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connorxjacksonchase:

The change in tone was a little unexpected, but Connor supposed that it wasn’t completely undeserved.  Still, his eyebrows rose as he raised his hands in surrender.  “I worry about me,” he protested.  “About the time I think a monster is about to finish me off, I worry.”  Letting out a sigh, Connor lowered his hands and stuck them in his pockets.  “Fine, if I remember, I’ll tell you when I’m leaving next time.

Alyssa glanced at him out of the corner of her eye and sighed. “I don’t even--should I believe you? I mean, maybe I’m being unreasonable or crazy or something, but I’d just like to have some acknowledgement when my best friend jets off to go on a suicide mission. It’s dangerous and stupid and--- and inconsiderate! It’s inconsiderate! To me and your family and everyone in the freaking camp because your parents go totally crazy on us without you. And I’m certainly not a ray of sunshine either. But you don’t even care.” She yanked her knees up and rested her chin on them, breathing out audibly. She needed to calm down before she actually got angry. Connor had always been such a flight risk, and Alyssa was worried she was the next thing he would leave. “I’m sorry. I get that you need to get out. You just make me crazy sometimes.”

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connorxjacksonchase:

“I don’t even know what they look like, but they sound green, so I know you’re going to get me those.  Even if you’re pissed at me for getting killed in the first place.”  He wasn’t exactly sure what it was she wanted him to say.  Probably something about how he was never going to do it again, but they both knew it was a lie.  And while Connor was a lot of things, he never was a liar.  “But, I’m back now, so you don’t gotta worry about it.”

Alyssa didn’t say anything, but she knew he was right. She’d never do anything like that. If he died she’d probably have a nervous breakdown, but she’d make sure somebody got him the damn green flowers. “Of course I have to worry about you. Somebody has to do it for you.” she snapped irritably, surprised at herself. Alyssa was usually a sweet, shy girl, but her best friend really did get on her nerves. And because she couldn’t stop herself now that she had the ball rolling, she added, “Just write me a stupid note or something next time. That’s all I want. I can’t ask you to stay and I can’t go with you, but just do that.”

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connorxjacksonchase:

Moving to the side, Connor was quick to make sure he didn’t get the dirt all over him.  “You’re right.  I’m fucking hilarious,” he said, a laugh escaping at her throwing the dirt at him in the first place.  “Okay woah.  No.  I don’t know any green flowers, but I’m sure as hell not getting buried with pink flowers everywhere.  If you do that, I swear to all the gods I’ll come back and haunt you until you fix it.  And you can’t get the Aphro girls to help with my shroud.  I still think half of them want to kill me for… various reasons.  So that wouldn’t end well.”

“Well, if you think I’m going to get you green daylilies or Cymbidium orchids or Bells of Ireland because you decided to take on a cyclops or something, you’ve got another thing coming.” Alyssa said, pulling her gaze away from him for a moment and glancing at the sky. She could kid around with him all she wanted, but it hurt when he left her. It didn’t make her want to stop being friends with him or stop the feelings gnawing away at her constantly, but she couldn’t forget  that sinking feeling she’d felt when Sally had burst into Cabin Four, teary-eyed. Connor certainly had some of his grandfather in him; he was a tsunami when he wanted to be. She nodded but stayed silent at his comment about the Aphro girls, twirling blades of grass around her fingers.

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connorxjacksonchase:

He shrugged off her words.  Alyssa could insist until she was blue in the face that things were different without him there.  And sure, he knew they would be, but he often wondered if it was for the better.  “Whatever,” was all he said in reply.  “Bury me with all the green flowers you can find.  Move on and find a new best friend.  It really won’t be that hard.”

“You’re not funny.” Alyssa said, picking up a clump of dirt and chucking it at him. Alyssa knew Connor could - though she had no idea how- manage things on his own for at least a brief period of time. But she also knew Connor wasn’t laying low when he was outside the camp’s barrier; heck, he probably sought out the monsters themselves. That didn’t mean, however, that Alyssa wouldn’t be lost without him. He had to know that. “If you die doing something dumb, Connor Jackson-Chase, I promise I will bury you with.. roses! And tulips and daffodils and chrysanthemums, and I will personally ensure that they’re all hot pink. I’ll get the Aphrodite girls to help me with your burial shroud.”

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connorxjacksonchase:

“There’s no reason to worry about me.  Hell, my family actually believes their lives would improve if something happened to me.  Or at least, that’s what Hannah says.”  He honestly couldn’t figure out why they always made such a big deal about him leaving.  He was always threatening to go out and never come back, and each time took him out a little longer.  But yet, here he was, back in his hell hole.  He was starting to wonder if it was like some cruel joke.  That no matter how far he went, or how long he was gone, he had to come back here.  “Explore.  Fight monsters.  Live.”

Alyssa shook her head. She wished she had a way to show him; how different his family acted without him, how different she acted without him. “I won’t say Hannah’s my favorite person, but they really missed you, Connor. They love you. We all do. I mean, um, you know what I mean.” she said, shrugging awkwardly. She tried not let things like that slip out of her mouth. Who knew what would come tumbling after. She widened her eyes at his explanation. Alyssa couldn’t say she couldn’t understand why he always left. She was his best friend; she could see how restless he got at camp, the wanderlust that always ate away at him. But what she couldn’t understand was how he could always disappear so easily, with disregard for everyone else, and not leave even a note. “I don’t know what I’m going to do once you’re killed on one of your expeditions.”

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camp half-blood aesthetics → cabin 4 (demeter)

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connorxjacksonchase:

“Yeah but, I can totally take the quiet thing better.  I mean, I just ignore my family anyway when they start in on me, but it’s still a pain in the ass to hear them go on and on about how I’m ‘screwing up the family’ and ‘putting myself in danger’ and that kind of shit.”

“Well, they’re not wrong on the second one. We were all really worried, Connor.” she said with a sigh, running a hand through her hair. Connor had run off countless times, but she still had wondered if this would be the final time. Anger would come later, surely, but she was so relieved that he was back that she couldn’t yell at him. “What did you even do while you were out there?”

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connorxjacksonchase:

You know, you would think that after disappearing for a few months, you’d get a few ‘welcome backs.’  No.  All I’ve gotten are three very loud, very angry women yelling at me.

“And now you have a fairly quiet, but still very angry girl in front of you.”

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godsinthemachine:

“The earth will not continue to offer its harvest, except with faithful stewardship. We cannot say we love the land and then take steps to destroy it for use by future generations.”

Demeter was the goddess of corn, grain, and the harvest and it was believed that Demeter made the crops grow each year; therefore the first loaf of bread made from the annual harvest was offered to her. She was the goddess of the earth, of agriculture, and of fertility in general.

Demeter was intimately associated with the seasons as her daughter Persephone was abducted by Hades to be his wife in the underworld. In her anger at her daughter’s loss, Demeter laid a curse on the world that caused plants to wither and die, and the land to become unfertile. Zeus, concerned for the barren earth, tried to bring Persephone back. Unfortunately, she had eaten the fruits of the Underworld so Hades had a strong claim over her. To settle this, with the help of Hermes, it was decreed that she would spend four months per year within the Underworld. During these months Demeter would grieve for her daughter’s absence, withdrawing her gifts from the world, creating winter although when Persephone returned, spring would arrive.

Her symbols include wheat, acorns and the sickle along with flowers and domestic animals.

Greek Deities: [2/12] Demeter - goddess of agriculture

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Cabin 4 (Demeter)