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~ Labyrinth

Pairings: Eric x reader

Genre: Fuckboy au!

Warnings: angst, slightly suggestive, slow burn, swearing, mentions of alcohol

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You walk among people trying to not collide with anyone. It’s still early on a Saturday morning, but there’s a lot of people already. You just came back from the mall, you went to buy snacks for your movie marathon and even though the pile of work from college is starting to grow, it won’t hurt to take it easy this weekend.

You are almost at your dorm when you see a brown haired boy sitting on your door.

— Hyunjae? What are you doing here? —You ask him. It’s not like it’s weird for him to come to visit you, both of you are really close but you are kind of surprised to see him here today when he should be getting ready for their party.

— Kevin told me you’re not coming today either. (Y/N) we all miss you, and we know it hasn’t been easy for you these past few weeks but we’re not letting anyone hurt you like that again. It’s about time you start to let it go and go back to your old self, don’t you think? — He says while looking at your pendant. Yes, it 's so funny that something so easy like taking off a necklace is almost impossible. it’d mean you are gonna move on from him, to close a book forever and knowing you won’t get the chance to read it again, when it was the only one able to make you feel something. You let out a sight and enter your dorm, leaving the bags on the floor. The worst of it is that he is right. How are you going to keep going with your life if you are stuck in the past?

— I know you’re saying this to help me. But I just need more time. Since the night we broke up, I didn’t see him again, only on campus and that' s it. I don’t think I’d be able to be around him.

— You’ll never know if you don’t try it, don’t you think? I don’t want to pressure you because at the end of the day, it's you the one who suffers and I wouldn’t want to be responsible for causing you more pain, but give it a thought okay? You don’t have to stay the whole night. Just come, say hi and try to see if you’re feeling good being there. What matters the most is to take baby steps to feel better, okay? — He says while caressing your arm. Your relationship with Hyunjae has always been special, since he was one of the closest people to Eric. So you tended to go to him when you needed advice or just someone who could understand you. And he never failed. You think about what he just said, how are you going to know if you moved on from something if you don’t want to face reality? After all, he made sure to let you know he he moved on.

— I have to go now, Juyeon and Changmin need my help. Text us if you end up going okay? We’ll be your bodyguards — He says while hugging you. And you feel how a million memories hit you. He smells just like Eric. Like home.

— I’ll let you know. Thanks for the visit Hyunjae, your words meant a lot — You say going to the door with him. It bothers you he’s right, that he knows so well a part of you is still clinging to the past and refusing to say goodbye, that you're still waiting for a message from him saying I’m sorry, comeback.

You’re the only one being selfish and not letting you move on. You pass through your mirror and stop walking, looking at your necklace. It looks like it’s shining more than ever, like if your doubts are making it shine more. You hide it under your shirt, unable to keep looking at it, afraid that if you see it one more time you’ll throw it away.

But it seems something clicked inside you, the words of Kevin and Hyunjae hit home.

And you have decided to end it all.

**************

—Y/N? What are you doing here? You didn’t text me you were coming! — You hear Kevin’s voice. You guessed it correctly, Juyeon invited half of the campus and instead of looking like a gathering it was more like a party.

There are LED lights all over the house and they moved the sofa and coffee table to make space to dance. You see Changmin in the kitchen with Chanhee and Sunwoo and you take a mental note to not drink anything they give to you.

— (Y/N)!! You’re really here — You hear Haknyeon say. He has the biggest smile on his face and you can clearly see how happy they are to see you.

— Finally my shots mate is back — You can’t help but laugh at his comment . Since you got to know them, it was like a tradition to take shots at a party, to show the night has started.

— I’m planning to take it easy tonight. I can’t stay too long and I drove myself here so no alcohol for me today — You say to him and you can see how he gets a bit sad but recovers quickly.

— Then we will go and dance! Let’s go — He says while grabbing your hand and drags you to the living room. This feels nice, you think for yourself, it’s like everything is back like things used to be. You laugh with the boys, having a good time. But you know deep down something is missing, but there’s no room for that tonight. You are going to let yourself free after so many days staying in the dark.

— Where are the rest by the way? I didn’t see Yonghoon and Hyunjae. — You ask him yelling a bit to make sure he listens to you.

—They went out to get some pizzas. I think they should get here any minute.

You nod at him and start to dance. There’s so many people that it’s hard to not bump into each other but it’s funny somehow, everyone is messing around and it makes you happy to be in such a good atmosphere.

You see Juyeon dancing with someone but aren't sure who they are. He sees you and waves so hard it makes you laugh. You can clearly see he’s intoxicated.

— Oh boy, here we go— You hear Hak say next to you. Juyeon tends to go a bit crazy when he’s tipsy, which makes him ten times funnier than he usually is. Normally he is quite calm and collected, but once he’s drunk it seems like he loses every bit of his quiet personality. Everyone has so many blackmail content about him and Sunwoo, there’s a folder full of videos and crazy pictures.

