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life under querentine

Well, Its been interesting folks. I got put on a new anti depressant and I am starting to feel a little bit better. I am starting to get back into art. I haven’t finished a pace yet but I am going to start working on that. I am going tot ache up drawing dragons. I think it will be helpful for me. And I am definitely going to learn how to draw in 2020 this is one of my goals as well as drawing digitally. I just need to learn how to adjust the sensitivity on my tablet.  I mean I paid for this Comic tablet I might as well use it. 

I joined and online book club although I haven't participated yet. I plan on starting soon. I’ve also started taking a lot more to reading and watching netflix. I am currently reading a book called spellcaster. Its about a powerful mage and his sister. Well, I guess I can’t say powerful because he seems like kind of a wimp.  Reminds me a lot of me.  :) 

So far I’ve lost 15 pounds of ww. I am excited I just need to weigh my self more and track my food more often. I also need to start participating in teh zoom meetings.  Considering everything is under  social distancing everything is locked down. Including but not limited too our WW studio meetings which have now moved online. 

I’ve also taken up gaming. Well, I guess I’ never really lost it just moved away from it. I am starting  to figure out  how to use my dd more and I am starting to get back on my ps 4. I guess that’s a good things considering I can’t go anywhere other than work. 

I did start a new job at \ Dillon’s Kroger corporation as a beggar. I had my first day as a bagger yesterday and I am not sure if I can handle it. With all the food flying at me and getting everything in the right carts. I think I’ll do better getting carts for people and things like that  and doing customer carry outs. 

Things in my personal relations ships are starting to even out and get better and I am seeming to like bung married now. I wasn’t quite sure for a while especially when things got rough. I am just waiting on God to Bless me with a child. That’s all I really want out of life is a child to love and support. 

Well back to chatting with friends. 

Night all. 

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Terrific Diabetic A1C

I went to my doctor and my A1C was a 5.7. I am still on all my meds but they where so happy with my numbers. 

I started ww again. I am paying for it so I figured I might as well continue to use it to track my food and weight. So far I’ve lost 11.4 pounds. I still have a lot more to go. 

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A little reading shall we

Well, 

I finally resubscribed to the state library for the blind and get audio books again. I like it because they send me random books. but today I actually went into the library. I was great. They all remembered me. I returned a few things and checked out even more. I love to support my local library. I picked up a book under the pen name J.D. Robb (Nora Roberts) I love her murder/mystery books and I picked up a new Jim Butcher book something in his series. I also picked up a manga. I am going to try and start reading those. As soon as I get the grasp on reading them. It was weird I now know why it was in the adult section considering the second page had a nude woman. HAHA. 

I made a new friend and a little something more from Tiawan orgionally from the philipinnes. She’s so sweet and kind. And definetly not into chocolate. 

Well, I am off to read and watch some movies probably considering it 230 am on a sunday morning. 

Have a great weekend all. 

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training day 1 and inspiration

I fell hard off the wagon. I lost so much weight on ww and I was on the right track. However, I am jumping back on thanks to my boss. She goes out walking with her dog everyday and that starts tomorrow after my nap from work. Its supposed to be bueatiful tomorrow so I guess I’ll take up the advantage. 

When I started this weight loss journey i was at 238.6 pounds I weighted in today at 232.6 pounds. I packed my lunch for tomorrow healthy and I also am going to eat breakfast with after my coffee. I can’t let it ruing my. And I will let nothing bring me down this time. 

I mean I do have some fears. How will this affect my blood sugar and how will I know when I’ve reached my prime weight loss goal and not develop an eating disorderer. I worry about the eating disorder part because I have always had a weight problem and I also had people make fun of me for it.I am hoping my sleep will improve too. 

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Let the training commence

Well, I finally got an email back from my special olympic coach. Well my new coach. She is supposed to be sending me paperwork in the mail to get started. I think this is the best time in my life to compete. I feel like I am almost at the prime of my life. I just have to find people to train with. I know one already  runs five and ten K’s.  So he’s probably a little bit out of my league. But fall is setting in and that’s thebest time for a run. 

This weekend hasn’t been filled with much. Just cleaning, organizing and doing laundry. I still have to take my night meds here in a little bit. 

I am still mad though... because my blood sugars are still running in the middle to upper 2000. But at the moment I can seem to bring them down. 

