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Things Better Left Unsaid

There was a moment

Where I could have saved it all

With a few simple words,

A handful of glances and

A single movement.

Instead, I bit my tongue

And turned away

So I could vanish

Into the abyss of life.

But if I could take it back,

Turn myself around

So I could find my way

From the darkness

Back to you,

You can bet the words would flow free

And I'd make that single movement count;

I'd risk ruining everything between us

Just to see you one last time

Without that look of hurt

You were trying so hard to conceal.

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Quiet Country Road

I miss the lonely serenity

Of a quiet country road

In the dead of night.

I miss the moonlit pine trees

And the shine of deer eyes

Watching from the ditch

As we speed by.

I miss warm, muggy air

Flowing through the cab;

It smells of rain

And fresh cut hay.

I miss the chirping of crickets

And the croaking toads;

The sound of coyotes laughing

As they run through the hills.

I miss watching my ancestors

Dance across the midnight sky

With only stars to guide their steps.

I miss the peace and quiet

Of a farm just down the road,

This home away from home.

Our ancestors still dance

And the coyotes still laugh there,

I'm sure of it.

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Solace

Her eyes were dark with desire

As we tumbled through the door.

My heart was set afire

I wanted her and nothing more.

A moment of pause found us

Staring into each other's souls;

They were burning up with lust

And craving to feel whole.

We were meant to be here,

Tangled up in one another.

In the dark, we show no fear,

Her touch made the Earth shudder.

And in the stars above,

Our fate was clearly written;

We were meant to fall in love,

From the very start, we were smitten.

Out in the raging streets,

Where riots threaten our slumber,

We find solstice beneath the sheets

And protection from the thunder.

Here in this little paradise

That we've carved, just us two,

We can ignore the hate on the rise

And love as the gods intended us to.

I love her like I've loved no other,

To stop would mean my death.

And on my way to six feet under,

I'll love her with my dying breath.

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Be Kind

It's always

Be kind to others

Unless others don't fit

Your perception of

How the world should be.

Be kind to others

Unless they disagree

With the views you hold.

Be kind to others

Unless they look

A little different than you.

Be kind to others

Unless they speak

A different language than you.

It's always be kind to others

But only if they're just like you.

Why can't it be

Be kind to others

Who are in need

Of your helping hand.

Be kind to others

Who are learning to speak

A different language.

Be kind to others

Who diversify the world.

Be kind to others

Out of the kindness

Of your own heart.

One day I hope it will be

Be kind to others

Just because those others

Exist along side you.

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Empty

I just wanted to feel something,

To feel alive,

To feel whole;

To feel love.

If I knew then

What I know now,

I wouldn't have asked

To be granted

This ability to feel.

Because now

My thoughts race

With images of you

And with those images

Comes a hollow feeling,

Deep in my chest;

My heart aches

The same way that

A freshly made gash might;

I'm beginning to hate the things

That I used to love.

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Mistakes

You say I broke your trust

But darling,

You broke mine first.

You took me for a fool,

Had me all wrapped up

In your little lies;

Those crocodile tears

Sure are blinding

When the moon is bright.

I wanted to protect you,

Be a knight in tarnished armor

But found out instead

That I was just the jester

In your court of deceit.

I shouldn't be surprised

By the way it all turned out.

A loyal heart is easy prey

For the leopard

Obscured by their own insincerity.

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Addict

To my forlorn angel

With broken skin

And bloodshot eyes

Remember how love felt

And how it led

To your demise?

My battered beauty,

With skin just like

The snow you sniff,

When the high

Wears thin

Is it me you miss?

Am I in your prayers,

Your thoughts,

Your dreams?

Am I hiding in

The darkest parts,

Waiting to make you scream?

Do you crave

My caress or

Miss my fragile touch?

Are you waiting for me

To take you home?

Is this life just too much?

Sweet, forsaken angel,

With track marks

On her skin,

Tonight will be the night

That you finally

Let me in.

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A Moment

We were falling through eternity

When everything stopped

Just for a moment

But in that moment

I found that I had a heart

And I knew that you,

With your spirited eyes,

Your charming smile

And your insouciant disposition,

Would be the one

To shatter it completely.

