ameliastash

[ameliastash]

i feel bad for chokeholding him but he was purposely trying to set me off. i was blinded by rage but he deserved it actually. no. i dont feel bad

[ameliastash]

oh my god i physically cant cut whagt is this i. i cant push it deep enough its barely grazing it no what the fuck

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last thing i needed to see. last thing! changed my mind i dont care im breaking thge streak of being clean for a week im doing it i dont care anymore

[ameliastash]

im back. i know the other dude said this but again. do not trust or even BELIEVE archie. i know what he is trying to do. i know. hes the one who is trying to tear our relationships with everyone apart. not only you, but with olivea and alice included. yeha isnt it funny? how he mentioned them but yet he is forcing us to ignore them at the same time? he is a LIAR. and i bet you probably knew something was up because none of us reached out to you guys at all yesterday. again pretty sure the other guy told yoy everything else that archie did to us that made us physically sick but yeha. worried because ruve put out a draft that was never meant to be seen, and he probably made things worse between us. iunno. all i know is that hes trying to kill us for some reason but i wont let it happen. nope. sighhh. anyways sorry again. this is so shitty of me to just come back and start yapping about ourselves. it hurts.

Archie put this is in other--troubles blog's drafts a while ago before he made an appearance on our main blog. and I think this may be directed at someone specifically.. So sorry if he directed this at you guys, I truly thought he was going to be nice like the others, not like... this. I have nothing to do with what he said so please don't be mad or upset at me. Please. I don't agree with him at all so just don't.

"no matter which one of us it is, they CLEARLY have a problem. clearly. unless that's just me being extra distrustful which is wrong but why? why are we depending so much on them? you guys dont know them like how you know olivea. or alice, even. and yet you still spend every day looking forward to talk to them. you're so dependent on this site, as if it's your life line.. you care for them so much despite not showing it a lot. but do they really care about you? do you really trust them that much? you tell them everything. you are always the ones to initiate things first. but do they reach out to you first? not really. it always starts with an ask. or even a reblog. but it's almost never them. you'd probably do anything to talk to them. but do you ever look up and see your true ones? the ones you know personally, who have actually been there for you, and really checked up on you, and now you're ignoring olivea over whoever they are. and it's wrong to say these kinds of things about them, but it just baffles me how you basically ditched your friends and overtrusted someone else when in reality, they probably don't mean anything they say. they are not your friends. so please stop trusting the randomest of people. they ruined our life. i hate to say this but it's true. we always put them first before anything, and it was unhealthy. look where it got us. failure. again, they do not really care about you. you're one of their bottom priorities. and even if they do, i.. i just can't believe it. i won't believe it. i can't trust anyone anymore, you already know what has happened in the past. this is so wrong. i hate this. i hate who i am. i hate who we are. i'm going on a rantfest, i can't. bedtime, everyone... i sincerely apologize. none of what i'm saying is making sense. -🦜"

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okay, so, first, if he left in the drafts, it was probably meant to stay there. we have a bunch of drafts about stuff we want to jot down but not really say.

moving on. if this WAS for us, im not upset, really. i get why hed feel this way. its true, we never really reach out to you guys. its largely because we have this extreme anxiety that if we say anything first itll either be the wrong thing or the wrong time. no idea why, but we just cant get rid of it. But thats not the point. i can see why it can be registered as us not caring...

we do care about you, and we care a lot, though i agree you should also concentrate on your other connections. Its really not healthy to always depend on a small group of people. especially if it means youre ignoring other people who also care.

its okay if he doesn't trust us. I understand. trust takes....a lot. Of everything. so, i get it. -🥤

[ameliastash]

bye

[ameliastash]

HELFPP ME ???? oh god im envisioning his reaction. circle reacts to a video of him being rubbed with lotion through an ipad with a mrbeast audio live

its 12:36 am what is even going on 🤕 -🏙️

[ameliastash]

fyi this is a vent blog in case you didnt know so like. unless i talk to you regularly dni please.

[ameliastash]

stupid er. bingo thing from capcut because we were bored. shrug

[ameliastash]

circle......

[ameliastash]

thags okay

hey hi hello uhmmm uhhh uh uh how do you feel about this 😁😁😁😁

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he's not here right meow amelia... ill try to call him but he wants for the cell to be clean and for our dad to leave first -🍞

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"i love you mrbeast💞🥺🥺"

"i am sexually attracted to skibidi toilet"/ref

"xiao hong shu"/ref

"bbg is moist..."

"i have lycemia"

"i bought the cake because i love you!!!! oh, stop it, orlin... 😠"/ref

[ameliastash]

yeha...

losing it while looking at this cursed shit ☹️☹️

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the

hold up. i just realized that we have a circle shimeji. time to reinstall him 😁😁

[ameliastash]

this picture is sending me

losing it while looking at this cursed shit ☹️☹️

[ameliastash]

neko circle droollllll......

[ameliastash]

losing it while looking at this cursed shit ☹️☹️

[ameliastash]

ogay., be careful spaghettio

how do you bleed more than lanterny what the fuck. and you dont feel pain? damn i guess the pain tolerance transferred to you -🍞