This after noon my blood sugar was rtunning around 88. So I decided to correct and eat something and then I over corrected and my blood sugar shot up. Ugh. Its a never ending battle. 

Everyone have a great weekend. 

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olpympics

Hope everyone had a good weekend. I’ve been renergized. I finally decided that I am going to compete inspecial olympics’, I just have decided what sport or sports I am going to participate in.  I am currently listening to the steve allen show on lbc. He’s a not bullshitter presenter out of London. I’ve always wondered how they can’t get away with that in the US but oh. well. 

I stopped smoking as of Friday. And I am starting to feel better and my lungs are starting to feel better. My boss helped me quit, he just told me make it today so as of Friday morning I haven’t had a cigarette.  I just need to get into training mode for my training. I am thinking about doing swiming but I can’t dive so I am not sure if I can participate in that sport of not. But I am thinking about doing running or race walking. 

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Why am I so unmotovated

I ws working so hard to achieve the 5k race. I knew that I hadn’t had enough training. Luckly my race was canceled because of the flooding issues. But, since then I’ve been so unmotovated.  I haven’t really wanted to train at all. 

I am currently looking at my training log sitting in front of me and it only has once entry. So I uess I beer fill er up. Lately, I’ve been so tred all I havnted to do when I get home is go to sleep.  Whch is what I’vew been doing fo rabout a month. I think if I have a cup of tea in the afternoon and maybe I can start working out right after work. I think that is the only way I am going to accomplish my goals. 

I have been talking with my supervisor at work about health and currently her’s  is all messed up. She was in the ER last night with pain and didn’t make it into work today. She’s 42 only 11 years  older than me. A diabetdic and is already suffering health problems. I won’t let my diabetes get me down. I just need to start taking my health more seriously. 

I starteda  personal training program about a year ago and dropped it. I got an email from them today saying they could restart me. I think I am really going to do this. I am seeing my Mom’s failing health and my dad’s failing health. And I don’t want to be another stastitic. 

My BG have still been running high. They put me on another medecine. But it doesn’t seem to be knocking the sugars down. I guess we will see in a week when I go back to the doctor to have my logs looked at. 

And I’ve found the best greocery store to shop at. Aldi’s. I am  glad I can use my debt card. I haven’t been able too lately. However I am glad because I  can get groceries for about two weeks byu just going in there. I can leave with a card full of greoceries. 

Welll in other news. My problem child at work will be gone by the end of the week and no longer be a problem child. 

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Fed up right now

Well, 

Fall has offically made it to this area. At least I think it has. The tempetures this weekend are supposed to be cool and rainy. I think in the morning I am going to gout oand take a walk fora  little bit. Haven’t decided if I am going to go on the trail or tredmil. I guess that all depends on how its going to be outside. I really need to get this body back in shape if I am going to accomplish anyhing.  But enough about that. 

I finally got my Free style libre from my insurance company. It isn’t exactly what I wanted but its worth it to monitor my blood sugars accordingly.  I’ve only had the senors and cgm for about four days. And I’ve noticed that I have had segnificant changes in my blood s glucose levels.  I am usualy high if I do any physical ativity and low if I am just sitting aaround. 

I need to getmy book bright sspots and landmines back from my friend how borrowed it. I think its well worth the read again now that I have a cgm. 

My Dad is doing fair. He’s gettign severly depressed. I think it is on the fact of the medicine he’s on but soe of it might have to do with age. Not quite sure on all of that though.  Other than that he is hanging in there. 

I am seriouslyu concerned about my mother’s health. Its like she is starting to go down hill fast. I really want her to be around for my Grandchildren when I ever get those. 

 Work has been going pretrty good. I am just sick and tired of dealing with lazy people. One girl just needs to be gone and one just quit showing up.  

I don’t know what the deal is. The job really isn’t all that hard. Just are just doing laundry. And to be quite honest I amke more now and don’t have to work weekends than when I worked at Walmart for all thos  years. I am for the most part completely happy with my company but sometimes they just don’t think when they assign special projects or other types of things. I am glad they are starting to cross train people in different departments that is finally something I see that they are doing righgt. 

Well I am off to hav e anice relaxing weekend. Peace out aya’ll .