— Y/NNN I can't believe you are here!!! Finally we have our princess back. I started to think I had to fight a dragon or something to get you back. — He says talking quickly. His eyes sparkle so much you wonder how many drinks he had already.

You see some girls looking at you and whispering something. But you can’t blame them, it’s the first time you appear after “breaking up” whatever you had going on with Eric and Juyeon is suddenly calling you princess, which is weird since he’s not the type to call you cheesy nicknames.

— Hello Juyo, I’m glad I’m here too. It's been a long time since i came to one of your famous gatherings.

— Of course it’s been time since you came here. It's like you become a cavewoman and wouldn’t come out of your cave. What did you even do all these days? — Ah, here he goes. We love an unfiltered drunk Juyeon. You cross stares with Hak and he senses you don’t know what to say next so he tries to change topics.

— Juyeon, didn’t we have to prepare the things for Younghoon and Hyunjae? I think they are already here, c’mon let’s go to the kitchen. — He says grabbing his hand and taking him to the kitchen. You see him looking back and giving you a big smile reassuring you everything will be alright.

You wander around the place seeing a lot of familiar faces apart from the boys. Some hookups from Sunwoo are here too, this will be interesting. If Eric was the biggest player, Sunwoo followed closely. These two were the youngest from the group but always have a trait of students waiting for them to even notice them. But it’s not like everyone was like that. Some of them have dated before or even had a girlfriend right now, which was the case of Jacob and Younghoon. You weren’t too close to their girlfriends because when they did it officially, not too long after you broke up with Eric, so you didn’t have the chance to get to know them better. But it’ll be nice to have more girls in the group, sometimes it’s hard to find someone who can completely understand you.

You are starting to loosen up a bit, feeling more comfortable being here, exposed to everyone’s stares and whispers but you don’t care that much now.

It’s been a while since you arrived at the party and it’s safe to confirm you don’t regret coming. Right now everyone is gathered in the living room trying to guess which animal Sunwoo is doing, the best part of it is that he is drunk and looks like he doesn't even know what he is imitating. You are in between Hyunjae and Kevin, who seems like they're gonna pass out any moment now. You don’t tolerate alcohol very well so it was a good decision to not drink, someone has to make sure everyone is okay. But maybe having one won’t kill.

— I’m going to get a drink, I'll be back in a few — You say to Kevin who nods at you.

Is it me or is it more crowded now? You think to yourself. The music is blasting and it's super dark, only neon lights are flashing. It stills amaze you how the boys could turn their dorms into a night club.That’s one of the perks of living in a fraternity, you are free to do whatever you want with the building.

You get to the kitchen where a long trail of alcohol bottles are displayed and you think what will be the best for you. it’ll be better to mix a bit of vodka with some juice or soda, so it won’t kick too hard. You have your drink ready and already on your way back when you suddenly see someone, knocking the air out of you.

There he is, Eric Sohn in all his glory. And next to him his newest hookup.

He’s looking stunning in one of your favorite graphic shirts and a pair of black jeans. You always told him he doesn’t need designer clothes to look beautiful. Hell, he could even be dressed with a trash bag and look great. You feel his stare and look at him, making eye contact. He stares at you wide eyed but quickly goes back to normal, putting his cold mask on. It seems like he wasn’t expecting you either.

Guess one drink won’t be enough to make it alive.

**************

— Can someone tell me what the fuck happened to Y/N to get this drunk? — Says Hyunjae to the rest. He was almost drunk but seeing you in such a state made him sober real quick. What happened? Is the question that won’t leave his mind since you came back. You told Kevin you were going to grab something to drink and didn’t come back till one hour later shitfaced.

— I don’t know but she's out of it. I tried to talk to her, put some cold water in her face but it’s like she doesn’t even know where she is — Says Kev while seeing you dance like crazy. They were happy you were back but didn’t want you to get to this point. Every time you get like this it won’t end well.

—Well, she’s back and she’s with us. We’ll make sure she’s safe and nothing happens to her. I’ll go with Chanhee to the kitchen and see if we can know what happened. — Says Changmin while getting up.

— Hey! Why is everyone standing there like a tree? Let’s go dancing! Guys, I’m completely okay. You all were telling me to come back and that you missed me, now that I’m back to normal, you don’t like it? — You say to them while smiling so brightly. She has a point everyone thinks but still, something feels off.

— Y/N we’re going home, you’re down bad and tomorrow you will regret it. Come on, let's go. — Hyunjae says to you, trying to take your hand.

—Stop, I don't want to go home. I’m having a good time and the party just got started. Let me enjoy it.

— I don’t care if you are having a good time, we’re done with this shit. Can someone take her things to my car? — He says putting on his sweatshirt. He knows if doesn’t take you home now, you’ll be so angry at him.

