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-HAPPY CALEB DAY!!!

W̳i̳s̳h̳ ̳y̳o̳u̳ ̳w̳e̳r̳e̳n̳’̳t̳ ̳s̳o̳b̳e̳r̳

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“Was it just spur of the moment? Were any of those words you uttered… are any of them in the place of veracity?”

Parties have never been your go-to place, especially if it’s a weekend but who would ever reject your dearest best friend, Caleb, who only did things that would make you crack a smile? When the door creaked, a small slip of the scent that were once stuck inside the cramp space, strong senses of alcohol, cigarettes, and the musky smell of an overcooked meal.

As he dragged you inside the dazzling lights of the room, the music was blasting everywhere! Some murmured from one to another’s mouth, some gave out a weird stare at your entrance… is something the matter?

Nonetheless,— amidst your thoughts, you were handed a red cup from him, of course… you felt safer with him than anyone else.

After a few shots and the sounds of cups being downed simultaneously, almost everyone started to dance and enjoy themselves or with one another. They all seem so… happy and dancing as if their life depended on it, but unlucky for you, you really can’t express yourself in a way where you won’t be awkward. So you just stand there watching them dance, even if your deepest desire is to dance just for once. Well, not until Caleb tugs at your sleeve….

C:You wanted to dance just like them, don’t you?

Y:Yes but-

C:No buts, let’s go.

Y:Are you sure?

Y:Won’t it be weird?

C:Why would it be? I’m with you.

And so you both waltz, along with everybody else it actually felt quite nice. Now that you’re not alone, everything feels so secure when you’re with him, just him.

Time clocked so fast that you didn’t even notice that it was already late, some group of people left, one after another, and maybe it’s also time for you both.

Caleb pulls you out of the party house and insists on driving instead even though he was already feeling quite tipsy, just to get you home safely. The ride to your home is deafening, no one spoke a word… just the wind blowing through the window’s open arms.

Once you both arrived, he first went out to the door and went to your side, opening the door for you. How sweet.

He wraps his arm around your shoulder, always on alert for something that'd unexpectedly happen.

At your front door, pull out your keys and unlocked the access to your doorway.

He was mumbling something you could’ve sworn it, brushing it for a moment as you stepped inside your cosy home. Facing him, he leaned towards you and went for a gentle kiss on the cheek. You didn’t expect that and just froze your state. He mumbled something again, this time it was a bit audible.

“I love you, my one lovely friend.”

Oh, a friend of course. Just a friend, that’s all you’ll ever be in his eyes.

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Haha okay /*nagrebelde habang umiiyak/* REDEMPTION WHERE??

— the apartment you won't share with kamisato ayato

kamisato ayato x f!reader one-shot smau

NOTE: yall are requesting more ayato content soooo 😇 here y'all go hehe 💗 i love you all 💗 (writing this while taking a break from my readings <3)

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Got shocked cuz its midnight alr HAHAHAHAH ANOTHER FOOD FOR THE SCARANATION🗣️🗣️🤗

I CAN SEE YOU

track 01: him again

NOTE: first weekend after uni started and i'm already dreading it lmao anw how's it going guys 😋 alsooo i have saturday classes and it was our first meeting earlier and i got lost sooo (totally the building's fault and not mine bc wtf is that layout hmp)

I CAN SEE YOU — scara x reader smau

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Poor heizou tho HAHHAHAHHHA anw SCARAYN NATION WE WINNING THIS TIME FRFR

KEEP MY HEART

goal 31: they're definitely dating

NOTE: i finally got nilou after grinding so update hehe ^^

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WE SAY THANK YOU YAE IN UNISON

KEEP MY HEART

goal 30: something wrong

NOTES: this took longer than i thought 💀 anw it was more tamed than i imagined omg yay!! ^^

Scaramouche thought the car ride home was plenty suffocating, but nothing could compare to how heavy the air was once he got home with his mother.

An extensive home that is reasonably far from other neighboring houses, with a spacious lot surrounding the house itself. It could've been such a perfect home — if not for the two broken people living in it.

As his mother remained silent while the two of them exited the car, Scaramouche thought he had at least the whole night to prepare for his mother's outburst. Alas, they haven't even made it to the front door yet, and he had already started hearing something.

"Kunikuzushi."

