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I cannot stop thinking about this article. It has enchanted me.

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yall i think im cooking

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It will always be wild to me, being a teenage girl transitioning into a trans man. Being told as a girl that I don't contribute anything meaningful to society/culture while also being excluded from groups for being a girl. All my interests are fucking stupid. My art is fucking stupid. I'm loud, whiny & annoying. I'm ugly & imperfect. If I voice any of my problems I'm an overreacting bitch, probably on my period

& then when I come out, ppl are absolutely ecstatic to treat me the exact same way, but with 0 repercussions. Now that I identify as a trans man it's a free pass to be fucking cruel misogynistic & transphobic. & pretend like it's feminist to rant about those fucking disgusting females that are loud & ugly. & all their art is fucking stupid. & they contribute nothing to society OR the trans culture they aren't allowed to be a part of bc they're disgusting warped females. & if they voice their problems we do everything in our power to beat them down & belittle them & condescendingly tell them that real men Don't Have Problems, & if we want to be considered men & not bitchy annoying females, we should shut the fuck up let other ppl speak forever & always. It will never be our turn, it was never my turn as a girl, & now that I committed the ultimate sin of Being Transgender, I have sentenced myself to a lifetime of it never being my turn.

It's misogyny mixed w transphobia. Coming from cis women & men & trans women, all projecting their insecurities & internalized misogyny & transphobia onto me. & nobody cares bc everyone takes part in it. & if we're bitchy overreacting females that aren't allowed to speak, nobody ever has to care. I'm not allowed to be a real man, but because I'm a man I should never speak. & it's my privilege to be able to never speak, to have my history & gender identity erased. & when I die I'm an ugly woman in men's clothes. & everyone stares at my body like a dead roach on the ground, puts their shoes down, & mourns. How terrible. If only she had stayed pretty & quiet

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What I've noticed about transmasc specific slurs is that they usually go into one of two categories.

"Eww, your body is gross."

examples: zippertits, shrimpdick, pooner, mangina, tranny voice

They are all derived either from specifically trans bodily features (top and bottom surgery, HRT-induced voice changes) or presumed genitals (the assumption of a vulva, in an attempt to invoke dysphoria).

2. "You're just an attention-seeking crybaby."

examples: theyfab, hefab, birthday boy, Aiden*, fakeboi, transandrodork*, transandro*

They are all derived from something being just play-pretend. [Pronoun]fabs are pretending females that are not really trans and only play with pronouns, birthday boys want attention for their fake problems, Aidens are annoying teenagers with dramatic fake names, fakebois are... well, fake boys, transandrodorks and transandros are foolish confused/malicious boys/girls (both depend on the speaker's level of transphobia) who discourse about fake oppression.

(*I don't think these are slurs *per se.* They're too discourse-specific. I've only included them because they might be used in the same breath, both with the actual slurs as a tool of mockery. I personally cannot decide whether "Aiden" can be earnestly called a slur either, but I think that as a marginalized identity-specific mockery terms this post should be inclusive of all three of them.)

And both remind me very closely of the pattern that bullies use in school. Sexualizing you (and implying that you're both sexual and disgusting, you're characterized by your genitals or by your chest, and it's gross to the speaker), or taking something that you enjoy and identify with (in this case your pronouns, your name, your opinion in an online discourse) and turning it as a personalized insult to show you that it's ridiculous, and in some sense also appaling, that you would even choose to associate with that thing. You're no longer allowed to be seen as a complex person. You're the he/they. You're "silly name" guy. You're the guy who unironically used the word transandrophobia, you're a transandro now. (Which I have seen leveled against transfems who agree with the transandrophobia theory, which I find extremely gross, since even though I know deep inside that it's just a mocking shortening of the word "transandrophobia," you're still calling her an -andro. Which she isn't. That's a woman/transfem nonbinary.) It's quietly dehumanizing in a way that you cannot really protest, because at the same time it gives the perpetrators enough deniability to claim that you're overreacting, that they're just being playful, and that since they're not calling you any of the REAL slurs, you should be actually ashamed of feeling hurt when they mock you instead of engaging with you on an earnest level. That's all. That's the post.

Wait. I lied.

That's not all.

Important disclaimer! This post is not about transfems. Sure there are transfems that gleefully use the words I'm complaining about. A mean girl is a mean girl, trans-inclusive. However, that is a teeny tiny droplet in the actual user-base of the slurs (and baby slurlets, if you will), cis transphobes and self-loathing filled 4chan transmascs. Just like transmascs don't have a unique propensity for transmisogyny, even though they can perpetrate it and sometimes do, transfems do not have any special inclination towards transandrophobia. Quite the opposite, actually - historically and even now, some of the loudest and most staunch allies of either of the groups were and will be members of the other.

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im reading a book & uh. wow. trans men&mascs really have been getting institutionalized as insane and killed for centuries huh

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the thing that pisses me off the most about this whole "haha trans men in womens bathrooms will make them reconsider" spin going around is that it basically pretends trans men and mascs of color dont exist and arent in very real danger

like, think about for even one second how, historically, white women have weaponized the perception of moc as inherently masculinely savage to get them killed for being threats to fragile helpless white girls

do you think the lady who calls 911 on black men birdwatching in the park is going to see a trans man of color in the womens bathroom and go "gosh! i never thought about it that way. you've really exposed the flaw in my arguement"? no. shes going to call security and that man will be brutalized or killed

(and dont even for a second think that woc will be safe either. i was getting side eyes and pointed questions long before i ever came out because my skin was brown and i had short hair. tmoc and our sisters arent fucking safe and we deserve better than being used as some white posters pithy "gotchya")

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Anyway, I hope the hypothetical trans guy named Kai that everyone keep shitting on is having a fantastic day today <3

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Risky, risky ⚡⚡

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how jinu recruited the saja boys

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love wins all 💜

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huntrix x saja photoshoot

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love them so much

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kpdh is also an allegory for how harmful the "picture-perfect"-ness of the kpop industry is.

Rumi needing to hide her patterns & her stress over it, having to always appear perfect and pristine.

Heck, even Mira and Zoey, who don't have supernatural secrets, undergo the same training given by their predecessor, HIDE EVERYTHING that shows people you are a human too, that you too, have flaws, - and fears too! (Without fears, are you not a monster of a different kind altogether?)

Female kpop stars have had their careers flatlined because what? the public got to know they are dating a man??!? God forbid a woman act straight (cant imagine if one of those famous kpop stars were to come out!)

I am not well read about this issue nor do i follow korean news tbh but the case of Kim Sae-ron has haunted me since I came across it.

I really don't think there has been much progress if even in 2025, there are celebs who would rather give up their life because their mentors, their peers weren't ready to accept ALL of who they are. A person with faults and fears.

LOOK AT MY BABY IMMA CRY (no but most would've given up whereas she withstood ALL of this and still faced the enemy. She is so fricking cool.)

A message about the importance of real community, real friendship, real and mutual acceptance.

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obligatory post today

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waiter??? more yuri please!

based on that one farcille scene lol

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Doctor help the demon boyband is possessing my brain

How terribleeeeeeeeeee

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Y'all pray for Jinu he's going to need another revival after she's done with him

Everyone talking about how he wants to be pegged in this shot but like

She abouta finish what she started.