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Gonna go back to my beloved fasting because I cannot get out of the 60's okay bai y'all's

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Autism is literally just

Me: I hate my body I need to starve for 7 days straight

Me: *five minutes later reading Cars (Pixar) angst fanfiction*

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I'm gonna have to give up on school, I've been trying so hard I wanted to do theater I wanted to be an EMT I wanted to write I wanted to do so many things but they all keep falling through because no matter what I do I can never be enough I'm just not worth it

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Im going through a depressive episode and it feels like this:

I feel like I'm dying. Like my body is failing on me. I don't have the energy to do any of the things I enjoy I can't draw or paint or write or anything. I just lay in bed doing nothing but rot.

Anyways I'm going to go weigh myself now. Wish me luck.

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Annnnd I am back from the dead! Surprisingly didn't gain a whole lot despite not dieting, but gonna try to get to the 50's this time, wish me luck 🫡

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Im finally noticing a difference in my clothes, like, they feel loser now :}

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Had a seizure Friday, so that probably wasn't good :p haven't been counting calories bc yuh, but I weighed in at the doctors at 163.6ish or something, so yay me

Thinking about trying another crash diet, I'm going back to school tomorrow which will suck bc oh no everyone is going to think I'm incompetent bc of my seizures

Anyways, life is going to shit

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I felt like I binged but I didn't gain any weight so ??? Maybe I'm going crazy

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Finally made it to 160lbs but my mom's trying to force me to eat. If I just don't eat anything until tomorrow, maybe I'll finally be at 159lbs

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Ugh thinking about sh-ing for money, I know some people have done it before. :p anyone know where I can do that? Cuz if Imma do this, I may as well get paid :}

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Back to 165.2 ish but I'm being forced to eat dinner so I'm probably gonna jump back up to 166-167 :ppp

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I’m so sorry if I seem mean

I promise I’m just hungry

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Idk just a fun lil thing :∆

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I haven't been over 165lbs in a couple days, so low-key proud about that <3

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I'm under 164lbs so Imma have a soda (evil) and some pistachios (cancels out the evil)

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My lil personal game

:p

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Ugh, gonna make a weight loss game :P there's gonna be rounds I think, and goals that'll have to be kept and whatever, just so I can lose all this weight. Idk how it'll work, but it will