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changing every “i should have known better” to “i know better now”. i will not judge past versions of me through the lens of who i am now.

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this is going to be difficult -> i am capable of doing difficult things -> i have done everything prior to this moment -> this difficulty will soon be proof of capability

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sometimes you have to put that nice girl act in your back pocket, stop being so shy, stop being so self conscious, and just do whatever the hell you want. look out for you.

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if you're miserable, maybe u need to eat more citrus & open the windows a little wider & read that poetry book you've been putting off & enjoy hot bread with melted butter & go to bed with your phone on do not disturb

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what they dont tell you about growing up as a very lonely little girl is that you grow up and still a part of you remains that very lonely little girl

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do you ever think oh actually i am never going to stop being eleven years old and lonely

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It secretly terrifies me that I have no solid personality or identity. If you asked me who I am I could only give you a name and age. My identity is fragmented and prone to shattering under pressure. I have no idea who I am, but I know each of my created personalities very well, it’s like being 50 people all at once and nobody at all at the same time. I’m an empty body with a mind that’s overflowing.

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Lucretia (Detail), 1664. By Rembrandt van Rijn (1606-1669)

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how to stop being depressed how to get rid of depression fast how to not be depressed anymore how to become undepressed how to end depressive episode and/or disorder

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Drawing a randomly generated Haikyuu character (almost) every day until I give up   42. Ukai Keishin

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Doodles~

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ラビット

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any guilty pleasures

every humanly indulgence makes me quake with shame & humiliation

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doodles because i cant stop thinking of mafia!atsumu

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I’m gonna flex on other English majors by referring to Lady Macbeth as “Macbeth” and to Macbeth as “Mr. Macbeth”