A previously joint project in experimental conjoined creativity...perhaps it will wander back there someday..right now it is what it is, somewhat solo...mostly poems and pictures...occasionally wandering into my interests in Houdini, Lewis Carroll, keys, time, birth and many more of the odd explorations that make me, well me
birthdays count time and stand outside of its constraints, as magic marks me happy on Harry Houdini’s 148th
with unfumbled fingers he loosened the rules
the shell of beliefs broken
delicate cracks decorate the once clear glass
reality reforms in his words spoken
and i truly do believe that wonders will never cease
that no matter how many locks and watery enclosures he clothes and closes himself in
he will still breathe
all gasps and theatrics
warmed water carried in buckets, carrying his body’s heat
in drips and puddles on a wooden stage
as he stands heaving air in greedy gulps of triumph
and we feed upon the trick and skill of it
his heart tripping over itself to the beat of the crowd’s disbelief
it brings him back from upside down, from underneath
each time, each tour, each city
the strength of his mind, his fingers
in quiet wonder i am exhaling
only to pull the air sharply back, holding it
as precious as keys and needles
my mouth a careful collection of delicate things
all possible paths forward into freedom
as he bows choreographed and water flies from his hair in a dance between air and stage
the sizzle of lights
shattering
reality falls from me like a layer of ice
and escaped i stand coated in the warm darkness of the theatre’s wings
believing
Just wanted to make a small announcement that some of my poems have been published as a chapbook. It is called Breadcrumbs and I am so happy with how it has turned out....if you would like to read more about it or pick up a copy (currently 25% off for holiday deals) please follow the link <3
(I have not been posting on here much (combination of life stuff and my phone no longer being compatible)....I am trying to fix these things and hope to be back to posting poetry and pictures soon....)
gone astray, alight
darkly glowing, with gleam and glee
this is a way of being lost
of being freed from the normal path
not seeking a way back,
she wanders off
she wonders herself along,
she is ravished away
every step on an enchantment encroaching
a pull further forward
the forest holds both life and death,
cradled with equal care,
(and none can say who you will meet)
hold your name in your mouth,
steal your story back— off the pages of tragic authors,
try not to forget the whys and wheres and whos that you need
let them flutter and fly like feathered things,
bread-beckoned birds
call them forth and feed them upon your own words
—my mother told me i looked like an apple tree,
then immediately noticed i was wearing strawberries
....but still mothers know things, hold worlds
as they once held you, swirling
your own worlds nested inside—
an apple tree is wise and fruitful,
a sweet tart snap, heavy with metaphor, juicy with it
i aspire myself into apples,
while acknowledging my otherness
more of a tumbled, thoughtful (trying for triumphant) toad
i am striving to see similarities
i am flocked, flustered, frustrated
i am haunted with thoughts of flying off
if i weren’t heavy with fear, if i did not feel so rooted here
in the way of old trees, (ah, yes,
how is a toad like an apple tree? not very)
they hold their ground, are held by their ground
we make our own forests, surround ourselves in our own sensations,
in our own sacredness,
shed like leaves into the space around us
and step forward, furthered into the forest
the secrets shudder and dash off,
shy as feral beings
and i am hungry, starving, searching them out
speak to me in symbols, the obvious the and occult
let me feel the shapes, sift them together
until they shuffle and settle into some form
of sense, of story
into the pull of possibility
i step deeper, drawn down the layers of leaves
left and gone
the colors of the past—
darker and more vibrant as memory than moment
stirred up through the movement, this unexpected dance,
rebalancing and forging a path
of not knowing where i should be and so running, a flash of me
with flourishes and gasps
to burst without grace or breath into the clearing next
framed in forest, falling from arms into arms, over and down
drawn to the ground,
gravity somehow stronger than myself unsettled
a reminder that some things are everywhere
and must be faced
i am lost and found
i hold my face in my hands, in your hands
palms full of stories pressed so close i can whisper into them
these outlines, storylines, skins
shed and kept,
where they lie and lead
slip through your fingers
neon and velvet, incongruous,
out of step, a glint from the quiet filtered shadow of this place
a fall with certainty, a thing not of these trees
and the clearing can close in, surround us
our forms furthered forward filling it
which way did the shape shift?
