oh, sister red. you werenāt even named
for your namesake, but for the blood
he would shed. do you miss the times
from before we met? when you were just
a speck across this interstellar dance hall
and we were just faceless bodies
that neither of us could name? when all we
could do was stare and dream? we are
the greenest, after all, and you
can tell from the envy we watch you with.
we push past our own little silver
sister, our own recently known flesh
and blood. how could we not
feel guilt, pushing her aside
in our pursuit of you? mysterious, red
maiden of the sky and stars. you
mustāve loved it before we knew you. before we
sent scout after scout, rovers only
there to tell us what we wanted
to know. before we mapped out every one
of your mountains and valleys and your
hot plains and cold poles. before we ran
our hands all over you so much
that theyāre stained with the red dust
of your freckles. and we take more
pieces of you home. and more. and more. i donāt
think you can be whole again, but i donāt
want to tell you that honestly. but i can
tell you this: we donāt want
to take you home. we want to
move in. weāre so enamored
with you. weāre so enraptured
by your beauty. weāre so amazed
by the potential you have. thatās what it is,
thatās what i can tell you. it was
wonder, once. but itās not love. we donāt
explore you because we love you. we are
greedy. we aim to amend
a wrong we have done upon ourselves
with you. if we can leave ourselves
behind in favor a future we can carve
into you, weāll be content
for all of five centuries.
we see you and we want you
wholly and entirely.
iām sorry.
ā sister red
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i know what this is like
iāve tasted this part of life time and time again
two decades of experience
- barring the mandatory years of infant ignorance -
i have barely more than you it seems
but i know it, i know it well
surely itās a phase
so iām scared youāre gonna phase right through me
that iāll reach out and ripple a reflection
only to find you trapped down there
unfair ophelia
leaving without taking me with you
i tripped over this by mistake
well, mistake isnāt the right word
that sounds like something that wasnāt supposed to happen
or that i didnāt want
itās the type of mistake i guess
of wearing a sweater in a cramped elevator
from the ground to the roof
master of disguises you are, viola
any face of yours i could watch
and never grow tired
your words, my joan
iāll take to heart
thereās a meta in your madness
until i lose you to your fire
but would you be scared to see and smell
all the smoke that comes from my mouth
i have so many confessions to give
like i love you, i love you
but i canāt risk chanting that to a crumpled car
so only if you sit here across the lawn
iāll lament over all the times i couldāve said it earlier
and hope it ends a bit more to the tune of your tales
than the style of mine
ā phase
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when you read this i want you
to take a lighter to the bottom corner of the page
and let it eat my thoughts before you
can read them all
i struggle to write realistically
blatantly and honestly
and make it sound poetic
- just ask last notebook i wasted
itāll tell you why i swore off it too -
iāve run through about three scripts now
āhowāre your poems going?ā
āiām going to a show this friday night and itās free for usā
āany valentineās day plans?ā
throwing away all the cliches about hearts with those
i think the heart is like a bulb of garlic
small and firm in the palm of your hand
you have to peel back the layers
to get to what you want
and even then
you often have to crush it
to get to the best parts
to add to your little dinner called life
and a lot of people find it gross
when you smile and speak to them
with hints of it still on your breath and in your teeth
i had a dream with you there
then i rolled over and got nauseous
what does that make of this?
on the verge of my teenage years
youād think iād have more experience
instead all my works are about hurt
unless iām fibbing to make something edible
i like getting wrapped up in your words
tangled in tragic romance
or in lines the color of tooth-ache
iād let you pull my strings too
it wouldnāt take much but iād let you poise me how you please
by your tongue and pen and face
does that count as a cliche?
i end up falling into those often
almost as much as i fall into this
and by the time you get to this point
my words will be nothing but ashes
or cinders or soot or whatever the right term is
i have faith in my longwindedness
to have stalled the confession long enough
for thatās what all this was
a poem of confession
using every word except the ones i mean
to tell you the one thing iāve been dying to
and with this ending i hope
those words die too
taken to the wind with the shreds of this sheet
in hopes i can separate my love for you
from me
ā slow burn
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the collar and leash
ties me to you
because you insist that blood never could
orphaned war hound puppy on the side of the road
fatherās eyes
motherās teeth
makes some sort of savage out of me
with a mouth full of blood
they pin me the monster
and knowing nothing else
i tell them theyāre right
hands over my mouth
loose fangs in their palms
poise nicely
sit pretty
legs crossed and hands folded
take the food gently like a good little beast
for i am a dangerous thing
or so iāve spent my life being told
- and who can trust the words
that roll off the tongue of a creature
so i nod and say the same -
so i must be tame and go only where iām lead
and keep my head down
as thereās little difference between
smiling and baring my teeth
ā the nature of predators
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itās twelve am
itās twelve am
do you know where your ribs are?
