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july 28 2017

I'm still stuck in the never ending abyss of broken hearts and fractured relationships. He is still around, and just as important to me as ever. He still annoys me and makes mistakes like pulling me in at P's birthday. He still doesn't know how to show his heart and open up and gets frustrated at the fact that I'm like that. They still leave me out. They make me want to move on but I don't because of the tension it will cause. They don't realize how bad it sucks to lose 2 friends because you're trying to balance 7 at a time. Those two make me happy and want to be around them. Those two invited me on trips where I know I won't be drowned out and where our common interests will allow us to have a time worth remembering. Those two, mainly one, deserves my apology now more than ever for not realizing the pain I've inflicted. Him and I have been fighting. Him and I haven't been on the same page for a while and it may be because he's in love with me or jealous about the other one who I've been so focused on. Him and I need to get back to where we were when he was my number one best bro and I could always talk to him because now we don't anymore.

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march 2 2017

It’s been a while, I don’t use this as much but I feel like I kinda should

Lots has happened: •I found a boy whose giggle makes me smile and who has such a huge heart filled with nothing but plain happiness and goodness. He got so close with us but it’s a shame he didn’t want to get closer. I’m okay though, I think, because being his friend is just as important if not more •I’ve reconnected with the other one who causes me problems but I miss him in my life. He’s such a dummy I can’t help but grin every time he’s around. He’s trying to be better but I still don’t know if that’s possible with him but I’ll be around to see if it does •I made some skeptical decisions in terms of friends. I’ve lost one and was on the track of losing 2 more but it’s better now. We talked it out but I gotta remember that although it applies to everyone I’m the only one expected to follow through with it •school has been an actual bitch but I have to focus. It’s on me to get where I want to get and I AM going to get there…although I’m not sure it what I want anymore. •I miss a lot of people and things are always changing so I have to change to keep up with them as well but most nights I’m up because I’m actually so sad of what’s been happening in my life and around me.

Lots has happened.

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nov 22 2015

I’m still in love with him

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nov 1 2015

tonight we talked about books. especially Ricks books because yes I love mythology tbh. then he said “isn’t it weird how when you were a kid you thought in Serbian” ? like no I don’t remember actually thinking until I was 10 but ok. now he’s bringing me 2 of his favorite books although the eragon series is his #1 baby. he’s literally my best friend and I love him to death

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October 28 2015

I just want someone to want to talk to me as much as I want to talk to them but at the same time I want a week where I don't have to talk to any of my friends but that's being antisocial and I'm already losing friends and I'm so sad

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june 16 2015

high school is over so of course I asked Aaron to do an impromptu photo shoot with me. I also needed a picture of 4/4 AP squad because I love them all so much. Our diverse group has gone through so much and they have helped me see the world in a different light.

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june 6 2015

third time seeing imagine dragons I have never been so honoured to have watched these boys mature from crowds of 50-100 people to arenas where they as men understand what it is they are doing and how they are making a difference to so many lives in ways unimaginable. I will always love Dan, Wayne, Dan, and Ben. thank you for the night of my life, once again

I would also like to share my love for Halsey who will be constantly playing now, you’re a monster on stage for a 20 year old and ilu so as well

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june 2 2015

for Lera Valeriya Andreja Afanasjeva

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june 1 2015

so today I went out to lunch with miso because we both decided to not go to school today. we had sushi that was absolutely delicious and on our way back some old woman sped right into the the back left door of his car and made a dent along with some scratches. thankfully we’re okay.

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may 30-31 2015

I have so much love for this group of people. there have been some who have come and gone but the core always remains. I can’t begin to tell all the funny stories we had together this weekend and although not all bonds were reformed, there is less tension and we all are beginning to get closer. S/O to: the crazy moments on the 8 hour bus rides there and back home Marko for being lovesick Andrea for her single tear when her belt was tightened Miso for the talks The eloquent eight that tore every song that possibly came on, and finally to Nina for sticking with our shit and trusting us.

love love love, and so many memories

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may 29 2015

I get nervous easy but I was asked by my friends to go ahead and perform with them for our grad and bless the fact that I am drumming because lord knows I can’t sing. but it’s going to be sick cause Jen and Tori are singing and Ama is rocking the piano and Ty is going to be on the violin and I’m drumming wow. IM STOKED ITS GOING TO SOUND SICK

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may 28 2015

my aesthetic is putting on fake nails just to paint them grey with a matte coat. Also, these guys! I love love love Ama and Aaron to death, although I’m very bipolar to Aaron, but it’s for his own good. Boys gots to learn. The lesson we learned during today’s field trip to the UofA for physics, wasn’t anything about spectroscopy or radiation, but more that the red lamp is so much better for selfies.

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may 21 2015

I hate physics so much wow

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may 19 2015

this actually happened on Saturday so like 3 days ago but! James, great guy, Canadian (Calgary actually so woop), constantly wears a hat because he died his hair blond with his friends and how it’s grown out to his nose, dating the wonderful and talented Anna Clendening, has a gap between his top two teeth that he accidentally whistles out of, he can sing and play instruments, all in all great chap. I had a super obsession with him for a good two weeks and now it’s gotten to the point where I’m like “yo im a fan and yeah that’s all g”. Anyway, so I snapped him this grand photo of me making a peace sign with it written in black snapchat writing tool, nice, on my forehead and the Calgary thing when you swipe in the area and that that happened^ that was cool, very rad shout out to TretzyTV / James Francis

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every single day I will take a picture of something, or at least try to, and post a makeshift journal entry for myself. wow I'm so cute

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still relevant dw