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A little slacking

Well,

I signed up for my first 5k but they canceled it due to flooding damage at the park in parkville. So its back to training I go. I think I’ve dropped a lot of weight while at work but still not enough. 

I finally got my knights of columbus this straightened out. I am transfering to counsil 900 and paying my dues to them since they seem to want me better. I’am also trying to start the annulment process for Maria but I am still waiting on a phone call from Father David. 

We volunteered for the beef dinner at church. And where just waiting to get phone calls about when where supposed to get there.Em’s doing the silent auction and I am doing clean up once everything is over with. The dinner should be good though. 

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We all have to start somewhere

 Well. I signed up through active.com for my first 5k. Right now I can’t even run a ile. But I downloaded coach to 5k and I am going to start using it tomorrow. Its supposed to be cooler so I am going to go run. Hopefully in the morning before I go to work. Which means I am gonna have to get up about 214 to get everything done. I do need to go to walmart and pick up a couple of things so I can run safely in the morning. I’ve never been one for running but with my Dad sick and people dieing all around me it time for a change. 

I want to run some five K’s with Marcus.  My intimate goal is to participate in the Ironman competetion. Hopefully when it back in Madison. That way I can stay with some friends hopefully. Maybe the payne’s will let me stay with them. I know Jon’s neightbor participated in the iron man competetations. Maybe I can get in touch with him. 

My blood sugar numbers have been doing really good and my a1c was a 5.7  when I got my blood work checked which I am really happy about. That means that my treatment is working. 

In other health news my cholestoral is up again and I don’t really want to be put on medecine so I am going to try and find a way to not get put on it. I need to start tracking my ww more maybe that and eating healither will help. 

I think this weekend, I am going to take em out to dinner maybe. I do still have to pay my sprint bill. Which shouldn’t be much. Just another 200 and I’ll be all caught up. 

I am just chilling on idschord talking to other artists and watching longmire on netflix. I watched this show at my cousin’s house and imediately fell in love with it. 

Peach out everybody  

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Training

I am training to run. I walked about two miles today. Need to take the dog but I am too tired.  I went and walked Angel FAlls Trail.  My friend designed it as a Eagle scout project. And Its one of the most beautiful trails to walk on.  Went with a firnd and walked it this morning and listened to Classic Rock while walking.  I want to train to run my first 5K. I think I am gonna train a little bit more tonight.  on the treadmill. 

I just realized I haven’t checked my blood Glucose all day. I might want to actually get around to doing that. 

 I  got some art projects to work on.  Probably going to start that tomorrow night. 

Its been a short weekend. 

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Artistic Side

Hello,

I hope everyone had a great week. I’ve been putting my art aside. but I think I am going to finally get around to doing it again. 

I really need to quit putting off my drawing course.  I think I will start that tomorrow. 

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Health

Well,

I had to go home earlier this week two days after my eye sugery with what I thought was a problem with my eyes, but evened up being a problem with high blood pressure. I was supposed to have a doctors appointment today but it ended up being resheduled to tuesday of next week because my doctor had a funeral to go too. 

My blood sugars are starting tgo run find. I just need to check them more. 

I am looking at getting a freestyle libra. And just waiting for the insulin. 

I started going to WW again but I found out that i am gaining weight. Probably because of all the unhealthy stuff I’ve been eating. 

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What a great deal! :)

Well,

I got a quote from my audiologist on replacement hearing aids. and it was going to cost me around 2000 dollars to gget them replaced. 

I waited and waited to get something done about it. I can’t hear and it really makes me angry.  So I figured well I try sam’s club and see if I can get hearing aids 719.00 for a pair. What a great deal. Unfortinutely, I am having to cash in some saving bonds to get them but that’s ok I need them at some point. 

And I found a great place to get my glasses. I am going to get those through walmart.  

mY DIABETES IS GOING OK. MY NUMBERS ARE STARTINGT O CREAP HIGHER AND ITS STARTING TO SCARE ME. i KONOW ONE DAY i’LL END UP ON INSULIN AND HONESTLY i WANT IT TO BE SOONER RATHER THAN LATER. i AM SICK OF JUST TAKING PILLS AND DGIVING MYSELF A SHOT ONCE A DAY. mY bOSS JUST GOT PUT ON INSULIN AND i KNOW i AM NOT THAT MUCH FARTHER BEHIND. 

mY WIFE’S aUNT JUST DIED A FEW WEEKS AGO AND i KNOW THE PAIN OF LOOSING A LOVED ONE. iT HURTS BAD BUT OUR DOG HAS BEEN A GREAT COMFERT TO HERR.   

wELL i’LL TRY AND UPDATE TOMORROW. hAVE A GREAT NIGHT EVERYONE. 