— Can you fucking stop!? I said no! Why are you making me leave? You got tired of me too already? Leave me the fuck alone, I just want to have a good time and forget.— You say to him, and the little sober part you have left tells you you hurt him with your words. But you don’t care right now.

— Don’t come at me fucking crying tomorrow (Y/N). I tried so hard to make you smile again only to you get drunk as hell and do stupid things. I’m done with this, I’m done with you. — He says storming to his room.

You’re hurt but thanks to the alcohol, the pain is numb. You don’t feel bad about it, you only want to forget everything.

You gulp down a tequila shot and go back to the living room. There’s only two ways you’ll stop dancing, because you pass out or because you throw up.

The music surrounds you and you let yourself go. No more pain, no more memories, no more tears. Your emptiness was now filled with noise music and shots. There was no room for anything else.

You don’t know how long it has been since your fight with Hyunjae when you feel someone grab your waist and start to move at the same time. You didn’t notice it at first but their wandering hands were starting to go lower.

That was what Eric used to do, he’d suddenly appear behind you and dance with you till both of you can’t stand anymore. He’d caress your neck with his lips, whispering sweet nothings in your ear.

He’d then turn you around and kiss you, making sure everyone knew you were his.

And that’s when you suddenly get back to your senses and realize something is wrong. You try to see if anyone is there, maybe even scream for help but you can only see bodies surrounding you. You were on the other side of the living room, and the boys weren’t there.

— H-hey, I have to go now. — You say to the person behind you but his hand only grips you tighter, starting to hurt.

— You’re hurting me please, I’m sorry I didn't stop you sooner. I didn’t want to give you mixed signals — His hand covers your mouth and that’s when you start panicking. You’re completely drunk, your strength is long gone and you can't see any familiar face.

Suddenly you feel his presence disappear, leaving a place where your tears fall free. You turn around and have to blink twice to make sure you’re seeing right.

Eric is grabbing him by the collar, with the most angry face you’ve ever seen.

A/N: Hello guys!! I’m finally back with chapter two of labyrinth. First of all, I’m so sorry for updating so late. Life decided to get complicated and with work and studies was not easy to comeback here often. But now I’m making more time to work on my AUs and update at least once a week! Thank you for reading and waiting patiently, it really means a lot to me. Once again I want to apologize for any mistakes or typos you can find. And let me know if you’d like to get tagged for the next chapter in the comments or dm!!

TAGLIST 💕: @asherbl @fairycob @givememunjang @arishaechan

[aliwritesss]

Hello my dears!! 💗How’s your day going?

Tonight I’ll post a little AU I had in mind abt bf! Juyeon, which is so 😍. And on Thursday I’ll post the Hyunjae one, same theme but different scenario. Also!! I’m editing the chapter two of Labyrinth so stay tuned!

Love y’all <33 (here’s my inspo)

[aliwritesss]

~ Labyrinth

Pairings: Eric x reader

Genre: fuckboy au!

Warnings: angst, slightly suggestive, slow burn, swearing

Based on this AU! Highly recommended to read it before you start the series, but can be read alone.

1/? Masterlist

-“… And remember! The deadline for the essay is in three weeks.”- You hear your History teacher’s voice but no one listens to him. The bell just ringed and that meant freedom.

-“ It’s Friday!!! Let’s do something fun.” You hear Kevin’s voice next to you. You thank the heavens and stars to have him in your life, you don’t know what you would have done without him all this time.

-“ What are you thinking?”

-“ Well… You know, everyone’s been on the edge these past months with the exams and all. So Juyeon thought I’d be fun to do a small gathering, only close friends.” He says with the smallest voice and you feel all your body tense up. If you knew one thing is that you couldn’t go to parties, not yet. Not when it’s been so long since you’ve seen him and you’re actually starting to move on. To wake up and not think of him.

-“ It sounds fun! But I think I’m gonna pass this time, I better start working on this assignment.”

-“ Cmon (Y/N), it’s been a month. You gotta go to your old self, I miss you. I miss us having fun.” It pains your heart to hear Kevin, you’d love to have the balls to go to their dorms and be yourself, to dance again till you can’t stand up, to laugh freely but you feel that the spark inside of you has died and you’re afraid that if you go, it won’t light up anymore.

-“ I promise you I’ll go back to my old self. You’ll get back your partner in crime, my little moon.” You say hugging him and exiting the class. -“ Just give me a little bit and you’ll get back your star.”

-“ The world better get ready once the moon and star duo comes back.” He says giving you one of his best smiles and you feel a little bit better. You’ve known him for so long and clicked since then. One day you two were in class and someone said you looked like the team rocket from Pokémon, always together being mischievous. And since then you baptized your friendship as the moon and star duo.