the question is unasked, unnoticed
we are too involved in creating, cultivating change
i am wearing the winter’s snow,
as earth does, like a cloak
over the pause of rest before regrowth,
over this skin that i can call my own
the air held closer by clouds, scattered, scudding
the flash past of the hidden and shown sewn into each moment
this is darkness, the sky poked through with stars
this is quiet voices, softened and stifled
frozen into layers of cold
i am breathing into my own patience,
longing for the forward step, one foot balanced before the next
a circus tightrope in the stretch between trees
there are no spotlights in the forest depths,
the saturated colors lie beneath the darkness
they do not need to be seen to exist
i am walking these lines between
in as much balance as can be called up,
strung together in words
i have named all the entities, and they call back and forth to me
as feet and ankles flex and soften into steps,
into the lift and release,
the large and small muscle tensions of holding myself together
and if i fall the ground will catch me
and if i fall no one will see me
how will you know if i fall? am fallen?
have lifted myself up, stone struck,
stuck by leaves and thorn
there is blood in streaks, in rising red
a sunset smeared across my skin, blazing
and left salted like the ocean, metallic as the earth
i exist in the pull between things,
in the rush within that welcomes this small break
gulping at the air, swallowing itself scarlet
savoring this unsecreting, being briefly seen
sensed, sensing because there is balance
even after falling, even with me alone
where no one knows
in secret, with secrets, wearing them smooth and thin
new blood and old scars, like a map
paths to trace and follow, there and back
though the destination may not be a forest deep
or an ocean peopled full with undisclosed creatures
or a city wild and wise in its tower and sprawl
those vast places that conspire to cast you small,
humbled, eat-me-drink-me-almost-disappeared, before them
i prefer my disappearing acts leading into some wonders un-ceased climax
with a reveal, a revelation
lift the trunk top, pull the curtain aside,
open your hand, heart, eyes, mind
all at once
remember that falling can be part of rising
we are waves
hold me, as i am, briefly
into the spin, the cycle, the rearrange
and do not forget to say a quiet warm, wow, beneath your breath,
as i change
thirty-four years ago there was a broken compass
and a first grade child sent into the forest
to explore
i still explore, a bear likely would not notice the difference of age
there are bears in the woods
the forest is practically full of them
though that is not how the food chain works,
apex predators are not densely distributed
it must be my stories slipped from memory,
it must be my fear,
its fur so dense i lose my fingers in it
-warm and soft like a mouth,
past the sharpness of teeth and far before the stomach
right in the pulse of it, and the sensations shift
the fear melts into something else
and i think maybe the bear got inside of me,
shudder slipped, like a shadow through my skin
perhaps i am not quite complete in this humanity after all
that explains a bit
or it doesn’t
i can’t decide, and no matter what you think i carry a sense of that bear with me
i feed it honey and wind-fall apples,
roses (petals and hips, frostbit)
the sap of pine trees, if no one stops me
and other bits of the edible wild,
the bear devours it all
there is fury and abandon and a desire for pinecones
but i must draw some lines
and i do, because i am not knowledgeable in foraging
and have deep fears of poisonings
even so i am drawn to the mushrooms,
i visit them, admire them,
share their space and sparing touch,
proximity to their poison being enough
and i never ever taste them, they never touch my mouth
not even when the bear bits want for them
no. i thrive within boundaries
-at least the ones i agree to
the others i simply step around and cover with leaves
so that leaping them is a celebration
clear the crimson crunch of fall
-feet to earth, heel and dirt
i pick up all my favorites, more precious that late blooming flowers
this autumn confetti that tells me how intoxicating release can be
i open my mouth, red like sugar maples
and there could be a roar,
barred teeth, the claws just beneath
and there is a frog instead
green and slick in the slip
the cheer, the welcome of it
you see the forest is full of frogs as well
it all depends on where you look
-beyond the trees or beneath the dampness of leaves
and frogs are full of stories and shy in certain settings
they may be worth the risk of a bear
this frog toad telling
in which some i have made up almost entirely,
and some reside inside of me
finding my way back to belonging in this body,
maybe a new tattoo will help, maybe a swim
what more do i want than to stand waist-deep in ocean,
to feel the pull of the sea, trying to swallow me
to find my footing over and over again,
a tenuous sand-stone-shell grip
to say i love you, and i want you —and no, not yet
all in one breath
