a9athy

[a9athy]

-i appreciate the apologies

-i didn’t say you were psycho or a stalker but u did some kinda crazy shit

-i never said i didn’t do anything bad

-i let my resentments build up to the point that it ruined the love i had for you and that’s on me

-i understand you think i should’ve give you a chance but i had and have no room in my heart to do that

-i’m sorry, but once i got to know joseph, that was the end of us.

[a9athy]

hi there. a lot of days have passed, almost 2 years to be exact. i’m a little happier than i could have imagined i’d be. i’m in sober living in dallas, texas. i’ve tricked everyone into believing in a good person. except for one person. and he loves me more than i could imagine for it. i get to see him tomorrow. he’s my favorite. he’s taught me true unconditional love, genuine happiness, mind numbing yearning. he’s so beautiful. i only wish i could’ve met him earlier. i wish he could’ve seen my pain in its true form.

[a9athy]

you know what. fuck you both. you have walked all over me. fuck you. i’ll get it back.

[a9athy]

you want an insufferable death you stupid bitch

[a9athy]

no knowledge. you know nothing. i’m sorry i’m so angry but wow. i’m jealous.

[a9athy]

there’s crazier shit than u can comprehend dude. really? there’s people with both

[a9athy]

it’s not in the STARS

[a9athy]

shut uppppppppppppppp

[a9athy]

AI is fucking scary why are you playing with it for shits and giggles, you’re giving it info

[a9athy]

please shut up oh my god

[a9athy]

you two need a goddamn therapist and a wake up call

[a9athy]

i watched your insufferable ass go cold turkey off the pills not once, not twice, didn’t stop at three times, and you never wanted help wiping the sweat off your forehead while you leaned off the toilet

[a9athy]

i wouldn’t do thais if i wasn’t losing my fucking mind

[a9athy]

no i’m losing my fucking mind. i’m not doing drugs or alcohol or dum shit to do it, im doing itv

[a9athy]

hey, i know isn’t a fan of u talking to me so i don’t wanna be that girl, but i just wanted to tell you about this. remember a while ago when u came to chill and i gave you a shot u DEMANDED to pay me for? i told you “idgaf” and you said “well, i give a fuck.” i’ve still got that dollar and it helps remind me that someone gives a fuck, even if it isn’t you. just wanted to let you know, it helps me a lot with what’s going on in right now, its a nice reminder. thanks for coming to that celebration with my friends a year ago, it meant the world to me. planning another after. you should bring girly with. hope you have a good day dude. hope you’ve been happy.

[a9athy]

i don’t know if anything in doug. if what insuppisrr to be

[a9athy]

me taking drugs is like a prophecy right? i wanted to when i was young and was scared and now it’s a rite of passage to myself. i had

to make it happen to be who i wanted to be because there is no meaning to life; the meaning of life is to be.