As you walk outside you feel his comment nag you in the back of your head. “Why do I have to feel so bad when he’s doing fine? Was everything a lie? Did he truly love me?” These thoughts have been bugging you lately and you’re starting to get annoyed. You thought you were doing fine but sometimes these dark clouds will come and shake you down. And it seems like today was one of these days.

“ So… Juyeon is doing a gathering huh? Do you realize that it means half of the campus is going, right?”

-“ Yeah… We told him only close people and Changmin said that meant around 50 friends.” He says, rolling his eyes. -“ Thank god we have Sangyeon and Jacob to keep him in check or else It’d be a nightmare.” And that makes you laugh because it’s true, you remember one night you were staying the night in their dorms and suddenly Sunwoo and Chanhee started arguing about the smallest thing. Sangyeon only needed to look at them to make them stop. It was so funny, you don’t want to mess with an angry Sangyeon to be honest.

-“ And… Here we go. I knew it.” You hear Kevin’s annoyed voice. -“ They’re asking me to buy drinks, it seems like more people are coming tonight. I have to go now bubs, but we should do something fun this weekend okay? Just the two of us.” He says while hugging you and you nod. Maybe that’s what you need, to start slowly coming out of your cave.

You start making your way to your dorm thinking about the million things you have to get done in these two weeks and you can feel your anxiety already coming. The pressure you’ve been feeling these past few days it’s getting worse everyday. And the worst of it, it’s that you don’t have anyone to talk about it. Unconsciously, you touch your necklace, feeling a little bit better. You look down to the tiny shiny star and remember the night he gave it to you.

-“ I’ll be your star, ready to guide you even in the darkest times, even when there’s no moon shining.” He said softly in your neck. You smiled at him and looked at the charm. It was a little star filled with crystals. Stunning.

-“ When you feel like giving up, remember that I’ll be here with you. Faintly.” Eric said, touching your necklace.

“Where are you now? Where are you now when I need you the most?” You think for yourself, It’s not like you weren’t starting to move on from him, which you are doing. But you were not forgetting him, and you wish you could.

You wish you could erase all these sweet moments, act like nothing happened. Act like him, cold and unbothered. Why did him have to play you? Was everything a lie? Everything he said, was just a trap to only have fun with you? You couldn’t trust your memories, it seems like you only could remember the good ones.

But what about that night you two had a fight on a party because he was with this girl, laughing and talking the whole night while you were alone? You still remember his words: “ Stop being a pain in the ass, if I wanted to hook up with her dont you think I would have already done it?”. And you being a silly naive girl in love, acted like it didn’t hurt you. Like he didnt had the power to destroy you in matter of seconds if he wanted.

And that was the reason you broke up with him.

Everyone knew you were his girl and god forbid anyone who dared to touch you. But that’s it, you were only that, his girl. He didn’t bother to put a label, you were there for him and that was enough.

-“ Eric what are we doing?”- You asked him the night you two broke up.

-“ What do you mean?”-

-“ What are we doing together? What is this? Are we exclusive? Are we truly in a relationship?”- You asked trembling, you weren’t ready to hear his answer.

-“ Not this again (Y/N). I told you I don’t want to talk about it and you keep bringing this up. I said you are my girl and that should be enough.”-

-“ But it isn’t. It isn’t when there’s a queue of girls waiting for you to get tired of me and drop me like a toy. And I had enough, I need to know what I am to you.” You said sitting in his bed.

-“ You are making me tired with all these questions. I said drop it, (Y/N). You know how I am and still chose to be here with me.”-

-“ I chose you bc you said that you couldn’t do this without me, Eric! You told me that I was special and-.”

-“ So? That gives you the right to be called my girlfriend?”- And that was the last straw. You couldn’t believe what you were hearing, it’s like someone snapped you back to reality. Like you just woke up from a beautiful dream and got hit with the true world.

He loved you, but not in the right way.

He cared about you, but not enough.

You got dressed and started to pick yoiur things while crying. You needed to get out as soon as possible, even if it was 3 in the morning.

-“Cmon (Y/N) don’t be like this. I got mad and you know I say things I regret later. Please let’s talk in the morning when we are calm, okay? Babe please-“

-“ Don’t touch me, Eric. I’ve had enough. I can’t keep doing this. I can’t keep falling in love with you more and more when we are not in the same page. Not even in the same book.”- You said putting on your sweatshirt, well, his sweatshirt now yours.

-“ Are you serious? Are you going to be like this? After all we’ve been through?”-

-“ Exactly, after all we’ve been through you still think I don’t deserve to be your girlfriend. And let me correct you, you’re the one who doesn’t deserve to be my boyfriend. I’m tired of your shit.”

-“ I know you’re angry (Y/N) but I swear if you leave this room that’s it.”- He said staring at you. You gave him one last smile and closed the door. It was so late at night and you decided to bring this topic up… That was a stupid move of you to be honest, but it needed to be done.

You can feel your vision getting blurry with all the tears falling but you don’t care anymore.

