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Quark & Grilka

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These are my TNG ponies from Pony Town. I've put enough work into them that I think they're worth posting. 😌

I have a few mirror versions, too 😅

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Ive wanted to do smth for Wet Man Wednesday for a while but it turns out that drawing wet people is really hard 😅

Xtra kudos to the people contributing evry week, y'all are machines 😭 (and great artists)

Dry vers below ⬇️

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one of my pet peeves in this fandom is having Anakin post-ROTJ (so, Force ghost Anakin) acting like a prideful, petty, entitled and inmature dude. Yeah, he looks like 22 again, but he's on his forties and went through a hella painful whole villain-redemption arc, it just doesn't make sense if he got a regression.

Likeeeee, i cant stand it, i can't stand most of fanarts and fanfics and depictions of force ghost anakin because most of these fall into this exact same problem lol

Im not saying i hate when people make him silly or funny, is just...Force ghost Anakin =/= 19 Yo Anakin and even if he were, that's not how Anakin's personality was. He's rather quiet, troubled and doesn't raise his voice a lot except in very big dramatic moments. Besides, you really want me to believe that after all that happened in those movies, he would come from beyond the grave and act like he never did anything wrong and get prissy about people not liking him? Be so for real rn.

Also...that's a 46 yo man that spent the last 23 years being an angry evil wizard tortured and lowkey enslaved. There's just no way I can see him acting like a teenager again unless his memory was wiped in the process of becoming a ghost, lmao.

Is also a reason why i didn't enjoy most of his apparition in Ahsoka, iswtg filoni can't write Anakin correctly and this characterization just....Makes NO SENSE.

Because even if he somehow became a ghost unredeemed, he wouldn't act like that, damnit. Vader wasn't one to justify himself like that, if anything he's very blunt and acidic and apathetic.

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every mission becomes a date if you take your love interest with you.

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Annual Physical Dream

HR Nightmare

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*Drawn in Procreate

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Happy Birthday to the boiii

I finished an old art made for this prompt, haha, cuz even though I was preparing myself a week ago I still totally forgot abt today until I saw @neopuff 's post 😭

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Omg id been planning for it and still totally forgot 😭😭😭 nooo I shoulda waited to post my Deanna art now 🥺 thank u for reminding me tho. Maybe I'll draw his side of the comic, lol

will riker's birthday......i gotta draw something

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Yes this was absolutely helpful, and thank you for the reading suggestions! I just finished them both. The lovely essay by @padmestrilogy actually made me tear up a bit.

I was right, then, to compare it w Romeo and Juliette - all I could think about as I read was her oft quoted/memed line: "You're going down a path I can't follow!"

As soulmates their souls died in tandem, and I particularly liked the assertion that she was taking herself out of the equation in the most real sense. If Anakin had done all of this for her - committed all these atrocities and completely changed - then she was going to take away that impetus. I mean I can't imagine how it must have felt to hear him say "this was for you, for us, for the baby" after everything he'd done.

She literally couldn't follow. 🥺

Mostly I think I just needed to come to terms w the fact that I've been misinterpreting it for so long, smh. I still feel very dumb, though I'll cut myself some slack. I grew up watching Star Wars and there are many things I had to relearn when I watched them as an adult 😅 (like as a kid I never realized it was Luke's head in the Vader helmet on Dagobah ... I didn't even realize it was a vision 😭💀)

I wish I could remember when I first came across the Force-drain theory, but it doesn't really matter, lol, and I should say here that if people want to headcanon that then I take no issue w it. I just care an inordinate amount about knowing and understanding canon because:

1) I love Padmé, and

2) I write fanfiction - I can't deviate from it v well w/o understanding it first 😅

Also describing Padmé's demise as the death of hope and Luke's birth as the new hope is honestly beautiful. She represented all of the good things in the Republic, so it's poetic - if horrifyingly tragic - that she died with the Republic, and that her children rebuilt it.

Anyway, thank you again for the response! It's making me wanna try tackling my fic again (since it's a fix-it and I would like to see her happy pls) 😅😅

I've been a part of the SW fandom for ages, got into writing fic for it when I went crazy for it about six years ago, and it was literally today when I was scrolling through ur blog that I realized that the Force-drain Padmé death is ... fanon??

😭😭 I feel dumb for not realizing before - I've just taken it as canon for so long that I'm now struggling to wrap my head around it 😅

I would really appreciate your breakdown of it, because I'm curious and because I'm also struggling to picture it. Like rn ig i'm seeing them as soulmates, so when Anakin's soul died metaphorically w his fall, Padmé's followed - Romeo and Juliette style.

My main issue is that the twins are there and its hard for me to picture her purposefully leaving them behind in any sense. ... pls help 🥺

And it isn't that serious, ofc, just part of me feels like the rug got pulled from under me. I just get so attached to characters and ideas that ig it was a shock to realize that it was a headcanon all along 💀

Also thanks for letting me spam-like ur blog 😁 I only stopped cuz tumblr kicked me back to the top (yes I was that far down 😅)

Hello!! i'm really glad you enjoy my posts, it truly means a lot!!!! it's crazy how many people think the force drain theory is canon, especially because there's really no evidence of that happening (but from what i've seen not a lot of people bother to analize padmé and the way she was actually written, be it "bad" or otherwise, and so theories like that get popularized instead).

i've never really struggled to understand padmé's death, it's not that uncommon in tragic stories for characters to die because they cannot bear to live anymore. she saw her life's work crumble before her eyes, the love of her life wanted her to throw all she stood for away to rule the galaxy in a tyrannical, oppressive way. it's perfectly understandable why she might want to give up, esp considering she was never shown to be that happy a person to begin with and we mainly only saw her truly smile with anakin.

