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my least favorite part of having an eating disorder is the constant arguing and bargaining in your head. racing thoughts all the fuckin time like, “okay I’ve had 75 calories today. I can have a banana and still be under 200. wait, 1200 is still considered restriction. how much would I lose this week with a daily deficit of 500 calories? I can do that. I’ll still lose weight. but not as much as if I fasted. no. just have nothing. you could lose 3.5 lbs. this week! just have nothing. people do it every day. just have a fucking banana. you won’t even be at maintenance. but what if it triggers a binge? think about your jawline. why don’t I just have everything I want and purge? what percentage can you get back up when you purge? hey google…” AND IT NEVER STOPS.

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tips for people new to ana/fasting

• leave • leave • get help before it’s too late • leave • delete this app • LEAVE

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i’m back after my year hiatus & i’m still on my same bs 🤡

anyways, how are you guys? ❤️

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u never realize how many calories are in food until you have an eating disorder

i remember eating without knowing the calories and not caring

it’s sad knowing I’ll never be that way again

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why comment on what another person is eating when you could just be quiet

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One taught me love

One taught me patience

One taught me pain

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sorry for the inactivity

just got out of the psych ward how fun

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*watching supersize vs superskinny*

Superskinny: Eats 1400 calories a day, looks stick thin

Me, someone who eats 800 a day, still looks like a fatass: NOW WAIT A SEC WTF

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Saw this on fb, super relatable

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eating disorders are weird because they make you want to avoid eating as much as possible but simultaneously food is the only thing you can think about every second of the day

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*scrolls through Tumblr while having a massive panic attack about my food intake*

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I both love and hate tumblr for what it does to me. But after all, I’m always coming back here.

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i am addicted addicted addicted addicted to anything that distracts me. i cannot deal with my own thoughts, memories, emotions. i dont want to think about myself or my life or anything at all related to me. 

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Just popping in to say I hope you have a good day and smile today. Stay safe!♡

thank you <3

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Mahmoud Darwish, tr. by Sinan Antoon, from “In The Presence of Absence,”

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it’s weird; I constantly think about my weight, I skip meals regularly, panic if I eat something with more than 200 calories, I have a heavy feeling of regret every time I eat, I’ll see a picture of some girl online and immediately think “if you were skinnier then maybe you’d be pretty like her”, yet my brain tells me “you don’t have an eating disorder, you’re just dramatic” LMAOOOO I hate this

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sorry for the huge inactivity, i’m currently going through a tough moment

although i may not post i’m still here so send me a message if you need anything <3