-“ Star? Is everything ok?”- you feel Kevin’s sleepy voice coming from the other side of the hallway and you let out a sob. -“ Hey, Hey. What happened bubs? Why are you crying? Where’s Eric?”-

-“ I… I- I think we just broke up.” You said hugging him and starting to sob even harder.

- “ Oh gosh…” He said quietly while stroking your hair.

And after that everything was a blur, you only remember him and Haknyeon taking you to your dorm and sleeping there. Everyone knew what happened because they heard you two arguing but no one could bring the topic up. It was typical of you two to argue, but in a matter of hours everything was cleared. But this time was different and both of you knew it.

This time the damage was done and there was no going back now.

A/N: So it’s finally here!! The first chapter of this little series. Thanks to all of you for liking so much the AU and for telling me what you preferred to see on this series. It’ll be after the break up, but I thought it’d be nice to have a little context of why did the discussion happen and to see the dynamic of the relationship. Honestly speaking, I love Eric’s fuckboy vibes so much.. But still it pains me to see him acting this way :( I apologise for any typo or mistake! And remember you can ask in the comments or dms to be tagged and that requests are open!!

TAGLIST: @asherbl @fairycob @givememunjang

[aliwritesss]

[ 19:38 PM ]

Pairings: Sunwoo x reader

Genre: Fluff

Summary: Just a tiny Drabble of Sunwoo which never fails to make me smile. 💗

I love the way the sun makes your hair shine.

The way we only need our little balcony and a sunset to feel relaxed and calm.

You kiss my cheek and hug me tighter,

And I feel like a found home.

Maybe it’s the way he hums softly in your ear,

Maybe it’s the way his lips caress your neck softly,

Or maybe it’s the way his hand fits perfectly with yours.

Whatever it is, it made you feel like you were in heaven.

It was a lazy Sunday just the two of you, the sun was shining but you couldn’t bring yourself out of bed, no when there was a shirtless Sunwoo wrapped around you. A ray of sunshine was entering through your window and hitting his face, making his jawline stand out even more.

-“ You know it’s rude to stare, right?”-

-“ C’mon, you love it when people look at you in awe.”- You say hitting him playfully while he tries to hide under the sheets.

-“ You’re making me blush”- You hear him reply and can’t help but laugh out loud. That was his charm, he could be so flirty and then be the most shy boy in the whole world. God, you love him so much.

-“ Then in that case, I’ll go. I don’t want to make you uncomfortable.” You say while trying to remove the sheets when you feel suddenly his arm wrap around your waist and throw you into bed.

-“ Where are you going, baby?”- He says with the most playful smile.

-“ Well, since you hid I thought you wanted to go to sleep again.”

-“ Maybe later... Now it’s my turn to look at you.”- He says against your lips and kiss them softly.

[aliwritesss]

Hey guys!! So here’s my little AU of Eric.

As I said in the A/N I’m gonna do a series abt it, so I’d like to know if do you prefer if it takes place before or after the break up?

Also thanks to a lovely reader, they gave me the idea to do a tag list so let me know in the comments or dms if you’d like to be tagged. 🥰

Thank you so much for liking it and supporting it❣️

[aliwritesss]

~ Labyrinth

Pairings: Eric x reader

Genre: Fuckboy au!, angst

Summary: “How did I end up being like this?”

You were laying in your bed trying to remember when was the exact moment you knew you were in trouble, when you knew that there was no going back.

But you couldn’t.

You couldn’t remember when was the moment you let your walls down and let him enter your heart. And you were starting to think it happened the first moment he laid his eyes on you.

When a pair of deep brown eyes looked at you and made you feel everything.

They warned you so many times, that he wasn’t the right boy, that you could be friends with him but that’s it.

To not fall in love with him.

And if you could have a time machine you would go back in time and not go to that party.

Where everything started.

Kevin kept saying he wanted to go and that it wouldn’t be the same if you weren’t going, so he ended up convincing you to go to his fraternity, TBZ frat.

You were expecting the unexpected like always, but you wouldn’t have thought in a million years that night was going to start one of the best and worst moments of your life.

You walked in ready to have a good time, greeting your friends and classmates and ready to dance and relieve all stress you’ve been under for the past few weeks.

But you felt something was off, and you couldn’t catch why.

And then he appeared, like he was the owner of the whole universe. Once he entered your eyes were glued to him, he had this power every time he was in the same room as you. He attracted you like a magnet, and you could fight all you want but that wouldn’t change anything.

But something changed that night, something made him look at you, go to where you were standing, take your drink and sip without breaking eye contact. You lied to everyone and said that it didn’t affect you, but he made you feel weak.

You couldn’t say anything for a hot second, too shocked to say something but if you knew something is that you weren’t going to let him go so easily, he was hot and all, but you weren’t going to let anyone, not even Eric Sohn, treat you like an easy girl.

“ Are you thirsty?” You asked him with your most sensual voice.

