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“Sometimes we just have to cut off the dead branches in our life. Sometimes that’s the only way we can keep the tree alive. It’s hard and it hurts, but it’s what’s best.”

— Nicole Williams

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I know it’s bad.

But sometimes, deep inside, I can relate to Joji.

I know I shouldn’t.

But when it gets hard, I can feel Joji.

Maybe because we didn’t settle in peace.

Maybe because we didn’t really let go of each other.

Maybe because there’re so many promises haven’t yet fulfilled.

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Plot twist! Na got married first among us thwee yayy. Only if you’re interested in our story then you may continue reading this. Otherwise, just continue scrolling hehee 😘 So in terms of daily wishes, readiness, and expectation, Ni should be married first. But her case was complicated. So we kept on looking for her. Out of blue, someone found me and upss I got engaged first ☺️ In between that, I was actually trying my best to make myself a successful cupid for Na. Matchmaking Na & Zul wasn’t easy. It took a year okay. But loook, it was a success in the end alhamdulillah! May Allah bless their marriage till forever♥️ To Na, I’m genuinely happy for you to have found the love of your life. Ni & I will always be here for you. To Zul, take care of our Na and love her more than anything in the world. Be kind to her and make her the happiest woman on earth! Okay, see you on the next wedding. #SakinahZulfitri #NaMiNi https://www.instagram.com/p/CedMB3ovJshubEk5Vz9xxPdkQQafykAG5_y4c40/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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May Allah ease.. may Allah ease.

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Fast forward | September 2021 | Kota Cinta

—Lewat petang marin, aku lawat kota cinta ini. Masih indah. Masih hidup. Bagaikan baru saja kita duduk bercanda di situ. Masih segar di ingatanku, momen kau sarungkan sweatshirt kacak yang aku hadiahkan sebagai buah tangan dari korea. Kita sangat bahagia.

Menelusuri jejak-jejak memori yang pernah kau ciptakan, bersamaku.. cukup menyebakkan dada. Di mana silapnya, Tuhan saja tahu.

Siapalah aku untuk melawan jalan yang Tuhan arahkan..

6 tahun aku menantimu, setia tapi rabak. kuat tapi koyak. Perlahan-lahan, aku hilang percaya pada cinta dan angan-angan.

Sampai ramadhan yang lalu, Tuhan beri aku kekuatan baru. Dia temukan aku sebuah cinta yang mudah-mudahan lebih indah dari cerita kita. Semoga dialah penggantimu yang lebih baik, the man of my sweet dreams..

Selamat tinggal, kenangan lama. Aku simpankan, rapi. Takkan ku buang.

Dan izinlah aku mencipta kenangan yang baru di sini. Moga kau baik-baik saja di sana.

[aimisya]

InsyaAllah 🥰

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One with the love of my life before I fly back to Alor Setar. Happy new year 2021! Target 2021 masih sama—kali ni serious nak kurus janjikk and to my fellow #teamsingle let’s get a boyfriend this year haha.. y’know, we’re not so young anymore 😜 Oh and I shall finish HOship and come back home for good insyaAllah 💪🏻 Can’t wait to see what 2021 brings... Till then, bye! https://www.instagram.com/p/CJf0ferHO4-DCzOpNxxPtL2xv6Jpt3gFzgHVXg0/?igshid=63rx5r3rc6qc

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First day of a new year has always been the most meaningful one for us because it symbolizes the union of ma and abah. For sure I wouldn’t be here without the union hehe. I can never thank them enough for every single thing they have done for me since I was born. But now that I’ve become quite a great human being, though not quite an elegant woman yet and still sometimes act like the 10-year-old manjalitis child, one thing I promise to myself— I’ll be that child of yours that you can always count on throughout your old days and until death keep us apart in sya Allah.. I love you two more than anything else in the entire world. May Allah grant you both the highest place of Jannah ❤️❤️❤️ Happy 34th anniversary, Mama & Abah! Blessed 34 years together now and forever 👫 (sorry had to celebrate it at home in our pyjamas haha) PS. That premium Rainbow cake from SR is unexpectedly delicious, we loved it! 👏🏻👍🏻 (at Nilai Impian) https://www.instagram.com/p/CJfso_gngxxYK9kNwF3XTbk1gCkQqoHx6gGmTI0/?igshid=7hkmvqconqxn

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Perkenalkan anak buah cikmie yang ketigaaaaa, Aleeya Insyirah! 😍😍😍 Sorry cikmi busyyy angat baru sempat belek gambar majlis aqiqah insyirah hari tuuu. Walaupun cikmi jauh nun di utagha, harap insyirah kenal cikmi lagi laa bila kita jumpa lagi nanti.. Tak dapat tgk perkembangan insyirah membesar wuwuwu, nnt cikmie video call ibu selalu kita sembang hello kitty, sailormoon, cardcaptor sakura, winxclub, powerpuff girls and princess disney stuffs keh. Are you ready to be pampered by cikmie? 🤪 Shh, don’t tell ibu/baba 🤫😉 . #aleeyainsyirahcikmie https://www.instagram.com/p/B2eG7-oHZZJ03J4XbWrbbKsjGjOT2bqRDM_C900/?igshid=1okycz14za2d4

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Life-changing day

Rabu, 24.07.2019

Never in my head,

Never crossed my mind nor my lips,

Never even once in my list,

But I ended up clicking Hospital Sultanah Bahiyah, Alor Setar during eHO just now.

