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[anayka-agarwal]

Does it happen to you that you are attracted to someone but still hesitant to act on it. The fear of judgment the fear of rejection binds your hands. Or maybe it is that little doubt in your mind that is he/she everything that i have been looking for.

Sometimes these things mess with our mind but with time things will come into perspective and you will start realising what is the right thing to do. Just don't spend so much time in analyzing that you lose the person who is worth your while. As we all know " गिरने और सम्भलने का नाम ही तो है जिंदगी।"

Signing off : anayka agarwal😇

[anayka-agarwal]

I was just talking to someone and it got me thinking that how strange feelings are..

When we meet someone for the first time, they are just strangers to us. But with time some of these people become such essential part of our life that we can't imagine our life without them. They become our pals,our friends for life etc etc. And then there is a day we meet such a person to whom we get attracted to in a different way. Sometimes it's just an infatuation. Sometimes it's a connection that develops with time. Sometimes a mixture of both. Have you ever been so attracted to someone that you want to know everything about them ? Have you ever felt attracted to someone not by their looks but by the way they talk to you ?Have you ever been attracted to someone for the way they look at things? Have you ever been attracted to someone for their simplicity? Have you ever been attracted to someone for the purity of their heart? Well, some of you may have experienced this, some may not but i do wish that whenever I get attracted to a guy, these traits are the ones which hold the precedence rather than looks. Well i won't lie i would love to love a good looking guy. It would be a bonus if this happens.

Well these were some thoughts that just came to my mind while listening someone's love story. Thoughts and feelings are tricky,they may change over time with experiences and growth in one's self but for now this is it.😉😄

I know today my writing is a bit scattered but i just had to pour out my feelings so i wrote just whatever i thought immediately . 😁

Signing off now..

[anayka-agarwal]

13 August, 2020

Whenever i look at the clouds i feel so mesmerized. It feels like i am in some other world. Their cottony texture attracts me so much. They are a pleasure to the sore eyes. Not just clouds but the beautiful nature that surrounds me attracts me so much. It's very difficult to describe the sense of relief and positivity that i feel when i am with nature.

I have come to realize if we immerse ourselves completely with nature we can forget all our worries, atleast for sometime. I love to watch the beautiful morning while enjoying the cold breeze that caresses me softly. I love to watch the beautiful trees,the blooming flowers and the bright leaves filled with dew drops. Whenever I see those pretty flowers, i do get tempted to pluck them but i can't do it because i love seeing them just the way they are elevating the beauty of the trees. Whenever i see people plucking flowers for religious purposes, i get irritated because they pluck so many flowers even the ones which haven't bloomed fully. I believe we must take the quantity we actually need and not more than that. A prayer can be performed even with two flowers then why take a bunch of flowers and deprive them the opportunity to be in their environment just a day more.

The beautiful night sky takes my heart away.😅 The gleaming stars are a treat to watch and the pearly white moon shines as a ray of hope in the dark ,absorbing all my worries. I just wonder why we are adamant on destroying such a lovely environment just because we don't want to make efforts. We always tend to blame infrastructural development as a cause for destruction of our natural resources. But it's not just that but one of the main reasons for depletion of the natural environment is the carelessness of people. We have a tendency to take nature for granted and we often fail to acknowledge the importance of preserving it. Instead we do all that we can to destroy it. It's not much of a task to take care of our natural environment. Very little efforts are needed from our side to make a difference.

We need to stop littering the streets.

Don't take more than what is actually required from nature

Avoid keeping your taps open for long hours .In short stop wasting water.

Plant trees whenever possible.

Don't throw garbage in rivers and anything that's not ecofriendly

Avoid polluting the atmosphere as much as you can

One more thing which we can do is interrupting anyone we see doing the above things. I know it will be difficult at times because people don't like being advised by some random person but just try . Even if we are able to convince one person not to do such things it will be a great victory.

Well, as we all know this covid situation has proved to be a boon for the environment as the pollution levels have dropped in air as well as water, i just hope that when things get back to normal we understand the lesson mother nature has been trying to give us and prove to be responsible children of mother nature.

Study nature, love nature,stay close to nature. It will never fail you.

[anayka-agarwal]

20/7/2020 12:30am

Yesterday I was talking to my friend who was eager to share with me something which was happening in his life. There's a girl he admires and he was explaining me this situation where he ignored her once while she was trying to talk to him and he is getting the same treatment since a few days.He was in a dilemma as of what to do in such a situation. He was contemplating on not giving her much attention anymore but he was confused as he liked her a lot. So he asked for my advice. I told him that it's really important to maintain your self respect and dignity but sometimes to save a relation we need to set aside our ego and take the initiative to solve things. Atleast try a few times to make things better. If then too your efforts are not able to move the other person, then it becomes the matter of self respect and not ego. But before taking any rash decision try your best to save that relation. And in this case it's really not a big issue. He was satisfied with my answer and agreed to try his best.

