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You must go save Li Chang Ge

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Angst - Emotional Pain

“You aren’t the only one who has lost people, you know.”

“How could you understand what I am going through?!”

“This isn’t supposed to be a competition of who has it worse!”

“They’re…all gone….”

“I’m so, so sorry….”

“You can’t keep bottling everything up.”

“If I ignore the pain, it will go away.”

“I can’t deal with this right now, don’t make me think about it.”

“I have nothing left….”

“How dare you do this to me?!”

“Just let it out. All you can do right now is cry.”

“I don’t want to cry!”

“How could you lose them?!”

“No! It’s not true! Tell me it’s not true!”

“I’ve lost everything!”

“Are you going to be okay?”

“Stay here, I’ll be right back. I promise I will be back.”

“Don’t leave me. I don’t want to be alone.”

“I understand, even if you think I don’t. Trust me, I do.”

“Leave me alone!”

“This is all your fault!”

“You should have done something!”

“I…wasn’t fast enough….”

“I can’t lose you, too!”

“There was nothing you could do.”

“No, it won’t be okay!”

“My heart is breaking.”

“Don’t look at me like that.”

“I can’t stand to see you like this.”

“Tell me how I can help.”

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𝐇𝐄𝐘 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐄 𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐒  !! 

super sorry  i have been so slow with responses on here. i am going to put under a read more because there is sensitive topics && i dont want to upset anyone if they do not want to read. 

basically i have been super slow because i am still in a bit of recovery from covid. legit has drained my energy levels and i am back to work, && while i am fully recovery, my energy just is so wishy washy. 

imma try my best to get back in the groove of things by doing some responses, && im kinda in the process of taking care of things on works end to help better with my mental health ( took a huge dive during this time period, && i have yet to recovery it fully )

i have also had a lot of things happen to me since christmas, issues with my family, including the fact it triggered bad memories of my abandonment issues, so i am kinda sorting through it now.  

 please bare with me, I swear i really love our stuff we have together and my baby girl here honestly, is helping me cope a lot, i just need a bit more time considering i want to reply to so many of you, ask for more things for so many of you, but feel so lost on how to do anything. 

either way, for those who stayed to read, i adore you && i promise i will be getting some stuff out soon. just gotta get the time && my energy levels back to normal. - love gabs 

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The Long Ballad | Teaser

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🌸  ┊ @ka-go-me​ asked:          「巫女」::  Holds out a yellow rose and a box of candies to her~!::"Happy Valentine's day Bestie~!!"

                          mulan blinked for a moment, shock flickering across her features before she glanced down at her friends hands. a smile SLOWLY began to spread upon her lips, her heart beating with EXCITMENT as she came to realize what day it was today, and felt blessed that her friend had not only went    𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐎𝐅 𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐖𝐀𝐘    to get her something, but to bring something as sweet as she did. 

            ❝  𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐘 𝐕𝐀𝐋𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒 𝐃𝐀𝐘      𝐊𝐀𝐆𝐎𝐌𝐄, ❞   she said softly, hands reaching out to take hold of the yellow rose first, smelling the FRAGRANCE of the flower before beaming at her.  ❝  please forgive me, i have never celebrated such a day, so i did not get you anything. why do we not share these CHOCOLATES and i make it up to you by treating to lunch  ? ❞

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𝐑𝐀𝐏𝐔𝐍𝐙𝐄𝐋:

“i said oh my!   what a marvelous tune,    it was the best night never could forget how we moved.    the whole place was dressed to the nines,   and we were dancing like we’re made of starlight!”   // @adversitybloomed​ ♡’d!!  

            ❝   𝐃𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐄𝐃 𝐓𝐎 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒   ?  ❞   she asked, head tilting ever so slightly as a sift smile lifted the corner of her lips. eyes SPARKLED as she spoke of the celebrations, her mind trying to capture the moment but STRUGGLING as she had never been to such a event.  ❝  it sounds like a fairytale come to life. i truly would love to hear more about it, if you would not mind telling. ❞

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“It’s hard to wake up from a nightmare when you aren’t even asleep.”

— Unknown

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@xthesparequeen

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Dilraba Dilmurat for Produce Camp, June 2019

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Dilireba for a Game For Peace Peacekeeper Elite League S4 livestream event

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I can’t with that highlight : ‘ D

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🐝  *  ―  𝐓𝐇𝐑𝐄𝐄  𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃  𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄  𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒.   (  all  of  these  are  just  some  random  sentences  i  thought  could  be  fun  to  use.  feel  free  to  adjust  to  better  fit  your  muses.  )

