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they are the same thing :)

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I saw 11:11 on my phone and I told myself “make a wish! it’s 11:11!” Then a second later, I realized “oh that was so dumb.. why do I have to make a wish at 11:11 when the creator of this universe is right there listening to all of my wishes and trying his best to work everything out for me.” PTL hahaha

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random memory

people who are indebted to me:

eric hu - $500

james kang - $500

austin burrow - $500

andrew hsu - $50

william shin (and some others?) - $5

i will forgive you all, but i will never forget! 

all you future betters, don't bet me unless you're certain ;)

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NYC Fashion Week 2012

Gemma Kahng

[ 2013 Spring Collection ]

photo by me ( erica miriam fabri )

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Gemma Kahng Spring/Summer 2013. During NYFW, I was invited to Gemma Kahng’s spring and summer collection. It was an atmospheric journey into the elements with touches of refreshing lines alongside light and airy shapes. Kahng’s inspiration drew from the Amish lifestyle and the backyard in her upstate New York farm. Really this collection is all about being inspired by an unstructured world with the elements. Sunny days, the skyline, flowers, and greenery all around. In a twist, I love the use of leather with some pops of color. The wellies definitely play up the feel of changing seasons. Oh, and that little dog? His name is Baxter and his owner is one of the photographers. I couldn’t help but share a little snap of him. (Baxter is also featured in my Dogs of NYFW post).

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ABSOLUTE FAVORITE!

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lalala so i dont post often

and i dont like to talk about myself in this way

but sometimes i just feel like there are times when i really feel like it, this post isnt really being asked to be read. its rather long and useless...

so i was warned by people that when you go to college, some people get lonely and dont know how to make friends and then life kinda sucks and you like go through some sort of depression your freshman year. and i heard it happens especially to those who had tight groups of friends back at home

i definitely disregarded this and was like, lool that sucks, wow sucks for them, hope it doesnt happen to me! all the while, i really thought id be immune to it. in my mind i thought, im likeable, social, nice, i shouldnt have any problems making friends (sounds conceited i know). but i mean, i felt like you hear more about the fun times people have in college and how they find their lifelong friends in college. but, i guess i should have listened a little more to peoples warnings...i mean, i dont REALLY have any problems making friends, but i cant help but to feel strange...or lonely?

its strange, i feel like this is maybe the lowest that ive ever felt, but before freaking out over it and worrying for me, i have never really ever very low before...

it was sometime in my senior year, maybe in college app time when youre trying to figure yourself out so you can write about who you are, that i realized that my life is pretty amazing and perfect. theres that joke about me and my yearbook quote my sophomore year "my life is perfect", but when i was a senior, i realized how true i actually felt like it was. i mean of course, sure there were some bad times, stress, annoying things, etc, but even when things were "bad" i never really would feel that way. even with the things that werent perfect, i felt like my life was perfectly imperfect. i cant say that ive ever really felt anything close to depression, and i attributed this to maybe my sense of extreme optimism? when people would "deep talk" they would talk about how low they really felt, or often you hear stories of people who say like how they live with a mask and they act all happy but really feel terrible. i would always ask myself if that was me, if i had some actual secret depression, or if my happiness was a mask. but now i realize that i was really just boring and happy. when people asked me how i was, i would reply good, and that was the truth!

now when people ask me how i am, i obviously say that im good or great or fabulous or fantastic, but i cant help but to feel like im lying at least a little. things are just a little different. i cant help but to feel kinda...lonely. ive realized how uncomfortable i actually am in front of new people, and i long for my old relationships and big group of friends i had back at home. and on top of that, i dont feel like anyone else feels this way that i do, or at least they dont talk about it at all.  at my school, i feel like theres this kind of underlying pressure to be so happy. everyone is always talking about how great our school is, how beautiful the view is, how the beach is right there, everyone is so nice, so friendly, so beautiful. i seriously have about 3 sunset grams on my feed everyday... 

i dont know, its just weird not having people who know me, and get me. and i cant really seem to find many people who i just click with or think are cool. its almost like this culture shock cause there are just so many reaaaaally american people who are conservative republicans and are obsessed with country music and who dont seem to get many of my references or style choices. but thats not to say these people arent cool, its just that they are different than i was so used to at home. its just, i dont have people i can just text up any time to play or i dont have some fb message i can invite a large group of people to play with. 