“ I’ve been dying to take a sip since I came.”

“ Let me help you with that.” And the next thing you did was to throw your drink on his shirt.

“ Next time ask, asshole.” You replied to him. He was too shocked to even notice the way you were shaking, but someone needs to put him in his place.

And now that you think about it, maybe that is what you did wrong, you caught his attention.

He kept his distance from you at the party but the next day he had this superior smile again in his face.

“ I hope you know what you did last night was a little bit messed up, love.” He said.

“ And I hope you learnt that you can’t go around taking sips from other people's drinks.”

“ Seems like we learned a lesson yesterday, Y/N.”

And since that moment he started going with you more. You were acquaintances since both of you shared the same group of friends, but the only conversations you had with him were superficial.

He started to wait with you for Kevin or Jacob, talking to you more and opening slowly. And suddenly you were texting each other lame things late at night and you couldn’t stop smiling.

He made you smile and that was dangerous.

Everytime you locked eyes with him, you’d feel this warm feeling spreading around your stomach, making you feel like no one did before. He had the power to make you feel like you were the only one in the room. But still, you thought you had everything under control. And you did.

Till one night he texted you he needed to see you.

You were worried, you didn’t expect from the cool Eric to actually need someone so you took some things and went to his dorm.

You remember perfectly the image you saw the moment you entered his room, an Eric crying on the sofa, not being able even to look at you straight in the eyes.

“ What’s wrong Eric? What happened?” You told him worriedly. Once he heard your voice he lifted his head up and went to hug you.

“ Don’t leave me Y/N. If you do, there's nothing left.” He says quietly on your neck. You didn’t know what was wrong at the moment but one thing you knew is that he needed you and you were never going to leave his side.

And that's how you stayed the whole night, hugging each other and running your hands through his hair till he fell asleep. You don’t know how long you kept staring at his profile, the curve of his nose, his lips, how soft they looked, his eyelashes, how short they were but still so thick. You traced the letters of his tattoos delicately while smiling softly. Even though they were small, he always bragged about them.

And days started to pass and you felt how Eric attracted you more and more, how you started to care about what he was doing, if you were going to see him on the weekend or if he would text you the next day. He entered your heart without knocking and there wasn’t a way back now.

He came to stay and you didn’t know when he’d leave you without telling first. But deep down you knew, you knew that this game was going to end one day. That you’d wake up one day he wouldn't be next to you.

Despite everything, you still hoped that he’d stay forever with you, and maybe in another life he would have but the universe can be sarcastic sometimes.

He had the power to light you up like Venus, to break you down into tiny pieces and putting it all together again. And he told you, one night he told you he was up to no good, that you deserved better but he couldn’t let you go. He was addicted to you and that he was sorry for being so selfish.

You want to laugh out loud now, because he was right.

He was being selfish. But still, you needed his touch, to hear him laugh, his hugs.. You needed him. And even though you had a million reasons why you should give him up, you didn’t.

The boys told you a million times to stop this game, that the one that would end up getting hurt was going to be you, he cared about you but he wasn’t going to make you his first priority. But it’s funny how blind you can be when you are in love with someone.

You thought he was bringing joy to your boring life but he wasn’t, he was sucking the life out of you. And the worst of it, it’s that he wasn’t doing it on purpose. He truly cared about you, but you weren’t the only one.

And one day you woke up crying, you looked at yourself in the mirror and saw a broken and addicted girl.

You had a fight for a stupid thing again and that ended up no talking for 10 days.

Yes, you were counting them.

But you had enough.

You weren’t going to keep playing this game anymore.

And that’s how you ended up laying in your bed now. One month later and still recovering. Everyone told you that you made the right decision but you still think that you should’ve reached him and talked to him and made him choose.

But you were afraid he wasn’t going to pick you.

So you ran away, since that’s the only thing you can do perfectly.

You stopped checking what he was doing everyday and tried to stop thinking of him. Key word, tried.

You still cared a lot about him.

The worst of it was that you knew he was in pain.

You saw him one day on campus with Sunwoo and he looked devastated, he didn’t have that superior smile anymore, there were bags under his eyes and Changmin told you he wasn’t even sleeping in his room anymore. He couldn’t when you weren’t there to hug him, he said.

You can’t understand why two people who were madly in love couldn’t be together, but sometimes not everything is about being in love.

You almost reached to him one day, but then you looked at yourself in the mirror.

You didn’t have this spark in your eyes anymore, the one he always lit.

But you also saw that you gained a little bit of weight, that you were starting to sleep better, that you were actually getting your shit together and that you weren’t dependent on anyone anymore. And that made you feel good for the first time in a while.

You grabbed your things and made your way to class thinking “who knows, maybe one day he’ll realise what he lost and comes back, ready to love me but in the right way”.

