#cloudy rambles

[agenderhyde]

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[the-cloudy-dreamer]

it was pointed out to me today that ( for various reasons) this could all been seen as a sequence and I honestly didn’t plan for it to be that way but now I cannot unsee it! The mind works in mysterious ways ( specially with blorbo fanart).

The year is wrapping up and I’m feeling happy to all the progress I’ve made as an artist—so I thought hey let’s put this all together so I have a post to go back to and remind myself of happy tidings 🖤

[theoretically-writing-fics]

What if Donella wasn't just cursed to never enter the library, but she was cursed to never be able to use/work with magic again? Whenever one of her soldiers retrieved an enchanted item for her, it always worked for them but never for Donella. That's part of why she needed Hugo to be the one to go on the trials. Of course it's because he's smart, but it's also because he's an artificer, and enchantments and whatnot are kinda his whole thing. She could send her entire army into the library on her behalf, but none of them would know where to go from there. Hugo would.

Also, I like to think that Hugo often helped Donella when combining said magic objects into her weapons. Donella and some of her workers would make the weapon, but Hugo would add the item and make sure it's in perfect condition for their clients. Mainly I just need some mother/child bonding. Like Donella eventually letting Hugo work almost alongside her, and Donella teaching young Hugo more advanced things about engineering (though Hugo would just use this knowledge to upgrade Olivia, but don't tell Don that!)

[cloudymistedskies]

HES SO CUTE I LOVE HIM WHQGNBTY6

I love the twins' mist patterns, the hilt of his sword, the paper planes, which is his hobby. AND GINKO, WHO HE LOVES AAAUBNNNNNBGGJWIWIWJWWW2 THE OUTFIT LOOKS SO PLEASING TO STARE AT TOO.....,,,,, Muichiro you make me insane

[songwithfivenames]

Been a while since I’ve posted anything Metalocalypse related but I was thinking about the time I heard that some of the songs in the Doomstar Requiem were inspired by the musical Jesus Christ Superstar

And now that I’m doing backstage work for Jesus Christ Superstar that’s all I can really think about

[i-like-gay-books]

i wish “hyperfixating on reading fanfics of the same two losers falling in love a thousand times” was a good reason to call off of work because oh boy

[my-strange-attraction]

I've been reading queer-specific books for a writing project I'm working on lately and yes it did include Fun Home and it was even better than the first time I read it (my fixation on certain panels of that comic really should've tipped me off to my lesbianism sooner) BUT also I read Gender Queer for the first time and OH MY GOD

Some panels I related to SO hard that I had to screenshot:

LITERALLY!!!!!!

This is actually always how I have experienced crushes and is why I was never able to identify them as such until very recently (because I just thought they were cool and I emulated everything they did). Also why I have almost never actually known any of my crushes very well if at all.

I have nothing to add or change here, this is literally my exact experience.

I watched an episode of Say Yes To The Dress when I was super young where like the main lady or whatever got breast cancer and had to chop hers and I thought this a lot in those years as mine got bigger. I like them for the most part now, especially since I've gotten more comfortable with the sexuality of my body, but there was a while when I wanted to have a flatter chest. I think if they grew any bigger I would be super uncomfy with them but my B cups are perfect for my genderfluid ass.

I got so much out of this book, which I didn't expect, really. Mostly I just included it in my list because my mc who I'm writing about is genderqueer and I wanted a resource on it to draw from (alongside my own experiences, of course). Even though my experience has been a lot different from Maia's, I really related to eir story in so many parts (none of these panels are even including the whole section e included about reading gay fiction and writing fanfic, like, bro, it's ME). Highly recommend, 5 star read for me.

[bubblessunshinehoney]

Rewatching all the marvels in order...

And i just wanna say... skinny!steve is a cutie pootootieeeee but a sassy one nonetheless🤭

And bucky...my loveeeeeee

[arogantskai]

nema drum

nema asfalt

prin pamant

mergand

[agenderhyde]

Missy closed her eyes. "Do you believe some people can't be cured, Doctor?"

"I believe anyone who wants to be cured can be saved."

"Even if the bad keeps whispering in their ear?"

"Even if the bad seeps inside and tries to take you down with it."

"Pain Management" by Beverly Sanford, featured in the Target Storybook

[the-cloudy-dreamer]

taking the skrungly entities away from mr gaiman and putting them away on the top shelf until he learns to treat them better and writes them a happy ending (or the bottom of my sock drawer whatever they find comfiest)

[theoretically-writing-fics]

Obviously Donella and Cyrus are the two main people Hugo worked with, basically being his family, but I feel like some other soldiers would be pretty good friends with Hugo and they alongside sometimes Cyrus (though he's got a bit more of an important job than regular soldiers) would teach Hugo things Donella couldn't if she was to busy, like how to cook or sew

Not saying Donella wouldn't do this, but I can imagine her being at least a little neglectful of Hugo, and some soldiers might take pity on him

[cloudymistedskies]

MariMui scenarios (Birthday edition!!)