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Death still concerns me

Well,

Sorry everyone, I’ve had a lot going on lately. But I’ll start getting back into blogging. 

I’ve lost a lot of people in my life from family to friends. Most where believers but what do you do for the none believier. The one who doesn’t believe in an afterlife? 

My wife has to go to Denver tomorrow to see her Aunt probably for the last time. Her aunt has lived for six to eight years with agressive colon cancer. The doctors just stopped treatment. The treatment wasn’t really prolonging her life it was just making her sicker. She’s just svared to die. Because she doesn’t believe there is aGod. I know that a God exists because I’ve seen him. I wish her peace and hope that she finds God. 

Also next week its my first vacation with my job and I am going to Tennessee to see my Aunt and Uncle. My Uncle by all right should be dead. He’s outlived most people with conjestive heart failure. He’s on a meldonan bag to keep his heart going. But lately I feel its getting to the end of his time on earth. He just keep getting woese. He is also retaining fluid and generally just feel horrible and spends more time sleeping than awake. I just hope it will be an enjoyable experience. 

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well... Here’s the thing

I’ve been doing art a lot more adn i really seem to be enjoying it.  As far as the daibetes goes i am getting back on the train and going to check my blood sugart before work.Well, We are looking for another place to live. And I am looking for a new job. While I like my job. I know I can do so much better for myself. Which is why I am going to go back to johnson county community college and get  acertificate in Graphic design and I am going tot  try and get adobe certified. 

I will be proud at this point even if I just have a certificate. I don’t need a full degree with what I am doing. I am going to attenpt my best. 

As far as the weight goes I was doing so well at loosing weight. But I gained it alll back because i like to have lunch out of the vending machine. So I think I am just going to stop eating lunch fora  while and just eat dinner and see if that helps at all. I know switching to water is going to help. aS FAR AS THE DIABETES GOES i AM GOING TO CHECK Myh numbers before I go into work and check them periodicially though out the day. Maybe that’s the reason why I don’t sleep  very well. 

As far as my mental health goes. it seems to be going great. 

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Fell off the wagon

Well, I am finally off of overtime at work for at least this week, its only been going on since before november and trust me ww are all tired. Its nice to know that I don’t have to go in until 9 all week. I can actually catch up on my sleep. 

I hope everyone has a great easter with family and friends or both. We skipped mass to go with my in laws to church and honestly I felt a little bit out of place. Church should not be an hour and a half. I am sorry if you can’t say what you need to say in five minutes to 10 its not worth saying. 

I took my night time meds early in the morning and I slept most of my day away fro the exception I was partially awake for dinner at my in laws house. I ate and then preceded to sleep on the couch in the basement for an hour or two. I’ve slept six hours already through out the day so now I am just going to be awake I think all night. I definetly won’t be following the bottle insurctions again. It told me to take it in the morning but it makes me so sleepy I guess I need to take it at night. 

My diabetes has taken a back seat. I was really good at checking it but then I feel off the wagon. I guess i just need to get back on. I feel so much better when I have m sugars in check and knowing exactly what they do. I’ve been eating horribly the past few weeks but that’s going to change and I am going to start going back to ww. I think I’ve gained about five pounds back but I know I can easily loose it. 

As far as future plans we are starting to amke them I plan on transfering to an aramark plant in chicago and live in the suburbs of chicago and just cummute to work everyday. I know I will get a raise and the cost of living will be hire but it should work out prett well. Em’s ready for a move and a fresh start and I am ready to not be dependent on anyone. I was made to be an independent person and that is exactly what I need to be. I hate being reliant on people especially for rides when I know there are plenty of town with great public transportation.  Who knows I may even get a better job from moving. So sometime hopefully by the end of the year. 

As far as kids go none yet. We’ve been trying and we have also tried adopting ans we haven’thad any success on either front. I told my wife today that maybe we wheren’t supposed to have kids in Kansas. 

I am just chilling at home listening to WGN chicago.