do you know where your bloodās going?
what are you staring at?
is it even in front of your eyes?
whatās the pounding inside you for?
what beast is your body protecting you from?
whereās the ringing coming from?
and whereās your security gone?
why does breathing tighten your chest
and every breath starts to hurt?
can you tell me something you see? hear?
smell? feel?
your body is a sludge
your muscles are a stone
the ooze of consciousness
eternally plagues you
can you tell the time on the clock
without falling into the swirl of its world?
drink your glass of water
and start a war in your tight throat
tell me something: now can you taste
the bile no longer buried in your gut?
is the burn of bringing it up and letting it pass
by your lips any bit sobering?
numb to the trembling fingertips
alert to the lightning nerves
you couldnāt even surround yourself with
so much smoke your red eyes canāt keep open
sit yourself down
and tell me where you go
the room is swimming
and youāre drowning
itās twelve am
itās twelve am
can you stay in your body?
can you listen to your mind?
ā kinetosis
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i want to pry your flesh apart
get it stuck under my nails
i wanna be doused in you
soaked to the bone
i want to scrape my teeth with your bones
give me your heart
and if you donāt iāll rip it out anyway
i want to see the way you pulse
i need to know if your heart throbs
the same way mine does
if it flutters
if it pounds like that
with my name on your mind
if i had paid attention in anatomy
iād know if your red oil rushes like that
flushing those round cheeks
was for love or loathe
and maybe i could know if
my fascination with the twitch
of your muscles
and forcing your guts to squirm
the way mine feel like they do
is based on the same
do i love the feel of your
veins tangled like twine
or do i enjoy the thrill of cutting my hands
on your splintered ribs
do i want to see you in shreds
or do i want to break down your parts
and learn you inside and out
the scream was lost in your throat forever ago
so only silence slips past your lips
cherry red and blackberry blue all at once
but your fingers curl on impact
and your nails dig into my skin
finally drawing my blood from me
it feels like it takes forever
for it to snake down my arms
droplets of me joining an ocean of you
isnāt that a bond of some sort
bleeding together
till death do us part
but as we draw it from start to end
is it a rivalās binding or something else
and if i say i want to feel
the sharpness your canines
if that means i can show you mine
to nibble on flesh and veins
to gnaw on bone and muscle
what does that make us
ā dog bone
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i groan āfuck meā
and i half hope you take me up on it
because iām half hoping i can scrape some dopamine from it
but really we know i wonāt
i wonāt enjoy a minute
and i might come crawling out worse
but hey
itās the thought that counts
if i think you do it to love me and help me
ā scrapped lines pt. 15
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i weep for the little frog on the curb
and i mourn for his poor squished body
you mustāve wailed
you mustāve sobbed
you mustāve prayed to whatever little frog god you have
though i wish i knew if you were begging for him
or cursing him for taking you
your mother is probably wondering where you are
your father is probably wonder where he went wrong
i too am a creature of god
not in that he is my father
but i am a creature in his domain
and thereās nothing i can do about it
i am more dangerous than a rabbit
but easier to kill
you enjoyed the cool, rainy nights
and so did i
and you loved the world for all her plants and water
and we liked to watch the same clouds in the same sky
would you accept help from my kind?
