aiyujellly

[aiyujellly]

Archiving the blog, might come back might not but gonna just leave it here for now ty for everyone who has ever reblogged my writing 🐈‍⬛

i wanna delete this blog but i don't wanna lose my writing/thoughts, but maybe the desire to delete it is a sign that i don't need to keep the writing and thoughts

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i wanna delete this blog but i don't wanna lose my writing/thoughts, but maybe the desire to delete it is a sign that i don't need to keep the writing and thoughts

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when the feeling of disgust and being unworthy never goes away

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You love me, don’t you? You’ll put this leash on me, keep me close to you no matter how violent I may get, right?

[aiyujellly]

praying for love, paying in blood

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it's such a sick and twisted curse, isn't it? the longing, the pain, the desire to engulf someone. to be their everything.

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just say the word and i’ll ruin my life for you.

[aiyujellly]

Will also take semi-hiatus on this blog too! No queued posts tho & you can ask for my dc (18+).

Going on semi-hiatus to focus on some personal things. Posts will still be queued. If you want to keep in touch pls feel free to dm and ask for my discord (18+ only ty).

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Give me a purpose!! Let yourself be MY purpose!! I have nothing else to keep me going.

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My mind is no longer mine—it’s twisted, mangled by thoughts of you, crawling in circles like a sickening obsession.

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and i drown in you.

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Surrender yourself to me, and let me see your “bad” sides. Your weakness, your depravity, whatever it may be, I want to see it and keep it for myself. I’ll accept every messed up, repulsive detail. Because it could never repulse me. You’re my everything, my angel, the only thing on earth I could ever truly love. And I want to love all of you.

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you torment me, but i wouldn’t have it any other way

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I saw you smile at them.

It split my spine open.

I almost laughed, the kind of laugh that leaves your mouth foaming.

Tell me—do they taste like I do?

Do they hold your gaze the way I held your throat?

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