❛  are you okay ?  ❜ ❛  believe in yourself.  ❜ ❛  care to explain ?  ❜ ❛  close your eyes.  ❜ ❛  don’t be afraid.  ❜ ❛  don’t overthink it.  ❜ ❛  don’t underestimate me.  ❜ ❛  forget i asked.  ❜ ❛  how are you ?  ❜ ❛  i don’t care.  ❜ ❛  i don’t remember.  ❜ ❛  i hate you.  ❜ ❛  i love you.  ❜ ❛  i need you.  ❜ ❛  i’ll be there.  ❜ ❛  i’m so sorry.  ❜ ❛  it’s over now.  ❜ ❛  i’ve missed you.  ❜ ❛  just be honest.  ❜ ❛  just trust me.  ❜ ❛  leave me alone.  ❜ ❛  let me in.  ❜ ❛  maybe you’re right.  ❜ ❛  never give up.  ❜ ❛  no , stop it !  ❜ ❛  please be careful.  ❜ ❛  please believe me.  ❜ ❛  please don’t cry.  ❜ ❛  please forgive me.  ❜ ❛  so … that’s it ?  ❜ ❛  speak the truth.  ❜ ❛  talk to me.  ❜ ❛  that’s fucked up.  ❜ ❛  this isn’t working.  ❜ ❛  we can’t stay.  ❜ ❛  what about me ?  ❜ ❛  what’s going on ?  ❜ ❛  what’s your problem ?  ❜ ❛  where are we ?  ❜ ❛  who are you ?  ❜ ❛  you did it !  ❜ ❛  you don’t understand.  ❜ ��  you need help.  ❜ ❛  you’re kidding me.  ❜ ❛  you’re safe now.  ❜

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baejie you're literally about to die this is no time to be a misogynist

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🌸  ┊ @battleshot​ asked:           “ we can’t lose… “

                          smoke hovered within the air, the smell of BURNING lingered within her nose as the    𝐒𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃 𝐎𝐅 𝐀 𝐁𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐋𝐄    rang throughout the grounds. her blade dripped in the blood of her enemies, her body      𝐁𝐑𝐔𝐈𝐒𝐄𝐃 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐁𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐃    as she had fought her way through to get this far. mulan knew that they did not stand the CHANCE with this invasion, for they were out numbered, outwitted and far to scattered to make a difference. she could not dwell on how they had gotten this far, nor could she stop to think what it was they had LOST until they found a way to escape. 

                            yet though instincts told her to keep going, she spared a glance back towards the    𝐁𝐔𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐆𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃𝐒,    the brightness of the FLAMES nearly blinding her through the darkness of the night. her fingers tightened against the hilt of her weapon, lips PRESSING into a thin line as she fought the urge to run back and make a FINAL stand. but she knew better then to give in to her desires, knew from experience with     𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐒 𝐈𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐏𝐀𝐒𝐓    that this was not the end. 

            ❝  listen to me, ❞   she breathed out, far harsher then she had meant to, as she reached out to grab hold of the GUNMANS shoulder. her grip was tight, nearly at a tug almost begging him to step back and get behind her.  ❝  it is better to loose today, then to give them the      𝐕𝐈𝐂𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐘 𝐎𝐅 𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐒.    we must believe that others too have survived this attack and have escaped the clutches of those who wish us HARM.  ❞

                              mulan breathed out, as she could feel a sticky hot DRIP falling over her brow, making her blink with a stinging pain.   ❝  just because we lost the battle, does not mean we have    𝐋𝐎𝐒𝐓 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐖𝐀𝐑.    our survival is proof of this. i do not like running, but what good are we if we STAY and let them capture us or worse, outnumber us to the point we cannot return to make a difference   ?  ❞  taking a step forward, she turned her back to the flames to look up at the blonde her eyes speaking for her as she tried not to FEEL the dull ache within her chest. 

           ❝  you do not know me, but it is okay. i PROMISE i will get you out of this and if need be help you find those of whom you care for. but we need to keep moving. we need to     𝐋𝐈𝐕𝐄 𝐓𝐎 𝐅𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓 𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐃𝐀𝐘.  ❞

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🌸  ┊ @caracarnn​ asked:           "A lot of stories just end that way"

            ❝  for once it would be nice to hear of a    𝐓𝐀𝐋𝐄 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐖𝐈𝐍𝐃𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐂𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍    laced throughout the story. ❞   she stated softly as she watched the FLICKERING flames of the fireplace. she could feel its warmth, even across the room. the bard who had finished his song, walking around collecting     𝐏𝐈𝐄𝐂𝐄𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐂𝐎𝐈𝐍    in thanks to his latest ballad.

                         her fingers held onto the glass of tea she had ordered, the strange TASTE upon her tongue telling her that it had not properly BOILED, though she should have     𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖𝐍 𝐁𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑     then to order something so SIMPLE in a tavern made to aid both drunken travelers and workers of the town. her eyes flickered towards the man sat across from her, blade resting at ease by her side, close at hand should a situation ARISE.  

                         a smile lifted the corner of her lips as she RAISED her glass to him, a small cheer as she took another sip before making a face and placing down the glass.  ❝  you know, it is funny, i have traveled to many different places, but you are CORRECT in saying that all stories seem to end     𝐈𝐍 𝐀 𝐒𝐈𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐀𝐑 𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐍𝐄𝐑.    i suppose it is why so many believe the truth of it, when in most cases it is exaggerated to a great extent. ❞  shifting herself, mulan gave a coin to the bard, before glancing at her own wares to make sure nothing had been touched. 

old gods of appalachia Starters Pt.8 | 𝐀𝐂𝐂𝐄𝐏𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐌𝐄𝐌𝐄