Many times, we are in a conflict with our conscience ,part of it urges us to satisfy our ego while the other gives us various reasons to make an effort to save a relation. It's up to us which part we are willing to choose. I believe we should choose the one which we think is more important for us. Some may choose their relations and some may choose their ego. But understand the difference between ego and self respect . We must neither be the slaves of our ego nor should we crumble our self respect and self worth to please others.

Respect yourself enough to walk away from anything that no longer serves you, grows you or makes you happy.

[anayka-agarwal]

18/7/2020

Relationships

We all have questions about relationships, especially what an ideal relationship should be. I also have some questions regarding the same. But today i am not here to ask any questions. Instead i am here to share what my experiences and thoughts are regarding a relationship. I also got to learn somethings from certain people about this topic. I would love to share those learnings as well. To be very clear i am not talking about the blood relations here, but the relations developed between people out of love and fondness which may at times even lead to marraige. Many people believe that marriages are made in heaven. I don't think so. If it was made in heaven then it should be so divine and powerful that there is no scope of barrier forming between the two people in the near future. But that's not true. Neither every marraige nor every relationship is successful. If a relationship fails, it doesn't mean that every relationship will be a failure. According to me the most important attribute which is required for a long lasting and happy relationship is understanding. I used the word happy above because sometimes the relationships are surely long lasting but they aren't happy. It is very important for a person to understand what the other person's mindset is when he behaves in a certain way. We must try to keep ourselves in their shoes and think about their perspective. But this is not just a one way street. Both the individuals should be equally involved in the process. I have often seen that one person is trying their best to understand the other but the same amount of effort is not being made by the other. This may often lead to misunderstandings and even the one who was trying really hard gets tired takes really bad decisions. Both of them end up hurting each other in some way or the other.

Before committing to someone we should actually be complete and content within our ownself. I realised this that we should not be dependent on someone else for our own happiness. It's completely true that when you find someone with whom you connect in many ways, there is this constant thought or feeling that he/she might be the one who can make me happy. I heard somewhere "Relationship is not about you squeezing happiness out of someone else or someone else squeezing happiness out of you. It is when two happy people meet there is a great possibility of something wonderful happening between them " But when you think that you yourself are a misery and someone else should be the source of your happiness, well it will multiply. Problems and failures are part of everyone's life but we must rise from these failures like a Phoenix from the ashes and make our way towards our happiness and contentment. When we find that happiness within ourself, we pass on a positive energy which makes everyone around us happy.

One thing i would like to point out that finding happiness within ourselves doesn't mean that you shouldn't find a partner who can be with you in your joys and sorrows. Definently do it but don't completely rely on them or burden them with an expectation that they should be the ultimate source of your happiness. Be with someone with whom you can share all your happiness sorrows and enjoy your achievements. And do the same for them..Be a 50-50 partner for each other support each other and life will get really easy.

As i already told you i don't think relations are made in heaven, it is we who form a relationship who put our efforts to make something work..Just give your best in any relation and sooner or later you will surely get the most positive results in some way or the other. Whenever you meet someone and you think that think that you connect with them at some level, definitely try to know the person at the least. Even If nothing romantic happens, you might actually learn something from them or you may actually get a lifelong friend. The more we learn about different people and the more we learn about life a different way of looking at it.

Just love yourself first, be happy within then only you can love others ☺❤❤

I am surely not an expert on relationships but this is what i learned form different people and my own experiences and shared it with you all.

[anayka-agarwal]

Friends: Old & New

14/7/2020

I am posting a bit early today because i am keen to share some thoughts with you all.

Yesterday i had a chat with my friend after a really long time.

He told me something about an experience of his which sprouted up some thoughts in my mind and I thought of sharing them with you all.

This friend of mine told me he met someone who has somewhat the same likings as him. When he first met her they just had a casual conversation and slowly and eventually they started talking to each other and a friendship developed between them. They weren't the best of friends but they did spend some time talking to each other. My friend discovered that he had many things in common with her but he didn't bother to explore much about her personality. She on the other hand took the initiative to know him better and tried making conversations but at the end of the day she felt neglected and she got the vibe that he wasn't interested in talking or sharing anything significant with her . So after trying for a while,she started maintaining her distance as she didn't feel like bothering him anymore.My friend noticed that she was pulling away from him. He asked her the reason and got to know that his disinterest was the reason she did so. He wasn't doing it intentionally. He just didn't feel the need to include one more person in his life who could be close to him like his other friends. But when he realized that he was making someone feel neglected, he thought of giving her a chance, a chance to atleast know her better because in his heart he knew she was a good person and there is no harm in including another good person in your life.So he started sharing little things about his life , some of his deep thoughts to know her perspective about these things. So, the outcome of all this was that they both discovered that their thought process and value system was quite similar with each other and they started enjoying each other's company and this way one more great friend was added to his list of friends.

