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minsu-gwon​:

“You treated me the way I wanted to be treated. I don’t– you were my first boyfriend after I got the top surgery, you know? It felt like the first time I could really be myself and you just accepted that, accepted me without question.” Minsu replied honestly as he looked at Adrian with a small but sad smile. He thought about how gullible he was to fall for Adrian’s charms but looking at it now, he was sure he still would’ve done the same thing. He was hurt, yes, but he wasn’t going to let that destroy their relationship. It probably meant more to him than to Adrian, but he wasn’t going to let that get between them. “I was hurt, yes, but I cared– I still care for you.”

"Wait, I was...?” That honestly shocked him. He had no idea he was in that kind of a position with Minsu. Somewhere deep inside of him there was a little voice that told him be honest with his ex--to be honest with himself. He would never admit to himself how he actually felt about Minsu, that Minsu was actually quite special to him. There  was only one person he could’ve even tries to say it out loud to. Although Florian made him feel giddy, made him feel nervous and scared, made him feel normal...Minsu absolutely confused the hell out of him. All those nights he’d held the other man in his arms, wiped away his tears, kissed his forehead after they woke up next to each other, those nights were treasured. Those were times he couldn’t ever forget. Minsu meant so much to him, and somehow Adrian felt like he just...didn’t deserve that kind of happiness. He didn’t deserve to feel that college kid romance story. He was bound by the chains of his past, unable to crack open the affectionate and loving Adrian that lived within him, not even with Florian.“Oh...well, okay then.” He nodded, taking another bite of his taco before he met eyes with Minsu.”Can I stay the night?” He asked almost shyly.

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miyanodaichi​:

“My face?” Daichi asked, putting his hands on either side of said face and tapping his cheeks with his long, slender fingers. “I guess you can take picture of my face. Do you want to do it now or in a different setting?” He was no stranger to photoshoots, though they were usually either for product endorsement spreads or for figure skating–press, candids, warmups, training shots. He wasn’t so used to having the focus just be on his face. “Probably when I’m not sweaty,” he added as an afterthought and sat down on the rinkside bench where he had some of his personal belongings, grabbing his towel to wipe off some of the sweat that had accumulated from skating.

“Yes, your face.” Daichi was adorable.”We should probably do it in a different setting. This lighting isn’t much of a place for portraits. It’s great for what we usually do but...I like doing portraits in warmer lighting, makes the viewer feel more like they’re there with the subject. It’s more romantic, tells more of a comforting story.” He shrugged.”Although...” He stood, looking down to Daichi sitting beside him as he ran his fingers through his hair.”I bet your portrait would look beautiful cheeks reddened and hot.”

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the-baker-leo​:

   “I know you. I totally understand, am the same way. I don’t really catch feelings but also, I tend to be oblivious to my own feeling and his anyone likes me,” he replied smiling. “I am sure I can help you Adrian.”

“Catching feelings is just...so weird. You give me the vibes of a guy who knows how to handle this. Do you remember that one episode of spongebob? The one where he forgets the krabby patty formula? And his brain looks like an office building on fire?” He sighed and looked up to Leo. “Typically my brain is a sea of nothingness...tranquil, blank...but he makes me just...panic. I get butterflies and I feel like I’m a teenager again. Feels almost uncomfortable, but not in a bad way.” He didn’t know why he was spilling it all on Leo but when it came to talking about Florian he started to feel a lot more comfortable talking. With Leo things were a bit different, Leo being one of few people Adrian was actually cool with, someone he was really friends with. 

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Brett

not my type | alright | cute | adorable | pretty | gorgeous | lord mercy

“Are you fucking kidding me with that ass? Hell yeah, sign me up.”

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For each ❌ I receive, my muse will reveal one of their kinks.

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Blake Prescott

Not My Type | Alright | Cute | Adorable | Pretty | Gorgeous | LORD MERCY

“Very interesting face, and I mean that in the best way. Almost...vintage? Like if you put him in a suit he could walk on the set of Mad Men.”

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Remus St. Cloud

Not My Type | Alright | Cute | Adorable | Pretty | Gorgeous | LORD MERCY

“I don’t think pretty is the right word here, but he could absolutely do some...work on me. I like a guy who’s a little rough around the edges.”

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florian

Not My Type | Alright | Cute | Adorable | Pretty | Gorgeous | LORD MERCY

“What can I say? He gives me butterflies. He’s one of the kindest people I think I’ve ever met. And I can open up to him, which I don��t think I have done in...a long time. So, he’s really a special person.”

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Jamison

Not My Type | Alright | Cute | Adorable | Pretty | Gorgeous | LORD MERCY

“Could do just about anything to me yeah.” And he’s such a big softie, he’s so cute.

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Minsu 👀

Not My Type | Alright | Cute | Adorable | Pretty | Gorgeous | LORD MERCY

“Incredibly beautiful, inside and out. There’s no denying that.”

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luca

Not My Type | Alright | Cute | Adorable | Pretty | Gorgeous | LORD MERCY

“Seen him around. But I do mean cute with a bit more attached.”

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daichi ✨

Not My Type | Alright | Cute | Adorable | Pretty | Gorgeous | LORD MERCY

“Very pretty, in fact. That’s why he models for me.”