would it be any consolation
for me to scoop up your fragile little body
get some soggy dirt stuck under my fingernails
and lay you in there
let it keep you cool and moist until your little frog god
takes you home
ā road toad
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i love you like a noose loves the tree
i love the fact that one of us will kill me
hang āem high, out to dry
dance around the fact that i came here to die
i came here to die
to fling myself into the trap
of your arms and be stuck between your ribs
and rot away to feed you still
i love you like noose loves the tree
like a match loves the book
and to combust for the sake of friction
to give someone a few seconds of heat
i crawl back to you to die in your lap
to stain your skirt like the vultureās possum
that you scooped up, inside out, from the roadside
for a few seconds of affection for a dying creature
a fish bites the hook and i tighten the noose
something holy awaits it as it ascends
i wait for gravity to bring me back
to my unholy little world
iād love for you to let me die
the one form of love i tasked you with:
to slaughter me and butcher me
youāre both my noose and my tree
ā still a love, still a death
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i could see it overhead: the black mold
tarnish on a bleeding plum
sky too rich to be tooth ache. i know
not where i came from, but i know
it grabbed that innocent thing
with a talonās grip as fierce as my
neglected retainer around my
teeth. the childlike squeals could
only be imprinted on your brain
because the siren squawk of unfair
power craved its way into your ears
instead. but who was more
a monster: the wings, or the speaker,
who could feel neither fury
nor anguish when the little one
was dropped to the hogs? if the earth
didnāt take it back on the way
down or by the impact, then there
was no hope for those juvenile whiskers
to be spared from being speared
by the boar tusks, sharper
than the mountains on the backdrop. i was
filled with nothing, but i was given
a purpose by whatever thing controls me
that iāll never understand, but
then, so mightāve the bird. maybe
it was as empty a husk as i, and the only
missive it carried was āthis creature
needs to die.ā a puppet only gets this
clarity after its show ends, when it can see
the puppeteer after he drops the strings
it was strangled with. and so we played
our parts in his show, drawn
to the same eternal center: some eye
of devotion lost to time. the remnants
of a passion, some reverence, now
nothing more than stones retaken
by mother nature. but with no god
left to claim it, itās become my weapon,
just as it mightāve been for the bird
when it was alive. and it sat
there, brown spot on the emerald
green plains (which is a shitty comparison,
actually; when i think of emeralds, i donāt
think of a color that deep and rich).
though it was squared, engraved
with diamonds, dots, jagged
dashes, made half the home of moss,
the edges were smoothed and it felt right
in my heads and over my head
and i became cain. it went up, then came
down with more fervor than gravity
can justify (but what do i know; i started
crying when my best friend tried to
teach me physics last year). the best
worst part was that i could feel
the crunch through my whole body. the perfect
leaf on the sidewalk under my
feet. cracking stiff knuckles. a glass bottle
against a brick wall. an eggshell
in the palm of my hand. the sound
and the feeling sent a shiver to and through
my toes. and so i swung again. there mightāve
been a third, but by then the only one
that could witness was the old abandoned god.
somehow, that beady, yellow eye could still
stare back at me, and it did. yellow
and black and mimicking the sun. there
it sat, dead, decimated, the symbol of
freedom and ferocity and every war
it picked and lost. i left it there
in a crimson stain. i never thought
to bury it. i put the rock, a remnant
of the shrine, back where it was. it didnāt
match the imprint from its ages of sleep; if nothing
else remains by then, someone will come
by and say āsomething happened hereā and who knows
what theyāll think of it. or maybe the blood
on the rock and the moss will dry
and it will become the new
way of life, the eagle the new patron
of sabotage. the soil already began becoming
the birdās coffin. i watched the way the earth
was too eager to claim it and i
wondered just how much our dreams define us.
ā fly, my friends, i have my death wound
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i donāt miss being young
i miss being happy
and i miss you being proud of me
can i be that straight with you?
you didnāt start asking until it was wrapped up
in fancy words and stanzas
do you need a little sugar for the truth to go down?
i think you should take it whole
because i always had to from you
choke on it with your pills every morning
if thatās what it takes for you to know me now
you look at me with a sort of melancholy
that is anything but sober
but through the green eyes i share with you
even i can see that i canāt be your image of perfection anymore
i donāt know who i am
but iām glad that iām not you
and man, arenāt you glad too?
with all iām messing with
and all iāve labeled myself with
i simply canāt be your second image anymore
and that means iāve done what iāve needed to
sorry, father
but iām leaving your garden
and iām dragging my memories with me through the gate
i wonāt say i donāt love you
itās been too long for me to believe myself if i do
but itās more than that
i canāt be on your leash and i know youād love to keep me there
thereās a reason i kept running when you opened the door
instead of running back around to the front of the house
i have to still love you
but i look back on every fond thing iāve written
about you with gritted teeth
if i can only live once
i donāt want to waste it living for you
ā spitting on the spitting image
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itās february now
but you wonāt get to this until long after
itās cupidās month, isnāt it?
