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[alcoholgoddess7]

It’s annoying the fact that I can never actually have male friends.

They all just want to be with me. Or sleep with me. To “fix” me.

I wish I could just be loved without haveing to express everyone I’ve gone through

But the only way I can connect I’d to express

[alcoholgoddess7]

I’m so grateful for all the people I’ve met through jbhifi.

Especially at my new store.

I love Jonah so much. He’s such a wholesome boy and he’s so caring. He’s always so interested in what I have to say. I’m going to miss him so much. I love him. I think he’s one of the first men I’ve become friends with that is purely platonic. Like an older brother.

Jade and Dan as well. They’ve been so refreshing and just have such fun energies to work and be friends with.

And of course my angel Seth.

I’m so grateful I got to experience and meet them all. I hope one day we meet again.

Forever grateful.

[alcoholgoddess7]

How simple everything was

And now the darkness fades the corners, upturning and shadowing out all that I thought I was. Everything I loved, everything I thought.

Now a shadowy figure; a faded jaded image stares back;

A blank space

[alcoholgoddess7]

Little did I know that those days I wished to be older;

To have my own life,

My own apartment

My own everything;

Would I be yearning to when I had nothing but my school bag on my back.

[alcoholgoddess7]

Constant of being stronger and just breaking down

[alcoholgoddess7]

I wish I’d just know. And just be able to be without this DEBILITATING FUCKING BRAIN

FUCK U. I CANT EVEB ENJOY ANYTBINF WITHOUT U BEING A BIGXH. WITHOUR TOUD QUESTIINUBG ANUFHING I DO.

I just wish…

[alcoholgoddess7]

Fuck I wish things where different

[alcoholgoddess7]

I just want to be loved the way I do.

[alcoholgoddess7]

No one gives a shit about me. I’m literally just useful when people need something. Fuck you all. No one would do the shit I’d do for them. You all can go fuck your I self.

I’ve done so much and worked so hard to get where I am

[alcoholgoddess7]

Fuck erveryone. No one cares.

[alcoholgoddess7]

Nah I still low key love him. Eh. I’m just gonna avoid him. Outta sight outta mind. If I can’t see him. He don’t exist.

[alcoholgoddess7]

I know Seth’s going through a lot but also,,,, I’m better than this lmao.

[alcoholgoddess7]

I wish I knew what was what

But then I wouldn’t be living.

To know isn’t to be present

And to be present is to know.

Man I’m smart

[alcoholgoddess7]

Can’t wait to go on our movie date <3

[alcoholgoddess7]

I feel so guilty.

UOU WERENT MY FAILT OR MY DESCION

Fuck

[alcoholgoddess7]

My pretty boi <3

He looks so handsome 🥰

I hope your feeling ok my love. I’m sorry you lost your brother. I’m sending you cuddles and kisses. <3

He still has the nail polish I put on his nails Hihi

[alcoholgoddess7]

Seth I miss uuuuuuu. I wanna fuck uuuuuu. I wanna cuddle u and show you you. The tv show. Ugh. Just lmk your ok. I hope your ok. I love you.