abdlfemlo

[abdlfemlo]

to whom this may concern i’d have love to have spoke but your page isn’t working for me idk if you blocked me but thanks if you did

[abdlfemlo]

It isn't your fault the hand you've been dealt. It never will be, even if you do act on it. You never harmed anyone. Yeah you may have been acting terrible, but look how quickly you were pulled back to surface, mostly by *yourself*, realised a lot of things and apologized. Its something most people in your space cant or refuse to do. You're still there and as hard as it seems, you have potential to move forward with so much remaining in life. It goes beyond your "content", cause I care about you immensely and its idiotic to think I shouldn't just cause you post fetish content. It goes far beyond that, you're an actual, living breathing person.

as much as i complain i really do appreciate these and i just need to calm down tbh

[abdlfemlo]

You just had a bit of a pitfall. It does not define you. I have no idea what goes on in your life, and Im going in blindly as i say that im extremely proud that you've held back for so long regarding this cause most of us would have caved much sooner. I understand these thoughts may have been hidden, but still. Good on you for your effort. We're proud of you regardless. I dont know what you went for in college, but i dont believe its too late to turn back now and fully, fully lock in on whatever it is if you decide to go back. Outside of college, there are many who have their degrees yet still find nothing, it seems its been that way for many years now.

sorry to burst your bubble but uk college is not the same as american college, i have done the equivalent of flunking the last 2 years of highschool so i have no chance at university (or american college) and with how i am with deadlines i would just fail and end up in debt

i appreciate the kind words tho

[abdlfemlo]

You just apologized to us all. Yeah, your hate of an entire community might be wrong. But what does it say about what you previously said about yourself? About being the "worst thing" ever? You made a step. One step towards righteousness, now its up to you to continue. I'm proud of you. As a person. An entirety. :)

you’re not gonna be proud for long, cause unlike all of you i know where my life is rn and i know that im not a good person so i stand by what i said about myself

it was rude of me to berate the abdl community but that doesn’t change what i said about myself, matter of fact i would use that as evidence to support what i said

[abdlfemlo]

you can tell a lot of people who follow me are men who are toxic towards women from my anons, can’t say i’m surprised since i have a porn account, but at the same time i tell myself i don’t like women too but that’s cause im a fat fucking loner

[abdlfemlo]

You know something? Im glad those "Dates" happened to you, you most likely avoided some heartbreaking residues of swamp monsters who are cheaper than the grime you stepped on just to get there and waste time on their asses. Its a known fact it takes time and effort to find a great person and not a manipulative, overly needy walking pair of breasts whose only good for a cheap screw. who would break hearts on a whim.

yk id rather they just never happened at all to be honest, and im a virgin, i wont lie i only said yes to the last person who “wanted to date me” because id heard that “she was easy”, but she wasn’t just “easy” to me i thought she was sweet and to this day she’s still one of the best looking people ive met, but girls who do cocaine are always psychopaths so i can’t say im surprised she got bored but i was so desperate to lose my virginity cause all i hear my friends tell me is “once you’ve had sex it makes sense to pull girls” and they even tried getting me a prostitute when i was in amsterdam but i said i “wanna lose it to someone special” which just ain’t the way of the world

that was nearly 2 years ago

[abdlfemlo]

wow. Im sorry to say, but I hope those two girls wind up getting tortured or worse, i dont see them as people and i never will.

lets not be worse than they are, but i do hope they’ve had shitty lives

[abdlfemlo]

I'm extremely sorry for all that youve been through and what youre going through I wish I knew what to say I really did but its completely frustrating but I will at least pray for you if I can, knowing you do not care, and I hope that rant got a lot off of your chest.

Its not your fault and it never will be your fault just for HAVING something in you that you resent and hate. Life is far too short for such things. It doesnt define you fully nor will it ever. I know its all limp-wristed, I cant say much, but I truly believe that it takes a little shove to climb and ascend.

i’m sorry for everyone i’ve been a dick too

the abdl hates not stopping tho im gonna keep resenting it till i get therapy

[abdlfemlo]

you're the smartest freak in this rotten app for gaining consciousness and realising this shit is stupid. abdls are stupid. death to kinks. amen.

the duality of man

[abdlfemlo]

Wow what a way to dehumanize those trying to help or even reach out to you. Have some awareness? its not cool nor is it fair, just cause YOU think we aren't real. But hey, who cares. If no one can reach out to you, then who can? At least reveal some shocking things if you want. It makes no sense at all and its disturbing.

