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Sometimes not responding to any messages is already an answer

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“I am doing okay”

Everything feels good again. Everything feels calm. I haven’t felt that in a long time. It’s a unfamiliar and uninterrupted and unforgiving feeling. But, everything feels fine again, at least I think I know what ‘fine’ means. Just going with the flow. Just learning how to cope. Just putting on this show. Just trying not to feel broken inside. But I swear that everything is normal again and that I am doing okay. Some days I listen to myself and I think, it’s sad that your sadness is your identity, I then question myself naturally. What does it all mean? What does it mean to feel clean? How can I stop myself from wanting to scream? Too many thoughts. Too many opinions. Put it all on mute.

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maybe one day, I will be enough for someone.

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i'm stuck between "i want to continue" and "i want to give up"

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The BARE MINIMUM

Entering in a relationship is a big responsibilty. If you can't handle the bare minimum they ask for, then dont enter the relationship. Because no matter how busy you are, you will grab the opportunity to update.

Kaso hindi ganito ee. Yung tipong bareminimum na lang hindi pa maibigay. Kung gusto mo maexperience ang ibang bagay lalo na sa work mo, okay lang naman sakin ee. Support pa nga kita at masaya ako sa nangyayari sayo. Pero bakit hindi ko maramdaman ang assurance sayo? Bakit nakakaramdam ako ng pag ooverthink? Masyado ba malaki hinihingi ko sayo? Hindi na healthy ang nangyayari. Ako mismo sa sarili ko nararamdaman ko ang pagiging toxic ko na.

Bakit pakiramdam ko may iba na? Kahit na kinokontra ko ang naiisip ko na to kasi palagi kong sinasabi na imposible yon, pero hindi yon ang nararamdaman ko ee. Wala naman problema sakin kung hindi ka na okay satin. Maniwala ka o sa hindi, naiintindihan ko at kaya kong tanggapin. Isa lang naman gusto ko ee maging honest ka sakin na sabihin kung ano na ba nararamdaman mo.

Alam kong mahirap sayo kung ano tong satin. Hindi normal kagaya ng ibang relasyon. Gusto kong maging okay ka. Kahit kailan alam kong hindi ko maibibigay sayo ang mga bagay na yan. Never akong magiging better para sayo.

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Thank you tumblr! Safe place para masabi ang nararamdaman na walang ibang makakakita o makakaalam na kakilala. Mga panahon na ganito na hindi ko masabi o hindi ko pwede sabihin o may makakaalam, dito sa tumblr malayang nailalabas ang nararamdaman. Salamat

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Do you ever feel like no matter how much you connect with someone they will never be as attached to you as you are to them?

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my guilty pleasure is definitely breaking my own heart.

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Bad thoughts taking me down, there's nothing I can do.

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Being an overthinker has a lot of consequences. I swear it's a disease. (It might be but I surprisingly have not looked into it). You can have the greatest thoughts and basically build up your confidence but then that one thought... just that ONE FREAKING THOUGHT ruins it all. Turns your positivity into negativity.

I try.. I try so hard to not let it get bad and just try to go back to the good thoughts again but it isn't always easy. Thought you were making progress? PSYCH you're taking 5 steps back.

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I hate that I have to deal with things that aren’t my fault, and heal from the traumas that I’m not the cause.

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Been waiting for a prince but a princess came. 🌈

Hey love! 9 Months? Can you believe that? Started from a simple comment on Tiktok, now you're here with me fighting and laughing over little things every single day which makes our relationship stronger. I love who I am when i'm with you. I love our "MARITES" times and i appreciate you everyday. Thank you so much love sa lahat lahat. Sa pag help sakin sa pag-aaral ko kaya ko kinaya makatapos, sa pag-aalaga sakin, sa pag paparamdam ng mga bagay na sanay ako na ako ang gumagawa sa ibang tao. Sobrang sarap pala sa feeling nyan. At syempre sa pag accept sakin sa kung sino at ano ako. Noong una alam ko naman talaga na imposible ee lalo na alam kong straight ka talaga pero sino ba mag aakala na babaliko ka? Thank you sa pagpili mo na harapin ang tunay na nararamdaman mo kesa itago nalang dahil sa natatakot ka. Sabi ko naman sayo sumugal ka lang ipapanalo kita. You are the most annoying person I know in a fvcking good way! ANNOY ME TIL WE GROW OLD PLEASE! Mahal kita sobra! Mahal kita palagi! Mahal na mahal kita! Thank you sa pag take ng risk. Pangako ko sayo mahal hindi ka mag sisisi.

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We may be lost at some point of our relationship, angry at you most of the time but I would still paint new colors around those cracks that caused you of being broken, instead of covering it. Just to show you that beauty doesn't always have to be perfect.

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Being Alone Isn’t the Same as Being Lonely

Being alone isn’t a bad thing. It’s a good, necessary, healthy thing. It’s a time to reflect, to appreciate, to think, to create, to process your life. Reflection and synthesis of ideas is crucial to learning and growing, and for many people this can only be done when they are alone. Kierkegaard nails this with one of my favorite quotes: “Life can only be understood backwards, but it must be lived forwards.” Damn, Kierkegaard, I bet you spent a ton of time alone.

So why are we so damned afraid of being alone?

I saw someone post a photo on Facebook last night of themselves with a beer and the caption “Relaxing kailangan ko to ngayong gabi. Date muna kami ng sarili ko. The irony hurt. If you really want to be alone, WHY ARE YOU TELLING THE WHOLE WORLD, my brain yelled. Then I realized I knew the answer: this person is uncomfortable being alone on a tuesday night, and this is how they are trying to mitigate that discomfort.

They are seeing all of their friends posting photos of their fun nights out with dozens of people and having so much fun and internalizing all of this as something being wrong with them. Maybe they chose to be alone tonight, or maybe they got ditched by a friend, or maybe they wanted to go out and don’t really have any friends who wanted to go out with them, but, whatever the case, they were probably terrified they would slip from enjoying a night alone into being lonely on a Friday night. The first is good. The second is bad. And maybe a “like” or a reassuring comment would stave that off.

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There's an invisible barrier between us that made us cold and distant, until we were just hurting each other in the process

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DON’T WAIT FOR AN APOLOGY

If your friendship ended because the person treated you bad, was dishonest, or betrayed you in some way, you may feel that you are owed an apology. While this may be true, don’t wait around for an “I’m sorry,” as it likely won’t come. Waiting for an admission of fault only delays the end of the friendship, leaving you to stew in your bitterness in the meantime. If the apology never comes, you’ll likely be more hurt than you were before. Be the bigger person and move on from the situation – apology or no apology.

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A Cup of Words and Coffee🌆🛵☕