He merely turned to her, not even saying a word.

"Just what happened?" Scaramouche could not get something from his mother's voice at all. She wasn't yelling — it would be out of character for her to do so anyway. But she obviously wasn't happy either. But at least it wasn't that cold, too?

At a loss for words, the young man forced himself to focus his gaze on one random thing, perhaps the grass peacefully lying on their front yard.

'I'll just have to let her say anything and everything she wants to say, and I'll say nothing. And then tomorrow, we'll just continue like nothing happened,' he thought.

And so he did, letting his mother's words pass through one ear to the other. 'How can you let yourself play like that', 'how can you allow people to see you like that', 'just what would they say about you now', 'this isn't what we trained for'... Nothing he wasn't used to. It was all alright. He can go through another sermon session just fine.

Until he was knocked out of his stupor by a certain statement from his mother.

"Perhaps I should've gotten between you and that companion of yours I saw in the freedom wall. I think she is distracting you, maybe you should stay away from her."

A sudden surge of rage came over him, prompting him to finally meet eyes with his own mother. Ei was slightly taken aback, not used to receiving such a hateful look from her one and only son.

"What?"

The woman could not utter a response, still in shock at the state her son is in. She was so used to him being so indifferent whenever they talk, making it seem as if her advices and sermons have no effect at the slightest.

Meanwhile, Scaramouche, at the lack of response from his mother, could not stop himself anymore.

Scaramouche felt like a balloon — thinned, worn out, and keeping too much inside.

Much more than he could handle.

And his mother's words that night felt like a sharpened needle.

"Why the fuck do I always have to do what you tell me?" He finally snapped.

"What?"

"Can't you see that I'm trying?! And yet you always see something!" Scaramouche gritted his teeth.

"You always see something to criticize! You always see something like a flaw! You always see something wrong!" He yelled, shortly followed by a bitter laugh. "Heck, maybe you even consider my birth to be something wrong."

A swift slap cut him off.

Somehow, the physical pain inflicted by his mother got him out of his continuous outbursts, replacing his seething anger with shock. No matter how cold and strict his mother was, she had never gotten physical with him.

Refusing to believe what just happened, a wondering Scaramouche looked back up to his mother's face — only to see her eyes dripping and her cheeks stained.

'Are those tears?'

'My mother... crying?'

"How could you say something like that Kunikuzushi?"

"How can you treat your life so lightly like that?" Ei sobbed. "Your birth wasn't something wrong — it was the most beautiful thing that happened to me."

The young man just stared at her, probably in disbelief.

"You are my son, a part of me, something even more important than myself —"

"— and that's why I never wish to see you hurt."

"Hah," Scaramouche scoffed. "Really?"

The man could not do anything but laugh ironically. She doesn't want to see him hurt, she says?

'I hate to break it to you mom, but you've been doing that for so long.'

How many lies would she feed him tonight?

"I don't want you to suddenly commit a mistake while playing, put yourself to shame, and be unnecessarily criticized and judged heavily." The purple-haired woman said. "And if that happens? Then what? You'll be so affected by all the backlash, and then you'll finally lose yourself?"

Scaramouche swore he never expected to see his mother cry so hard. In fact, crying was one of the things he thought his mother was incapable of doing. But what was she saying?

Where is she getting all this from?

"What?"

"I don't want anyone precious to me to ever experience that again."

"What the heck are you talking about, mom?"

It was a slip of the tongue, unconsciously going back to what he once used to call the woman in front of him. A slip of the tongue that he failed to catch, but did not go past his own mother, whose memories of the days when he used to call her 'mom' flashed by her eyes.

But before she could even explain herself, someone else made their presence known.

"Your mother had a sister, you see."

It was Yae.

His mother's old friend.

“Have you ever heard of Makoto?” The pink-haired lady asked. Scaramouche could not see the relevance of her question, but he decided to humor her nonetheless. “Who?”

“My twin sister.”

“You had a sister?!”

Scaramouche thought he knew a lot about his mother. But really, is he even qualified to say that he knew her if he knew nothing about her past before having him? Everything he knew about Ei were memories of them together. Her being a loving mother to him when he was little, her having Yae as her only friend, her suddenly changing her parental practices once he started his soccer career — all of them were memories of her after his existence.