Listening to this story made me realize that there is no harm in including new people in your life. Your old friends will always hold a special place in your heart and noone can ever take their place. But this does not mean that you shouldn't allow new people to enter in your life. Even if you are including these people in your life but not giving them adequate attention or ignoring them then that too isn't fair to them. If you aren't able to make them a part of your life then don't give them a hope that they can be. Just let them go. But if you like that person and relate to them in some way then give them a chance. I know at first you will be hesitant to share important things about your life to someone new maybe because of fear of judgement or something else which might be preventing you to take that step. You should try just by sharing some little incident which is relevant in your life or some little problem, the solution of which you have still not found.There is no guarantee that you will still get the solution but atleast you will get an insight of how they think or perceive any situation. There is a possibility that your thought process might match with someone. Try sharing few of your deep thoughts and see if they are interested in talking about these things in the same manner as you do. Consider it an experiment - a trial and error method. Maybe someone suprises you. Maybe you find someone with whom you can share those deep thoughts or someone who has a similar thought process or a value system as you do. Maybe you find someone for whom you have been looking for since a long time.JUST MAYBE.

"अपनी जिंदगी का एक टुकड़ा चखा कर तो देखिए फिर क्या पता वह आपकी जिंदगी का एक अनमोल हिस्सा बन जाएं।"

Have you ever been neglected by someone or have you ever neglected someone knowingly or unknowingly? Tell me if you wish to😊👍

[anayka-agarwal]

[anayka-agarwal]

Sharing this because it gave me a positive feeling 💗

love is on its way to you.

good friends are on their way to you.

happy moments are on their way to you.

life is about to get so good.

[anayka-agarwal]

LGBT-are they humans too?🤔

I don't know what has gotten into me but i just feel like sharing some more thoughts..This time it's regarding our society.

One thing that really stuck my mind was how people think about trangenders or homosexual people.Why do they treat them as if they are not humans. We,as humans, should start accepting people the way they are especially when there is nothing they can do about the insecurities people have towards them. There is a mindset that only a male and female can fall in love or have a relationship. So when this mindset is challenged by the homosexual people,we refuse to even acknowledge the possibility that this could actually happen.We call it a 'sickness' or 'disease' but who are we to decide what qualifies as a sickness.Are we well qualified doctors or God himself? If no, then why do we judge people for the way they want to live their lives. They are not harming anyone then why the judgement...

I saw this movie few days ago " The imitation game" I know many of you must have seen it.So the movie was about the Germany-Britain war which took place in the 1940s,a mathematician named Alan turing played a significant role in this war.He decoded the encrypted messages send by the germans to each other regarding the war.He saved about 14 million lives by this act.But what does he get in return...a life of loneliness and a death sentence just because he was gay. He was given a choice to choose between imprisonment and harmonal therapy. Ofcourse he chose the latter. The medicines given to him were not treating him but were paralyzing him..We can only imagine what mental and physical trauma he must have gone through and eventually he committed suicide.All this was the punishment for being gay.

Well,many years have passed since this incident,still the situation is not quite different. There may not be much physical harm done to the LGBT community but the mental trauma given to them is limitless. They are bycotted by the society,they don't have equal opportunities for education, basic facilities etc. Even in this lockdown situation in our country(India), the food relief services are not reaching them in many areas because of lack of proper identification proof. Though a change is taking place , things are improving slowly but if everyone of us can just do our part then we could accelerate the pace of change. I know many of us can't do much financially or otherwise but one thing we all can do and that is to change the mindset of atleast one person about this community. Start from your homes.I am trying it at mine. I hope you do too. Educate your parents that these people are not freaks or abnormal but humans, just like us. One more thing i wanted to mention which has bothered me and that is i have heard people use the word 'hijda' as an abuse or in a derogatory manner..well it's not a bad word so guys whenever any of your friend or you yourself use this word in a derogatory manner just think that it's not a gaali but it is a person. Unknowingly we are disrepecting this community. And without thinking once that what ur friends will think if you just stop them from doing such things, we all can make a difference. I am gonna adapt this thing in my life.I hope you do too. Just break the stereotypes and normalize these things which are still awkward in our nation.JUST DO YOUR PART😊

If there are any suggestions or opinions which you guys would like to share, I welcome them because we all are here to learn🙂

[anayka-agarwal]

CRAZY THOUGHTS

Hello guys, it's my first day on tumblr.I got inspired by someone to express my feelings here because due to some reasons i don't have a person in my life with whom i could share these things.Well,i do have a sister who is really understanding and loves me to the core..but there are some thoughts which i am not comfortable to share with her because i don't want to bother her much. Since a long time my mind has been cluttered with thoughts-infinite thoughts..and i often speak to myself only about these thoughts. Most of the times i get into a conflict with myself. I am not able to decide which part of my mind is correct ..It feels like two persons are in an arguement with each other..It's very difficult for me to decide which part of me is correct because they both are right based on their perspectives.Well ,sometimes I choose the side which i think will be better for my mental well being and sometimes i don't choose at all.The question remains as it is in the back of my mind and i try to forget about it. Still the question remains and i want to get those answers. I know i will get them eventually.

So if any of you reads this, tell me if you ever felt the same way or is it just my conflicted mind😂..Do tell😊

Thanks🧡