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Your random thoughts thing.Maybe I'm reading into things but I hope wherever you are,you take care of yourself and good things come to you

I never know someone noticed that! I’ll admit, the random thoughts basically tells my story as I progressed in this newfound relationship of mine, one that I really treasure. Luckily, the lack of more entries lately is because things are going quite well and my overthinking stopped going rampant like before.

Thanks so much for telling me this and cheering me on! I hope for one as kindhearted as you my friend, things will always turn out well. May blessings always come your way!

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Yo dude...you alright?

Um... I guess I’m alright, thanks for asking, haha. Why the sudden concern?

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Random thoughts #X

5:52AM.

Stayed up tonight. I dared not go to sleep. If I did sleep, the nightmares would kill me.

I understand their nature now. They come, right target included, the night I felt the furthest from them. It’s become a pattern clear enough to discern, and I’m not exactly blind to my own world.

Nightmares of her would - will - kill me the moment I close my eyes.

It’s scary. The whole night has been an endless loop of distraction and plaguing myself with her, with our relationship.

No matter how I choose to deal with this, we are close to our goodbyes. Not as individuals, but as a couple.

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Random thoughts #6

“I want to ask you something... I’m sorry that I do.”

“... Do you want to wait until tomorrow, when we can meet? We don’t want to do this over chat.”

“I don’t want to, but I can. But my heart, it hurts so much.”

“Then never mind tomorrow, talk to me.”

“No, I have second thoughts. You won’t be able to sleep if I do.”

Dammit milady, even if you didn’t, I wouldn’t be able to sleep anyway. How can I even close my eyes, knowing the one I love is suffering like this on her own?

“No, you don’t need to listen to me. If I have to say this but I can’t hug you, it means nothing anyway.”

Crazy thoughts come to me one after another. What does she want to ask?

Of course, the worst case scenario came first. She probably stopped feeling anything for me, and she felt so guilty for this. So she wants to be here and comfort me when she breaks the news?

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Random thoughts #5

“Hey, can I have some minutes of your time before bed?”

“Speak up.”

“I want a name for my new lovely. She’s a M24 with blue-purple gradient paint.”

“Oh, the 12 million baby.”

“Not really, only five.”

“Yeah whatever. What kind of ambience do you want for your baby’s name? Classic, princess-like, or badass?”

“She is blue from head to toe. You know, when you look at her through a mirror, she’s pure blue. But whenever light shines her way, she emits a pained purple. She is hurt, but she never shows it, until someone truly looks at her. THen, everything of her screams ‘Help me.’”

Silence.

“... Wisteria.”

“Wisteria?”

“It’s a flower that represents endless love in Japan. Also its color is light blue.”

“And the prefix, sounds like it comes from ‘wistful’, no?”

“Hmhm.”

“That is beautiful.”

And thus, my baby had a name: Wisteria Fallendusk. The surname is a story that she’s been writing. It contains her tenderness, her pain, her world. It is the kind of story that I would never dare to read twice, yet I re-read it over and over.

It hurts more than Libretto. Hell, it hurts more than Serenata.

The soft, melodious agony would continue to haunt me until the day she inevitably goes away.

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Really, am I the only one to notice this is Jitzu dragging each other to an isolated corner, where they could watch the New Year sunrise alone, take each other’s pictures and exchange the sweetest words of love?

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Random thoughts #3

I shall come to terms with the fact that I might use my tumblr more and more as a recorder of what’s happening in my life- a diary, if you will.

I’m really sorry for anyone having to see this and not your desired Twice cuteness :(

Yet, I need to put this down somewhere.

We hung out tonight. Didn’t quite manage to see a movie, so we just had a drink and went for a walk around our old campus.

We talked. She told me our relationship would get nowhere. She had always been luring guys she’s interested in, then dump them afterwards. She would get bored with them and be the first to sever all ties. She played with their feelings because she knew she could. She told me she knew I could not get over her. She told me she knew all techniques of getting guys to fall for her. She would employ extreme sexiness, extreme cuteness, and extreme tenderness. Her last weapon, she had yet to use on me.

All this she told me, as I held her soft, dainty hand in mine.

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Random thoughts (Pt. 2)

How do I maintain my composure around her?

How do I inhibit my own childish jealousy?

How do I lend her my strength to move on?

How do I act the cool way I want when I talk to her?

How do I defy her the way she defies me?

How do I yank her from all dark thoughts and show her the beauty of reality?

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How do I tell her what I truly feel?

How do I offer her what she wants, while I don’t know what it is she wants?

How do I tell what she meant when she never put on the necklace, yet she absent-mindedly played with it whenever I wasn’t around?

How do I eclipse whoever came first?

How do I man the fuck up and stop avoiding confrontation?

How do I open the door to her secret desire?

How do I ask her out and meet me in person?

How do I incite in her the desire to inbox me first for once?

How do I stop myself from imagining all kinda things from her mere screencap?

How do I help her from herself?

How do I improve her state of mind, without knowing who she really is?

How do I think straight with her scent surrounding me all the time?

How do I enter the dark corners of her mind?

How do I read her mind and see what she wants from me?

How do I undo the locks under which she holds her heart?

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No one notices how Jihyo is always holding out a microphone, even an imaginary one, for Tzu to speak into? .... "Ms. Chou Tzuyu, what is your answer to the priest's inquiry?" Bride-Jihyo held her hand near Bride-Tzuyu's smiling mouth. There was no actual microphone to record her reply; then again, in front of the eager crowd, the priest, and each other, this moment would forever last. For their love, no evidence was needed. "I do."

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An inappropriately suitable picture for anyone with a sub-Jihyo fic idea xDDD

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Random thoughts

She slept blissfully, or did she? I did not check, I could not check. Not that I wanted to. I was too occupied by her heavenly smell.

It was soft, but distinctly so. It was not an obnoxiously kind of aroma that makes you automatically wince upon entering a room, but the kind you have to search for- in my case, desperately. Was it a perfume, or was it just another way she could innately mesmerize me every waking moment? Again, I do not know, not that I wanted to. 

After all, it wasn't her fault that she's so incorrigibly attractive.

Either way, I spent a good part of an hour chasing her scent.

It was frustrating, not unlike dealing with a small girl; incredibly shy yet incredibly curious, hiding masterfully when being looked for yet lingering for longer than welcome. Surrounding me. Taunting me. Bewitching me.

As I laid there with my eyes closed, I inhaled deeply, seeking that wonderful aroma that I had grown addicted to. Yet when I did, the girl hid herself amidst the olfactory clouds. Clumsy as she was, she could not camouflage herself completely from my predatory claws; there are hints of it, glimpses of playful pink in the monotonous gray of conditioned air. Gradually, I grew tired of playing. Yet, as soon as I stopped, her smell cheekily sauntered close. Before long I was foolish enough to try again, and once again she floated right out of reach. Thus began another round of hide-and-seek.

I admit, it is fun at first- but now it’s become insufficient. Gosh, what I wouldn’t give to hold her in my arms, flooding my every sense with her. Though I am not be sure I can still enjoy it properly with her aroma so prominent.

Dammit, she smelled wonderful.

I sound like a complete creep, yet it is hard not to when it comes to her.

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Scrolling through my tumblr and other fanfic-related pages I realize I’m older than most xD

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Aaaand the award of 2018′s Most Ruthless Man goes to.......

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Mina: You know, babe, I’m glad that we’re keeping our anniversary simple this year.

Jihyo: Hahaha, me too [frantically waves off marching band]

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And I thought Mina's 'Momoring' when cheering for Momo was cute....

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