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[aheart-thatwanders]

𝑰𝒕'𝒔 𝒃𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒂 𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒆 𝒔𝒊𝒏𝒄𝒆 𝑰 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒌𝒆𝒑𝒕 𝒂 𝒃𝒍𝒐𝒈 𝒐𝒓 𝒋𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒏𝒂𝒍 𝒐𝒇 𝒂𝒏𝒚 𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒅...

And I realized it was something that I missed and wanted to get back into. To have the ability to track my moods and progress in life, to preserve memories and vent in a what has been a safe environment for my poetry and my art in the past. What triggered this inspiration to start again was that I made the conscious decision to “clean up” my life in every way possible. First I found faith, I converted to Islam very recently and being more in touch with my creator has made me feel happy. I’ve cleansed my diet, switching to a 1700 calorie meal plan and starting an exercise journey which has already led me to lose 5.4 lbs. I also cleansed my friends circle, I stopped putting any effort into anyone who I felt didn’t return my efforts and left me feeling as if they only wanted to be my friend to get something out of the situation. Basically, the formula has been that if it doesn’t feed my soul, doesn’t bring good in my life or distracts me from Allah or my good habits…it must go. I’m proud of myself for making these decisions and choosing me for the first time. I feel like a lot of my unhappiness was from seeking validation from others and not accepting their behavior for what it was, not calling out unfairness and mistreatment. I no longer make excuses for people or for myself. I think the greatest thing I’ve ever done for myself is to start to believe in myself and take the time for self improvement and self reflection. I will document it all here, for myself, and for anyone else who may be wondering if they are the only ones who struggle to put themselves first.

𝐻𝑒𝑟𝑒'𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑜𝑤𝑎𝑟𝑑𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒 𝐼 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝐼 𝑑𝑒𝑠𝑒𝑟𝑣𝑒