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Anon who called you gay...I don't have a reason. Just wanted to be ""funny"". Have a good one!

AHKAHAJAHAJA okay thank u!!! u did make me laugh so mission accomplished ig?

have a good one too!

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anon can u come back i want to know what made u think that, im curious😭😭

Gay 🫵🫵🫵

AJKAHAKAHAJSHSJSK OKAY????

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Gay 🫵🫵🫵

AJKAHAKAHAJSHSJSK OKAY????

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https://archiveofourown.org/works/8476417/chapters/19422655

if i can throw a rec at you, I can give you this one! It's out of the realm even for an AU Barisi, but it's so fun to read. You'll hate Rafael by the end of it and Sonny...my shayla.

i have tried reading this one before but i just couldnt handle it. i dont even remember what exactly made me quit, but i did... nothing negative to the author obvi! i just said "yeah, not for me" and quit, yknow?

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"What are you reading right now?" My own wip because apparently I forgot my own writing style

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🦋 ⇢ share something that has been on your heart and mind lately

sadly its negative so feel free to skip it. just way too much borderline personality disorder babble of self-deprecation

but in short, most of my rl friends just finished uni -- and the thing is we met when we all got into uni, studied together until the worst one failed aka me. i even tried a second time but no, i failed a second time. so they all had their graduation and i am immensely proud of them, dont get me wrong. but also the feeling of failure, of being a failure [twice] is... its hard. i see them all moving on with their lives while im stuck in an endless cycle of low-paying jobs. too poor to get the medical help i need and too depressed to work more and make more money to get the medical help i need. joy!

and then my bestie, whom again i support whole-heartedly and am proud of!! he managed to get accepted into uni in another country. i am delighted for him! truly! cause hes worked so hard for it and its finally paying of and he fucking deserves it! but it also means that hes moving countries, and thats hitting both my feeling like a failure issues and my abandonment issues. all of this wouldve been so much easier if i had a therapist to help me untangle all of it but i dont have the money! see the problem?

i also need everyone to understand that u can be proud of someone and support them while thinking "what about me? why dont i deserve the good things? am i that much worse?". at least im not splitting on this cause i couldve. thats a fucking option. and worst thing about splitting is the guilt u feel after cause it was ur stupid damaged brain suddenly deciding that this person u love is bad when they r not. to be completely honest i still feel guilty because im making things about me when they are not. and its not my besties fault he decided to pick up this mental unhealth mess of a borderline stray so i just send him memes and accompany him to get his documents translated and stuff down all the "another person leaving me. of course they r, you were never good enough to stay for" which is not true because he has no fucking obligation to stay. i want him to move forward in life! i want him to be successful! i also maybe want to not have such a useless brain but we cant get everything we want, eh?

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🎱 ⇢ post your AO3 total stats

okay so it said total so ill give u total, but tbh i usually check only year 2025 aka the barisi fics so ill give u that too!

ALSO!!! now FOUR of my svu fics reached (and passed) 50 kudos!!! this is incredible, thank u so much!!!!!

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🥤🍦🐝

🥤 ⇢ recommend an author or fanfic you love

again??? uhhhh, first of all, here's a whole post that i did quite recently, but ig i can just say @margoblack and her fic "What Makes a Good Man?" that she wrote for me💚

🍦 ⇢ name three good things about a character you hate

ooh, character i hate?.. huh. there was cassidy and stone and a couple of 20+ season detectives (muncy?? i think, and that other one that felt like a teachers pet, i dont remember her name). but three things i like about one of them? thats hard.

im definitely not going with the detectives cause i dont even remember them enough to say anything except for i did not like them... cassidy and stone...

lets try stone. 1) this is going to be controversial but id say barbas case. why? cause stone simply did his job, and thats a good thing. 2) his relationship with noah. i liked that little touch of stone teaching noah baseball, it was cute. 3) [cut out almost five minutes of thinking] idk i guess he tried his best??? no idea, really

🐝 ⇢ tag your biggest supporter(s) and say one nice thing about them

@margoblack is a person with one of the best sense of humor

@request-remand is one of the kindest souls

@ccarisi is comfort personified

@kenobifitz is a beauty inside and outside

@pupcarisi is one of the best playmates winky face

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🧩🔪 - @ccarisi <3

hi my love💚

🧩 ⇢ what will make you click away from a fanfiction immediately?

uhm... first person pov i fear. not much apart from that??

🔪 ⇢ what's the weirdest topic you researched for a writing project?

oh now u r in for a treat cause what havent i researched? but i think one of the more remembered ones are the differences between prostate and penis orgasms, crime rates in some usa towns, would an anal plug hold in water or would it leak out... hehe. those who know, know. anyway my search history is rather random, lmao

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Writers Truth & Dare Ask Game