let me decorate for the occasion
here are some columbines for you
and iād offer you violets, but iām afraid
theyāve all wilted by now
and i canāt promise i wonāt keep
glancing at the back of her head
not like i am
when my heart doesnāt have something else to beat for
and i was gonna write about how
āthere are too many heart cards in the standard deck
because that much love doesnāt go around so easilyā
but i thought that was too harsh a line
i wanted this session to start a little nicer than usual
but this is like all the other āsit and spitā sessions
where i start going on about unimportant aching
and youāre gonna think me a desperate fool by the end
and i wouldnāt say youāre wrong
and do i really need what iām begging you for?
itās like when you hide under a tree
but the rain ends up hitting you harder
i donāt need a savior i need you to take me home
and thatās another line i stole
from a better poet than me
and a better woman than iāll ever be
and she reads me so well
even though she has no way too
and isnāt that funny?
being so well-known by a stranger
iād never have a chance to know back
because you canāt bank on the writing
you canāt trust them to tell the truth
fuck, you donāt even know if iām begging honestly
and maybe if i was iād lie to you in-person, too
but itād be nice if you could think you know me
if we could at least pretend you can
read me like an open book
left open to mark someoneās spot in their story
and their spot in the library
and who knows if theyāre coming back for it
god knows i sat there open and waiting
hoping sheād come back for me
will you do me a little better than her?
take off that loud, decorative jacket and
take me home
enjoy me in the quiet
pour over me by lamplight well past your bedtime
and maybe you wonāt remember my contents
in a yearās time
but hey, maybe youāll enjoy me so much
that you can find fun in discovering me all over again
and iāll gather dust on your bookshelf until then
will i enjoy it? i tell myself i do
just so i donāt have to barter to someone else again
and iāll tell you itās all okay
because iām a liar, remember?
i told you that part already
and youāre gone by now
who sits this long to read a poem?
i made you believe it was a love poem
hook and line
but itās so obvious my love isnāt conventional
and i need someone to sob to anyhow
so entertain me just this one night
hold me read me
treat me like your favorite thing for one night
so i can move on through this loversā day
because my hollowness isnāt your concern tomorrow
and iād wallow in it anyway
get all clean and pretty
just to dive back into the mud pool
thatās just the cycle of life
when you dedicate yours to love
isnāt it? all hurt and hope
and iāll let you go now
before i start to sound like hamlet
hold my own skull
and ah, poor yoric,
i knew her well
ā hang me by my heartstrings
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āi have the queue backed up to march, i can finish this by then.ā
well itās march 12th now and i only have like 12 poems from my backlog finished š
anyway stew on my older stuff while i ācatch upā again
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iām fine with gore but that poem made me want to puke. it mightāve been the body or it mightāve been the boy. how he touched her insides on the outside and never asked. and sure, she let him, but surely he could see that she trusted him and he still made her the villain for hiding the best parts of herself and the way she kept them from his hands. every day i thank something up there that i never let them touch me like that. the way they brag about being touched. and itās a cool, cool party, i hope i donāt come back again. and i wanna use a big word and make you think iām a good writer. i wanna paint an image thatās as visceral as a car wreck and make you squirm like itās your organs being fondled. yet still she doesnāt turn the speaker off. weāre not just sharing our voices anymore. sheās sitting on the corner of her bed and iām howling. the lyrics are pouring from my throat like the bile they fed to me without feeding me. the wall is a hypothetical that may not have touched me yet but i can see that it mightāve. maybe she doesnāt turn the speaker down and hears my raw chords to hear my bleeding and coughing chest. maybe she turns the speaker up and keeps me from tainting the song any further. all the women in my class cross their legs. all the dudes slouch in their chair and spread their legs. i can look the part, but i canāt hide the queer. call me L. call me A. call me NB. call me Q for short. she nodded along when the sexualization of bisexuals was brought up. i want to sit down in front of her and ask āWhat are you? What are you? What are you? Is it my place to know? Would i understand if you told me? Do i have a chance with you?