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i’ve had such beautiful memories in tennessee. this is really a breathtaking land

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well i’ve done it. i’ve put all the plans in place for an interesting life. now i just have to be present for it all

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sometimes, shallow restless sadness feels so nice because i remember how gut wrenching true emptiness felt like. i am confused though; because then there was hopelessness. i knew how i felt about life and myself and people. now i have hope. i don’t know how i feel about much of anything. somehow, hope currently feels more directionless than depression. more lonely. i wonder why.

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Zen x Meg

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becoming a theatre kid in middle school instead of 11th grade would’ve saved me

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outskirts of Siena, Italy

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leaving the second spot

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I get why for most people sunrise symbolizes hope and potential and new beginnings and sunset symbolizes wistfulness and loss and the impermanence of all things but like. I associate sunrise with having to go to school/work and all the horrors therein, and sunset with rest and contemplation and the closest thing to freedom I'll likely ever get, as well as the fact that the stars will soon come out.

Also I live in a region where the sun almost always appears pale, washed-out and weak at sunrise but the sunsets on a clear night are richly coloured, vibrant and seem to reach across the whole sky. The coldest part of the day/night, when going outside is inhumane torture and you can feel your dental fillings contract, is often near sunrise here, while sunset in winter (and god doesn't it feel like winter lasts until June) is not long after the warmest part of the afternoon.

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it’s the ppl who are supposed to love me the most who tell me all i have to do is hide the most passionate parts of myself.

i thought i wanted harmony, so why not just hide?

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i need infinite money forever so i can get everyone so so so many little gifts

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Noite Sem Luar / Moonless Night

Sung by Larissa Nunes, who plays Ivone Araujo, in Season 2 Episode 6 of Coisa Mais Linda / Girls from Ipanema

It was a moonless night

That I saw life pass me by

Endless empty road

I would sing this song

Without the one who says he loves me

From this cage I will free myself

I’ll go out to see the sun

On my way I’m my own beacon

From the clouds I see the pier

I feel the wind guiding me

I know I’ll come out of the darkness

With beautiful flowers holding my hands

Time has taught me

My story has just begun

Time has taught me

My story has just begun

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pretty in purple