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16 august 2020

we met again today (with a bunch of friends), around the same time for 3 consecutive years. i was nervous, indeed, the moment i knew ure coming along but tried so hard to keep it cool. waited depan seoul garden toppen, u were the last one to arrive. i tried to not look at you, avoiding any eye contact at all cost and i did. it was fun, catching up with ur best high school peeps after so long while grilling meats. it feels like im home again. she sat at the furthest corner from me as she was the first to come into the restaurant. as predicted, we didnt talk, at all and lowkey didnt look forward to it pun cuz shes being she. my seat was beside aini, busy grilling the meat and couldnt even hear what they were talking about but aini pointed me towards her and the whole table laughed. thank God it didnt turn out to be awkward. i could see her from my seat, avoiding any eye contact still, keep myself busy grilling meats and squids. after that i got up to have sum ice creams, then the others asked me to refill their drinks including her but she didnt asked me directly, she just handed me her cup with a gaze of “pls refill my drink too” and she simply said “nak coffee”. still keeping my cool, refilled the drinks, gave them back and she said “thank you”. THAT WAS THE ONLY TIME WE EVER TALKED THE WHOLE TIME WE LEPAK TOGETHER. after that we went to bowling and karaoke. bowling was meh but the 3 hours karaoke session was the bomb. u sat at the furthest corner, and i sat at the opposite corner, again. “ada cable tak” as u asked everyone and no one responded but i could hear her. lowkey surprised God moved my heart to bring along my cable so i handed it through asilah, to her (i think she didnt know that was mine). chosen some high-school bop songs AND at the queue there was jetlagged by simple plan and natasha beddingfield (i didnt chose that song). it bugged my head for a while as it used to be “our” song but wtv im just gonna enjoy the moment. there was like a small platform with a standing 80′s microphone and it became my stage immediately. i let it all out by singing all of the songs i think i was like a drunkard who came back from work. inaz cussed at me all the time due to my “nyanyi tak sedap” but everyone just laughed it off. THEN i think i caught her looking at me. i tak nak syok sendiri but i swear i saw it. myb she has never seen that side of me. most of the song were bieber’s and taylor’s where we used to dedicate the lyrics to each other (idk if she remembers) but to get to sing the songs i used to dedicate to her, in front of her was something my old 15 years old would ever thought of doing so. it feels like i wasnt shy at all in front of her, it feels like the high wall has disappeared for a moment, it feels like finally we are friends. never thought i could sing next to you, overboard, jetlag and that should be me at the top of my lungs, in front of her without feeling awkward at all, and the best part was that we sing together (couldnt remember what song it was as i was too immersed in singing). ended the day with all of us took sum pics together and a group hug. it was really fun though we didnt really talk to each other. for that im still sad, yes but also eternally grateful for God to give me another chance to see her again, at the same month of the year. thank u God for granting my doa, even the moment only lasted for a few hours x

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You ask me why I did what I did? Ask, rather, why the serpent Nidhogg eats the roots of Yggdrasil — why, when the tree’s death means, in turn, the dragon’s ruin? Because, Thor, I keep telling you — that is what it was born to do — that is what I was born to do

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Cameron Dallas Imagine

You were filming a q&a video for your YouTube channel and you had asked your fans to tweet you questions with the hashtag AskY/N, it had trended world wide. After answering about 16 questions you said you would only do a couple more so everyone started tweeting like crazy all at once. “Okay I’ve got a lot of questions about Magcon, if you don’t know what magcon is then you should look it up because it’s A-MAZING *coughs* anyway… Okay who’s your favourite magcon boy? Cameron. What do you think of Cameron Dallas? I think he is super haaawwwt and y’all need to keep me away from him otherwise I will become obsessed and I am NOT I repeat NOT getting into another fandom” you look over your shoulder at your wall covered in posters of one direction and 5 seconds of summer. “Ahem annnnnyyywaaaayyy, next question… would you date another youtuber or viner?” you pretend to hyperventilate and start fanning your self “Oh my god, who even needed to ask this!? YES of course I would, it’s like my dream, we could do the boyfriend or girlfriend tag and do videos and vines together and it would be so cute and Ohh myyy gaaawwwwd I can’t take this” you fall on the floor and scream “THE FEEEEEEELSSSSS” you pull yourself up and finish the video. You spend a few hours editing it before uploading it to YouTube.

A few hours later after the video is posted you get tweeted by Cameron Dallas “Awww @y/t/n you such a cutie 😘☺” you start screaming and jump up and down on the bed. You DM him and you talk for an hour before he skypes you. “I liked your video, I’m kind of a fan but only Nash and Taylor know…” he says, you beam feeling flattered “Wow, I’m really embarrassed now because you saw what I said and I’m just ugh I’m just a mess” you laugh as your cheeks turn red. You cover your face as Cameron laughs. “Awww don’t be embarrassed, you’re so cute. You’ve gone red” he giggles. You try to calm yourself down but fall deep into an endless giggle fit that lasted for what felt like forever. “I know that magcon is in San Fancisco next week and er I’m actually staying with my aunt for a bit, who lives there. I’m leaving day after tomorrow” you say nervously as you bite your nails. You wonder how Cameron can posess this much confidence when he casually replies “Oh cool, we HAVE to meet up. I wanna see you in person”. You smile and agree on what’s going to happen before ending the skype call. You skype each other everyday until you meet.

You walk up to the beach with your cousin whose on their way to college “So you’re meeting Cameron Dallas from the magcon tour?” she questions, you nod smiling trying hard to contain your excitement “oh erm well I’m actually taking my friend to magcon tomorrow..” she says. You stop and stare at her “Really?” she nods, not sure how you would react. As you walk along the sand you hear someone call your name, you both turn around to see Cameron running up to you. You both wave “Hi Cam, this is my cousin Kayleigh” you smile as Cameron reaches you. “Hi I’m Cameron” he smiles as he hugs your cousin “Kayleigh was just leaving, she’s on her way to college” you say hinting for her to leave. “Yeah I have to go but I’m coming to magcon to tomorrow” she smiles at Cameron. “Cool, what tickets do you have?” he asks, you start to get a little jealous. “Oh only general, I couldn’t afford anymore because it’s my friends birthday present from me so I’m buying both” she answers. “Don’t tell her but I’ll get her and you to meet us all and we’ll sing her happy birthday and stuff” he suggests, they talk for another minute before your cousin makes her way to college. He pulls you into a hug, your torso pressing against his bare toned chest. “You’re even more beautiful in person” he smiles, you blush again and you both laugh. “Thank you, so are you.” you reply as you walk down to the water. The hots sun beats down on you as you take off yours clothes revealing a black bikini. He grins as he studies your body. You wade out into the sea until the water reaches your waist. Cameron follows you in, the temperature is just right, cooling you from the hot sun but not making you cold. You talk about internet fame and how its impacted your lives before his eyes meet yours in a total silence. You listen to the waves crashing as you move closer to each other. He places a hand on one of your ribs as his nose touches yours “I really like you” he whispers, you agree as his mouth presses to yours. You kiss passionately in the ocean, his cups your face is his hands and his nibbles your lip a little. Your arms rest on his neck, every now and then your fingers touch his soft hair. “We should do this more often” he whispers after pulling away. You stare into his big brown eyes before engaging in another long make out session.

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Transformation Tuesday

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I just wanna dance | via Tumblr on We Heart It.

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Lethal routine quote on We Heart It.

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♚ | via Tumblr on We Heart It.

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