after-retrograde

[after-retrograde]

It wasn’t my fault I needed kindness

[after-retrograde]

I catch myself tearing up at the thought of yesterday

[after-retrograde]

one day I’ll look outside and smile at the world I am surrounded by, one day the grass will actually be greener and the air will smell sweeter and I will be in love, but not with anyone in particular, with the universe

[after-retrograde]

I still ache for you, I think it became a bearable sensation.

Love will allow you to tolerate even the most ruthless wounds.

[after-retrograde]

I will no longer prevent myself from love, from loving all that I have and all that there is and all that will be,

I am love and I’m so wonderful.

[after-retrograde]

In a room full of people, I’d choose you

In a room full of people, you’d choose a man with nicer hair

[after-retrograde]

With the awareness of your presence, how could I not crave it?

[after-retrograde]

I’ve never been so simultaneously inspired and torn down by someone

[after-retrograde]

The the way night goes dull

The silence spitting words of wisdom

If only I could share this silence with you

Maybe you’d understand what I meant

When I told you ‘goodbyes’ don’t last forever

[after-retrograde]

I wonder when I’ll love you openly

When I’ll let you in on my secret

Share my views of you to the rest

Am I wrong to look at you with love struck eyes?

[after-retrograde]

I spend my days mumbling to myself about how much you mean to me

[after-retrograde]

I love you for looking out for yourself, I hate you for harming me with intention

[after-retrograde]

I’ll see you in my dreams, a lover of many lifetimes, I wonder if you hurt me in every one?

[after-retrograde]

It’s a spiritual connection, one that has me seeing your reflection in my mirror, one that has my body searching for you in ever being I meet

[after-retrograde]

In the past I pulled myself away from you because with you comes pain, I’m ready to ache