ā is what i really want to ask. if i could say what i meant would they get it. would it be worth the isolation. drunk boys in ice cream shops. i wrote about them as a warm-up. iām tired of them. itās not their job to know right away but that doesnāt mean i canāt be annoyed. i havenāt gone out to get it in a while. she promised she was sober as she pulled a bottle of wine from her purse. tired. thatās what i always am. of having too much time. of not having enough. of certain people. of coughing so close to me. of not having certain people. of the thought of certain people. of never having the balls to man up and ask. just literally tired. no sleep is enough. i wish i knew how to end this poem. poems donāt have neat endings. that was lesson one. it ends when it needs to end. but artās never really finished. the majority of playwriting is rewriting. so i guess iāll keep talking. i said three sentences. six words. my heart was beating out of my chest. iām not allowed to use abstractions, so i hope this is literal enough: i realized my dad was right when he said i needed to be on his anxiety meds ājust to take the edge off.ā i want to be able to write about someone the way Lucy Dacus does in Home Video. Hang Me Like Jesus still fucks me up. i donāt cry to Damocles anymore but i wrote about it the other day. i like rocks and rock. and rats. and women. iām half on youtube half in my notes and now my phone is burning up. i tried typing āphone isā and my phone number came up in auto suggestions. how did this poem start again. how did we get here. do we like it here. do we want to stay here. i think i like it here. iām never sure of anything.
ā a practice in line breaks and not making sense
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the other day
(i almost called it yesterday)
i wrote a poem after class
called it a warm-up
called it cards
i did everything my professor said i shouldnāt
took advice from my writing professor
who said
āhere are a list of writing rules
go break every single one of themā
iāll take this one slower
because my theatre class got out early
and i got to eat this time
the soda fountain was busted
the cherry coke wasnāt that
we read of those who wrote
with inspiration of art
iāll never write like
the way orphan made me feel
i hear i song
and i cry
and i steal half their lines
want me to do it again?
iāll list what iām listening to
ātake it from me
iām not looking for anybody
iām sick of car rides
you lied while we lay back to sideā
my friend (?????)
[for our audio listeners
if youāre ever out there
thereās a series of question marks
because i donāt know
what i want her to be]
said goodbye to me as she left
and i couldnāt catch her
i had to fix my desk
i sat with a pretty girl today
she reminds me of my old friend
the one iāve written about before
the one iāve compared myself to with a dying moth
i wish sheād look at me like she did
she smiled at the end
before fumbling her papers
and i almost relapsed on the spot
i saw a pretty girl in my building
she lives a floor above me
i think about how my elevator sometimes
doesnāt say what floor it was going to
and i always have to double check
i wonder what system it uses
or if it just didnāt want to say it
if it skipped a line on accident
if it just had too much going on at once
i donāt think i can call this a poem
what if i call myself a moth again?
i use dogs too often
my hair looked decent when
i left the bathroom this morning
i saw my reflection when the poem wouldnāt load
and i think i almost lost three years of progress
that girl was from here
in this city iām familiar yet foreign to
i reread my own poem
and iāve suddenly never used a metaphor in my life
i talked about rocks
and i wrote about moths
iāll only be a hit online
- by online i mean iāll get clicks
from my one online friend -
my roommate always keeps the door open
the same friend from before had her room rekeyed
i donāt know how to make this a poem
my professor would never take this
i keep getting snapchat notifications
of my old teammates from home
celebrating each otherās birthdays
i almost donāt even go home for mine
so should i use a simile?
should i add a metaphor?
i canāt say i agree with holly in that song right now
i canāt drive
but theyāve lied while we laid together
and theyāre still going on about getting high
letās see
what can i say here?
i feel like a fish in a fishbowl
- thereās my vehicle -
i can see everything i want
but i canāt get to any of it
- thereās my tenor -
my writing class made me feel
like i at least have a chance
so far poetry
has made me feel like iāve been fooling myself
i canāt call this poetry
i canāt say iām good at all
which isnāt the problem
itās that i donāt feel like i can be
iām laying in bed
the brain killer
and now i donāt want to go to geology
which isnāt for another hour
iāll call this a warm-up
like i do
being the fraud artist i am
saying every piece i donāt like
was a practice sketch
so i donāt have to claim it
hey if i add a period here
can i call this all enjambment?
ah shit nevermind
there it goes
iāll end it on this
anyway.
