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bad first week ))): tried h1g h r3 str 1cting and it’s not enough so i’m gonna try 0mad, perhaps for a week and see what happens

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oh okay valid!!! glad u were able to unenjoy it less this time /lh

yall know when they made that Starlight coke. it was alright i guess, was knida disappointed, but i like the new dreamland version (i’ve only tried the Zero kind doe) have yall tried

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oh oop, if you really hated it def don’t like force yourself but yeah i’d be interested to hear your new thoughts if u did retry it mine was kinda “cool” like not cold but slightly chilled, it will def be much better cold in my opinion as well i love a cold soda

yall know when they made that Starlight coke. it was alright i guess, was knida disappointed, but i like the new dreamland version (i’ve only tried the Zero kind doe) have yall tried

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i shared with two friends, one enjoyed and the other did not. seems to be mixed opinions i also have comparatively weak sense of taste compared to most ppl because i have almost no sense of smell T-T so my taste is much different ig

yall know when they made that Starlight coke. it was alright i guess, was knida disappointed, but i like the new dreamland version (i’ve only tried the Zero kind doe) have yall tried

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i don’t have a scale i have no idea what happened in the 2mo that i stopped r3stri(ting (as heavily??? i think that july was on and off and august was just a mess or maybe vise versa idk my memory is failing me), i think i gained some back but not that bad and i think i can rapidly repair any damage done i was in a shite state because cut away from abusive household suddenly, went no contact and picked up my own life. was doing nothing but adulting, manageing that transition and all the emotional bagage, trying to heal from the enviroment, all this crazy shit recently like i wanted to lose but it was the least of my issues and i haven’t been in a position where i *could* control my diet until now now, at the beginning of the new month time for change and i’m happy about that i’m ramblign because i’m exhausted woke up from a nightmare last night on three hours sleep and couldnt go back to bed and i’ve been moving around alL DAy hel p but yeah uhh actually i’m pretty glad to be back. i like you guys. sleep well night viewers

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look at that mf packaging. weirdcore flavour

yall know when they made that Starlight coke. it was alright i guess, was knida disappointed, but i like the new dreamland version (i’ve only tried the Zero kind doe) have yall tried

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dreamworld it’s called dreamworld

yall know when they made that Starlight coke. it was alright i guess, was knida disappointed, but i like the new dreamland version (i’ve only tried the Zero kind doe) have yall tried

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yall know when they made that Starlight coke. it was alright i guess, was knida disappointed, but i like the new dreamland version (i’ve only tried the Zero kind doe) have yall tried

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cool so update sugar addiction is gone, replaced with my caffeine reliance getting worse which i don’t mind because i work at a coffee shoppe and free metabolism booster/appetite suppressant but i’m also poor now  so i can only afford not a lot of food buying enough for dinner for the week almost broke me the job is new so i’ll probably get better as time goes on but i’m on a really, really tight budget so... at the very least, not eating is easy i’ve made a diet for myself that fits the budget so i’ll be doing dinner every night (soup with a side of some cornpuff snacks*, boxed masala with rice, a sandwich from work, something like that), no lunch (maybe a snack if i really need it), and on workdays a very light breakfast to get me through my shift (coffee with a couple tea biscuits and a piece of fruit for example) and also a low cal dessert if i’m feeling a craving!! making it a point to keep at least one kind of low cal/no sugar dessert handy so i don’t overeat to make up for a sugar craving i can’t satisfy yknow *they’re the little russian maize puffs they’re super low cal and great texture and very gentle flavour they’re like. packing peanuts i’m a fiend so it might look like two espresso shots + a peach + two tea biscuits a handful of cornpuffs garam masala with a coke zero a zero suar popsicle /shrug and i worked forever trying to figure out something that felt safe and a good amt of food that i could afford but not too little to make me too lethargic to work but i still enjoyed it, etc etc etc,  anyway this is a big ramble but i just needed to get thoughts about the new diet out, starting conviniently on the first which i believe will keep me motivated. as for if someone takes me out to lunch for example, i think i can just like, compensate by skipping dinner or whatever i don’t know. it’s been like two months since i’ve consistently re5tr*(t3d i am a bit nervous about failure but i believe i can do it

i moved 👍 i gained back some weight so im gonna try to ease myself back into business, tomorrow i'm going for dinner and dessert with my boyfriend tomorrow so i'm not going to eat before that. see how it goes. trying to get rid of my sugar addiction which i gained back again (💔) and stop eating as much as i have been. it's hard but i can do it, send tips/inspp my way you're welcome to

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i moved 👍 i gained back some weight so im gonna try to ease myself back into business, tomorrow i'm going for dinner and dessert with my boyfriend tomorrow so i'm not going to eat before that. see how it goes. trying to get rid of my sugar addiction which i gained back again (💔) and stop eating as much as i have been. it's hard but i can do it, send tips/inspp my way you're welcome to

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what if i stayed up all night exercising on & off instead of sleeping 🤡

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the more they look like me the more the spō works bc im like damn that could be me

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my boyfriend complimented my collarbones today. i didnt even used to have those

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thats the thought process behind chėw+spįt ngl

fucking calories

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wait i don't think i can even lose that much in a week hnnng im still gonna do my best

i did p bad today, not because i had too much normal food (300cał) but because i had too much dessert (malt shake + key lime cheezecake, for no idea how many całs)

so i will be doing ōmad tmrw: miso soup & vegetables for dinner. rules are, i will be offered rice as well, i must decline!! and meat, but i'd decline anyway bc i dont ėat that ever.

it's gonna be a good day. my main motivatįon right now is getting down to "average" bmį in one week (i have to lose 4.8. scary.) and because it's a party and i don't like some of the people there and i want to make them jealous lol

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i did p bad today, not because i had too much normal food (300cał) but because i had too much dessert (malt shake + key lime cheezecake, for no idea how many całs)

so i will be doing ōmad tmrw: miso soup & vegetables for dinner. rules are, i will be offered rice as well, i must decline!! and meat, but i'd decline anyway bc i dont ėat that ever.

it's gonna be a good day. my main motivatįon right now is getting down to "average" bmį in one week (i have to lose 4.8. scary.) and because it's a party and i don't like some of the people there and i want to make them jealous lol

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today i was reaching back around my torso with one arm fsr and it landed on my shoulderbone of my other arm, which was in a position where it jutted out a lot in a way it never was possible to before i łost wėight. it was such a freaking like mini happi moment