Only now did he realize he never knew anything about his mother’s past.

Yae sighed. “How is he ever going to understand if you never told him about Makoto, Ei?”

“It’s too dark of a story. He might not be able to handle it.”

“And you think he can handle your coldness and strictness forever?”

“What, do you want me to discourage my son from his dreams of being a top soccer player by telling him that my twin sister fucked up on a game just once, got so many backlash and became the people’s punching bag, went depressed up to the point that she couldn’t handle it anymore and eventually lost herself?” Ei spat out. “I don’t want to scare him off from achieving his dreams, but I can’t also risk the possibility of him having the same experience as my sister.”

What the fuck?

Merely processing the things he was hearing already required so much from the young man. He could not bear to disturb the conversation between the two ladies, lest there are still some things he should hear.

“So you set high expectations for him?”

“It was the only way I thought of.”

“Have you ever considered the thought that you yourself may actually be ruining his dreams for him?”

“What?” Ei turned her gaze to Scaramouche for a moment, allowing her to once again notice the state that her son was in. Trembling hands clenched into fists, focused yet glossy eyes, and brows furrowed — she couldn’t tell if they were out of fury or confusion. Perhaps it was both.

“You are making your son hate that dream of his that you sought to protect with the way you are treating him, Ei.” Yae walked towards the young man and lightly tapped his shoulder. “What this kid wants is to have fun playing, not play under constant expectations and strictness from his mother.”

Scaramouche looked up at her, who only smiled at him in return. “Isn’t that right, Kunikuzushi?”

He turned his face away from her and immediately swatted her hand from his shoulder. “What would you know about what I want?”

“Oh? But was I wrong?” She grinned. “No response? I must’ve been right then.”

“Shut up.”

“You’re just salty I’m right.”

“I am not?” The guy scowled. “Stop making things up you annoying hag —“

“Uh, excuse me?! What hag?!”

A certain purple-haired woman remained all throughout the banter between her son and her friend. When was the last time her son spoke to her without reservations like that? No, when was the last time they even had a proper conversation, one where he isn’t replying with words not even amounting to a handful?

“Ei, I want to ask you something.” A voice brought her out of her trance. “How do the other players on your team look whenever they practice and play?”

“Tired.” Ei described exactly how the boys on the team looked whenever they were on the field. Their whole beings drenched in sweat, their limbs trembling, their breaths hurried.

But despite everything, she remembered that they were having fun.

“But were they having fun?”

“They were.”

“And how does your own son look whenever he’s on the field?”

For the first time that night, absolute silence reigned over their abode’s front yard.

“See?” The pink-haired woman smiled. “Don’t you want Kunikuzushi to have the same experience as everybody else on your team?”

For the first time, Scaramouche heard the two words he thought he would never ever hear coming out from his mother’s mouth.

“I’m sorry.”

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Rating what ei did in this chapter: -0/10

-over-expectant parent,

not cool, ei

Not cool

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goal 29: what happened

NOTE: sorry scara pls remember that ily very much 😔

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╰┈➤ Please ignore the grammatical errors on this! (As English is not my first language)

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╰┈➤ Sypnosis: In whereas you tried to keep your relationship hidden from your family, yet they seem to disagree. That’s where you had to make the regretted decision of your life, even if you didn’t want to, maybe it will be better in another universe instead. ╰┈

[For one to save for someone, a sacrifice is an inevitable choice.

Even if it means to lose something in return.]

- Forbidden love is what you’ve been doing with your lover, Aventurine.

You were really enjoying his company, besides sneaking out just to meet him isn’t a problem for you to do, as long as he’s by your side. Until one night, you noticed your diary; where you’ve kept your daily thoughts or memories with your beloved is missing??? You spent minutes, wrecking your once cleaned room into a mess but you were stopped as one staff member of your household called you downstairs. As you were walking down you inoticed your father, holding the diary?!

“Shit, he must’ve read it” You thought, as you looked at him noticing his face has a stern and angry look, he definitely read through it. What will be your reasoning this time?! As you cane forward to face him, his face turned soft and spoke in an understanding manner as if he wants a favour from you.