one heartbeat, one dream, one lifeline,
thrown over a pier, stretched between small ships,
placed into the spaces between words,
maybe in a bottle
to try to balance time and place
and the ideas that race across my windswept mind
all the clouds and clearings, all the collected trinkets and thoughts
that when arranged just so, create a sense of home
to be vulnerable in the small softness of myself
to let that happen
to allow and acknowledge the juxtaposition
of volume and vastness, the celebration of smallness
the wild freedom of insignificance
i hold these things about myself
they cling to me, like seaweed and the wet fabric of my swimsuit
i am wearing physical truths
in the cold slap of ocean water,
stirred up by the air, into the air
it pulls me into its arms
and pushes me away, just as hard
i am learning to be more fluid
with change and chance and happenstance,
to taste the salt and sweet and what lies between
bitter and tart and delicious
to be in the rush of what is
to find the balance of acceptance and acquiescence
and still play an active role in my own reality,
naming it as i wish,
because this is a way to shape and reshape experience
swirling with power and powerlessness
and i am in over my head, spun about and fog-led
the fish have eaten all my breadcrumbs
leaving the path soggy and unclear
a splash in the face, a whisper in my ear,
we are not meant to go back
so give yourself to being here,
this i take as solemn truth
swallow it whole before anything beneath can do the same to me
i gave my breadcrumbs willingly
and vow my toes, each and every, be mine to keep
to carry me out,
slow and salty, into the shallows and sand
i find myself given back to gravity and the wrecks and wonders of dry land
take me heavy with flaws
and the flow of change upon us all
tucked into the tide, cover me with comfort,
with perspective, with ideas
we pass the words back and forth, in cycles
these are things i need, to say, to hear
-it is what it is, it is what we feel it is,
what is possible
this is playful, purposeful
we are all transforming
dress me up in purpose,
i am feeding myself on all the flavors of possibility
i can still feel the swirls of sea about my hips,
the tug of the lifeline of words
i am home, no matter how that is redefined, held,
holding a promise and a reminder
that this body is temporary
and mine, as it is and as it once was and as it becomes
i claim agency in living in and through it, through time,
in how i create my experience, my sense of
land and skin and ocean
love and want and bottles of words
no lifeguard please, an exploration in preferring to swim at my own risk
a small warning: i like the water cold and deep and too dark to see my feet
and i am sensitive, and i am particular,
and i am too often overly articulate
also i am scared of being sick,
much more scared of sickness than sharks
another warning: you are not allowed to be sorry for me
consider it forbidden, strictly so
-not now, not then, not in the-who-knows of what is yet to come
no i’m sorrys-
none- you are not permitted to speak them
i want your words used differently
-there will be no mourning over maybes
you must see me as i am, here
decorated in my flaws
and celebrate every messy step
raw and real, mistakes missteps right along
and i will not be sorry for any of what brought this
body-self to here
scarred and marked, and problematic
ongoing
what gets torn and reformed along the path
i cannot exist in a different form than this
and i crave imperfections and acceptance,
welcome them like water
that pushes me toward surface, that wants me to float
i want happiness to have me
as is, as am, as may one day be
-muddy up the dirt that once was me
though, not yet
take your time with me
i do not exaggerate to say i am worth the wait,
the work, the blood-skin-nerves, the energetic space
you may offer me, i may offer you
and you must not refuse
this is a reach underwater,
my arms beneath surface
outstretched, reflecting all the lights of rising moon and sinking sun
and holding space for the unseen below,
in the way that water touches so much all at once
in the stretches of shore to shore and sunlight to sea-floor
there is talk of sharks and change
i cannot hear over the stirring waves
though, it holds presence
and in response, i swim out deeper
over my head and fully here
sharks and change both bringing necessary fear
real and unseen and mirrored in many things
the flash of cloud, the splatter-jump of fish,
the sudden cold current shift
the gentle plunge, under into
cover me with water, i want it saltier than my tears
so when it beads into reflective droplets,
as it drips and dries
it is an offering, a cleansing
this adventure in not being eaten
my self left whole and thinking
the under and aboves of having surfaces
the layers of submersion and re-emerging
my face in ocean,
mouth touching water, at the edge of almost,
almost, almost surfacing
a want of air and shared time
another fear swimming past
more teeth, less time
the tick and tock of a neverland croc
and we have no time!
