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The only exception #3: Said something dumb again

The [precuel] Cuervolecto fic is back! We are a bit stuck in the main plot, so we decided to keep on working in the "Who fell faster and who fell harder" fic.

And... This chapter is special for us. There is fluff and heavy angst, because @adhd-riddled-crow Velasco and Alecto cannot make things easy. Read it here!

Small snippet under the cut!

"I know you care about Alecto," Lorenzo finally said, with a sigh. "Not just by the way you treat her, but by the expression you have when you're looking at her, even if she doesn't realise it. I know because for a long time I had that same gaze on her"

"You still have it" Cuervo thought to himself, but he didn't say anything. The warrior seemed at peace with the fact that he couldn't go beyond a friendship. 

"She's been through a lot of shit. Anyone would say that like everyone else, you and me included, but we're not talking about us. In other circumstances it would be her who might hurt you but, like I said, she's changed. I don't know if for better or worse. I just ask you not to hurt her. She may seem strong, thoughtless and carefree, but I can tell you that behind all that is nothing more than a woman resigned to the fact that happiness is not made for her."

Those last words stabbed into Velasco's heart like a dagger. Alecto had given up on the simple idea of being happy, like him, but Cuervo, by contrast, knew what it felt like when life was wonderful. Of course, he didn't know which was worse: never knowing or losing. He'd say the latter, but at least he had his memories. Alecto had nothing at all. He could only nod, though he remained firmly convinced that it was nothing more than her mind's attempt to pull him out of the pit of depression and move on, to convince him that life goes on. 

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Awwww don't forget Ivy and Morella too! We must do smt with them at some point ❤️

we should all make ocs and ship them with our friend's ocs

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“Not all men”

You’re right. Cremisius Aclassi, lieutenant of The Bull’s Chargers mercenary company, would NEVER-

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Wisps (pt. 1)

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*banging pots and pans together*

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Tell me what happened when your Rook got back to the Lighthouse after being trapped in the Fade prison and had to deal with the realizing

1) their friend they just spent their whole adventure with was dead

2) Varric was actually dead and they were talking to a magical projection that whole time

3) everything had gone to complete shit while they were missing and their friends were having an extended (but productive) panic attack

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i fucking hate time zones what do you mean my friend is living in tomorrow morning rn

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If we're talking Velasco. Then oh boy. You better strap in folks.

Harding, someone he spent about a year or so getting to know died saving his sorry ass of all people. Something that he could have prevented and should have prevented: "It never should have happened in the first place. If I had been better. Or faster...". She was like a sister to him. They were best friends, always laughed at each other's shit jokes and shared plenty of pretty messed up tales about their jobs/missions. They got on like a house on fire.

And then the fire got put out.

Varric. Oh, that. That is a different question entirely. Varric was like a father to him. Always treating Velasco like the human being that he is. Never expecting far too much from him, never judgemental of his ways, never angry or annoyed because he simply opened his mouth. Varric was kind and caring. And everything Velasco needed after decades of being told that he is nothing and that he doesn’t deserve a single thing that he's ever led a finger on. And perhaps those supposed parental figures were right. He didn't deserve these nice things. They never lasted long enough, anyway. Always dying or leaving him behind for something or someone far better. He was the problem. And knowing that Varric had been dead this whole time, and that Solas was fucking with his head, that only confirmed what he had already known.

Everything he touches surely dies.

Telling his friends, his partner, that he was fine and that he could break down after all of this was over wasn't as hard of a lie to speak as it should have been. In truth, he wanted to drown every emotion he had in the bottom of a bottle and just hide away where no one could pity him. He didn't deserve to be pitied. After all, this was his fault. He caused all of this. He never would have been a part of this if he didn't selfishly fight that group of Antaam hoping to leave the world as peaceful as it once was without him. If he hadn't ruined that mission for his fellow Crows, Viago wouldn't have sent him on this initial contract in the first place. So yes. This really is his fault. And all the others do is look at him with a pitiful saddness in their eyes. Lucanis was the worst offender. It broke his heart to see those beautiful brown eyes look at him with such pity. He didn't deserve it. He didn't want it. Least of all from him. It felt as if his heart was scarred with every glance of saddened pain from those coffee tinted eyes. Reminding him every time that he wasn't deserving. That he had fucked up.

Yet another mistake to add to the ever growing collection upon his skin.

*banging pots and pans together*

Yoo-hoo! People who love angst!

Tell me what happened when your Rook got back to the Lighthouse after being trapped in the Fade prison and had to deal with the realizing

1) their friend they just spent their whole adventure with was dead

2) Varric was actually dead and they were talking to a magical projection that whole time

3) everything had gone to complete shit while they were missing and their friends were having an extended (but productive) panic attack

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finding a tweet that so perfectly emulates your niche characterization of one of your favorite ships is like striking gold

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fuck it. be creative even if you never really *make* anything. write out plot synopses of stories and then move on. design OCs you'll never use. make mood boards and concept art and don't do anything with them. life's too short to forget everything that inspired you and creation doesn't have to be "complete" to be worth the time you put into it.

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Sorry to interrupt your scrolling but, I hope life gets better for you🫶🏻😩🥰

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worked too long on this, but finally finished my boy lucanis

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