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At 28 I live 4,000 miles away from what was once my home with a family I would I never have known if it weren’t for some guy I met on here in 2013. I am depressed again, being an adult can really suck. But I’ve seen so much I wouldn’t have seen if I had killed myself at 17.

“At 17 years old I was planning my death and cutting my skin open to release the pain from within. At 19 I’m still alive, I’m planning a future, and I’m 10 months clean. Keep trying.”

— Stay strong lovelies (via always-overthinking-things)

At 21 I’m in college with a whole new life happening that I never thought was coming. Keep going. It’s not easy. But it’s worth it.

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Your childhood homes supposed to be there for you no matter what

I’m pissed at you for fucking that up

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I want to go home

But I don’t have one

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My heart keeps breaking into two

And I have to pretend to put it back together for you

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I want to feel like I have a home

It used to be you

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Sometimes I wish I had done it

When I see all the cruel in this world

When I see my friends losing their rights

And I don’t know how to fight

Sometimes I wish I had done it

When I feel alone at night

And it feels like my lungs are getting tight

Sometimes I think I should have done it

Committed and it’s over

No more racing thoughts, but then I think of the loss

And not for you but for me

Lots I wouldn’t have seen

Met one of my best friends

Watched them get pregnant again and again

Weddings and love

It’s almost enough

Most days anyways

But then I age

And everyone moves on

And I wish I didn’t have to fight so hard

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right person wrong time isnt real stop making excuses for losers who didnt wanna be in your life

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i just wish it was easier. like. in general

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may you find people who happily listen while you gush about your obscure interests. may you find people you feel comfortable and safe enough around to be your authentic self

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This year has gone so quick, it’s December already, brrrrr.

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I know I don't say it enough and we joke about depression and how loneliness is eating up our lives, but it will be okay. I promise you it will.

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“Don’t hold on to someone who’s leaving, otherwise you won’t meet the one who’s coming.”

— Carl Gustav Jung

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