-no time, no time-
i am in a loop, get ashore, stop repeating
don’t say it
and you don’t, you celebrate what is
your easy laughter, a life saver lift
then the scent of rain
then rain itself
consensual illusion of allusion to the belief in magic
Harry-
in the shadow of the wonderwheel
wait, has that been written, spoken?
was it by me? about me?
it is something i think so frequently that it has substance
holds its own space
in sand and sudden sound brought back
in a veil of stockings and salt air
and sun-drawn-sweat dotted across sweet Bess
nested in shade, she tastes of spun sugar and silk
with sand sifting through her fingers
she spins story upon story
casting the stage for our meeting made
more softly sensational, more friendly fashioned
into the history, the remembering- for parents, news, biographies
she is fast on her tiptoes and her tongue
forever thinking us up and forward
into the splash, into the headlines, into the sea
plunging into publicity, from city to city
she tells me in whispers, in giggles impossible not to smile for
of, about some acid dress school-stage accidental mess
she is magnetic in feigned and literal innocence
the story spilled all over her, she draws me in with it, with her
a hand clasped dash through the hallways like a maze
and i am amazed
it is not the grit of sawdust and singsong performance
that i recall, though it is a gift
time slips and i can easily follow along
with her humming the tune, the uncanny harmony of how it all happened
and the many storied ways we said that it did
and they ring with their own truths
the tune of their telling familiar
the unknown number of times until it echos back
to when it never was
a shared stage, my brother, the way she fit into every small space
like a glove, peel the silk back
a metamorphic snap
and the ocean of applause drags us happy along
giddy and beach-blessed, our future cast in the roar of waves
we take a bow to empty shells and the tumble of sea smoothed stones
this is practice and she did not laugh
she took me serious beyond my own twinkling sincerity
the tide comes in in a rush
and i am over my head even on dry sand
the stars spin like the amusement rides beyond the boardwalk
i want the wheel to lift us closer to them
though we are them
and i lift her mouth to mine
and in the presence of oaths and promises, we shine
our cheeks slapped into roses
we stand shaking in the suddenness of falling into our future
Bess-
back to the beach of beginnings
the wheel turns round in the lighted lift and lope
the gentle loop of years illuminated, transformed
we are transforming
your arms, with names rising from the ashes,
wrapped around me and we shine into each other electrically
i leap into your lift, from the trunk-trick as if weighing nothing
my metamorphosis-wings unseen
-trade places with me behind the curtain,
beneath the surface-
i had never been asked anything with more mystery and assurance
each spirit about me shouted, and the rest of my life leaped onward, and started
startled by the yes that echos in every bit of me
and i mean it, that yes
i want you small time circus as much as someday broadway stage
and all the betweens
the touch stone coming homes
of back to Coney Island, shade and shine
the energetic spark of starting
startling, how we stand on this beach of becoming
how we became over and over,
become me, Harry
the dark, sudden start, three seconds
as we switch our spaces and trade our names
into story, into books, into synonymous sayings
name someone magic
and they pull you back out of history and into words
where i want you still
even through the red glow and the pronounced farewells,
some version of me seance-spoke on a someday storm dressed roof
that’s too far forward-
fall back, to an ocean splashing against an uncanny beach
catch my eye while electricity burns and dazzles
and i don’t even miss the stars
as i lean on your shoulder, speak into your elfin ears
saying this future is ours
hold me so close i can feel us both humming
a shared tune, as secrets slip and you call me Rosabel
with your lovely liars lips
and we both believe
it was an opening, an expanse
it is vast, and unfolding all around us
between pages, between lines
i thought i saw, felt, heard you
it was a flash of memory, or something made up,
thought up, from damp earth and forest floor
bright from the murk
gone green into the glow and drift of spring
when everything is new and sudden and feeding
the exuberance of it
in the mix, in the beating pulse of thunder
the kind you can feel radiate through the earth,
and the floor boards
all the blood of a heartbeat, and sap awoken
and grown sticky, in celebration
my fingers all tack and pitch
so that you do not want to hold my hand
beware of being caught up in me
standing alone in the rain fed mud,
i am wearing almost an armor of green
maple spinners abound, we are freshly fallen
they dust my shoulders, nest in my hair
i am attracting rabbits
i am messy in all this newness
song and fur and seeds
the air gone wild,
all a shock of green, shade upon shade
everything is breathing and nothing is subtle
and i am so often striving for subtlety,
beneath all these layers of me
if you pluck up courage to ask,
if you lift the greens with conscious care,
with curiosity, with patience
i do have other colors
though you will be required to sort the sundries of my pockets
plentiful with rocks and shells and acorns
you will need to wade through the rambles of my stories
for the paths and the truths
there will be laughter
before you find that i feel like old leaves and new flowers
and taste of pine trees
those are revelations left to later,
to the fumbling of fall, because autumns have always been times of opening
into new flavors of what can be
though the older i find myself the less i can cling to patterns,
and the more i can sense them
i am still woven into the past, the present, my dreams
i am healing through and into something
yet to be defined
my meanings are all my own
you may give me grounding with your voice
but do not think that you can capture me with your words
you may hold me, temporary, fleeting
a flutter in your palm
if you can handle how sticky i am
but holding is not taming and it is timely,
the rabbits are circling
and choices must be made
perhaps i will turn back into a toad
and hop away
perhaps i will keep telling you from which i came
the right kiss may help me stay
though it is unknown if my mouth be sticky as my hands
are you wary of the risk?
