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keep trying to write but too tired

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still not convinced it's a good title, but it does abbreviate to "lwthj," so at least there's that

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First you procrastinate on the task because it is not a big enough deal to get done urgently. Then you procrastinate on the task because it has become such a big deal that doing it is overwhelming. You would think that this implies a middle point where it is just big enough of a deal to get done easily, however the inherent perversity of the universe's causal geometry prevents this

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irl tumblr meetup with the mutual circle but no one says what their url is so u have to guess who is who

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you are capable of big things

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Even if I didn’t have a solid plan, in the back of my head, I always assumed I’d kill myself.

Now I’m an adult and people my age have their lives in order and I’m stuck here, confused, because I never planned to be alive and I’m so far behind.

I feel like I’ll never catch up.

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was already exhausted; overworked today, can hardly stand!

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wheelchairs and canes and glasses and hearing aids and every single other disability aid should be free btw and if you disagree i hate you

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The Nun (amused): he didn't notice anything about me?

Missy: no, he's not very---

Nun: suspicious?

Missy: I was gonna say sentient, but yeah, I don't judge people on their previous incarnations.

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the monk, in Renaissance Italy, meeting a young woman disguised as a man: finally! another man around here!!

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do you think the monk & the nun ever explored each other's bodies

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listening to Missy audios at work

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A modern!Jekyll and Hyde AU that pulls from both the novella and the 2015 ITV series. Jekyll struggles with his health while finding himself bombarded with self-help and addiction related ads online; his doctor and husband worry about him as his health worsens, and the mysterious Mr. Hyde appears to complicate matters.

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doomscrolling is not activism

doomscrolling is not activism

doomscrolling is not activism

"don't look away" is a meaningless phrase. who are you benefiting by inundating yourself with misery porn?

DO something about things you care about. Go to a protest for something you believe in, if you can. Donate money to a cause if you have it to spare. Volunteer your time to help people if you have the energy. Write a letter to your political representatives if that's something you can do. These are meaningful ways to try to make change in the world.

And then? don't feel bad about insulating yourself from horrible news. Don't make yourself look at images that make you feel sick. Don't read endless things that depress you. Because frankly it gets harder to actually do the more you doomscroll. Reading constantly about things you can't change because they're happening at a systemic level or on the other side of the world is paralyzing. It makes you less able to help where you can.

I'm not saying be willfully ignorant. I'm not saying pretend horrible things aren't happening. I'm saying don't destroy your mental health going in-depth and cycling through horror after horror on your phone. I'm saying there is no virtue in making yourself experience other people's traumas because mere awareness is not activism. you inflicting suffering on yourself is not activism.

doomscrolling is literally sapping your energy and focus away from doing anything useful to help other people. you can burn yourself out without ever lifting a finger by exposing yourself to all the bad news in the world and who does that help? no one.

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public libraries are so sick. there are five books I want to read and they're all relatively new so they're only available in hardback which is so expensive but it just cost me $0 to place holds on them. five books for zero dollars. it requires nothing but clicking a button and then going to the library to pick them up when they're ready. zero dollars. that's crazy

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ngl every time i see stuff about like, drugs affecting cognitive development of kids and teens, i think about the fact that it's normal for kids and teens to have caffeine, even tho caffeine also affects cognitive development. i think about the fact that teens are expected to get up extremely early in the morning to get ready for school, and go to bed real late because they only get free time late at night. i think about the fact that society already puts kids and teens through so many things that destroy their physical and mental health, and yet there's no serious effort to change the world to be a kinder place to them