🎱 ⇢ post your AO3 total stats  🍓 ⇢ how did you get into writing fanfiction?  🌵 ⇢ share the link to a playlist you love 🕯️ ⇢ on a scale from 1 to 10, how much do you enjoy editing? why is that? 🛼 ⇢ describe your latest wip with five emojis 🥑 ⇢ you accidentally killed somebody, which mutual(s) do you text for help? 🥤 ⇢ recommend an author or fanfic you love 💌 ⇢ how many unread emails do you have right now?  🌻 ⇢ tag someone you appreciate but don't talk to on a regular basis 🐇 ⇢ do you prefer writing original characters, reader inserts, or a mix of both?  🧃 ⇢ share some personal lore you never posted about before 🎲 ⇢ what stops you from writing more in your free time?  🍄 ⇢ share a head canon for one of your favourite ships or pairings 🧸 ⇢ what's the fastest way to become your mutual? 🪐 ⇢ name three good things going on in your life right now 📚 ⇢ what's the last thing you wrote down in your notes app?  🍬 ⇢ post an unpopular opinion about a popular fandom character 🔪 ⇢ what's the weirdest topic you researched for a writing project? 🦷 ⇢ share some personal wisdom or a life hack you swear on ❄️ ⇢ what's your dream theme/plot for a fic, and who would write it best? 🌿 ⇢ give some advice on writer's block and low creativity 🥐 ⇢ name one internet reference that will always make you laugh  🏜️ ⇢ what's your favourite type of comment to receive on your work? 🍦 ⇢ name three good things about a character you hate 🥝 ⇢ do you lie a lot? what's the most recent lie you told? 🦋 ⇢ share something that has been on your heart and mind lately  🦴 ⇢ is there a piece of media that inspires your writing?  🍅 ⇢ give yourself some constructive criticism on your own writing 🐚 ⇢ do you like or dislike surprises? 🪲 ⇢ add 50 words to your current wip and share the paragraph here ☁️ ⇢ what made you choose your username? 🐝 ⇢ tag your biggest supporter(s) and say one nice thing about them 🌸 ⇢ do you have any pets? if you do, post some pictures of them 🎨 ⇢ link your favourite piece of fanart and explain why you like it 🧩 ⇢ what will make you click away from a fanfiction immediately?

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Gilded cage, 3/3 chapters, 30843 words by ae_nar

rating: teen and up warnings: no archive warnings apply fandom: Law and Order: SVU relationships: Rafael Barba/Dominick "Sonny" Carisi Jr. characters: Dominick "Sonny" Carisi Jr., Rafael Barba, background: the squad and a couple oc's tags: Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics, Omega Rafael Barba, Alpha Dominick "Sonny" Carisi Jr., Angst, Hurt/Comfort, now it gets trickier, Implied Threat of Sexual Assault, NOT between barisi, Case Related Discussion of Sexual Assault, not related to barisi, kidnapped omega fic aka margo encouraged me when i shouldve been stopped, cult babe summer series: barisi omegaverse

summary: How long has it been since Rafael woke up on that exact bed, stripped down to just undershirt, pants and socks? There was a change of clothes on the bed next to him, a bright orange sundress that Rafael promptly threw under the rug – also orange – and tried to forget about. At least the rug is soft, so soft in fact he had to stop himself from asking where his captors bought it. They might actually answer by buying him another one, and the room doesn’t have enough space for a second rug. There’s just a bed, an empty wardrobe and a small desk with a chair. No mirrors – nothing that Rafael can break and use as a weapon. Just a lot of pillows, blankets and throws. Everything soft, completely harmless. Could Rafael have imagined some months ago, when taking up a case against a cult that he’d end up here? ___ Rafael gets kidnapped to be taught a lesson. Sonny's inner alpha goes berserk as he starts searching for his- the omega.

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finally. it's done.

Gilded cage, chapter 3, 11755 words by ae_nar

rating: teen and up warnings: no archive warnings apply fandom: Law and Order: SVU relationships: Rafael Barba/Dominick "Sonny" Carisi Jr. characters: Dominick "Sonny" Carisi Jr., Rafael Barba, background: the squad and a couple oc's tags: Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics, Omega Rafael Barba, Alpha Dominick "Sonny" Carisi Jr., Angst, Hurt/Comfort, now it gets trickier, Implied Threat of Sexual Assault, NOT between barisi, Case Related Discussion of Sexual Assault, not related to barisi, kidnapped omega fic aka margo encouraged me when i shouldve been stopped, cult babe summer series: barisi omegaverse

chapter summary: Sonny knows Amaro and Fin are right behind him, their guns drawn out, but not shooting, not yet. Not when Sonny is standing in between them and the captor, his hands almost ripping the man’s shirt apart where they grip it over the man’s chest. Sonny’s gaze is burning, the pheromones only slightly dampened by the patches. The man’s gasoline rock scent swirls in embarrassment, in an attempt to retreat. “So you are-” the captor starts, but Sonny doesn’t want to hear a single thing that isn’t an answer to his questions. “Where is he? What did you do to him?” he asks. Seethes. Growls. Sonny doesn’t even care that he has to look up at this mountain of a man. Sonny doesn’t care about anything that isn’t Rafael. ___ Sonny searches. And those who search, always find.

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oh? somethings happening?

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me: can i make gilded cage a 30k words three-chaptered fic? nah, doesnt look that way

also me at 9.1k words, still not wrapping up: uhm. so about that-

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am i doing a chekhov's gun or a red herring? who knows, who knows...

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Gilded cage snippet?

if that teaser seems familiar... no, it doesnt.

...actually it does, here's a non-teaser because its a flashback of the court scene we saw in the first chapter, now retold thru sonny's prism!!