i wish great things for all the people who genuinely do want to help me, and i hope you find a good place to channel that but i am not a good person, i dont know how long it will take everyone to realise im a shitty person but for the last segment of posts i’ve been writing my thoughts as i think

i don’t expect people to genuinely reach out cause i don’t see myself as worth helping

and what shocking facts would you like?

how about the fact i grew up with an abusive dad, and that i woke up in the night to him abusing my mum multiple times while i was less than 10, how i’ve blocked most of my childhood from my memory, and how i was made to go to so many events for my whole childhood cause “it will look good for when you get a job” that i got completely burnt out from doing any outside events so i hate going out and being social

and can’t forget then failing college twice so i can’t even get a sustainable job, so i’ve been working at a fast food place since i was the legal age to work and all i think about while im on shift is killing myself

and don’t start on relationship pasts cause we already know how toxic i am, never once successfully asked someone out, it ended with rejection every time, if i’ve been asked out it ended after the first or second date, they never told me what i did, they just gave the old “it’s not you it’s me” as an easy way out

matter of fact a story on why i don’t ask people out, i went to maccies once when i was about 14 with a mate and 2 girls came over and asked for my snap, me being 14 and having never dated successfully i was very happy and we eventually met later, one asked if i would date her and i said if i got to know her i would. they then started berating me and followed me for a good 20 minutes just harassing me, recording me, telling me they were gonna get their guy friends to batter me, so that killed my self confidence in a heartbeat

hope you liked my rant

interpret this how you wish, call me toxic, say it’s normal say i’m attention seeking cause at the end of the day that’s all my bitching is, it’s looking for attention, same reason this page came to be in the first place

[abdlfemlo]

hey man, do you think youll regret all this lashing out

maybe, maybe not, i’m not posting again so there’s no downside to tarnishing my already below standard reputation

i already hate this page and regret it and to me it’s like none of the people who interact with me are real, which is why i lash out at kind words cause it feels empty, especially since this page is just porn, some of myself so hearing anything from anyone on this site makes me imagine some obese neckbeard 40 yr old who goons to my page telling me life gets better and that abdl is ok and i really just don’t think it is as much as i want to wear i just hate myself for it

[abdlfemlo]

If someone DID go on a date with you and didnt mind the whole diapers thing or found it cute then how would u feel?

i’d say it would fix me but that’s a selfish assumption

i feel like it would give my life more purpose having someone to live for but my life is in shambles rn so it’s best to not think about that

[abdlfemlo]

Are you capable of physically harming me or someone else when angry enough? (Im just asking)

wtf kind of question is this

genuinely what provoked this

and to answer i’ll only throw hands with inanimate objects or someone starting a fight with me

[abdlfemlo]

a great conversation was had with the deactivated account

[abdlfemlo]

Can I speak to you on discord about somet mentally?

people do anything but just message me

[abdlfemlo]

You probably won't care or be affected, but I love you. I always did and I always kinda looked up to youi. I'm really sorry about the whole thing and I'm sorry about how you feel as an outcast. I really wish I could say things about acceptance in circles, but I have no idea how it would be accepted so I'd have to ask. I never knew you had this side of you, and I never knew it was so deep, it sounds very suffocating and pretty dark what you feel and what you're going through and I'm sorry. But this sort of startled me. You shouldn't be compelled to have one part of your brain or psyche removed just because you enjoy it and have to keep it private. As long as it causes no harm or addiction, I don't think you should care much and you should focus on doing a break-away and significant distance and surround yourself with able-minded and mature individuals by growing slowly or sticking to a small community. If you think you're alone, remember that I care and occasionally come back after thinking of you. I probably said too much, but I'm sorta trying my best here with little understanding. All I know is that its not your fault nor will it ever will be and there's still time to make significant steps and changes. I know you can do it. As for being lonely, If you need anyone I'm here. Even if I have to come out of anon mode and get to know you or anything. Its your call. ♥.

oh i found his message isn’t it sweet, it highlights all the parts of these accounts i regret making

“i occasionally come back after thinking of you”

great the porn addicts on the internet keep me held in high regard in their wank bank

“and remember you aren’t alone, you can always talk to the people on the internet who only care about you cause you put on a skirt and shit urself”

[abdlfemlo]

Hey, i sent the request (citrus fruit icon) Second off I did send a message before I sent that one. That one long one about accepting you, loving you, etc. You got it, right?

great another rando on the internet says he loves and accepts me cause i posted smut of myself for 2 years, makes me feel on top of the fucking world that does

accepted and he didn’t actually message to evidently it’s only important so i talk to him