ā warm-up: tenor
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i donāt think love is in the cards for me this year
when have i let a card rule me?
credit cards, i guess
debit cards,
draw fours,
get out of jail free cards
thereās a heart in the standard deck
would i have to start using āace of heartsā for myself?
because that means something different
they all mean something
they mean something to people like me
the suit is red
does that means hearts are red?
does that mean love is red?
blood is red
our hearts feed us that
blood is such a raw metaphor
but cannibalism as desire is cliche now, isnāt it?
so it must be a sharp shade of pink
pink means something to me
those ribbons took my mother from me
itās genetic but supposedly itāll miss me
i have my breasts and iām proud of them
but the world is not
iāve seen girls suffer for less
iāve seen girls suffer for more
what is pink-red that is good?
cherries are nice
they have a shade of red all their own
i like cherries
and red, ambiguously flavored, supposedly cherry things
the cherry coke fountain
spits itās product more violently than the lemonade fountain
is one more loved than the other
or is it just the nature of how they are?
is all poetry melancholic or mythical
or is just the nature of how it is?
i write poetry in the loosest sense of the word
iām a woman in the loosest sense of the word
women are thought to be the love-obsessed ones
you think of rom-coms
and the woman chases the man thatās out of her league
and she also makes the questionable choices
both in men and in behavior
youāll hear love poems and assume itās from a woman
when i open a door
i hold it with my hand
and i push with my whole body
when i meet another woman
i greet her with a smile
and i fall with my whole heart
i donāt think love is in the cards for me this year
ā warm up: cards
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itās always fucking something, isnāt it?
the story of my life
is one of tragedy
depending who you ask
but if i paint myself the blasphemer
say itās the work of a greater god
and heās putting me in my place
the church used to clap
but when i fold my hands of my own volition
i refuse to pray to him
iāve made myself my savior
either i pull myself through this
or no one can say i never tried
but i still forget that 11 year olds are still children
because i forgot that i was supposed to still be one
but i
i donāt really mind
happens all the time
and now no oneāll let me cry
well
i guess that thatās a lie
itās never said but itās implied
so iāll hold on until i die
hang me by the foot
call me the fool
and wave it high
iām a warning sign
of youth thatās gone awry
the first time i drove back to my hometown was my birthday
but i wouldnāt have gone if it wasnāt my best friendās too
but we didnāt even spend it there
we left to the state to the west
we escaped our families and our homes
yet we failed that escape room
but still
when was the last time
that
i
felt
excited?
it looks could kill
then maybe iād
finally find out
what i look like
iāve got a big mouth
and i canāt keep it shut
iāve got big eyes
and i canāt keep contact
iāve got a big nose
and i canāt fucking draw it
i used to love to sing
but my brain always betrays me
and i havenāt sang for someone
other than happy birthday
in almost ten years
i used to love to draw
but my classes killed that for me
so now my writing is my crutch
except the world doesnāt value it
so at least everyone says
the way my body was
back then
when i felt hopeful
it could change
time and work would never save me
but the world
at least as it was online
only got louder
and all my work
was never enough
not for anyone
not for myself
iāll hold my chin up
cross my fingers
when i tell you iāll do better
but iāll hold your hand when you need me to
iāll do anything you ask of me
and iāll do it with a
smile!
my
pretty little life
said i didnāt mind
but jesus christ
i always lie!
iāll carry my head high
iāll paint on another smile
iāll be your perfect idol
and iāll let you hang me upside down
parade me around
the ideal fool
iāve always been
the panicked one
ābe back by 9ā
ācall me when youāre homeā
i know my mother
took that primal joy of mine
when she left us that summer afternoon
left us with those glossy eyes
that cold body
and that hospital bed in the middle of her room
iāve held my own hand
and people want me
to let them hold mine too
we both know iāll dig my own grave
iāll be driving my own hearse
iāll throw myself out to sea
just like we threw her too
cause who
else would
if i
canāt let my
guard
down?
cause who
would have
if
she
wasnāt
around?
i hope i crash my fucking car
i hope a deer takes me with it
i hope i haunt the tree i nail
i hope you see me in the roadkill
i hope you choke on my memories
i hope you flinch on the side of the bridge
anything i can do for you
you know iād do it with a
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