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My mental health is hanging on by a thread. I'm going to look for a new psychiatrist this week. The one I just stopped seeing is terrible. Something in my meds needs to be readjusted.

Until I can be seen by whoever it is I decide to call, I'll compile a list of reasons to stay alive. I'll find a new reason every day.

Today's reason: I'm too selfless to die by my own hand. I can't do that to my wife. She doesn't deserve to hurt.

I have feelings I need to get out. I don't know where to put them. I don't want to scare anyone, and I'm not in danger. I just want some place to put my sadness and anguish and despair. I'm not in a good place.

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the postal service names their shit exactly like how a 16 y.o. names angsty fanfic

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RYAN GOSLING "I'm Just Ken" wins Best Original Song at the 29th Annual Critics' Choice Awards (January 14, 2024)

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I can’t stop laughing at this 🤣😂🤣

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one of the most relatable and useful things someone once said to me is that what saved her from her own ideation was the knowledge that suicide is always an option.

And this runs counter to what is very often told, and I’m certainly not saying that that narrative is wrong. There are people that absolutely need to hear that suicide is Never an option.

But when you’ve been in those particular trenches for so long, the old sayings start to wear thin.

So what this person talked about was, the knowledge that she could theoretically always kill herself made it easier to postpone. Sure she could have killed herself this morning, but then she wouldn’t be out getting coffee with her friend. And she can always do it tonight.

But maybe tonight doesn’t work either because what she wants more than to be dead is to be warm in bed. So she’ll sleep on it. Maybe next week after seeing her friend’s musical.

And maybe that musical gives her the strength she needs to hold out for a bit longer, to scrape just a bit more joy from the world.

And maybe in two months it comes back, and she can’t do it anymore. But well, two months ago wasn’t the only time, she can always do it next month. Might as well wait for spring, the flowers are only just starting to come out.

So hey, maybe you could kill yourself. But you’re a long time dead with not a lot to do, so might as well scrape some more joy and excitement and interest and disappointment and music and grief and community and warmth from this world while you’re in it.

There’s always the possibility of something around the corner. Be curious and stay safe loves <3 (love heart.)

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youtubers should do reverse sponsorships. just interrupt the narrative of the video to shit-talk some random company for 1-2 minutes.

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One of my favorite things in the special episode was poor Katie's visor constantly dropping over her face.

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My little sister's new boyfriend got a tattoo for her about a month ago and he wanted matching tattoos so he decided to get uh. The tattoo on her ankle of her ex boyfriend's name that she hasn't gotten covered up yet

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i stepped on the scale today and it said “bat”

it took me a few seconds to realize it meant the battery was out, but before i realized that i just said “i am not a bat” out loud

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at some point in your life you will be boiling fruit, water, sugar, and lemon juice in a pot to make a syrup or jam. the instructions will tell you to simmer for a certain amt of time. your timer will go off and you will look at the pot and go, "hm, this doesn't look thick enough. maybe i'll let it go for another 10 minutes." this is the devil speaking. it's only so liquid right now because it is at boiling point. it will thicken when it cools down. learn from the follies of my youth and do not let this happen to you

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I have feelings I need to get out. I don't know where to put them. I don't want to scare anyone, and I'm not in danger. I just want some place to put my sadness and anguish and despair. I'm not in a good place.

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This cat is the avatar.

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Let 'em wonder how we got this far/ 'Cause I don't really need to wonder at all

After all this time, I'm still into you