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[agitaysft]

I always convince myself im a good person every time I had a little beef with someone else, Im not that shitty, I'll learn each times to get better i hope.

Every time it's coming, I sometimes questioning myself what and why. But in a second i'd also tell myself, that Im okay cuz Im still a good person, that adult has those different values in lives, to put themselves always right against others.

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Я осознала свою женственность.

Она нежная, уютная, тёплая и в цветочек. Она как рассвет в деревне.

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― October, Robert Frost

[text ID:  O hushed October morning mild, / Thy leaves have ripened to the fall; / Tomorrow’s wind, if it be wild, / Should waste them all.]

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I don't mean to sound pretty, but there's a prettiness I've found,

a sickly sweet sound of a brain in the ground while its heart beats above,

raw and in love with the breaking, the broken, the empty, the numb.

a heavy weight pulls a heavy weight down

through a metallic pitch that sticks, in black spots, in cigarette scars on the brain

and in the blood, seeping into silent screaming melodies, into beautiful brushstrokes--

dark as the scars and heavy as the numb, a heart painting the ground above its buried brain

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Should i try to give myself positive affirmation every morning to start the day?

For example; alhamdulillah im alive this morning, it will be a good and pleasant day, I am a blessed person, I will achieve good things today.

Something like that, perhaps.

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[Shifted]

It left us empty in undefined way, to be in new circumstances. To witness many things changed around with ourselves in it. Upcoming days won't be same again.

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[Substantiality]

I just want to live happily and comfortably, able to eating good food every day. I dont wanna be a billioner with hundreds of responsibilities to carry on the world and hereafter. Dealing with small stuff is basically me.

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[Overwhelmed]

I feel so lucky and thankful to be loved, to have someone i share all this life stuff with, to have a deep connection and bonding. I wish this energy affected me and ppl around me in a good way.

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O allah, please keep me away from unnecessary thoughts and ego. To stick on my faith over my own priorities in life.

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[Pondered]

Have u ever questioning urself what do u do in the future, like what things u will achieve first or what will you choose in life among slight opportunities.

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[Words in Line]

Tried to finish my work while scratching things out but ended up to write my blurry thoughts again. I scream my mind through words, put the most honest feelings abt my worries and stuff.

Writing things out on paper is most satisfying thing yet depressing cuz the more u write the more u find urself is miserable.

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If I could see inside of my head, they must be look like as tangled webs.

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[Eggshell]

Others can't break me or put me down, i been living my own without giving a care on anyone else perspective on me. But im drowning when it comes to my own thoughts related to complicated feelings & unfinished business 😪

Sometimes i forget the most essential thing, i prioritize myself and my needs, demand to allah a lot without really involved Him into my pray and my wishes. I should've put Him above my worldly passions & desires. Stick to it regardless any circcumstances.

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[Revert]

All of the Stars by Ed Sheeran is as special as The Fault in Our Stars. The movie has released along with the song as an ost, let me kept replaying both the song and the movie. Such a mere memory but those gives me such a catchy-memorable moment around 2014.

What a time.

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There're chill and dreamy feelings whenever oldies music is playing. Driven me away to another room, another place and time.

Here's the link of the playlist that gives me such an oldies feelings 🌠

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Life is too short to think about demands.

Yet being adult is weird and demanding.

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I'd rather walk and shut my ears to live alive, to feel good enough. No one could really understand you except urself so just bear it.