt before.

 He punched my stomach which made me taste my own blood.

 "No!" I heard Taehyung shout. He was now being held by the men who kicked him. "Don't hurt her!" I heard Taehyung cry which made me weaker.

 The guy punched my face. He pushed me and I felt my head being hit on the cold concrete ground. I don't know what's happening anymore. All I know was that Taehyung has been shouting my name.

 Taehyung's POV

 These men were holding me and I felt useless because I couldn't do anything while she's being hit. I could see her now, lying on the floor and closing her eyes.

 I don't know what could I do so I just kneeled. "No, please. Hurt me, not her, please." I whispered but right after that, I heard a scream and steps running away. They unfreed me and ran away. I finally went to her and when I saw her…

 "Taehyung..." She smiled. "You're okay." She croaked.

 I kneeled, lay her head on my lap, "Why..." new tears came out from my eyes, "Why now?"

 She smiled though a tear also came out from her eye, "I feel numb." She laughed.

 I hugged her. While smelling her sweet smell now combined with blood, police came in and I heard them calling an ambulance.

 "Let me look at you" She whispered so I let her. She caressed my face while I held her hand "I won't last anymore." She said. I kept on crying. "Your eyes, your nose, your rectangular smile, your deep yet sweet voice." She couldn't go on because blood kept coming out from her mouth

 "Don't talk. Ambulance is coming." I said, believing that she would be saved. I looked at her deep wound on her chest which was stabbed.

 "No, I won't last..." I caressed her face as her eyes were now heavy, "Taehyung... don't be afraid to show your feelings anymore..."

"Yes, yes. Don't talk, please." I said, hugging her on my chest, kissing her forehead.

 "I love you too." She whispered. I let her rest on my chest as I started crying so hard. Seconds passed and she kept still. I looked at her and she's now closing her eyes, looking so peaceful

 I kissed her temple, her nose and her lips even though they taste blood. "Shh... sleep. I'll wake you up when the ambulance comes." I told her, hugging her tightly. "I love you, I love you so much. Stay with me, huh?" I asked her but no one responded.

 Ambulance came ringing and doctors came in. They checked her first while she's on my lap. The doctor nodded and a bag where dead people was being put in was dragged beside us. "Why are you getting that out?" I asked.

 "I'm so sorry, sir, but she's dead." I somehow became deaf.

 "But she's just sleeping." I said. They were about to get her from me but I pushed them away. "No, don't put her there! She won't breathe properly there!"

 "Sir, please stop. We need to take her." The doctor said. I hugged her again tightly, not minding her cold body.

 I suddenly remember how cold she used to be while I always put warm to her but now, I can't.

 I started sobbing on her head, letting my tears to drop on her face, expecting her to feel the warmth and to open her eyes but she didn't.

 "We'll take care of her" The doctor said

 I looked at him, "Please." They slowly carried her while I just watched her body, taking away from me.

 "You're also wounded, sir. Come with us." I was about to go but I saw the man who killed her outside the building, with a police officer.

 I ran to him, not minding my bruises on my leg then punched him real hard. "Fuck you!" I shouted. "She's now gone!" The guy just bowed down. "How am I going to live my life without her?!" I shouted at his face.

 I just kneeled again on the ground, crying my heart out. Realizing that the person who's always with me, the person who I really and only love was now gone.

 My home, my girl, my friend, my family.. She's all that. How can I now come back without her smiling at me, and being with me all the time when I'm always alone and lonely.

 "Why is it too late?" I whispered.

  +-+-+

 Today is the last day of her funeral. I was just looking at her face, looking so peaceful. "Why did you leave so early?" I asked though no one answered.

 "She loved you." someone suddenly tapped my back. "Since when you were kids. Every time she comes home, she'd only talk about you." I smiled. Same as me.  "I was upset with you because she chose you over me." I was a bit shocked. She didn't tell me this. "We had a fight before this happened and I realized how I lacked as a mom." She suddenly cried. I couldn't do anything but hugged her. "I didn't even tell her that I love her."

 I also felt the pain as I also didn't even tell her how much I love her... I didn't even let her feel it. "I love her... and the same way goes with me." I told her. "I was so afraid to tell her and now I'm regretting."

 If only I have one more chance... I'll kiss her and let her feel my warmth while I tell her how much I love her... I was so coward, only acting up as a strong person. I was only strong when I'm with her.

 I didn't realize how much I love her for I didn't even know and feel to be loved... until she did. All of this happened because of my dark past and present that still haunt me... which used to only lighten up when she's walking and staying with me…

 So now… are you still calling me a sinner?

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Jungkook being so thankful toward his hyungs--- TT TT

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I may be blind by how you shine, I don’t care as long as I’m looking at you.