Time stops for no one;

Heartache is like that too.

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Sleep Remedy

It occurred to me recently,

That the number of instances

On which I’ve been accused

Of sleeping far too much

Has steadily increased over the years.

But you'd sleep more often, too,

If you heard that voice

Deep in the dim pit of your mind,

Cackling sadistically

And screaming out those painful names.

If you felt that itch

Just below the skin

Asking to be relieved,

Begging for the opportunity

To leave you numb and wanting;

To leave you

Craving for it desperately.

If you could understand as I do

That sleep is like death;

So peaceful,

So freeing,

Minus the promise

Of a permanent darkness,

Maybe you'd see why I sleep

Much more frequently these days.

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For the Taking

You can steal my heart

If you want to,

I'll leave the door open wide.

Just waltz right in,

Like a shadow

Through the darkness

And take it in your hands;

I won't make a sound,

Won't even move a muscle

As you leave me heartless.

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Rot

The deep burn of her kiss

Lingered on my lips,

Her gentle fingers

Stained my throat,

And her warm eyes

Caught hold of my soul.

But I could not give in;

I could not love her.

How unfair it would have been

To let her fall deeper in love

With my rapidly decaying heart.

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Phoenix

She reminded me of a phoenix,

The way she died each night

Only to rise from the ashes

More vibrant and beautiful

And more determined than ever.

And the way that,

No matter how hard I tried

I could never cage her

Who would want to?

Such beauty,

Such confidence

Should be kept free.

I could never make her mine

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Good Friday

Her heart swelled with passion

As a sigh left her lips;

Her eyelids fluttered

Like butterfly wings

And her fingers twisted in the sheets.

I loved her like she deserved

But damned her in the process.

How unfortunate for her

To fall for my wicked charms

And give up her soul to me

For a good time on a Friday night.

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Jigsaw Puzzle

I needed you to understand

That somethings

Are better left

Shattered.

That my heart,

Broken as it may have been,

Wasn't worth the suffering

Of putting it back together;

Those little jagged edges

Could wreak havoc

On one's soul.

You needed me to know

That sometimes,

Love can be enough

To protect oneself

From those broken pieces;

That we would put

The puzzle of my heart

Back together again.

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Adolescence

Lately I've been reminiscing

About long nights spent

Wandering our city.

About playful shoves

In school hallways;

About long glances

And lowered lashes.

I've been remembering

Gentle touches,

Embraces that lingered

Slightly too long.

All that time we wasted

On petty arguments

And cheap booze;

Laws we broke

And chances we took.

Every day we gambled

With our lives

Or with our hearts.

It's a wonder

We ever survived it all.

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Black Widow

She knew my sins

Before we met,

Could taste my vices

On my breath

We clung to each other,

A mere step from death.

With the sun rise

Also comes the regret.

I needed to feel

Her heartbeat with mine,

To have her nails rake

Against my skin; purely divine.

A midnight serenade,

A ballad with no rhyme.

By the end of the night,

Our lust leaves us high.

And when the morning light

Did finally come,

I looked at her in its glow,

My heart knew it was done;

She looked so serene,

Still sleeping in the sun,

After our night before,

I'm no longer on the run.

I love this feeling

Of being caught in her web,

Of holding her close

When the pleasure ebbs.

Her venomous words

Completely fill my head;

She says she'll love me

Until the bitter end.

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The Anguished Soul

She stared out at the moon,

It's pale glow shimmering

And blurry to her teary eyes.

The cold words echoed

In her thoughts,

Thorny vines twisting

And enveloping her heart.

The love he offered

Wasn't meant for you.

You were just

The first lonely soul he saw.

She wished she could be

As far away from these memories

As the moon was from the earth.

You'll always be alone

The voice repeated over and over.

Here in this home full of friends,

Of family, and of lovers,

She finally knew what it meant

To feel all alone

In a crowded room.

Tonight, she thought,

Watching lovers kiss

And friends embrace

And family laugh together,

Tonight is the night

That I join the moon.