First it showed database error at 11.59. Then I got into the system right at 12 on the dot. I was going fast I knew I was getting my first choice. And with everything happened so fast, I seriously got Pilah at first, I was literally only 1 click away, only few secs delayed, then puffff it was gone. Tears started dropping. So weird and felt unfair because it was only 12.01 but there was only fewww hospitals left. Panic kicked in because the available list wasn’t familiar at all. At all! There was Klang, but I don’t want Klang. Saw Taiping, and immediately clicked it next, but puff, gone. There was Johor but I didn’t know why I was not attracted to any. Called mom, cried. Can’t think straight can’t talk can’t decide. Ended the call with no decision because I was crying while thinking so hard and so fast to just click somewhere that’s popular which someone might want to swap later. But none that was left is popular. At the very last moment, Alor Setar was there, asked Kinah and Keya who were also panicking with me because we were late we didn’t get to choose yet, “Alor Setar keeee?”, and then Kinah decided it, I saw Kinah clicked it and succeeded. Panicked so I followed fast, clicked and pufff,

I lost it. I lost the game. It isn’t my choice. I didn’t plan this. It wasn’t in my list, never has been. Never. But it happened.

I still can’t believe what and why it happened. I didn’t plan to delay clicking Hantar and helped Wani when I got Pilah at first. I didn’t realized I made the decision for not clicking Hantar before helping Wani. It was my mistake. I should’ve clicked Hantar first before my hand moved to Wani’s mouse. Or else, I knew we could both get Pilah. I was getting Pilah because I got into the system earlier and smooth. I was there. I was so damn close.

But.. Alor Setar it is.

I thought at least I have Kinah. At least I have her for my support. And Wani has swapped to Alor Setar too. At least, they are my support sytem for now. We only have each other.

484 kilometres, 4 hours and 50 minutes away from home. Unfamiliar, been there but never planned to come back.

I’m still crying while typing this entry.

I slept early and woke up in the middle of the night only to realize it wasn’t just a dream. I finally get to work, but in Hospital Alor Setar. It’s just.. too far away from home, from mama from abah, from my nephews and newborn niece. I’m so sad but I know I need to be thankful.

As a believer, yes insyaAllah, it may be the best for me and my future. For whatever happened today, I knew all along that Allah is the Best Planner of all. I may have my list but Allah has the best list for me. InsyaAllah I’ll find the hikmah soon, and write it here. I’ll find out if it’s a nightmare or a sweet dream. Huhu.

So, ke jelapang padi ke kiteee!

[aimisya]

16.7.19

This is me letting you go.

I am finally letting you go.

Thank you for the memories.

Semoga sentiasa dalam kebaikan insyaAllah.

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Alhamdulillah, congratulations on your wedding, dear Nani & Fax. May Allah guide and ease you two in every steps ahead.. May your life together be filled of His light, full of love and blessing. Never give up on each other. Stay together till death do you part, and meet again in Jannah.. Wish you a happy married life guys, make one big beautiful family okeh 😉 Allah always with you! ❤️ https://www.instagram.com/p/BzFh21gHi5Z/?igshid=1vh8npoyej6hs

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Take care of each other and stay in love till forever okeh! Pape roger 😉 #FaxNani #icountonyoufax #nopeididntcry #imonlyonecallawaynani #bff #majorlove (at Taman Wangsa Melawati) https://www.instagram.com/p/BzArc1Znric/?igshid=1lbdsqzgh7yt7

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My girl is a Mrs now wohoo 🥳 #TeamBride #FaxNani (at Taman Wangsa Melawati) https://www.instagram.com/p/BzAoD-ynHrT/?igshid=1plrhirbnul5j

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Almost there

So I was looking at your picture and asked myself,

Is it possible not to love you anymore?

And I could hear my heart saying, “It is. You’re almost there.”

And you know when a woman doesn’t love anymore..... when she decides to stop waiting and let go, she’ll never look back and you’ll never win her again.

Looking forward for the day I finally don’t want you anymore.

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Nothing beats the beauty of a bridal shower. Oh wait, except the bride! 😉 #teambride #bridalshowerparty (at Shell Out G-Village) https://www.instagram.com/p/Byw6ruFH16Q/?igshid=255knfc7plgo