amgrams

[amgrams]

love is so filling and loneliness is it’s bitter after taste…

[amgrams]

ahhhh what a wonderful thing to wake up to! i hope 2021 brings you all joys and time to enjoy those joys, you are deserving. stay safe and stay sweet.

2020 has been a long and difficult year for everyone, and i wanted to thank some of the people who have made it more bearable for me. i have so many incredible, incredible mutuals and i want to thank all of you - whether we’ve been mutuals for the 7 years i’ve been on this website or we became mutuals yesterday, whether we’ve never spoken a word or we speak (relatively) regularly. i love every singe one of you so much! 

a-c

@ahmortentia @aleclightwoodisbetterthanyou @allinmymind @amaliabones @amgrams @andromedablac @antsareamazing @anyexcusetowritemorelies @archivedz @arielmary @arithmancy @astoriamalfxy @at-saeyounq @averyspace @awkwxrdmarauders @azkabcn @backgroundhufflepuff @baronweasley @bastardkazbrekker @bendrowned-616 @bellaatrixes @bellamysgriffin @beyondthelightning @bisexualsirius @branstark @buxbeak @byersscastle @captainstudmuffin @chaosbisexual @charmed @chaserlesbian @clintbartcns @confunduis @crankyangels 

d-h

@dammitsirius @danny-the-coolest @deamus @deer-evans @disscndium @divergentofhogwarts @dracolucivs @dracolwt @dramiones @dumbledore @dylannobriens @elfi-the-awkward @eloisebrigerton @emmaewatson @epivskey @falsewatermelon @flickertheory @g-allifrey @georgiawarrs @gilderoylckhart @ginnnys @ginnyweatherby @graanger @greillustrated @halfsilkblades @heckincharlotte @hehimbo @history-huhh @honeyedukes @hornedsrpents @houseparkinson @hypatheticallyspeaking 

i-m

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n-r

@not-used-to-being-normal @nymphadoura @oceanvs @ohkstewart @oievans @ollivanedrs @peterparkarr @potterpan @prongsfootpotter @prongsno @pujishrine @pumpkinspettigrew @quaffled @queen-elizabrooke @queenhermione @queerfrodo @randomcreativitybursts @ravenheart-and-lionsmane @rcpunzel @reallyworkingonmycalm @recgulus @repairboyvaldez @reyskyewalker @roseweasely @roxannweasley @rwolk

s-z 

@salovie @samwwinchester @sani-wtf @sarawatlisme @saturdayreading @scxmanders @sensitivethinking @siriusblacc @sistermichael @skywnoceiling @slytherdaunt @sscorbus @stark-tony @taylorjoy-anya @teddylupinsblueundercut @teens-in-neverland @temporarykajsfks @thesevenumbrellas @tompeterparkerholland @tpnks @uillanelle @v-ctoireweasley @virtuestars @waterstribe @wildebelle @williampoulter @willowd @willowroscnbcrg @xwingsquadron @yourletters @zabini 

to you and absolutely everyone who follows me - thank you, i hope you all have a lovely new year and that 2021 treats you better than 2020!

[amgrams]

. . . . Now I just hear your voice and find myself closing my eyes and leaning into the darkness for warmth that I know is not there. And I imagine you do as well . . . .

2/2

[amgrams]

Dear sweets,

It feels like the world is winning at a game that I do not know the rules of. But miraculously I am still playing. Today is especially hard. So hard in fact that I can't imagine us before this. What would we be doing now? I hate to think that things would probably never change. That it would still be car rides and text messages for us, but I will always want more. Now and then, I always will . . . .

1/2

[amgrams]

. . . . It feels like you to just left, and it's still that day again. Like I'm still waiting for you to come back, and in reality I am doing just that. Waiting for you so I can say sorry and that I hate when we fight. Waiting for you to hop over my balcony again. And maybe when you do the words I'm sorry never leave my lips but I show you anyways, that I am sorry. And we will be lying on my bed, staring at the ceiling, and I'll take your hand and give it one small squeeze. It would say all the things I wish I could, in this one small gesture. And I am scared.

2/2

[amgrams]

Dear sweets,

I find myself lying awake at night thinking of you. The way our bodies press together. The intertwining of our legs. The way your hands find their way into my hair. Your slow hot breaths on my cheeks. The way my hands rake up-and-down your arms. Pressing kisses to your knuckles, shoulders and nose. I feel complete. It feels like the moon is writing love stories about us. And I am so lucky . . . .

1/2

[amgrams]

. . . .Your embrace still lingers on my skin, if i close my eyes it feels like you're there and all that i am left with is goosebumps. This is all I have left of you, this ghostly feeling. I wish I held you tighter. I wish I made you stay longer, and we could have laid in bed together. I wish I kissed you, so I could live in that moment forever. But I am too greedy, and I'm only left with this feeling. So I live in this moment, and you are warm and real, yet it is all so painful at the same thing . . . .

[amgrams]

Dear sweets,

I hope you know that I love you with my entire being. And even though I don't always vocalize it best, I hope you notice it in the way I look at you or in the way I hold you, because it says all the words I wish to say to you . . . .

[amgrams]

ive changed my url from @panparkison to @amgrams

my content is also changing. i will being posting short stories and things of the like, all of which will no longer be related to the hp fandom. things of that nature with be on my second blog @theamericancharmer

stay sweet <3

[amgrams]

today was a tough one, i have had worst ones but im thankful for the few good things. i recieved a lovely letter from my significant other in the post. and a handful of very thoughtful texts from friends and family. let's not forget my grandmother's annual call where she sings happy birthday, which is always a mood booster.

very much, staying sweet

@arigreengrass

happy birthday sweetheart! I hope you’re having a brilliant day. :’)

y’all should drop by ari’s blog and wish a beautiful day for them! <3

[amgrams]

The rain pounded on the tin roof of the RV, the trees nearby rustled by the presence of wind but the inhabits inside were left undisturbed .

[amgrams]

update will come soon, dont know when that will be sadly. stay safe.

[amgrams]

currently in bed, and i can't sleep at all. these funks im in are becoming more frequent and difficult than i would like. a lot has happened since i last posted, but i hope you are all well.

[amgrams]

i am going to buckle down and study. i am going to end my school year on a good note and pass with flying colors. junior year was terrible, but that was last year. im ready this time.

[amgrams]

when Lemony Snicket wrote “I will love you if I never see you again, and I will love you if I see you every Tuesday ” that hurt me

[amgrams]

currently debating going to my college computer class 💤 or ditch and work on my special writing project.

also conan gray's checkmate is tooo good to not have on loop.

[amgrams]

another full rotation around the sun :,) its been a great one.

staying sweet <3

@arigreengrass

happy birthday sweetheart! I hope you’re having a brilliant day. :’)

y’all should drop by ari’s blog and wish a beautiful day for them! <3