A/N: Hey guys!! Here’s my little AU of Eric. I’m going to do a series for this one, but I’d like to know if you prefer if it’s before this takes place or after? Like how was getting to know him, falling in love... lots of fluff scenarios but also a lot of angst. Or after the break up, it’ll be have fluff scenarios since you two get back but will not have that much of angst like the first option.

Let me know what you’d like to see in the comments!! ❤️❤️

[aliwritesss]

Gonna drop tomorrow my fuckboy Eric AU!! This was the main reason the idea popped on my mind and the way I cried while writing it… :D

Also I’m gonna make a series abt it sooo stay tuned!!

[aliwritesss]

Pairing: Jacob x reader

Genre: fluff

Summary: Just a little Drabble of fluff and cute Jacob 💗

[03:48 AM]

- What are you doing? -

- Stargazing

- At this hour? Don’t you think it’s a little for that?-Says Jacob while sitting next you. He doesn’t realize the power he has on you and he’s just sitting there, doing nothing, but your heart is already skipping beats.

You stop looking at the stars and stare at him. He’s wearing your favorite plaid pajamas and the most beautiful sleepy face.

-At least you took my sweatshirt, it’s cold as hell out here.- He says making you laugh.

- Well dummy, we are three degrees below zero, it’s snowing and we are in Canada. What did you expect? -

- I didn’t expect to see you outside at almost 4 in the morning in this weather.-

- But how can we truly appreciate the small things and watch snowflakes fall if it’s not in utter silence? -

- You and your love for cold weather.- He says rolling his eyes. He takes the blanket and cover both of you with it.

- If we are going to stay here at least we should be warm.- In that moment his smell surround you. A little bit of wood, fire and his favorite cologne. And yours.

It makes your head spin, because you can’t focus properly when he’s sitting so close to you.

You want to tell him that you don’t need any blanket if he’s next to you, because he makes your heart warm when it’s been winter for so long. You stare at him, at his profile, the curve of his lips, his sleepy eyes, glowy skin and how his hair looks so fluffy.

God, he is perfect.

- Now I understand why you find so beautiful see snow fall. It’s like the universe stops.-

- it’s a beautiful sight, right? -

- Yeah, it is.- You didn’t realize when he says that he’s looking at you. And maybe, just maybe that night both of you didn’t any blanket to keep the warmness, because the company of each other made your hearts feel like spring.

[aliwritesss]

~ Nothin’ like us

Pairings: Hyunjae x reader

Genre: idol au, angst, happy ending

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You didn’t expect it. Not in the slightest.

No one from your group prepared anything and now you have to pull up something or you’ll be embarrassed on national TV. You can feel the stares and uncomfortable shifts from your members, no one thought they’d ask so suddenly to sing, since it was supposed to be a interview. Answer some questions, joke around for a bit and you’ll be able to go home.

- These days your group is quite famous for doing covers! One even went viral a few days ago... When I saw it I got so emotional, it was really touching -. Oh god, I can’t do this you think. You feel the hand of one of the girls touch you slightly, telling they’re here. If they’re talking about the one you did on vlive, it’s not going to end well. You were live just chilling with your fans and suddenly that song popped up, making everyone ask you to sing a bit.

- So I hope I’m not asking too much, but (Y/N) would you sing a bit for us? - You can feel sweat dripping from your back. That song meant the world to you, and you were not ready to sing it live with so many people staring at you. One thing is doing it in a live in your practice room where you are with your fans, being safe from tricky questions but this was different.

- I know you didn’t prepare it but I really hope it’s okay -. Says the MC looking at you with puppy eyes and you see how Sonbok, the leader of your group, is going to kindly decline the offer but that’ll be worse, it’ll look unprofessional and will make the atmosphere tense.

- Yeah, okay -. You say before she can say anything and you feel her looking worriedly at you. They know you weren’t ready to do it, they might ask questions after and will make the situation worse.

- Great! We even prepared a piano, we knew you wouldn’t let us down -. Says the MC happily and you see the staff taking out a small electric piano. You let nervous sigh and and go to take a seat.

- So... The song is Nothin like us... I hope you like it -. You say trembling. The song that makes your heart break for Hyunjae, your ex-boyfriend.

(...Lately I've been thinking, thinking 'bout what we had.

I know it was hard, it was all that we knew, yeah...)

You start singing with a trembling voice. All the memories suddenly come to you, hitting you like a car. It’s been almost a month since you broke up with Hyunjae and you didn’t move on, the pain felt the same way as it did the first day, unbearable.

You two met two years ago in a music show and since that day you’ve been in love with him. The way he’s shy at first, looking at everyone so serious and only standing there, it made you curious. “Why doesn’t he say anything? Maybe he doesn’t like me?” Boy, were you wrong... Once you started to get comfortable with each other, it was chaos.

He made you laugh, could make you shiver like no one did before, knew how you were feeling by just looking at you. He even was there when no one was. Didn’t leave your side even in the darkest times.

