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Growing

I decided to stop picking at the weeds growing from my scars and made sure to start ending all my wars.

I gave my thoughts space to grow into the flowers that have been coloring my mind and narrowed my forest to a garden where lost leaves are left for me to be found.

Carefully, I take care of my plants water them with speechless words so that the silence in my hands reclaims her voice and screams for growth.

- 16.03.2022 / 03:43

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Still, the world is a strange place to live in, isn't it?

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21 bitches, and I'm soo fkn ready

sooooo guess whatt

it's my birthday, it's 4:01 am, I can't sleep because I'm in love with my life and I feel so much excitement, yes I have exam stress but I feel so grateful so happy that I'm going to spend my first birthday without my ex-girlfriend and without her toxic household (even if I loved her and her family to death and would have done everything for them, they didn't deserve my 'sensitive' soul and pure heart). yes, I allow myself to feel good. I felt SO good the past year. I did so much crazy stuff, that made up for the four years I was exclusive for her. For the four years that she was in my life, and I didn't have one of my own anymore. It's been a long time since I wrote about her, maybe even a year. Which feels kinda weird to be honest, knowing that I used to write all my poems about her. Knowing that Sappho made me think of her and Ovide made me dream of her. It feels so good to be my own zemër, to be my own habibti, and to be my own love. It feels so good to love myself and my life again, even if I'm still having my darker days and crying sessions (I honestly hope they'll never go away). I'm in love with the people around me, Kirsten, Marie, Felix, Imane, Chloé, Charlotte, Aya, .... (ah shit so many white names, but I've never met people with a more colorful mind) I'm just really grateful for what I got and for the fact that I allowed myself to start my healing journey. To focus on me. To feel the freedom again. IT'S MY BIRTHDAAAAAAY!!! Të dua, Amina.

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maar soms heb je gewoon geen plaats meer over voor het verdriet van anderen

(vele hemels boven de zevende)

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i wish people would normalize being lost in life and just not knowing anything. not knowing what you’re passionate about, where you want to live, what you want to do, where you want to go— or what lies next. as a society, we normalized going to school, finding a passion, getting a job, finding a partner, getting married, having kids, working hard to earn an honest living. but what about when shit just doesn’t go that way? you really just don’t know. and what’s even worse is, you don’t know why you don’t know or even where to start so you feel alone. you feel as though you’re a disappointment to your family. as if you failed in life. but you haven’t, it’s okay, to not know. to be lost. you have your whole life ahead of you to figure things out. patience is a virtue. there is no time limit on life. you don’t need to rush. don’t allow society to fixate the narrative of having all your shit together at a certain age. it isn’t realistic for most. being lost is so much more normal than we think. and i just wish people would be more transparent about it.

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Chokran to the boy who made me realise I'm bi. It's a relief to know.

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But I'm grateful we broke up.

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sentada aquí en mi alma 🌞 • • • #vibes #vivaencadaparpadeo #friducha #fridaholic #fridalicious #fridakahlo #frida #latina #painter #art #artist #latin #femaleempowerment #pussypower #mexicana #mexican #artist #pintora #arte #beafrida 🐅 https://www.instagram.com/p/CBq2V15Az8v/?igshid=1ho4xl3uszsic

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If you’re reading this I wanna let you know that im cute

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Perfect fit

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Superficiel. 

Photography by Takahiro Hosoe(27) Tokyo,Japan