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When i’m laughing but remember that Todd screaming Neil’s name was his “yawp”, so all of a sudden nothing is funny anymore

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“You take the man out of the city not the city out ‘the man” but it’s Matthias Helvar realizing not only does he have to betray his country, but it is the right decision too. Matthias realizing his country deserves to be betrayed, Matthias understanding he was raised on the wrong side, with wrong believes, Matthias falling for the enemy knowing Nina should have never been an enemy, Matthias betraying his fellow drüskelles and returning to Fjerda as a traitor, Matthias keeping his faith despite hating what his country does, Matthias becoming something better than the country he loved. But in the end it wasn’t enough.

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i just want someone to sit down with me and watch dead poets society and be genuinely interested in it and ask me questions is that too much to ask for

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If there's one thing I'm going to be thinking about always, it's "All Wylan wanted to do was stand as close as he possibly could to him and know that he was safe."

Like. Man. I can't properly articulate how that makes me feel.

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Inej didn't say even now a boy will look at me and I flinch (something like that) or that sometimes when Jesper or nina touches her she flinches for you to be like Inej doesn't know what kaz is dealing with or call her selfish. I swear to all the grishaverse saints I'm after you if you think this.

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Everybody Wants To Rule The World- Tears for fears.

Today I will be relating this song to six of crows.

"Most for freedom" - this part being about Inej because she wants to have freedom more than anything. Matthias because during soc he just basically wants to get the fuck out of there and be a Druskelle again (obviously his motives change throughout the books) Wylan who wants to run away from his father. Nina to 1. Break Matthias out of hellgate. 2. To go back to Ravka. Jesper to be free of debt and guilt.

"And of pleasure." Kaz is a money whore.

"Nothing ever lasts forever," - chapter 40. They were all supposed to make it. But as much as they all wanted to believe they are not invincible.

" Everybody wants to rule the world." - In Ketterdam a lot of the time people's main motivation is power. Jan Van Eck wants to maintain his wealthy lifestyle while using a drug that basically kills Grisha and is almost like torture but he doesn't give a fuck about the people he hurts because he wants to be richer and why would he care about people's lives when the cause of their death, jurda parem, is mostly benefiting him. Pekka Rollins wanting to be the boss of the barrel even if that means preying on innocent children and their naivety.

"There's a room where the light won't find you,

Holding hands while the walls come tumbling down,"- This part being about how loyal the crows are to each other and how they each find love within this group both types too. They find platonic love with the fact they all have a strong bond. They also find romantic love within their pairings. (Kanej, Helnik and Wesper.) This part could also be about the ending in which Kaz and Inej hold hands without armour and the "walls tumbling down" are the walls Kaz has put up to protect not only himself but Inej too. But he ends up breaking down those walls just for her as she holds his hand through it. (Literally and metaphorically.)

"When they do I'll be right behind you," -Again the loyalty within the group.

"So glad we've almost made it," - They didn't all make it however the ones who did are glad they did so they can experience life past this point.

"So sad they had to fade it,"- This might be just me but I feel like the crows won't be known as legends like Alina Starkov. Of course Inej will be known for her work of hunting slavers and being the total badass she is. And Wylan known for being a member of the merchant council. Jesper is reading assistant and partner and helping run the Van Eck business. Nina as a Grisha soldier (I haven't finished reading RoW yet so I don't fully know Nina's ending yet). Kaz of course is famous as dirtyhands and bastard of the barrel running a criminal empire. And Matthias will sadly be known as a traitor to the Druskelle. But they won't be known as "The Crows" the ones who broke into the ice court at least not by the public. And the fact that they were criminals and also a lot of them were considered "barrel rats" probably doesn't help because history is always written by powerful people and they would be able to twist the story however they like. Idk this might just be by personal opinion on the legacy of the crows.

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do you ever think about how they went from Matthias dreaming of Nina again to Nina only seeing Matthias in her dreams

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my boy will never be free

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If I get too close

And I'm not how you hoped

Forgive my northern attitude

Oh, I was raised out in the cold

If the sun don't rise

'Til the summertime

Forgive my northern attitude

Oh, I was raised on little light

This song is literally about Matthias you cannot change my mind.

Matthias was raised in a hateful environment. He was led to believe that killing innocent people was okay because they're Grisha. Even if they didn't do anything wrong. He was taught to hunt Grisha. And he was a teenager when he joined the Druskelle. Druskelle are hateful people and Matthias was completely blind to it for so long because of how the Druskelle glorified themselves and villifide Grisha.

And then he meets Nina Zenik a Grisha girl that embodies everything Matthias has been taught to hate and yet he can't help but fall in love with her and all her beauty.

In Six of Crows and especially Crooked kingdom we see his inner battle with what he's been conditioned to believe versus his own opinion and his own voice.

"Oh I was raised on little light."

That specific lyric is what gets me. He was raised on hateful and harmful beliefs about Grisha.

To me this is Matthias trying to look at the world through a new lens for Nina and for himself.

Song- Northern Attitude by Noah Kahan.

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Thinking about this lyric from 'Goodbye, My Danish Sweetheart.' by Mitski.

"So, I don't blame you

If you want to bury me in your memory

I'm not the girl I ought to be, but

Maybe when you tell your friends

You can tell them what you saw in me

And not how I turned out to be"

And how it relates to Inej and her relationship with her parents. Like Inej has had to abandon everything she believes on and everything her parents have taught her to survive but she feel guilty about it.

Her parents did not expect Inej to become a killer or dangerous but she had to in order to survive. The girl Inej used to be is a memory now she's changed.

She's had to abandon parts of the girl her parents raised her to be. She hasn't completely abandoned everything they've taught but enough to feel like she's failed them.