maybe some of this "loneliness" could also be due to the fact that the almost 2-year relationship i had with my bestfriend/bf ended so recently. 

and people say that you get to make more relationships by getting involved on campus, and there are a lot of ways to get involved, but idk...i feel like people overly hype up how many ways you can get involved. yes there are things to do and ways to get involved, but idk a lot of them dont really seem all that appealing, and i dont feel like its this crazy, overwhelming amount like it is at a lot of universities. and people seem to be complaining about how busy they are, maybe they really are that busy, but i dont really seem to be feeling it...maybe just cause i was rather busy and involved in high school...?

but i definitely have been feeling better, and like im making more relationships, but i also kind of feel like i go through these waves of feeling better and silly about feeling lonely before, and then ill feel lonely again and question myself - if im like actually a cool and likeable person. but overall, i definitely am feeling better and better. 

and its funny, i remember taking the personality test last year and getting esfp, but i thought, hmmm extrovert...? i didnt really think of myself like that... and then we took the test again this year and talked it over. they were talking about how extroverts really like being around people and get energized by being around people, and its been this school year that ive realized how true that actually is. the days that im not really around people or when i have the most chill alone time is when i feel the worst. so im actually kind of glad about this period of time, because it has taught me more about me and my personality.

but anyways, this post feels stupid cause i just ramble on about my friends/lack of and how my life is not this life full of unicorns and butterflies anymore aka is now a more normal life. and i probably also sound really conceited, ill be waiting for people to quote me and make fun of me... but really, if this post sounds like depressing or something, its not really, things arent really that bad, my life is still rather perfect, i still have plenty of friends here. i guess this is just the first time that ive ever felt like my life wasnt completely perfect, and this is the closest ive ever felt to any kind of depressed (even though this is really, REALLY far from any kind of depression)

haha its actually kind of funny, this like "loneliness" i feel now, i mean doesnt really feel all that great. so when i think about people who are actually depressed...DAMN their lives must be so shitty! actually thats not very funny...its really very sad... (there i go again, sounding even more conceited and insensitive...)

i feel like a lot of people arent really on tumblr anymore

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LOOL this is funny cause it was obviously written by an asian who dont speak engrish good

We need a Asian president.

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wtfff can i have thisss? where is my painting btww....

im sending you - ashley - my address naoooo

Last painting proj before school

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GEMMA KAHNG S/S 2013

A few of my favorite looks.

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from Gemma Kahng Spring/Summer 2013 RTW Collection!

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Gemma Kahng RTW Spring 2013

Photo by Rodin Banica

The designer found inspiration for her spring collection in nature.  For More

See all of WWD.com’s RTW Spring 2013 Runway Coverage

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pepperdine

i looove my school

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excited

going to new york tomorrow!

follow what im up to for the next couple weeks

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LOOOL thats funny how they did this, you can see the real posters here

http://www.queenslandrail.com.au/aboutus/mediacentre/campaigns/pages/trainetiquette.aspx

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confusing feelings

so these last 2 weeks of senior year are just straight ridiculous...every teacher has some kind of hugeass project planned on top of all the finals we have to study (or not study) for. 

so then i decide to like procrastinate and look at tumblr/pinterest and see all these cutee beach pictures, and i look at us weekly and see all the bikini bodies and im like YAAAY im going to hawaiii SOOOON and i get really excited and happy and im like JUST GOTTA PUSH THROUGH! ill be in hawaii soooon!

but then i realize waitt, soo summer comes and hawaii is soon, then right after hawaii i leave for new york then right after new york i have to leave for college. and then i get really depressed and sad cause my time with my high school family is up really soon... (shigan opso! - terrible korean...)

and then i get really depressed... yeahh its saad :( AND on top of that, while looking through tumblr/pinterest picturess i realize that im no where NEAR my hawaii beach bodaay

so its been very difficult to get work done recently

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do you have a prom date?

yeees i doo

unless someone better comes alooong ;) 

HEHEE just kidding anshyy