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normal people / intermezzo

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i am SO CLOSE to finishing 50 les mis adaptations and i am SO EXCITED to make a load of pie charts breaking down all the data i’ve gathered about them!!!!!

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just rewatched dead poets society (1989) and im feeling really normal about it so don't worry.

(AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH)

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top 2 red flags

The blood of angry men

a world about to dawn

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"NO BAHOREL" we all say unison

Im reading Les Mis in french AND SOMEHOW I FORGOT THAT BAHOREL DIES and I screamed out loud because NO BAHOREL

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javert, éponine and marius all showing up to the barricade because it’s easier then killing themselves outright:

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dostoyevsky kinda ate with “your worst sin is that you have destroyed and betrayed yourself for nothing.”

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I will never be over how Marius Pontmercy walks into the police station and Javert is like “yeah, you look like the kind of person who should be given Multiple Guns”

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i'm always delighted by an enjolras who is stupidly oblivious to his feelings but on the other hand please give me an enjolras who is painfully aware of them.

give me an enjolras who is acutely aware that he is different to the other amis, that he will never be able to express himself in the same ways that they do.

give me an enjolras who watches les amis drinking and joking around and smiles along passively, but always feels a pit in his stomach and a heavy weight on his shoulders, anticipating the rise of the revolution and knowing that their happiness could shatter at any moment.

give me an enjolras who knows he isn't a fun person to be around, who knows he seems distant and untouchable when there a million thoughts running through his head, who deflects concern and masks his fears with a stoic and prideful facade.

give me an enjolras who observes everything happening around him but never finds enough time to join in, who realises just how much of his youth he is missing out on but never gets the chance to grieve it.

give me an enjolras who dismisses marius not because he cannot comprehend the idea of romance, but because he is tired of everyone obsessing over something he knows he will never experience.

give me an enjolras who is acutely aware of his beauty and charisma and ability to manipulate others, who feels no guilt for using it to further their cause, but wonders if anyone ever sees the real him.

give me an enjolras who can't stop himself from ridiculing grantaire because he reminds him of himself on his worst days, when in the back of his mind his faith dares to falter and a tugging in his gut whispers of what is to come.

give me an enjolras who knows he can be cruel and terrifying, but who understands it is sometimes necessary to be terrible for the greater good.

give me an enjolras with so much to do, always in a state of go, go, go, who then stares at the ceiling in the middle of the night, unable to fall asleep when there is no longer anything to distract him from the fact that he is very, very scared.

give me an enjolras who at some point realises he is leading his friends to ruin, who is overcome by a staggering guilt for each and every of them, but who knows he has nothing to live for and everything to die for.

give me an enjolras who, for a split second, hand in hand, feels a kind of love for grantaire in his death that he had never felt for anyone or anything in his life.

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combeferre definitely the type of guy to say "oh dear" whenever something goes horribly wrong

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@ergusa oh don’t get me started

Daniel Diges, I love you. He’s strong, commanding, and also really charismatic. Like, I understand why someone would follow him into war.

^ I captioned this part, but my spanish has gotten atrocious so srry if something’s off.

He just has the best voice. So effortless. Great Valjean too. yeah, if I could put more than one video in a post this post would be insane.

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today i am thinking about the eight bullets that kill enjolras, and how i always see people saying they represent his eight friends to die at the barricade, but when i first read his death what came to my mind was the eight men to escape the barricade alive: valjean, marius, javert, and the five men who are given the national guard uniforms. i think of those eight bullets being meant for those eight men, and enjolras taking them all. he did not change the world in the way he meant, but he changed the world for eight men, and that has to be enough.

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GUYS I GOT INTO MY DREAM UNI AND GOT A*AAA!!!! WTF

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In 7 hours...

It’s Alevel results day tomorrow

Might off myself xx

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The song 'One Day More' has never hit harder than when you know exam results day is tomorrow.

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‘I can fix him-’ Dean tried and failed, next. ‘I can’t fix him, but I can make him worse-’ Ruby beat you to it, NEXT.

I raise you: ‘I can’t fix him, but I can believe in his intrinsic goodness.’ Because no one ever seems to do that.