most are
and it is always a choice
i am promising no glamor
stay, stay, stay safe
i am speaking to both of us
this is not a demand, this is not compelling
i am wishing all around us, through seeds and rabbits and sap
rushing into slow motion
a merriment of mouths found
and pressed
in a pause, like flowers between pages
Houdini’s birthday, which wasn’t his birthday, but was, and is because so much can continue when it is carried forward
brush the curtain aside
the heavy velvet folded crimson over and into itself,
there is glass, a shimmer in the once gas lights
water contained upon this long ago stage
and more
a man, a memory—in wool and metal,
wet and reversed
he is the magician, he is the hanged man,
the king of wands, and cup upon cup
upon cup of water piled up
in stocks and stacks and saucers
safely contained
in milk cans and chambers, splashing over with danger
river water rushing against your lips
a drink of thirst, a drink of success,
my glass raised to flow, to fullness
drunk enough to swallow our fears
and vitamins, and medicine, and competition
alive
and don’t forget the needles and thread
wash them down, deliciously, a glint in the glass,
in the secret glow of your mouth
into your body, along with your body
while you give the whole house their wish
allowing them to worry over and again
that you will drown
asleep under the tunes, as time ticks away
and gasp after gasp escapes
the audience’s dry mouths,
wishing after wanting you
watery, with the stage lights reflecting
and you are wet and removed,
right side up, and all at once improved
breathing in gasps, a mess of triumph
as if you are feeding upon their applause,
their shock, like electricity
and you shine,
illuminated out of the shadows dancing about your edges,
the crinkles dancing about your eyes
this is what i remember
and your hands
in a rush of cards and coins, buttons, ties
the quick click of small mechanisms,
the perfect slip of a key, fitting quietly
how everything can fall into place
its place, a place
the fast rush of the narrows beyond the stage
the hollows of theatres that you have filled
how they hold you, how you haunt them
because no one is forgetting the feeling of your being
your life still being mapped, traced back, marveled at
and that is magic—how do you do that?
your ability to go on inhabiting
i hear you in the fret and force,
where the handcuffs fall with nuance and knowing
and the skillful turn of pick and phrase
a dance of fingers, with no fumbling
and i have to say that i love how your wrists look unadorned, unlocked
free by their own practiced means,
blood and tendons and pulse held within
tender skin
because this is physical—
grit and groan and come into your own
a sigh
sighs seeping through submerged crates,
a flooding of sighs and you must escape
before you get in over your head and beyond your breath
another sigh
a semblance of strength within this stretch of time
rabbits cradled in your arms, the velvet of their ears so near
your precision joints, arms unveiled
because you want us to think what you want
nothing hidden, nothing held back
the labyrinth of corridors
from upside down to dressing room,
your damp footprints pressing a path
the truths, your stories, both
scattered and stretched in print, spoken through your stillness
i think of exponential handcuffs, seances spread like tea parties,
hung from my heels surety,
your mouth under the water of an icy bathtub,
your mouth under the water of an icy river,
salt air in the wonderwheel lifting you up from sand and city,
an illuminated island of dreams beyond dreams
will wonders never cease?
