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“I can’t make you understand. I can’t make anyone understand what is happening inside me. I can’t even explain it to myself.”

— Franz Kafka, The Metamorphosis

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“Love Yourz” J. Cole

For what's money without happiness? Or hard times without the people you love? Though I'm not sure what's 'bout to happen next I asked for strength from the Lord up above 'Cause I've been strong so far But I can feel my grip loosening Quick, do something before you lose it for good Get it back and use it for good And touch the people how you did like before I'm tired of livin' with demons 'cause they always inviting more Think being broke was better Now I don't mean that phrase with no disrespect To all my niggas out there living in debt Cashing minimal checks Turn on the TV see a nigga Rolex And fantasize about a life with no stress I mean this shit sincerely And that's a nigga who was once in your shoes Living with nothin' to lose I hope one day you hear me Always gon' be a bigger house somewhere, but nigga feel me 'Long as the people in that motherfucker love you dearly Always gon' be a whip that's better than the one you got Always gon' be some clothes that's fresher than the one's you rock Always gon' be a bitch that's badder out there on the tours But you ain't never gon' be happy 'til you love yours

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“There are a few things in life so beautiful they hurt: swimming in the ocean while it rains, reading alone in empty libraries, the sea of stars that appear when you’re miles away from the neon lights of the city, bars after 2am, walking in the wilderness, all the phases of the moon, the things we do not know about the universe, and you.”

— Beau Taplin, “And You”

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REMINDER .

DON’T LET YOUR TEMPORARY EMOTION CAUSE YOU TO MAKE A PERMANENT DECISION ..

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consequences. 23

you know .. I used to be special too .

I used to be one of those individuals who were so hard to figure out .

now, it’s like everyone sees right thru me .

A lot of people used to tell me I was different.. and i would laugh and question them as if I felt they were wrong .. like “what do you mean?”..but deep down I knew . I knew I was beyond what they could even imagine..

but in the midst of trying to fit in , I lost myself . and now I really don’t know what makes me different.. and that is a terrible feeling .

my advice to you ..

love yourself.

own who you are.

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the lost one ,

Alexis

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every man for himself .

live your life for you with no regrets because at the end of the day it’s #everymanforhimself .

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|MENTAL|ITY

coming soon..

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MOOD.. ALWAYS.

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FADING WITH TIME..

self vs self.

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who are you..

you are me..

well.. I don’t mean me.. I mean you.

I am you..

you are me..

but who is me? .. who is you? ..me is you.. you is me..and you is everything that you shall be.

you are paradox. you are special . you are relaxation and breath of fresh air. you are talented. you are different. you are unique. you are smart . you are loving .. but you are dangerous.. to yourself and your surroundings..why? because you don’t need anyone .. and so no one knows; that you’re getting ready to explode. this mental war.. it’s making you crazy. you fight . I see that you do .. and I hurt for you.. like you hurt for me.. because your potential.. we both know it..you and me, me and you..but it’s fading with time.. damn..

unfortunately, you’re running out of time ..damn.

-alexishanel

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gold teeth with a grin that will make a bitch wet.  

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“things may not always be what we want it to be , but ..it will be.”

-alexishanel

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who am I ? I’m a girl who’s lost.. a girl who is just trying to maintain and hold on to the very last bit of her mental sanity.. a girl who just wants to be..

that’s who.

-alexishanel

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just being somebody that the neighborhood respected and my mama could be proud of, was the apple of my eye thats all I ever wanted..just being something, man..so at that point what else could you ask for? tears running down a nigga face ..in a room full of failures, I feel out of place . still sleepin on the floor when you deserve better..

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just be. you’re in control.