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I was so fucking drunk that I genuinely have no idea what he is talking about.

"touch some grass", shut the hell up, I fuck grass daily

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"touch some grass", shut the hell up, I fuck grass daily

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My cat died...and for some reason the fact that so many therians/alterhumans believe in past lives makes me feel a little bit better

Maybe I will meet her again, maybe she will come back someday (as a cat, or some other animal, or as a human), maybe she'll be happier and healthier in her next life

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никогда не забуду

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No, sorry, I don't kiss boys, I only kiss MEN.

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I like this thing when you are just about to fall asleep and you start to see some weird shit but you're not really asleep just yet, you are just between asleep and not-asleep, and sometimes you can't tell what is going on in moments like this and you aren't sleeping but you just see stuff happening, reality just melts and sometimes you can't move and you see something like dreams that you can control but you still can do stuff in real life, it's almost like hallucinations, I fucking love this stuff

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If you experience species dysphoria because your body can't move the way it should, maybe you should try some exercises that improve your flexibility, I think that can help a little bit? Maybe?

(I personally don't experience species dysphoria, but I I'm trying to be helpful)

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The three of them.

Yeah...don't ask questions, I don't know what this is and why

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well, I'm dead

definitely dead.

(it's my big special day today)

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There is one thing that bothers me...and lm not quite sure what should I do with it...and I think this is serious

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Not quite a wolf not quite a man

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if you are worried about your drinking try reducing it slowly. One less shot per session etc. Don't go cold turkey.

I felt the same way about my reasons to drink.

Don't beat yourself up over it! Unhealthy coping is still coping. You're gonna make it. I believe in you!

I just kinda lose control when I drink...often I can't stop myself, I just keep saying to myself something like "okay, just one last shot." and this "one last shot" somehow turns into five shots...

I tried reducing slowly, and I was making some progress, but...unfortunately I lost that progress...beeng alive is kinda hard for me right now to be honest

Thank you...it's nice to feel like someone understands me, it's nice to feel like someone cares, I don't know who you are, but your words mean a lot to me (I don't usually get that much support)

I'll try my best to be okay, thank you so much... whoever you are I hope that you are okay

(English isn't my first language, sorry if I sound weird)

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I was digging through my old sketchbook and found a whole fucking page full of selfship art.

I was so fucking cringe...but you can't blame me...JFK is just that hot...

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FUCK I hate being an alcoholic, I'm too young for this and my reasons to drink aren't even valid enough

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Līgo

I know that Līgo is in june (on the night from 23 to 24), but I really just can't wait...so I just gonna post this now

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By that "Yes." I meant 3 things.

Human: I'm perfectly fine and comfortable with this label, I love the human part of my identity, you can call me a human. Being human is nice. Vilkacis: I am alterhuman (just alterhuman, not otherkin or therian or anything specific) and identify as a vilkacis (werewolf in Latvian folklore), so you can call me a vilkacis or a werewolf (I prefer "vilkacis" tho, it's important to me), and you can call me a wolf, but just don't call me a "dog" or something like that. Incubus: My sona is a incubus, so, even tho I don't really identify as one, you can call me a incubus, just because it's fun.

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Werewolf

I want my singing to sound strangely similar to howling, and I want my howls to sound strangely similar to human voice

I want my hair to feel and look a bit like fur, and I want my fur to feel and look a bit like human hair

I want to walk around the town barefoot even when the roads are covered in snow, and I want to wear a jacket in the woods even if my skin is protected with fur

I want my body to move strangely animal-like, and I want my body to look strangely human-like

I want to be something in between, not completely human, and not completely animal, I belong in both worlds...