(Okay yes, nobody celebrated their birthday in the Taisho era, but not a lot of ppl know that so im 😁😁😁)

It was Muichiro’s birthday. He didn’t realize it was until each hashira greeted him happy birthday, either in person or by letter. It wasn’t too important for him, at least that’s what he thinks. But he realize that Mari hasn’t said anything about his birthday. He didn’t see her, nor did he receive any letter from her.

It was a bit disappointing to him. Admittedly, he was hoping Mari would do something in his birthday. He spent the rest of the day training as usual. Then as he was about to call it a day and planned on patrolling, he sensed a presence and turned around, his expression slightly surprised when he sees the familiar brunette, with a cake in one hand and seemingly a present in another.

With a sheepish grin, she greeted: “..Happy birthday…?” She was hoping to sneak up on him as a surprise, but then again, he’s also a Hashira…

“I was thinking you’d forgotten about it.” Muichiro said, taking the cake from her hands as she was struggling to stay stable. Mari explained to him that she was having trouble due to their busy schedules and there was a delay making the cake. She was hoping to celebrate with him in the afternoon, but obviously, it didn’t occur.

Although not noticeable, Muichiro felt relieved and maybe even happy Mari remembered and even went out of her way to do all this for him. Unfortunately they couldn’t celebrate it around evening due to their nightly patrols, but the girl suggested they celebrate it tomorrow and spend some time making paper planes too. Muichiro agreed. After all, she was the one he was waiting for to spend time with for his special day.

THERE WILL BE ART SOON !!! IM STILL MAKING ITTTTT just writing this as compensation

Here is the promised MariMui content: @larz-barz @thewinterpillarhashira @bunskero @ramuunene @tinyperson00 @nimmie-nugget @kimetsu-chan @aceofstars0 @nothingtoseehere1-2-3 @muuumuiiii @rion-isnot-an-ai @pinkwisteria @kiiroibarathedragontamer @love-stvrs @risingscorchingsuns @your-local-halloween-black-cat

[i-like-gay-books]

someone tell me what the fuck to do now i just finished dark heir and i need to scream and flail around but its 1am and i have a 9am class tomorrow like bruhhhhh

[my-strange-attraction]

Hey. It's been a bit.

I graduated from college almost a year ago now and it's been... strange. For the purposes of this blog, talking about sexuality and gender and labels, one huge thing that has changed for me is. Not being in my tiny ass college town anymore. HUGE, tbh.

I moved to a city with a huge queer community! And Hinge goes OFF here, it's honestly overwhelming.

I've had my first (and second, and third) "date" now? Kind of underwhelming in all honesty, but that's just because all of those dates were trial dates that didn't end up working out, so it was more like hanging out with friends. GOD, lesbians are so bad about meeting and not feeling romantic chemistry and then wanting to be friends anyways. I am starting to get pretty fatigued with making new friends.

Here I'm yapping again. I wanted to talk about how this has affected my perception of my sexuality.

It's... strange. I feel like the more I've looked at women on dating apps, the less I've been inclined towards them? But I went on a date with a genderqueer person who was more masculine presenting and (hate to say it and make it a Thing but it is kind of a thing for me) AMAB and it was kind of super uncomfortable for me.

Again my bisexual crisis!

I've come back to the conclusion that I do think men are attractive but kind of in the way that I think a long skirt is cute--I like to look, but feel uncomfortable when it's paired with me.

But. I also do feel kind of a distance from women too. Not as much, because I did grow up with women, but there's something about being with fellow sapphic genderqueer people that is just. So comforting? And having something funky going on with gender makes a person SO hot to me.

I've been thinking I'm just autistic, maybe. /hj lmao

I don't know, there's something about having similar experiences. Seeing yourself in someone else. People joke about the gay experience of accidentally dating your doppelganger, but there's something to be said for knowing, at first meeting, that there are certain parts of another person that you immediately can understand and that they can understand about you.

Maybe it's just because I've only been on first dates with people from dating apps, but this has also been the case for me with friendships in the past. I've always been most drawn to my queer, genderqueer, afab best friends. I've always wanted to spend the most time and have the deepest conversations with them.

I think I'm slowly starting to understand what romantic energy feels like to me? More on that another time. Aro followers still here from the times of pre-sexuality-crisis-cloudy, I know you're dying to hear the definition, and I can assure you I'm working on it, haha.

There's more to talk about here than I really have the energy for, at the moment. I'm on my period x_x I just felt the urge to write a real post on this blog for the first time in a while. I'm still alive! I'm still confused. Peace out, cuties ;)

[bubblessunshinehoney]

I just finished Bride from Ali Hazelwood...and I'm hooked. I want to return in the story and rediscover their relationship...

Might also want to read more books like this 😊 does anyone have recommendations?