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once again. waterparks is my most listened to artist this year. and im just as surprised as last year lmao

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The tombs of Atuan of Ursula K. LeGuin.

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Balthamos and Baruch ✨🥹

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You strike Green Knight? You cut off his head like the football?! Oh! Oh! Beheading for Gawain! Beheading for Gawain One Year Hence!!

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Nimuë, The Lady of The Lake, is an enchantress who lives in a realm beneath the lake surrounding Avalon. In the legend, she gives King Arthur the magical sword Excalibur, kidnaps and raises Sir Lancelot after his father’s death, and imprisons Merlin in a tree.

Depicted by Lancelot Speed for The Legends of King Arthur and His Knights, 1912.

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i have such beef with the half bad books for a number of reasons, like the unnecessary way they buried their gays, but they were still some of the first books i read that featured a queer relationship and that was very important to me as a teen.

anyway when i saw that netflix adapted the books into a show, of course i was curious, so i've started watching. i read the books a long time ago, and only really recall some parts, the most harrowing, and i'm not sure i'll be able to take the pain of the ending again, but... well. im revisiting a series that was, even if i often forget it, somewhat formative for me.

maybe they'll change the endinging. who knows! its already a bit different than what i remember from the books...

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to sleep? perchance to fucking sleep?

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my three girlfriends. and YES they prophesy the death of the king of scotland

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i broke into ur brain just to call u out in this quiz (but in a soft way). how does it feel to be loved by u?

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an underrated detail in pride and prejudice is that elizabeth bennett was home alone on the day darcy proposed because she had a headache. can you imagine. this was in the pre-painkillers era. you're at home with a headache and then this asshole walks into the room and tells you he loves you and wants to marry you even though he hates your whole family and you're beneath him. imagine having to deal with that while also having a headache. she doesn't even have ibuprofen

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Affirmations.

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I don’t have a firm stance on whether hamlet is “mad” or just acting and I also think that’s not a great question because obviously there’s degrees and I don’t think it can be answered with “he is” or “he isn’t.” but there are two moments in hamlet where I always think “oh, he’s really lost it.”

the first is when he’s making jokes about Polonius’ dead body in front of the whole court, when he won’t tell them where he’s hidden his corpse. even the fact that he’s hidden it is horrific and makes no sense—obviously his mom knows, obviously she’s telling everyone, obviously there will be consequences. so why did he do it? why did he drag polonius from behind the curtains in his mother’s room to the stairs, drag his body up the stairs, and into the lobby—he’s got to have blood all over him from the struggle, there’s got to be blood all over the stairs. is ophelia nearby? is anyone taking care of her? does anyone usher her away? or is she around the corner, listening? does she hear hamlet joking about how her father will be food for the worms, and that is how she finds out her father is dead?

the second moment is when hamlet is talking about what he’s done to rosencrantz and guildenstern. it’s not really clear there’s something off from anything he says, but from the way horatio responds. all of horatio’s responses are remarkably short, mostly one sentence, monosyllabic replies—go look at the scene in V.2, he’s almost speechless. there’s something wrong with hamlet, really wrong, horatio can tell—and it disturbs him. maybe he call tell from his tone, maybe from the way hamlet brings up conscience twice and asks horatio to confirm that his own is “perfect,” maybe something in his face or his eyes. we don’t know. we’re not told, by stage directions or otherwise, that something’s wrong. but we know from horatio’s replies. horatio sees something that the audience can’t quite distinguish, something really, deeply wrong with his friend—he sees he’s not acting.

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Marie Danforth Page - The Mother (1916)

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ignoring a compulsion so hard that it starts to give you physical sensations. evil.

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transgender…

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Reading anne carson's translation of the hekabe and in the intro she says something about polyxena's sacrifice, which in any other tragedy would be the climactic tragic moment, only being a bip on the radar in the hekabe because that's what losing the trojan war is like. The tragedies about the trojan women after the fall of troy barely follow tragedic structure because in that position, a captive woman, it's just tragedy upon tragedy with no katharsis in sight. Your life is death now. Your life is suffering now. You lead a nonlife. There's literally no recovering from (collectively) losing your personhood. And that personhood was inextricably intertwined with troy.