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hey lets play how hot is that character

question-meme‌:

Not My Type | Alright | Cute | Adorable | Pretty | Gorgeous | LORD MERCY

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☤ - a memory of death/loss

i’ll put this under read more cuz trigger warning: death, gore, car accident

“So it’s...your first time driving?” I couldn’t help but feel nervous. “Are you sure about this Justin?”

“It’s fine! Seriously man, it’s no big deal.” Justin smiled at me, his voice just as sweet and genuine as always. 

I’d always been kind of a shy kid, but Justin always brought me out of my shell. I’d looked up to him since we were four years old. He was always so loud and vibrant. He would never shut his mouth either, but I didn’t want him to. I wanted him to push me out of my comfort zone, I wanted him to tell me I was being stupid when I would’ve rather stayed inside. He invited me to everything, parties, his place, into the deepest parts of his life. To say he was my first love was an understatement. How couldn’t I fall in love with someone like him? Someone who truly made me feel like I was living, not just surviving. 

“Maybe we should get my dad. You only just got your license.” As much as I wanted this to be just a new fun experience for me...I was terrified of what could happen. I was starting to get overwhelmed, and it was obvious. My hands were shaking, my palms were sweating, I could’ve cried. And as all these thoughts ran through my mind I felt his hand against mine, lacing our fingers together. I still felt uneasy but the way he was looking at me made my heartbeat so fast it felt like it would fall out of my chest.

“I love you, Adrian. I’d never do anything to put you in danger, okay?” He said to me and I gave him a relieved smile, squeezing his hand a bit.

“I love you too.” It was the first time I’d said it back. He always told me he loved me and I was always too afraid to say it back but something told me this was my moment to finally say it. And when he leaned over to kiss me, I felt even better. I sat in my seat all flustered and happy, tapping my feet as he started to drive.

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So cold...why is it so cold? Why can I see anything? Where is that noise coming from?

My vision finally began to focus, there was glass all over my lap. A section of the door had sunken deep into my leg. “Oh my god...” my hands were shaking again, I could feel the fear sinking in. Thankfully I was still holding Justin’s hand but something was off...why was it so...limp? “Justin?” I looked over and my heart drop. “Justin...?” I squeezed his hand, hoping he would squeeze back. But I couldn’t see his face. I couldn’t see any of him, his arm was all that was left of the man I’d fallen in love with so fast. The man I thought I would spend the rest of my life with. His body was crushed under the weight of another car and there was nothing I could do about it. I tried to move but I couldn’t budge, feeling hot tears streaming down my face as I screamed for him to come back to me. And as the first responders tried to pull me away, I clawed to get back to him, his arm the only thing that would try to come with me. And as it let go of him, I let go of it in horror.”JUSTIN!!!” I screamed out for him but to no avail, soon finding myself covered in the burning white light of an ambulance, panicking, afraid, heartbroken.

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Memory Meme

Past experiences help shape who we are currently, how we see the world. Send in a symbol and I’ll write a drabble of one of my muse’s memories. 

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❥ - a childhood memory

♣ - a fading memory

✂ - a vivid memory

✖ - a repressed memory

✈ - an eye-opening memory

✤ - a memory that involves romance/love

☤ - a memory of death/loss

✍ - a memory of their mother

☽ - a memory of their father

♘ - a memory of their sibling(s)

✌ - a memory of a relative

↕ - a memory that may or may not have happened

♚ - a memory of something paranormal

✓ - a sexual memory

♬ - a friend/best friend memory

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minsu-gwon​:

Minsu raised an eyebrow at Adrian when he said he hates seeing him stressed out; where was this care when they were together? He immediately stopped himself from going down that train of thought because he really wouldn’t get any answers, especially not from Adrian. “Sure, you can go ahead and ask anything.” The Korean man was curious as to what the other would ask. “Why do I still ha– Adrian, nobody moves on that fast from someone especially when they had deep feelings for that person. I don’t understand why you would ask me that question.”

“I don’t understand why you liked me in the first place, Minsu.” Adrian said in a quick response.”I don’t get it...I don’t see what was so appealing or what made you stay. What made you want me? All I did was what you asked of me, I never did anything special...” He thought for a moment, his question was genuine. “My therapist keeps telling me I need to be more introspective...And I just don’t know why you care about me so much when I think about the type of person I am. Like yeah I wasn’t going to treat you like shit, but isn’t that what a boyfriend is supposed to do? Plus I dumped you, I hurt you, and you still respond the same way you always did. Not that I’m complaining I just genuinely want to know...why?”

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minsu-gwon​:

Minsu looked at the tacos when he had brought it out before letting out a groan, finally seeing the tacos to start eating them. It was probably weird that he reacted to the food that way but he was starving and it was delicious. The Korean man finished swallowing his food first before shrugging as an answer. “Stressful day. Had to keep a ton of undergraduate’s attention for a subject they hated so much.”

“I’m sorry. I don’t like seeing you all stressed out.” Adrian sighed as he tried not to make a mess of his food.”Minsu...can I ask you something? I’m curious.” There was something particularly fun about messing with Minsu, even if he knew he was being a trash person...Although in the back of his mind, he knew it was because he was sorry for not being able to commit. Like a little boy cutting off his crushes pigtails.”Why do you still have feelings for me?”