death is also one of the few choices she makes in a movie where she was already sidelined, to take that choice away from her is to take away her agency in her own story even more. in a way it's the closest thing to a succesful suicide in the saga (obv i don't think suicide is an empowering choice in any way).

i don't really think there has to be a medical explanation for it (some people have pitched some obscure condition but i don't think gl had that in mind when writing it), the droids say "for reasons we can't explain, we are losing her" they were written to say that for a reason. her grief was so strong it defied medicine completely, as the republic dies the character who most rapresented the good in it dies too.

it's very allegorical and melodramatic, but so are the prequels at large so i think it really fits in. i really recommend you read padmestrilogy's essay about padmé's death because it goes really in depth on it and the stuff you mentioned. i also made a post about the whole "padmé had the kids to care for!!!!!" discourse so maybe check that out too if you want (it really focuses only on one aspect of the question but still), hopefully you're gonna be able to see it more clearly!! i think it's perfectly understandable why someone might be let down by padmé's death, but creating a version of "canon" that no one dares to question just takes away from an honest analysis of the source material imo.

(here's a post i made a while ago that i think is fitting:

"lost the will to live" is a (imo) purposefully ambiguous statement. but it doesn't take a genius to realize that it means SHE DIDN'T WANT TO LIVE. her losing all hope and being denied of the future and the life she wanted because of her husband still places anakin as her murderer but allows her a level of choice and agency in her own story and her own death that her just dying because of the choking (which the medical droids literally stated wasn't the cause of her death) strips away from her. there's a reason lucas had the med-droids specify she was completly healthy, to take away any doubt that the choking could have directly killed her (still doesn't excuse anakin doing it at all of course). he wanted to express and symbolize something more with her death, it's the death of hope and the birth of (literally) a new one. the places padmé occupied in the story, the fierce leader of her planet and the sole believer in anakin's goodness, will be taken respectively by her daughter and son in the next trilogy, they, along with all of the good she brought unto the galxy through her work, are her legacy. many stories, especially classical ones, have heroines commit suicide as the last way to impose their will and agency, i would consider padmé to be one of them. coming up with some theory about the droids not knowing anything (i beg you to be so fucking for real right now) or sidious taking her life force through powers that we don't even know if he has just deny her the last choice she ever made in a movie where she already has an extremely limited set of active actions (SUICIDE DOESN'T EMPOWER WOMEN!!!!!) )

i really hope this was helpful!!

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Ok but actually

Threepio gets hated and I'll never understand it. People will lavish Artoo w praise and then say Threepio is boring and annoying, when half of the time we can understand Artoo is because Threepio is there to talk to him.

My favorite thing about Threepio is that he's a piece of Anakin. He's part of the family, and - though it's often forgotten or ignored - is a legacy of Anakin's love.

Anakin created him in the hopes of helping his mother - of taking household tasks and worries from her shoulders and serving her. Threepio is a pure manifestation of his love, and desire to help.

Sometimes I think about how often Shmi, Padmé and even Leia sat with Threepio as he was doing dishes or laundry, happy to have a companion.

For Shmi and Padmé specifically, I wonder how often they smiled at something he said, knowing that he was created to worry and fuss in a way that a 9-year-old couldn't.

And yes Leia was annoyed by him in several scenes, but she had also just lost her entire planet and was now on a smuggling ship with the weight of the resistance and the death star plans on her shoulders, so hearing Threepio panic wasn't helping. She can be annoyed and still care for him.

I know Leia was happy that he and Artoo had both survived and stayed together, and not just because they had the plans and reached Kenobi. Only the daughter of Anakin Skywalker would trust a pair of droids the way that she did with the plans (though desperation and cleverness also played a role), and it's because she knew, loved and relied on them both.

I think discounting Threepio does both him and Artoo a disservice. Just because he feels useless during action scenes, and has some admittedly ridiculous adventures during the prequel films, does NOT mean that he doesn't have a role in the narrative.

TLDR: I love Threepio. He might not have been perfect, but the fact that Padmé called him that says a lot to me.

3po hate on my tl. 3po hate on my fyp. 3po hate on my dash. what have we become as a society.

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btw i think that saying "awwwww luke is a perfect sunshine just like padmé and leia is angry and reckless just like anakin awwwwww" is pretty reductive to all parties involved.

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Deannaaaaa

(I wanted to try a different angle and I really wanted to draw her in this jumpsuit cuz I love the color smmm)

(And yes she’s talking to Will ofc)

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Anakin this, Padmé that.. No.

The story of Anakin's fall and Padmé's belief in him until the very end only works because their love was all-consumung. If you see them through the lens of mythic, star-crossed lovers, everything will make sense — they are each other's halves. They are soulmates being torn apart by the narrative.

Anakin's drastic measures to save Padmé's life only make sense because his love for her was beyond imaginable, beyond himself. He couldn't bear losing her because her existence defined his. They both died, literally and metaphorically, because the other half was gone (Anakin was no longer Anakin and Padmé was dead).

No immature or possessive or selfish or toxic, yada, yada, yada love would ever inspire this kind of action. Lucas himself said that Anakin turned for love. Anakin tried everything until the very end, like pleading to Windu for Sidious to be tried and not killed but when left with no option, Sidious's manipulation won and he gave himself up to the devil to save Padmé's life.

But in the process, he became the devil himself and caused the very tragedy that he wanted to avoid. His lifelong grief and mourning for losing Padmé only works because he loved her so.

In the end, their love won because Luke, a pure proof of their love, fulfilled what Padmé breathed in her dying moments and brought Anakin back to the light — connecting Anakin and Padmé, once torn apart, together again.

Their love was written to be a larger than life, galaxy-altering one, not something that fits in the modern framework.

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Star Wars Episode II: Attack of the Clones (2002) Dir. George Lucas

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He thought he saw a ghost, but it was only an illusion.