it is all still you, your name
given in exchange at the ask of magician
cards turned over and palmed
velvet curtains, velvet rabbits
Harry, here and now
a magical habit
Streams of light, streams of water....and joy and hopefulness, and small quiet celebrations...these things still happen and i would be remiss not to observe them, not to mark and note and revel within what i am able to
bring me wary to the woods, warm my frozen fingers over reminding words
half of the forest was haunted
that’s what we used to say think know
looking back though it was all haunted
i am thinking, knowing, telling you that we carried the haunting with us
into the forest, from it
in our pockets, laced into our shoes,
wrapped around the slightness of our fingers
it follows
in dappled darkness and brightest noontide
i can almost touch it back into the silver slip of moon
the curve and crease of your smile
i can sense it in the subtle slide, set aside for later
for keeps, to play over when i need a lifeline,
a draw into dream and sleep, a wayward way back into before
a touchstone, my hand reaching
the softness, the baby-fat, the smallness of a curve
a step too soft to write itself into story
even with its existence as sure as my own
dropping to my knees in the forest unseen
i am not memorizing this path or identifying plants
i am not calling them by name or marking my way
i am almost lost, even though at certain angles,
ordinary reminders of houses remain
visible in the sunlit beyond
i am not seeing further than this circle of trees
my focus frozen into these subtle boundaries
we are not deep enough, so i must keep my layers on
and i do — though in my mind i am dressed in air and light alone
there are rules, and they echo
as i ignore them over and again,
go within, and court the lostness
if we make friends you will shed what makes you scary and scared,
like leaves and coats and the petals of apple trees
cycles softer than snow, falling slow
i am here wearing a costume,
this fabric that consumes the reality of my skin
yet any fairytale witch knows it is impossible to hide what lies within
layers upon layers with velvet cloaks
and still we glow
and so i hold the forest as it holds me
both haunted and dear
because nature is full of dualities
and i have never identified as a single way forward
so let my imperfections and my complexity be my beauty
if such a term exists in such a way that i can claim it
this is a test
like once when we found the very edge, where the haunting began,
joined hands and together stepped over under, through
like a dance
as if the moment were choreographed
and so the question is, did you shiver?
did you listen to the winter woods?
the way their whispering comes down to us
like a forest snow, feather ice, touch me gentle through the razor air
the rub and rattle of wind, rushes between their branches
grown closer to cloud than to our reach
and it is eerie when, in the middle of that music,
the air beneath is all stillness against us
and in the contrast we watch the woods work their way through
feeling what we cannot
standing grounded, ankle deep in ice
i wonder what you feel think know
as i radiate the snowy cold,
rose apple cheeks, sugar bright
we are searching out our spirits in this seance of pines
hold my hands beneath their greenery
and there is the sense of presences and pulses
a surround of sleeping trees, still exchanging stories underneath us
and i keep stutter stumble falling
just from standing
my balance questions itself, toes catch, roots hold, my knees bend
back to falling in the forest
and i find myself breathless at the bottom
swallowed in the earthen corridors of countless rabbit holes
trying to track my way back in the absence of a magnet pulling north
the snow helps
though i still get my footsteps confused within the web of other creatures’
they ramble on
and i weave my way out
earth grass snow, numb fingers
attempting to hold on, my hands in your hands
and did you look back?
do not break the circle now
here nothing can touch us
the forest fingers unforgotten
stayed into the roar and ramble of air beyond our backs
there is no going back
and i speak this protection over us and into the snow pressed tracks
this surround, this orbit of others
the ones leading into the past, the future
forward and back, rocking gently heal to toe,
they appear around us
the rabbit deer robin-red-breast onward
our paths, pulses, hearts marked
held and haunted, we gather ourselves into this here
and focus forward, melting away what remains of fear, of trembling
have i ever told shown you how my teeth chatter-rattle?
i need to stop holding it, let the energy fly
in raindrops and forward floods, gently into mist and fog
we see only what is ours,
and i am missing my daydreams, my moreness, my you
then and now, at once
so speak the spooky stories into my truths
the ones that can pull this place back
give me the shivers safely, scare away the fear
so that even when the thaw is upon us
the forest is all still here
i am repeating myself
do you remember?
did you swallow the answers?
you cannot pass further unless you speak them right
i can wait, am waiting, have been
here, wary and warm, amused
unassuming, all by myself
i do so dislike tests
extra credit if you know my name
if you remember
if you spit the answers into the secret snow
and don’t burn your fingers touching too much truth
sizzle-crackle-fire-glow
and this keeps becoming something different
so i breathe life into the change
rearrange what i can, transform,
emerge wanting more
Stepping into 41 with all the glow of someone who did not need to spend their birthday meeting with a surgeon this year....40 was a year of huge healing and I am so happy to cross the threshold into a new one...here’s to differences, as I continue to accept mine and do my best to love my body through its flaws and failings and continue finding what is lovely in inhabiting this time and space....this is me—sparkliest cake, brightest hair, aging and changing and all...this is how I rep moving forward...this is how I process and move forward and thrive
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