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Here is the time to forget about feelings, and just live. Have fun, smile

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Thinking about what I should feel and wy I don't feel it makes me feel empty

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I know what I want. And it's you. I don't need a relationships right now. I like you, I like that you are a good person, I like the way how you think, I like what you think, I like all of your small things. But I don't want to be together with you. I thought,that I want to be, but actually I don't. I probably wanted to be in love with someone, I thought it's can be you. I have a new feeling with you, what I have never feel before, and I thought it's a more than a friends feeling. And actually it's, I like you more than a friend, I like you as my best friend, as my gay best friend. I feel alone all the time. And when I'm with you,I don't feel alone. I have fun with you. I don't want to be in relationship with you, I don't want to kiss you. I want to hold your hands. I remember when we were sitting on a coach, playing video game with your friends, and I had fun but it's never will be the same what I feel with my friends, I don't know the people who you are talking about it, when your friends say something like "o guys do you remember when we... And talk about a memory" and u all start talking about memories and I'm just sitting there and thinking "no i don't" and then you start holding me hands or cover me and it's means me everything. It makes me feel that I'm not alone, and this is what I need. I want you to be my best friend, I want to talk about everything with you, I want to be next to you holding your hands and sharing old memories with you, listening your stories, I want to help you to move on your ex. I want to go and drive with you to the top of the park buildings, bring a blanket and hot chocolate and sit down, hold your hands and tell you all of my secrets and just watch the stars and share my dreams. I want to go with you to watch trains, museums, see Kansas. Go to Europe, show you Hungary, show you my life, go to Balaton Sound with you, and scream with you my secrets the way how I told you. I want to go to Croatia and Italy or Spain with you. I want to hold your hands and sleep next to you. But I don't feel I want to kiss you. I want to be important for you, but not be your girlfriend. I want you to hug my because you like me and you enjoy having me not because we are dating and you have to hug me. I was jealous to the other girl and I thought I was jealous because you had sex with her, but not, I was jealous because you chose her, and then I realized that you spent 1 hour with her having sex, don't really talk and then you spent almost 10 with me, eating, watching a movie, holding my hands, talking with me, having fun with your friends together. And I think what happened was because we both have a feeling, we both like to spend time together, we both like each other a lot, and it's new and we don't know what's this. And we thought it's something more than friends and it's more than friends it's best friends, gay friends I don't know but definitely not what I need in a relationship. I need a boyfriend who loves me, who doesn't want to think about it to be with me in a relationship or not, I need a boyfriend who thinks I'm the best girl ever. And right now I don't need a boyfriend, I need you to tell me I'm a great person. I have a hard time. This year for me is to figure it out who I'm. This year is to learn how to solve the hardest situation, how to leave with other people, how to communicate with other people in a different language, what's my third language. And I think you don't need a girlfriend right now, you need me to tell you what to do, tell you don't let your ex hurting you, tell you what other people won't. I need you ,I want you. But not as a boyfriend, as a gay boyfriend who doesn't want to have sex, who doesn't want to kiss you, but who is holding your hands, and who cares a lot about you. But you need to understand that I have to believe that I didn't want just "used" me. I know that but i feel u just wanted to use me. I find it disgusting that you let me do so many things with you. I know you didn't made me do it, I was the one who wanted it, and I'm not mad but you did know it's means me a lot and u shouldn't have let me do it. It's not your fault, but you shouldn't have to let me know it.And I also find it disgusting that you didn't talk to the other girl. It wasn't far with me, with her. And this two things won't change our friendship but it's changed my opinion of you as a boyfriend, these things are probably why I really don't think we are matching as a relationship. What I want to be honest with you and be with you, cook with you, watch movies w u. Hold your hands and if we will miss having kisses then we can try, but if we try being more than friends now, we can not be friends again.

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If u r sad, just think about u already survived when u were more upset so what's this little pain for u?

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I wish I could go back in the time and tell myself so many things.

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Waiting for someone who isn’t waiting for you is like being burnt alive without the flames

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“You were my cup of tea, but I drink vodka now.”

- tough times need tougher drinks. (via orgxniseddisxster)

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Why can people not be happy alone?

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We fall in love with people we cannot have.

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