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-Gather Ye Rosebuds While Ye May (study)-

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-In the Temple-

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we truly have a unique situation with cockles and these actors shipping themselves and making destiel about cockles unprompted but also one of them has come out as bi and then straight but no that doesn't mean he'll stop making jokes about any of this or act any less gay. yes the other guy was weird about destiel at first and now he writes songs about it. he's mostly cool about it now. don't ask him about his dad. this is impossible to explain to outsiders

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y'all should absolutely back me up on this

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Cas is genuinely INSTANTLY down so bad whenever uriel is mean to Dean he looks away all embarrassed like omg stop the Michael sword is gonna think we're lame 😞😞 . dean do you still like me check yes or no 💖. I know he was in heaven going around like guys I think we should be so niceys to the Michael sword because he's actually um really sensitive... on an unrelated note Something Strange and New is happening to the chemicals in my brain.

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My friend got a boyfriend

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Happy Mother Earth Day...

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Does anyone else feel lonesome?

Not lonely. Not alone. Just... lonesome. Like you don't feel connected to anyone. Like you never feel that you will find anyone that understands you, that will see you truly, let alone someone who will even like you. You see friends everywhere, but you don't see yourself in their place, like that is not for you, like you're not made for that and that's not made for you. You see people having fun and laughing and dancing and getting drunk and falling in love and you just... don't feel that for yourself. Like you're not supposed to have that, like you can't because it's not for you and you're not for it.

Like you're supposed to be seeing all these beautiful things in the world but not experience them yourself. Like you want to experience so much, experience everything, but be overwhelmed by it so you don't do any of it.

Like you want to be everywhere and do everything, but you don't belong anywhere and can't do anything. Like you're not supposed to be here. Not in a self-deprecating way but in an incongruous way. You want to live you want to be alive, but you feel you're not supposed to be. Not here at least, not like this. Just a presence in the world, not an active member of it. Even your body doesn't feel like home, your face isn't a face you recognise, like you're not supposed to have either. Like you're just supposed to be.

Like you're supposed to observe, but not experience.

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Do you ever feel like you miss out on life, because you are not able to socialize the way most people do?

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nobody talks about the fact that you can have all this crazy shit in your head, and want to open up and talk about your feelings but no matter what, you just can't make out the right words and properly put your thoughts and emotions into words

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steve rogers' first and last time with the captain america shield

alternatively titled: endings, beginnings

avengers: endgame was released five years ago today.

marvel parallels 26/?

chris evans and anthony mackie in captain america: the first avenger (2011) and avengers: endgame (2019)

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Live footage of Steve Rogers on his way to get his shield back

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Steve, gardening: Hey, can you bring me the hoe?

Thor: Yeah, sure.

[A few minutes later]

Thor: Here you go.

Steve:

Thor:

Tony: Why am I here?

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X-MEN ‘97 – Bright Eyes (S01E07)