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I always say only Taurus can break my heart and so I date virgos but when shes a Taurus, Virgo, i have a magnetic pull to you. I feel a constant need to be with you, to be talking to you, but I have zero wish to be physical with you.

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M o n d a y 🌻

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I think about how badly I want I want to be engaged.

the thing is I could be engaged for years, I just want to be engaged and have that commitment.

I thought I wanted to be engaged to the person I dated and im glad I wasnt but also I think that relationship was different than this relationship.

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I think its weird to have to label yourself like ur self sexuality. I think its super hard to know who you are instantly. I think about how I only recently came to figure out I liked girls and suddenly im supposed to be able to label myself. I dont feel the pressure from anyone but myself really. I think random people throughout this last year have been like “wellll what are u then” and like thats silly but I dunno I just am confused. I think I let certain people down when I figured this out. I also think that bc I did such a 180 so fast that I fear being seen less gay by others bc not even a year ago I was in a relationship with a man. I dont want to be looked at like this is a phase bc I dont believe it is. I think shit happens when its supposed for a reason. its hard bc my girlfriend has known YEARS she was gay and im so new, and learning every day. im learning who I am, im learning about this relationship and likenin general learning gay things. I guess im just stressed

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sometimes I wonder if people are out there cheering me on like I cheer others on or if my mind is right and they couldnt care less.

like do I have friends who want to help me or are my crys for help not enough bc no one is actually around to help me.

is this all anxiety thats messing me up?

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stop shaming people for being passionate about the things that they love. stop mocking people for having unusual interests. like, honestly, i'm so tired of feeling embarrassed for being "too much". if being too much means having deep interests that fill my life with romanticism and excitement, then let me be!!! i'd much rather listen to anyone ranting about their latest obsession with 16th century swords than have a boring ordinary conversation with those who shame passionate people

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im so stressed man.

blessed that I leave AZ in a week but wow I gave myself a stress rash bc I cant stop stressing. everything has to be in my calendar or I forget it. living with an ex is stupid,

im so tired all I wanna do is sleep but I have 400000 things to get done everyday and like can I just stop, and be depressed for 4 minutes bc I haven’t processed anything and om spirling downwards FAST.

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:(

im actually like so upset and sad in my life right now and everything thats so small is setting me off and im not even excited for my birthday bc I have no girlfriends in arizona and I just pictured my 21st with Malia and all those friends and now thats not it and I dont wanna b depressed&fat anymore.

im not even eatting carbs or food in general and im STILL FAT. what the fuck

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Casey//Teeth

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your graduation // modern baseball

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Balance And Composure // I Tore You Apart In My Head

(my edit, not my photo)

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Brand New - The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot

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