But it’s all gone now.

(...Have you been drinking to take all the pain away?

I wish that I could give you what you deserve…)

That’s what you wanted to say to him. Are you doing okay? You deserve the whole world and I’m sorry I can't give it to you.

Kevin and Changmin told you that he was miserable, he wouldn’t eat for days and couldn’t focus properly when they practiced. They begged you to talk to him, to tell him that it's gonna be okay, that you were there for him but you couldn’t bring yourself to do it. No when you knew he deserved better. Someone who could be there for him.

Even though the breakup was mutual because of your schedules, you both knew you didn’t want to do it. And that’s the worst part, when you can’t be with the person you love.

(...Cause nothing can ever, ever replace you

Nothing can make me feel like you do…)

You feel your voice starting to break, but you keep going. The day after you broke up, the first thought that came to your mind was “ I can’t do this, I can’t do this without him.”

You remembered the first night you spent together, both of you just finished your promotions for your comeback and were tired as hell. But one day you received a message from him telling you “ Pack some things, we’re going on a trip. Picking you up in 20.” Till this day, that is your best weekend ever.

You went to the outskirts of Seoul, nothing too fancy. Only a little house in the middle of a forest to have some privacy, and since it was the end of September it wasn’t too hot or cold.

He was so excited to be there with you and kept saying the whole ride how he was going to prepare some fancy dinner, but that ended up with the two of you making a mess in the kitchen and eating ramen on the floor.

You still have this pic of him, having flour all over his face, trying to kiss you with the biggest smile.

(...You know there's no one, I can relate to

And know we won't find a love that's so true…)

You start to feel tears in the corner of your eyes but at this point you don’t care anymore.

“ I just want to tell you before I go that you made me so happy, and I’m thankful to have met you. You’ll always be my first love and I hope I can find you in another life, one that we can be together forever” That’s what he said the day you both broke up. You were so angry with the universe, Why did you have to meet the love of your life only to not be together?

The hardships, the rumors, the stress, the fans, the pressure… No one could relate like him. No one understood you like him.

And you knew you needed him to keep your sanity.

(...I gave you everything, baby, everything I had to give

Girl, why would you push me away? yeah….)

You both gave everything in this relationship.

He was your first time and you were his, in every aspect. He was so caring, it made you feel like a goddess. Every time your skin touched his, you felt the electricity.

Thanks to him, you were able to finally understand what true love is. What it means to have a friend, a lover, a confidant, a partner in crime all in one person. He was the reason you could keep going everyday.

But as the days went by, both of you started to grow apart because of schedules… So many things to prepare. You couldn't see the difference between day or night anymore. However even though you both tried with all your power to make it work, it wasn’t possible, the day only had 24 hours and no matter how hard you tried, you couldn't find time for your relationship.

(...Lost in confusion, like an illusion

You know I'm used to making your day…)

You remember the nights you spent in their practice room, watching them dance and practice for their performances. How many sleepless nights you spent with them, but you didn’t care the slightest because every hour was worth it.

How many times have you called him crying in the middle of a day because you thought you couldn’t do this anymore? But you only needed to hear him laugh to make you feel better.

How many times did you send selcas in between your schedules? Or how many times did he send you dorky and cute videos telling you how much he loved you?

You still have every single pic and video in your phone, and you weren’t going to delete them any time soon.

(...But that is the past now, we didn't last now

I guess that this is meant to be, yeah

Tell me was it worth it? We were so perfect…)

This part hits you home and that’s when your tears start to fall.

You would live this life again if that meant being with Hyunjae. You love him so much, and are so grateful to have met him that even if you didn’t get your happy ending, you would go through hell again only for a last kiss.

Every single minute was worth it.

(...There's nothing like us, there's nothing like you and me

Together through the storm

There's nothing like us, there's nothing like you and me

Together…)

You’re not singing anymore for the people.

You’re only singing to Hyunjae and you mean every word.

There’s nothing like your relationship.

There’s nothing like him and you together.

There’s nothing like your love.

You finish the song with your eyes closed and trembling hands. Everything is so quiet that you are afraid to open your eyes.

And after that everything goes in a blur, you only remember the MC thanking you many times, the arms of one of the girls wrapped around you, taking you to the car and raining non-stop.

You finally get home and can’t wait to go straight to your room and cry your eyes out. You get out of your car and start running to your dorms, only to find someone sitting in the rain.

To find the love of your life waiting for you.

You stare at each other for a few seconds, and once you realize he’s actually there you go straight to him running and wrap yourself around him. How much have you missed his arms, his kisses. He was your safe place.

- I saw it -. He says quietly and you know he’s crying too. - You don't know how much I missed you, love-. You feel the rain pouring but you don’t care anymore, if you are with him you’ll get together through the storm.

- I’m not gonna let you go ever again. Because there’s nothin like us -.