:”Kassieo, my child.. look, I know that you might hate me for something I did okay? Just understand me for a bit. He sits down and signs you to do the same as well, he took a sigh from his lips then starts to speak again

“: I may or may have not looked into your diary, although I feel upset that you hid these things from us. But what’s taking a toll on me is that, you KEPT A RELATIONSHIP FROM US?! How could you?! We’ve talked about that relationships with some random is guy isn’t WORTH IT! Break up with him or else. There’s no way I’m letting you be with that guy”

—Those last words from him felt a heavy ache in your chest is transferred, you were sure that he was MAD and so are you. Yet, you couldn’t hide the truth anymore obviously at the same time you don’t know what to feel, do you feel agony in your heart? Do you feel sadness? Or perhaps do you feel anger?

You stand up, and look infuriated, you grit words through your teeth and bickered back to what he said.

“Okay I did hide a relationship, but please don’t you guys dare lay A SINGLE FINGER ON HIM. And i mean NEVER do, I love him so much dad, please let me have this for once… Let me be happy for once, with someone that I truly love.”

You were on the verge of crying, your voice sounding wobbly, but the expression of your father’s face was unfazed almost like he didn’t even have a pity on his own daughter. He stands up from his seat, looking completely disappointed by your decision and remarked his words “Sure, be with him all you want, but you’ll never be part of this family ever again.” His voice has a sarcastic together with a firm tone “So if I were you, I’d think my choices carefully, my child” As he pats your shoulder, leaving the room. You’re either left with your love or luck. Which one will you choose?

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After a few days of thinking, you lay in your bed contemplating on your father’s terms. Suddenly, you opened up your phone and a message from Aventurine saying

“Heyyy, wanna hang out later?” You thunk and replied “Sure! Let’s meet by the park?” You hit send and gets a reply few moments later “See you there” He replied and you just reacted a heart. Now you pulled your body together and stands up from your bed, looking around your wardrobe on what to wear for this casual date with him. You picked a casual one, nothing too overdressed nor underdress either, before you left you messaged him saying “I’m going now” Into which he just left on seen, meanwhile you were walking down the stairs when you saw your father in the kitchen sipping coffee as his eyes noticed you, you quickly went downstairs to greet him. You hugged him and give him a beso on the cheek, you speak “Hey, good morning” to which he replied “Likewise dear, but what’s with the outfit today?” He looks at you before speaking again “Going somewhere I see… I know what you’re up to, but who am i to really depict your decision. But that still doesn’t mean that I’m letting you date that man. My offer still stands, either break up with him or you’ll be kicked out” You remarked to his words and said “I know, I’m meeting him right now and… I promise that one day, I have a hope that you’ll accept him no matter what. “And I have to go now, bye father” You said smiling while you walked towards the door and leaving your home.

A few minutes passed, you get a message from Aventurine saying “I’m here, where areeee youuu?” You chuckled on how cute he texts, thus you replied to him “I’m almost near, let’s meet near the bench?” Whilst typing you were walking, balancing your focus onto your phone and into the road you’re walking in. You finally saw him, standing around and looking around his surroundings until his eyes have locked in with yours, he ran up to you and said “hey, you finally made it” He said giving you a kiss on the cheek. After so you responded “Yea, thankfully my dad let this slide” He raised his eyebrow in complete confusion “What do you mean? He found out?… What did you say”

You then recount everything that had happened, he was speechless but at the same time he looked at you, his eyes pleading for hope for you to keep your relationship. He holds your hand and looked up to you and say “Please, you won’t leave me right? I love you… Please don’t leave me.” He lets out a sigh from his lips and talks again “ Don’t leave me, please… I’ll do anything just don’t leave me” His knees started to feel weak and kneeled to the ground itself, you looked at him with pity. You didn’t want to do this, but you have to…

You helped him get up and caresses his face and speak “Look.. I-I love you, but I don’t wanna you lose you just because of my father’s hinder between us okay? I promise you, even if in the future we’re not together anymore. I’ll always love you, remember that. I truly love you, we’re just in the wrong universe to do so…” As your tears also fell down your cheeks, he hugged you and felt like he never wanted to let you go. You two just stand there, feeling each other presence and enjoying the last moments of you two together.

I guess fate really is cruel even if the love was real, Everyone has to make sacrifices every once in their life, and this was yours. The sacrifice you regretted doing, but that’s life. You hope to meet him again, a meet that would forever last in your memory.