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Two DTIYS entries of @wonder-waffle93 characters from the last couple weeks. First is Mosh, second is Astrid

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I hate how much I want to just throw out every project I’m working on out the window and just start over. It’s so exhausting to just get myself to draw nowadays since I have irl daily shit I have to do and worry about constantly. Literally, if you’re excited to become an adult, trust me you’re not.

I also hate that I’m dreading going to Disney World in October (I mean who tf does that?). It’s just a big ass expense on top of other expenses that keep slapping us (my husband and I) in the face. I can’t find a dog sitter cuz my dog is a pain in the ass, AND I have to update all of my accounts with my new name.

Don’t even mention how much I should tell my husband about this. I do, he gets upset. I try to explain, he gets upset. I give him the reigns, he still gets upset. I know I’m not in charge of other people’s feelings, but he’s my husband.

Also, like how am I NOT supposed to be in charge of others’ feelings AND be honest AND trust them? You can either try to say the right things to make them feel good even if those things are false, OR you can say the wrong things to make them feel bad even if those things are true. There is literally no in between.

And yeah, you can’t “make people” feel things, they’re in charge of their own emotions and shit, but then what is life about? Are we supposed to not interact at ALL or continue to tiptoe around everything you say all the time?? What’s the point of the circular and back and forth shit? It’s torture I say, and I’m so tired of it.

I’m so fucking tired man.

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I’m so tired of thinking

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Every 21st century piece of writing advice: Make us CARE about the character from page 1! Make us empathize with them! Make them interesting and different but still relatable and likable!

Every piece of classic literature: Hi. It's me. The bland everyman whose only purpose is to tell you this story. I have no actual personality. Here's the story of the time I encountered the worst people I ever met in my life. But first, ten pages of description about the place in which I met them.

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I swear i only post here when I interpret my “perfect” life as being the worst life anybody could ever imagine

So yeah ignore me I’m just a person who shouldn’t be sad. Everything is fine over here

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📄 #paperback20k 🥳

Wanted to join the big collab for kelp_OCs on insta for hitting 20K !!! I always love their art and work and they deserve all of the love and attention!! I’ve been wanting to join their Collab for a long while and I’ve finally made it happen with this one! 🧡

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Taki follows all the big heroes religiously and is a big fan theorist and frequents all the hero forums! She is especially a big fan of Paperback and definitely had a hunch she and Ectoplasm were a thing 👀 So this was quite the surprise and a treat for her theory to get proven like this! Also can’t forget how much she is geeking out on the inside 😆

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Taki @fyreglyphsdesigns

Paperback @kelp_ocs (Instagram)

Boku No Hero Academia (c) Kohei Horikoshi

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You may NOT use any of my art in any way (copy, edit, reproduce, trace, repost, add to AI, or otherwise use this image) online.

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Currently trying to console a follower on camera app and got an RP-like reply in their message which is the biggest red flag to me.

Please don’t do that. I’m not that person anymore. When I do see that, I avoid it.

But fuck, I can’t just block them now.

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Part of me thinks I just need to be more transparent on the camera app and it’s titter equivalent but nobody wants to hear the shit that goes on my head and I don’t want to bother them with it. Plus it’s connected to my Fb/it’s own Fb account and my mom follows me there and she doesn’t want believe I have mental problems anyways so

I swear if any of my irl or people who follow my art account found this one 🫠

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☀️ A Warm Summer Day ☀️

Ahh I'm so happy this piece is finally done! 😁 This post has been a LONG one in the making, and I am so glad with how it turned out! I wasn't planning on making season pieces for Taki, but ever since I posted that fall one I guess I have to complete the set 😅 Enjoy!

Also~! I post bonus content and sketches on my Instagram, where you can find character lore and other shenanigans! 🥰

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I literally cannot tell if I am shadowbanned on that damn camera app or I’m just fucking annoying wtf

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Sometimes I hate drawing, because I was told at a young age that it’s worth pursuing because it could sustain you in life.

Sometimes when I look at a blank canvas all I can think of is how this would improve my reach and possibly earn money off of it.

Sometimes I’m sad that my hobby has become an obligation and I only feel good doing it when I receive praise for it.

Sometimes I hate it here.

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I hate waking up with that tickling numbness feeling, it always lasts the entire day. Yay

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I’m tired of “making it work” why can’t it just “work”???????

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I hate the feeling when you need to get shit done and you know you need to get shit done but there’s too much you need to get done and all you do is schedule yourself to get said shit done and the more shit you have to get done is thrown at you you get too tired thinking about all the shit you need to get done that you procede to go numb and unavailable to get anything done

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Why do I return to live in a fucking 100 degree state when I despise the heat 😭

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